<h2>20</h2>
<p>Pilch was silent for some moments again, considering
the wall-screen as if thinking about something
connected with it. "Well, we'll drop that for
now," she said finally. "Let me tell you what's
been happening these months, starting with that
first <ins class="typo" title="Transcriber's Note: 'amensia' in the original text.">amnesia</ins>-covered blankout on Harvest Moon.
The Maccadon Colonial School has sound basic
psychology courses, so there won't be much explaining
to do. The connection between those
incidents I mentioned and your earlier feeling of
disliking plasmoids is obvious, isn't it?"</p>
<p>Trigger nodded.</p>
<p>"Good. When you got the first Service check-up
at Commissioner Tate's demand, there was
very little to go on. The <ins class="typo" title="Transcriber's Note: 'amensia' in the original text.">amnesia</ins> didn't lift
immediately—not very unusual. The blankout
might be interesting because of the circumstances.
Otherwise the check showed you
were in a good deal better than normal condition.
Outside of total therapy processes—and I believe
you know that's a long haul—there wasn't much
to be done for you, and no particular reason to do
it. So an <ins class="typo" title="Transcriber's Note: 'amensia' in the original text.">amnesia</ins>-resolving process was initiated
and you were left alone for a while.</p>
<p>"Actually something already was going on at
the time, but it wasn't spotted until your next
check. What it's amounted to has been a relatively
minor but extremely precise and apparently purposeful
therapy process. Your unconscious
memories of those groupings of incidents I was
talking about, along with various linked groupings,
have gradually been cleared up. Emotion
has been drained away, fixed evaluations have
faded. Associative lines have shifted.</p>
<p>"Now that's nothing remarkable in itself. Any
good therapist could have done the same for you,
and much more rapidly. Say in a few hours' hard
work, spread over several weeks to permit progressive
assimilation without conscious disturbances.
The <i>very</i> interesting thing is that this orderly
little process appears to have been going on
all by itself. And that just doesn't happen. You
disturbed now?"</p>
<p>Trigger nodded. "A little. Mainly I'm wondering
why somebody wants me to not-dislike plasmoids."</p>
<p>"So am I wondering," said Pilch. "Somebody
does, obviously. And a very slick somebody it is.
We'll find out by and by. Incidentally, this particular
part of the business has been concluded.
Apparently, somebody doesn't intend to make
you wild for plasmoids. It's enough that you don't
dislike them."</p>
<p>Trigger smiled. "I can't see anyone making me
wild for the things, whatever they tried!"</p>
<p>Pilch nodded. "Could be done," she said.
"Rather easily. You'd be bats, of course. But
that's very different from a simple neutralizing
process like the one we've been discussing....
Now here's something else. You were pretty unhappy
about this business for a while. That wasn't
somebody's fault. That was us. I'll explain.</p>
<p>"Your investigators could have interfered with
the little therapy process in a number of ways.
That wouldn't have taught them a thing, so they
didn't. But on your third check they found something
else. Again it wasn't in the least obtrusive;
in someone else they mightn't have given it a
second look. But it didn't fit at all with your major
personality patterns. You wanted to stay where
you were."</p>
<p>"Stay where I was?"</p>
<p>"In the Manon System."</p>
<p>"Oh!" Trigger flushed a little. "Well—"</p>
<p>"I know. Let's go on a moment. We had this
inharmonious inclination. So we told Commissioner
Tate to bring you to the Hub and keep you
there, to see what would happen. And on Maccadon,
in just a few weeks, you'd begun working
that moderate inclination to be back in the Manon
System up to a dandy first-rate compulsion."</p>
<p>Trigger licked her lips. "I—"</p>
<p>"Sure," said Pilch. "You had to have a good
sensible reason. You gave yourself one."</p>
<p>"Well!"</p>
<p>"Oh, you were fond of that young man, all right.
