<h2><SPAN name="chap28"></SPAN>CHAPTER XXVIII.<br/> A FAST DAY</h2>
<p>The Good-Conduct Club had a special session the next morning before school.
After various suggestions, it was decided that a fast day would be an
appropriate punishment.</p>
<p>“We won’t eat a single thing for a whole day,” said Jerry.
“I’m kind of curious to see what fasting is like, anyhow. This will
be a good chance to find out.”</p>
<p>“What day will we choose for it?” asked Una, who thought it would
be quite an easy punishment and rather wondered that Jerry and Faith had not
devised something harder.</p>
<p>“Let’s pick Monday,” said Faith. “We mostly have a
pretty <i>filling</i> dinner on Sundays, and Mondays meals never amount to much
anyhow.”</p>
<p>“But that’s just the point,” exclaimed Jerry. “We
mustn’t take the easiest day to fast, but the hardest—and
that’s Sunday, because, as you say, we mostly have roast beef that day
instead of cold ditto. It wouldn’t be much punishment to fast from ditto.
Let’s take next Sunday. It will be a good day, for father is going to
exchange for the morning service with the Upper Lowbridge minister. Father will
be away till evening. If Aunt Martha wonders what’s got into us,
we’ll tell her right up that we’re fasting for the good of our
souls, and it is in the Bible and she is not to interfere, and I guess she
won’t.”</p>
<p>Aunt Martha did not. She merely said in her fretful mumbling way, “What
foolishness are you young rips up to now?” and thought no more about it.
Mr. Meredith had gone away early in the morning before any one was up. He went
without his breakfast, too, but that was, of course, of common occurrence. Half
of the time he forgot it and there was no one to remind him of it.
Breakfast—Aunt Martha’s breakfast—was not a hard meal to
miss. Even the hungry “young rips” did not feel it any great
deprivation to abstain from the “lumpy porridge and blue milk”
which had aroused the scorn of Mary Vance. But it was different at dinner time.
They were furiously hungry then, and the odor of roast beef which pervaded the
manse, and which was wholly delightful in spite of the fact that the roast beef
was badly underdone, was almost more than they could stand. In desperation they
rushed to the graveyard where they couldn’t smell it. But Una could not
keep her eyes from the dining room window, through which the Upper Lowbridge
minister could be seen, placidly eating.</p>
<p>“If I could only have just a weeny, teeny piece,” she sighed.</p>
<p>“Now, you stop that,” commanded Jerry. “Of course it’s
hard—but that’s the punishment of it. I could eat a graven image
this very minute, but am I complaining? Let’s think of something else.
We’ve just got to rise above our stomachs.”</p>
<p>At supper time they did not feel the pangs of hunger which they had suffered
earlier in the day.</p>
<p>“I suppose we’re getting used to it,” said Faith. “I
feel an awfully queer all-gone sort of feeling, but I can’t say I’m
hungry.”</p>
<p>“My head is funny,” said Una. “It goes round and round
sometimes.”</p>
<p>But she went gamely to church with the others. If Mr. Meredith had not been so
wholly wrapped up in and carried away with his subject he might have noticed
the pale little face and hollow eyes in the manse pew beneath. But he noticed
nothing and his sermon was something longer than usual. Then, just before he
gave out the final hymn, Una Meredith tumbled off the seat of the manse pew and
lay in a dead faint on the floor.</p>
<p>Mrs. Elder Clow was the first to reach her. She caught the thin little body
from the arms of white-faced, terrified Faith and carried it into the vestry.
Mr. Meredith forgot the hymn and everything else and rushed madly after her.
The congregation dismissed itself as best it could.</p>
<p>“Oh, Mrs. Clow,” gasped Faith, “is Una dead? Have we killed
her?”</p>
<p>“What is the matter with my child?” demanded the pale father.</p>
<p>“She has just fainted, I think,” said Mrs. Clow. “Oh,
here’s the doctor, thank goodness.”</p>
<p>Gilbert did not find it a very easy thing to bring Una back to consciousness.
