<h2>CHAPTER VIII</h2>
<div class='chaptertitle'>"SHADOWS OF THE WORLD APPEAR"</div>
<p><span class="smcap">The</span> long July days slipped by, and Lloyd, looking
back on them as Hildegarde looked into her
magic glass, saw only pleasant scenes mirrored in
their memory. The fortunate things, the smiling
faces, the pleasant happenings were hers, and for
a time even other people's troubles, those shadows
of the world that are always with us, left her daily
outlook undimmed.</p>
<p>Like Hildegarde, too, she went on with her
weaving, but wholly unconscious that the shuttle
of her thoughts was shaping her web to fit the
shoulders of the dark-eyed knight who came oftenest.
Mrs. Sherman saw it and was troubled.</p>
<p>"Jack," she said to her husband one afternoon,
when he had come out from town earlier than
usual, and they were wandering around the shady
grounds together, planning some improvements,
"I'm afraid those Spanish lessons are a mistake.<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_162" id="Page_162">[162]</SPAN></span>
Lloyd is seeing entirely too much of Mr. Harcourt.
He is here morning, noon and night."</p>
<p>Mr. Sherman gave a quick glance towards the
tennis court where the two were finishing a lively
game. "Don't you worry, Elizabeth," was his
placid answer. "It isn't as if she'd never been
used to such devotion. She's never known anything
else. Malcolm and Keith used to spend fully
as much time with her, and Rob Moore fairly lived
over here."</p>
<p>"Yes, but this is different," protested Mrs. Sherman.
"They were mere boys, and she dominated
them, but Leland Harcourt is a man, and an experienced
one socially, and he is dominating her. I can
see it in her quick deference to his opinions, and
her evident desire to please him. Not evident to
him, perhaps, but plain enough to me. I've been
thinking that it might be a good thing for us to
go to the springs for awhile or to the sea-shore or
some place where she'd meet other people. In a
quiet little country place like this a man like Leland
Harcourt looms up big on a young girl's horizon;
a girl just out of school, eager for new interests.
It isn't wise in us to allow her to be restricted just
to his society, when we could so easily give her the
safe-guard of contrasts."</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_163" id="Page_163">[163]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>Mr. Sherman looked down at his wife with an
indulgent smile.</p>
<p>"Don't you worry," he repeated. "Lloyd will
do a lot of romantic day-dreaming probably, but
she has my 'yard-stick' and I have her promise."</p>
<p>"But Jack, I verily believe the child thinks he
measures up to all your requirements. And really
there is nothing one can urge against his character.
It's more a matter of temperament. I am sure
she couldn't be happy with him. She's just at the
romantic age now to be very much impressed with
that kind of a man. If she were older she would
see his shallowness—his lack of purpose, his intense
selfishness. I don't think that we ought to
shut our eyes to the possible outcome of this constant
companionship we are allowing."</p>
<p>"Well," he answered hesitatingly, slow to acknowledge
his wife's distrust of Lloyd's judgment,
yet quick to see the wisdom of her point of view.
"Maybe you are right. But," he added wistfully,
"I had hoped to keep her home this summer. She
has been away at school so long—and she'll be
in town so much next winter if she makes her
début. Wait till I have had a talk with her before
you plan any trips."</p>
<p>"But don't you see," urged Mrs. Sherman, "it<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_164" id="Page_164">[164]</SPAN></span>
is something too intangible to discuss. To speak
to her about it now, to make any opposition to him
at all, may quicken her interest in him and make her
champion his cause. That would be fatal, and yet
it's just as dangerous to wait. Love at that age
is like a fog. It comes creeping up so gradually
that you don't realize what is enveloping you, till
you're completely lost in it, and all the rest of the
world shut out."</p>
<p>"You speak from experience?" he said teasingly.</p>
<p>"You know very well," she confessed laughingly,
"what a befogged state <i>I</i> was in. All papa's
breathing out of 'threatening and slaughter' didn't
make the slightest difference. I was blind and deaf
to everything but you. And I'd want Lloyd to be
the same," she added hastily, "if you were as unreasonable
as papa was then. But the circumstances
are too different to be compared. I'm simply warning
you that the Little Colonel's name was not
lightly given. She has not only all my determination
in her makeup, but her grandfather's as well."</p>
<p>Here the gardener met them, and the conversation
dropped. The next half hour was spent in
consultation over some changes to be made in the
conservatory.</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_165" id="Page_165">[165]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>When they went back to the house Leland Harcourt
had gone, and Lloyd was just stepping into
Doctor Shelby's buggy, which was drawn up in
front of the house. The old doctor waited for them
to come within hearing distance before he leaned
out and called:</p>
<p>"I'm just borrowing the Little Colonel for
awhile. There's a case over at Rollington that
needs the attention of her King's Daughters Circle,
and I'm taking her over to investigate it. We'll
be home before dark."</p>
<p>"All right," called Mr. Sherman, waving his hat
as Lloyd looked back at them with a smile and a
flutter of her handkerchief. During the winter
that Lloyd had joined the Circle, and in the summer
vacations following, it had been a matter of
frequent occurrence for the old doctor to take her
with him on such errands. Remembering how interested
Lloyd had become in many of the cases,
Mrs. Sherman breathed a sigh of thankfulness,
hoping that this might prove to be one that would
enlist her sympathies and occupy so much of her
time that it would make a serious break in the
Spanish lessons.</p>
<p>It had been a happy afternoon for Lloyd. If
she had stopped and tried to recall what made it so,<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_166" id="Page_166">[166]</SPAN></span>
she could not have mentioned any particular thing.