Who wouldn't be? Wonderful-looking lug. I'd go
for him myself—till I got him on that couch, that
is. But that was the first time you hadn't been able
to stand a couple of months away from him. It was
also the first time you'd started worrying about
competition. You now had your justification. And
we," Pilch said darkly, "had a fine, solid compulsion
with no doubt very revealing ramifications to
it to work on. Just one thing went wrong with that,
Trigger. You don't have the compulsion any
more."</p>
<p>"Oh?"</p>
<p>"You don't even," said Pilch, "have the original
moderate inclination. Now one might have some
suspicions there! But we'll let them ride for the
moment."</p>
<p>She did something on the desk. The huge wall-screen
suddenly lit up. A soft, amber-glowing
plane of blankness, with a suggestion of receding
depths within it.</p>
<p>"Last night, shortly before you woke up," Pilch
said, "you had a dream. Actually you had a series
of eight dreams during the night which seem pertinent
here. But the earlier ones were rather vague
preliminary structures. In one way and another,
their content is included in this final symbol
grouping. Let's see what we can make of them."</p>
<p>A shape appeared on the screen.</p>
<p>Trigger started, then laughed.</p>
<p>"What do you think of it?" Pilch asked.</p>
<p>"A little green man!" she said. "Well, it could
be a sort of counterpart to the little yellow thing
on the ship, couldn't it? The good little dwarf and
the very bad little dwarf."</p>
<p>"Could be," said Pilch. "How do you feel about
the notion?"</p>
<p>"Good plasmoids and bad plasmoids?" Trigger
shook her head. "No. It doesn't feel right."</p>
<p>"What else feels right?" Pilch asked.</p>
<p>"The farmer. The little old man who owned the
farm where the mud pond was."</p>
<p>"Liked him, didn't you?"</p>
<p>"Very much! He knew a lot of fascinating
things." She laughed again. "You know, I'd hate
to have him find out—but that little green man
also reminds me quite a bit of Commissioner
Tate."</p>
<p>"I don't think he'd mind hearing it," Pilch said.
She paused a moment. "All right—what's this?<ins class="typo" title="Transcriber's Note: quotation mark missing in the original text.">"</ins></p>
<p>A second shape appeared.</p>
<p>"A sort of caricature of a wild, mean horse,"
Trigger said. She added thoughtfully, "there was
a horse like that on that farm, too. I suppose you
know that?"</p>
<p>"Yes. Any thoughts about it?"</p>
<p>"No-o-o. Well, one. The little farmer was the
only one who could handle that horse. It was
mutated horse, actually—one of the Life Bank
deals that didn't work out so well. Enormously
strong. It could work forty-eight hours at a stretch
without even noticing it. But it was just a plain
mean animal."</p>
<p>"'Crazy-mean,'" observed Pilch, "was the
dream feeling about it."</p>
<p>Trigger nodded. "I remember I used to think it
was crazy for that horse to want to go around
kicking and biting things to pieces. Which was
about all it really wanted to do. I imagine it was
crazy, at that."</p>
<p>"You weren't ever in any danger from it yourself,
were you?"</p>
<p>Trigger laughed. "I couldn't have got anywhere
near it! You should have seen the kind of place the
old farmer kept it when it wasn't working."</p>
<p>"I did," said Pilch. "Long, wide, straight-walled
pit in the ground. Cover for shade, plenty
of food, running water. He was a good farmer.
Very high locked fence around it to keep little
girls and anyone else from getting too close to his
useful monster."</p>
<p>"Right," said Trigger. She shook her head.
"When you people look into somebody's mind,
you look!"</p>
<p>"We work at it," Pilch said. "Let's see what you
can do with this one."</p>
<p>Trigger was silent for almost a minute before
she said in a subdued voice, "I just get what it
shows. It doesn't seem to mean anything?"</p>
<p>"What does it show?"</p>
<p>"Laughing giants stamping on a farm. A tiny
sort of farm. It looks like it might be the little green
man's farm. No, wait. It's not his! But it belongs to
other little green people."</p>
<p>"How do you feel about that?"</p>
<p>"Well—I hate those giants!" Trigger said.
"They're cruel. And they laugh about being
cruel."</p>
<p>"Are you afraid of them?"</p>
<p>Trigger blinked at the screen for a few seconds.
