<h2 id="c10"><br/>CHAPTER X <br/><span class="sc">Esther’s Old Home</span></h2>
<p>However, of all the Sunrise Camp
Fire club it was Esther Clark
who actually had the strangest
Christmas eve experience. Betty had
rather opposed her going over to the
orphan asylum for a last rehearsal of her
song with Herr Crippen. It was not
really necessary, for Esther knew her song
as well as she ever would be able to learn
it and could only fail in her singing of it on
Christmas night should her audience happen
to frighten her voice away. Nevertheless,
Esther had a kind of sentiment in seeing
her old friends at the asylum on Christmas
eve, since this was the first year that she
could remember when her Christmas had
not been spent with them, and there would
be no opportunity for visiting the next day.</p>
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<p>For some reason or other, which Esther
had never had satisfactorily explained to
her, she had been kept longer at the orphan
asylum than any of the other children.
Indeed she was sixteen, almost seventeen,
in the spring before when Mrs. Ashton
had persuaded the superintendent to let
her try the experiment of having Esther
as her daughter Betty’s companion. Ordinarily
the children were sent away to live
and work in other people’s homes when
they were thirteen or fourteen; many of
them were adopted by the farmers in the
surrounding neighborhood when they were
almost babies, so that Esther naturally
felt her obligation to be the deeper. Notwithstanding
she was not thinking a great
deal about her former lonely life at the
asylum, nor even of the queer German violinist’s
interest in her voice, as she drove
Fire Star over the now familiar road. Both
her mind and heart were heavy with the
news Dick Ashton had been able to whisper
to her in a few hurried moments when they
had been alone in the cabin that morning
soon after Dick’s arrival. Mr. Ashton
had lost not merely a small sum of money
which might cause him temporary inconvenience,
as Betty imagined. He had had
such serious losses that Dick’s mother had
written begging him and Betty to cut down
their living expenses as closely as possible.
And some one had to tell Betty. Dick
was not a coward; in making his confidence
he simply wondered if Esther would not
be able to console his sister afterwards and
to explain conditions to her better than
he could, because Betty never had seemed
able to understand any question of money
matters however much she seemed to try.
The actual facts he himself would tell her
as soon as the holiday season had passed.</p>
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<p>There was one way in which Betty could
save money, Esther decided. She should
no longer pay for her singing lessons.
Indeed she would ask the German violinist
that morning if there were not some way
by which she could help him, by playing his
accompaniments, perhaps, if he succeeded
in getting up a violin class in Woodford.
Anyhow she would earn the money for her
own lessons in some way, for, unselfish as
Esther was, her music lessons meant too
much to her, were too important to her
future, even to think of giving them up
altogether.</p>
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<p>The professor was waiting for her in the
big, bare, ugly parlor of the asylum which,
however, possessed the glory of a not
utterly impossible piano. Nevertheless,
Esther only waved her hand to him as she
passed the door on the way to her older
friends. She was thinking that he looked
older, poorer and homelier than ever with
his red hair, his spectacled, pale blue eyes
and his worn clothes. He had a little sprig
of holly in his buttonhole, in a determined
German effort to be a part of the
prevailing Christmas cheerfulness.</p>
<p>Then, half an hour later, Esther sang her
song straight through without hesitation
or a single mistake to the elderly German’s
way of thinking. For when she had finished
he looked at her speechless for a moment,
and then taking off his spectacles wiped
away a kind of mist from his glasses.
“Ach, my dear young Fräulein, you haf
the great thing I hoped for through all my
youth and then gave up when the years
found me—an almost big violinist—das
Talent! Was ist es in English, genius,
nicht wahr?” And then, with Esther blushing
until the burning in her throat and
cheeks was almost painful, and twisting
her big hands together in the ungainly
fashion Betty had almost broken her of,
he went on, seemingly unconscious of her
presence. “I am that thing you call a
failure, but I used to dream I might haf
a child who some day would go farther than
I was able and then when I had to gif up
this also—Ach, Himmel!”</p>
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<p>To Esther’s great embarrassment Herr
Crippen then began sobbing in a most un-American
fashion. “It was my own fault.
I should never haf gone away, I——”</p>
<p>But whatever else he may have poured
forth in his present state of emotion was
heard only by the four walls of the room,
for Esther, in utter consternation, slipped
out, hurrying toward the small study in
the rear of the house where she knew she
would find her old friend, the superintendent,
at work. She told him rather shyly of
her unceremonious leave taking, asking him
to make her apologies to Herr Crippen and
to beg him to come early to their Christmas
entertainment the next night. Then, when
she had put out her hand for farewell,
quite unexpectedly the superintendent asked
her to sit down again, saying that he
would like to tell her Herr Crippen’s story
and the reason he had come into their
neighborhood, since possibly she might
be able to assist him.</p>
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<p>Afterwards for more than an hour Esther
listened to a most surprising narrative and
later on drove back to Sunrise cabin
puzzled, thoughtful and just the least
shade frightened and unhappy. However,
she made up her mind not to let anything
trouble her until after their wonderful
Christmas had passed.</p>
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