To be young and well and filled with the same glow
that made the summer day a joy was enough, but
to feel that some one whose opinion she valued
very much found her charming, and said so with
every glance of his dark eyes, was more than
enough. It made her cup of happiness complete
and brimmed it over.</p>
<p>The doctor was pouring out a tale of somebody's
woes, but the trace of a smile lingered on her lips
as she made a polite attempt to listen. She could
not quite shut out the thought of that last game
of tennis, and the trivial pleasantries that had gone
to make up the sum of her great content. There
was a dreamy, far-away look in her eyes as she
listened. The Spanish serenade that Leland Harcourt
had sung before he left kept repeating itself
over and over, a sort of undercurrent to what the
doctor was saying. She beat time to it with her
finger-tips on the side of the buggy. Once it rose
so insistently that she lost what the doctor was
saying, and came to herself with a start when a
familiar name arrested her attention.</p>
<p>"Ned Bannon's wife!" she repeated in astonishment.
"You suahly can't mean that it's Ida Shane<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_167" id="Page_167">[167]</SPAN></span>
who's sick ovah in that tumbledown cottage of the
McCarty's!"</p>
<p>"I surely do," he answered. "She didn't want
to come back to this part of the country, goodness
knows. She remembers what a commotion it
raised when she eloped from the Seminary with
Ned, five years ago. But Ned has scarcely drawn
a sober breath for the last year. She's sure of getting
needlework here, and with little Wardo to
consider there was nothing for her to do but put
her pride in her pocket and come."</p>
<p>"Little Wardo!" breathed Lloyd wonderingly.
The ride seemed full of surprises.</p>
<p>"Yes, she has a little son about four years old,
I judge. And it is on his account that I have
asked the help of the King's Daughters. He'll
have to be taken away from her till she's better,
for she is morbidly sensitive about keeping Ned's
failings from him. She has never allowed him to
find out that his father is a drunkard. She makes
a hero of him to the little fellow. Seems to think
that he'll blame her for giving him such a father
by marrying a man whom she had been warned
would bring her nothing but trouble and disgrace.
She's desperately ill, and of course in her weak<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_168" id="Page_168">[168]</SPAN></span>
condition she magnifies the matter. It has become
a mania with her."</p>
<p>"Poah Violet!" exclaimed Lloyd in distress,
her thoughts flying back to the scene in the school
orchard five years ago, when watching the glimmer
of the pearl on Ida's white hand in the moonlight
she had been thrilled by her whisper: "He says
that's what my life means to him—a pearl; and
that my influence can make him the man I want
him to be. Oh, Princess! I'd give my life to keep
him straight!"</p>
<p>Not even an echo of the serenade was in her
memory now. Her knowledge of Ida's nearness
seemed to bring her old school-friend actually before
her: the faint odour of violets, the shy glance
of her appealing violet eyes under the long lashes,
the bewitching dimple at the corner of her mouth,
the flash of her rings, the sweep of her long skirts,
the soft hair gleaming under the big-plumed picture
hat, more than all the air of romance and mystery
that surrounded her because of the pearl and the
secret engagement to her "Edwardo."</p>
<p>"I hadn't intended for her to see you," said the
doctor, when her exclamations and questions revealed
to him the intimacy that had once existed
between them. "But under the circumstances it<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_169" id="Page_169">[169]</SPAN></span>
will be the best thing I can do. I'll go in first and
prepare her for the meeting, however. She thinks
she hasn't a friend left on earth, on account of her
unhappy marriage. Everybody warned her against
it."</p>
<p>The front door stood open, and Lloyd sat down
on the broken step to wait. It seemed impossible
that she was going to find Ida, the embodiment of
daintiness and refinement, in this dilapidated old