He worked over her for a long time before her eyes opened. Then he carried her
over to the manse, followed by Faith, sobbing hysterically in her relief.</p>
<p>“She is just hungry, you know—she didn’t eat a thing
to-day—none of us did—we were all fasting.”</p>
<p>“Fasting!” said Mr. Meredith, and “Fasting?” said the
doctor.</p>
<p>“Yes—to punish ourselves for singing <i>Polly Wolly</i> in the
graveyard,” said Faith.</p>
<p>“My child, I don’t want you to punish yourselves for that,”
said Mr. Meredith in distress. “I gave you your little scolding—and
you were all penitent—and I forgave you.”</p>
<p>“Yes, but we had to be punished,” explained Faith.
“It’s our rule—in our Good-Conduct Club, you know—if we
do anything wrong, or anything that is likely to hurt father in the
congregation, we <i>have</i> to punish ourselves. We are bringing ourselves up, you
know, because there is nobody to do it.”</p>
<p>Mr. Meredith groaned, but the doctor got up from Una’s side with an air
of relief.</p>
<p>“Then this child simply fainted from lack of food and all she needs is a
good square meal,” he said. “Mrs. Clow, will you be kind enough to
see she gets it? And I think from Faith’s story that they all would be
the better for something to eat, or we shall have more faintings.”</p>
<p>“I suppose we shouldn’t have made Una fast,” said Faith
remorsefully. “When I think of it, only Jerry and I should have been
punished. <i>We</i> got up the concert and we were the oldest.”</p>
<p>“I sang <i>Polly Wolly</i> just the same as the rest of you,” said
Una’s weak little voice, “so I had to be punished, too.”</p>
<p>Mrs. Clow came with a glass of milk, Faith and Jerry and Carl sneaked off to
the pantry, and John Meredith went into his study, where he sat in the darkness
for a long time, alone with his bitter thoughts. So his children were bringing
themselves up because there was “nobody to do it”—struggling
along amid their little perplexities without a hand to guide or a voice to
counsel. Faith’s innocently uttered phrase rankled in her father’s
mind like a barbed shaft. There was “nobody” to look after
them—to comfort their little souls and care for their little bodies. How
frail Una had looked, lying there on the vestry sofa in that long faint! How
thin were her tiny hands, how pallid her little face! She looked as if she
might slip away from him in a breath—sweet little Una, of whom Cecilia
had begged him to take such special care. Since his wife’s death he had
not felt such an agony of dread as when he had hung over his little girl in her
unconsciousness. He must do something—but what? Should he ask Elizabeth
Kirk to marry him? She was a good woman—she would be kind to his
children. He might bring himself to do it if it were not for his love for
Rosemary West. But until he had crushed that out he could not seek another
woman in marriage. And he could not crush it out—he had tried and he
could not. Rosemary had been in church that evening, for the first time since
her return from Kingsport. He had caught a glimpse of her face in the back of
the crowded church, just as he had finished his sermon. His heart had given a
fierce throb. He sat while the choir sang the “collection piece,”
with his bent head and tingling pulses. He had not seen her since the evening
upon which he had asked her to marry him. When he had risen to give out the
hymn his hands were trembling and his pale face was flushed. Then Una’s
fainting spell had banished everything from his mind for a time. Now, in the
darkness and solitude of the study it rushed back. Rosemary was the only woman
in the world for him. It was of no use for him to think of marrying any other.
He could not commit such a sacrilege even for his children’s sake. He
must take up his burden alone—he must try to be a better, a more watchful
father—he must tell his children not to be afraid to come to him with all
their little problems. Then he lighted his lamp and took up a bulky new book
which was setting the theological world by the ears. He would read just one
chapter to compose his mind. Five minutes later he was lost to the world and
the troubles of the world.</p>
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