place. The whitewash had long ago dropped in
scales from the rough walls. The window-panes
were broken, the shutters sagging, half the pickets
off the fence. Not a spear of grass ventured up
in the barren yard, where a rank unpruned peach-tree
struggled for its life in the baked earth. The
house stood so near the road that the thick summer
dust rolled in suffocatingly whenever a vehicle
passed.</p>
<p>"How can people exist in such an awful desolate,
forsaken spot?" she wondered, looking around with
a shudder of disgust. That Ida, dainty beauty-loving
Ida, who scorned everything that was common
and coarse, should be lying inside in that dark room
was more than she could believe.</p>
<p>A wagon rattled by, and she put her handkerchief
up to her face, stifled by the cloud of dust<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_170" id="Page_170">[170]</SPAN></span>
that rose in its wake. When she ventured to take
it down again and draw a long breath, a chubby,
barefooted child was standing in the path in front
of her, regarding her curiously. The wagon made
so much noise that she had not heard his bare feet
pattering around the house. She gave a little start
of surprise, then smiled at him, for he was an attractive
little fellow, despite the fact that his face
was smeared with the remains of the bread and
jam he had just been enjoying at one of the neighbours,
and his gingham apron was in rags. He
had caught it on the barb wire fence as he climbed
through.</p>
<p>As he smiled back at her shyly from under his
long lashes, Lloyd's interest quickened, for there
was no mistaking the likeness of those violet eyes
and the dimple that came at the corner of his cupid's
bow of a mouth. They were so like Ida's that she
smiled and said confidently, "You're Wardo.
Aren't you!"</p>
<p>He nodded gravely, then after another long
silent scrutiny, turned away to pour the sand out
of the old tin can he was carrying, in a pile under
the peach-tree. If it had not been for the jam and
the dirt Lloyd would have caught him up and
kissed him, he was such a dear little thing, with a<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_171" id="Page_171">[171]</SPAN></span>
thatch of short golden curls. But her fastidious
dislike of touching anything dirty made her draw
back. It was well for the furtherance of their acquaintance
that she did so. He was not accustomed
to caresses from strangers. He accepted her presence
on the door-step without question, and presently,
as the moments passed and she made no movement
towards him, he went up to her with friendly
curiosity.</p>
<p>"Is you got a sand-pile to your house?" he
asked.</p>
<p>"No," she confessed, feeling that he would consider
her lacking on that account and that she must
hasten to mention other attractions. "But I have
a red and green bird that can talk, and a little
black pony named 'Tarbaby.' It's so little that
there's nobody at my house now small enough to
ride it. So it stays all day long in the field and
eats grass."</p>
<p>"I'm little enough to ride it," he began confidently.</p>
<p>Just then the doctor came out, and she sprang
up, her heart throbbing. "I'm going now for the
nurse," he said in a low tone. "She's due on the
next train. Keep her as quiet as possible. Of
course you'll have to let her free her mind, but<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_172" id="Page_172">[172]</SPAN></span>
promise her almost anything to soothe her. I'll
be back in quarter of an hour."</p>
<p>Frightened at being left alone with such a weight
of responsibility thrust upon her, Lloyd tiptoed
into the house. In the dim light she almost stumbled
over the cot on which Ned Bannon lay in a
drunken stupor, and her first glance at the bed beyond
made her draw back in dismay. She never
would have recognized the white face on the pillow
as Ida's, had it not been for the appealing eyes
turned towards her.</p>
<p>Five years of poverty and illness and neglect had
changed the pretty little school-girl into a faded,
care-worn woman. She had been crying ever since
she was taken sick, and now was so weak and
hysterical that she caught at Lloyd with a cry, and
clung to her sobbing.</p>
<p>"Oh, it kills me to have you find me this way!"
she gasped, "when I've tried so long to hide what
we've come to. But I'm glad you've come, for the
baby's sake! Oh, Lloyd, what's going to become of
my little Wardo!"</p>
<p>It was several minutes before she could talk coherently,
and then she began to sob out the story
of her married life, her miserable failure to reform
Ned. Lloyd tried to stop her presently, thinking<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_173" id="Page_173">[173]</SPAN></span>
she was becoming delirious, but she might as well
have tried to stop a high tide.</p>
<p>"Oh, I have been so proud!" she sobbed. "I
couldn't tell anybody. I couldn't tell you now if
I wasn't afraid that I might die, like that poor
woman across the street last night. She's left five
little children. But I can't leave my little Wardo
like that!" she broke out desperately. "I <i>know</i> he
has inherited Ned's awful appetite. I must stay
and help him fight it, <i>for it's all my fault</i>. I gave
him such a father. A father that he can never be
proud of! A father that will be only a disgrace
to him! Oh, why didn't somebody warn me that
it was not only a husband I was choosing but my
little Wardo's father! Nobody ever told me <i>that</i>,
and I was so young I never thought of any one but
myself. And now the poor little innocent soul will
have to suffer for it all his life long!"</p>
<p>She was throwing herself about so wildly that
Lloyd was frightened, and rose from her chair to
call one of the neighbours. But she could not break
away. Ida caught at her dress and held her fast
in her frenzied clasp.</p>
<p>"But I tell you I won't let him grow up to be
like that!" she cried with her eyes glaring wildly
at the drunken man on the cot across the room.<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_174" id="Page_174">[174]</SPAN></span>
"I'll kill him with my own hands first, while he
is little and good. God would understand, wouldn't
he? He couldn't blame me for trying to save my
baby! But if he did I'd have to do it anyway. I'd
have to do it and take the punishment. I can't have
my little Wardo grow up to be like <i>that</i>."</p>
<p>The sound of his name brought the child to the
door. He came pattering in, and climbing up on
the bed beside his mother, stroked her face with his
dirty little dimpled hand. The soft touch quieted
Ida in an instant, and with an effort to speak calmly
she looked up at Lloyd.</p>
<p>"The doctor said the baby must go away for
awhile, for fear of the fever. But I can't give him
up to just anybody, Lloyd. The neighbours have
been good and kind, but I'm afraid he might find
out from some of the children about Ned—you
know. But with you—Oh, Lloyd, would it be
asking too much if—"</p>
<p>She stopped with her question half uttered, but
the imploring look in her eyes was a prayer that
Lloyd could not resist, and she held out her
arms toward the little figure cuddled up on the
bed.</p>
<p>"I'll take him till you're better," she promised
impulsively.</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_175" id="Page_175">[175]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>The tears welled up in Ida's eyes again. She was
so weak the least thing started them.</p>
<p>"He's never been away from me a single night
in his life," she said brokenly. "I couldn't give
him up to anybody but you." Then seeing the
frightened look that crept into the child's face as
he listened to the conversation which he but half
understood, she wiped her eyes and smiled at him
tremulously.</p>
<p>"Dear little son, you want to help mother get
well, don't you, lamb? Then go with mother's
dearest friend for awhile. She'll take care of you
while the good doctor makes me well. And she'll
tell you stories and make you have such a happy
time."</p>
<p>"And let you ride on the black pony," broke in
Lloyd eagerly, anxious to clear away the troubled
pucker on the child's face that came at mention of
a separation.</p>
<p>"An' hear the wed and gween bird talk!" he
added himself, his face lighting up at the thought.
Then he laid his plump little hand on Ida's hot
cheek to compel her attention. It was a gesture
she loved, and she kissed his fingers passionately
as he said with an eager voice, "She has a bird<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_176" id="Page_176">[176]</SPAN></span>
that can talk, muv'ah. I'll go and hear what it
says an' n'en I'll come back an' tell you."</p>
<p>Evidently his idea of separation was based on
the length of the neighbourhood visits he had made,
and he accepted Lloyd's invitation willingly, expecting
a speedy return.</p>
<p>"Let's go wite away, Dea'st Fwend," he exclaimed,
wriggling down off the bed. "I'll get
my hat."</p>
<p>If anything had been needed to complete Lloyd's
surrender to the little fellow's charms, it was the
sweet way in which he gave her the title "Dearest
Friend." That was what his mother had called
her, and he thought it was her name. She caught
him up and kissed him, despite the jam streaks and
the dirt.</p>
<p>"Come on and have yoah face washed and yoah
curls brushed, so we'll be all ready when the buggy
comes back," she said, hurrying to make him presentable
before his mood could change.</p>
<p>As she gathered his clothes together and packed
them for the short journey in a dress box which
she found under the bed, it made an ache grip
her throat to see how Ida had thrown the shield
of her mother-love around him in every way possible.
There was no mark of poverty here. She<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_177" id="Page_177">[177]</SPAN></span>
had cut up her own clothes, relics of a happier time,
to make the little linen suits that were so pretty
and becoming. No child in the Valley was better
clad, or looked so much like a little aristocrat, as
long as she was able to give him her daily attention.</p>
<p>He was so accustomed to being washed and
brushed and dressed that he made no objection to
what most children of that age consider an unnecessary
process, and when Lloyd went about it with
unpractised fingers, he gravely corrected her mistakes,
and laughed when she made a play of the
buttonholes being hungry mouths, that swallowed
the buttons in a hurry. Never in her life had she
exerted herself so much to be entertaining, for she
wanted to take him away without a scene. She
wanted, too, for him to look his best, that he might
win his own way at The Locusts. She thought
with a trifle of uneasiness that her impulsive act
might not meet her family's entire approval.</p>
<p>Ida's separation from him was a painful one,
for she realized her condition, and knew that it was
possible that this might be her last sight of him.
As Lloyd turned away with her parting cry ringing
in her ears, "Oh, be good to him! Be good to
him!" a great tenderness sprang up in her heart
for the child who put his hand in hers so trustingly,<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_178" id="Page_178">[178]</SPAN></span>
and trotted away beside her obediently at his mother's
bidding. At the cot he stopped to clamber up
and kiss the red face, burrowed down in the pillows
in a sodden sleep. "My poor farvah's sick
too," he explained looking up at her, as if bespeaking
sympathy for him also.</p>
<p>Once in the buggy, while they waited for the
doctor to unfasten the hitch-rein, he reached up
and put his hand on her cheek in his baby fashion
to ask her a question. The touch brought the tears
to her eyes, it was so confiding, and she was still
so shaken by the scene she had just witnessed. In
a great throb of tenderness for the helpless little
body given over to her care, she drew him closer,
with a hasty kiss on the top of his curly head.</p>
<p>"Dea'st Fwend," he said, smiling up at her as
if he understood the reason of her sudden caress.
Then he cuddled his head against her shoulder in
a satisfied way, saying, "Tell me again what the
wed and gween bird says."</p>
<p>As they drove in at the entrance gate to The
Locusts, Lloyd recalled an experience she had not
thought of in years; an autumn day, when only a
baby herself, not yet six, she had been left to make
her way alone up this same avenue. She had never
spent a night away from her mother, and she was<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_179" id="Page_179">[179]</SPAN></span>
to stay a week alone with her grandfather, who did
not know how to sing her to sleep and kiss her eye-lids
down so she wouldn't be afraid of the black
shadows in the corners. Here by this very gate
she had stood, assailed by such a great ache of
loneliness and homesickness that she was sure she
would die if she had to endure it another moment.
And there was the spot where, rustling around in
the dead leaves, Fritz had found the little gray
glove her mother had dropped when she stooped
to kiss her good-bye.</p>
<p>As she remembered how she had carried that
glove, all week, rolled up in a little wad in her
pocket, to help her to be good and not to cry, she
resolved that Wardo should not have the same experience
if any effort of hers could prevent it. She
would devote her time to him night and day and
keep him so happily employed, there would be no
time for "the sorry feelin's" that had been her
childish undoing. There was no care or accustomed
tenderness he should miss.</p>
<p>It was nearly dark when she reached home, and
so afraid was she that the nightfall itself would
make Wardo homesick, that she began to provide
for his entertainment even before she made any
explanation to her astonished family.</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_180" id="Page_180">[180]</SPAN></span></p>
<div class="figright"> <ANTIMG src="images/i005.jpg" width-obs="379" height-obs="475" alt="feeding the bird" /> <span class="caption">"FOR ONCE THE RED AND GREEN BIRD WAS ON ITS GOOD BEHAVIOUR."</span></div>
<p>"Oh, Papa Jack," she called. "Please find the
parrot right away for Wardo to see, then I'll
explain everything."</p>
<p>For once the red and green bird was on its good
behaviour, and began to show off as soon as it was
brought to the front. While Wardo watched it,
wide-eyed and absorbed, Lloyd gave an excited
and tearful account of her visit to Ida. The old
Colonel said something about the fever and the
danger of infection, but when she had finished her
story nobody else had the heart to show displeasure
at what she had done.</p>
<p>"And I won't let him be a trouble to anybody!"
she added. "I'll take care of him every bit myself,
and keep him out of the way."</p>
<p>As Mrs. Sherman watched her leading the child
up-stairs, talking to him at every step to keep his
thoughts diverted from home, and then heard her
giving orders to Walker about her old high chair
and little white crib to be brought down from the
attic, she turned to Mr. Sherman with a sigh of
relief.</p>
<p>"She's found her own antidote for the Spanish
lessons, Jack. We won't have to go away to the
springs or the mountains now, I'm sure."</p>
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