"No," she said in a low, sleepy voice. "Not yet."</p>
<p>Pilch was silent a moment. She said then, "One
more."</p>
<p>Trigger looked and frowned. Presently she said,
"I have a feeling that does mean something. But
all I get is that it's the faces of two clocks. On one
of them the hands are going around very fast. And
on the other they go around slowly."</p>
<p>"Yes," Pilch said. She waited a little. "No other
thought about those clocks? Just that they should
mean something?"</p>
<p>Trigger shook her head. "That's all."</p>
<p>Pilch's hand moved on the desk again. The
wall-screen went blank, and the light in the little
room brightened slowly. Pilch's face was reflective.</p>
<p>"That will have to do for now," she said. "Trigger,
this ship is working on an urgent job somewhere
else. We'll have to go back and finish that
job. But I'll be able to return to Manon in about ten
days, and then we'll have another session. And I
think that will get this little mystery cleared up."</p>
<p>"All of it?"</p>
<p>"All of it, I'd say. The whole pattern seems to be
moving into view. More details will show up in
the ten-day interval; and one more cautious boost
then should bring it out in full."</p>
<p>Trigger nodded. "That's good news. I've been
getting a little fed up with being a kind of walking
enigma."</p>
<p>"Don't blame you at all," Pilch said, sounding
almost exactly like Commissioner Tate. "Incidentally,
you're a busy lady at present, but if you do
have half an hour to spare from time to time, you
might just sit down comfortably somewhere and
listen to yourself thinking. The way things are
going, that should bring quite a bit of information
to view."</p>
<p>Trigger looked doubtful. "Listen to myself
thinking?"</p>
<p>"You'll find yourself getting the knack of it
rather quickly," Pilch said. She smiled. "Just head
off in that general direction whenever you find
the time, and don't work too hard at it. Are there
any questions now before we start back to Manon?"</p>
<p>Trigger studied her a moment. "There's one
thing I'd like to be sure about," she said. "But I
suppose you people have your problems with
Security too."</p>
<p>"Who doesn't?" said Pilch. "You're secure
enough for me. Fire away."</p>
<p>"All right," Trigger said. "Commissioner Tate
told me people like you don't work much with
individuals."</p>
<p>"Not as much as we'd like to. That's true."</p>
<p>"So you wouldn't have been working with me if
whatever has been going on weren't somehow
connected with the plasmoids."</p>
<p>"Oh, yes, I would," said Pilch. "Or old Cranadon.
Someone like that. We do give service as
required when somebody has the good sense to
ask for it. But obviously, we couldn't have
dropped that other job just now and come to
Manon to clear up some individual difficulty."</p>
<p>"So I am involved with the plasmoid mess?"</p>
<p>"You're right in the middle of it, Trigger. That's
definite. In just what way is something we should
be able to determine next session."</p>
<p>Pilch turned off the desk light and stood up. "I
always hate to run off and leave something half
finished like this," she admitted, "but I'll have to
run anyway. The plasmoids are nowhere near the
head of the Federation's problem list at present.
They're just coming up mighty fast."</p>
<p>When Trigger reached her office next morning,
she learned that the Psychology Service ship had
moved out of the Manon area within an hour after
she'd been returned to the Headquarters dome the
night before.</p>
<p>None of the members of the plasmoid team were
around. The Commissioner, who had a poor opinion
of sleep, had been up for the past three hours;
he'd left word Trigger could reach him, if necessary,
in the larger of his two ships, parked next to
the dome in Precol Port. Presumably he had the
ship sealed up and was sitting in the transmitter
cabinet, swapping messages with the I-Fleets in
the Vishni area. He was likely to be at that for
hours more. Professor Mantelish hadn't yet got
back from his latest field trip, and Major Heslet
Quillan just wasn't there.</p>
<p>It looked, Trigger decided, not at all reluctantly,
like a good day to lean into her Precol job a bit. She
told the staff to pitch everything not utterly routine
her way, and leaned.</p>
<p>A set of vitally important reports from Precol's
Giant Planet Survey Squad had been mislaid
somewhere around Headquarters during yesterday's
conferences. She soothed down the G P
Squad and instituted a check search. A team of
Hub ecologists, who had decided for themselves
that outworld booster shots weren't required on
Manon, called in nervously from a polar station to
report that their hair was falling out. Trigger
tapped the "Manon Fever" button on her desk,
and suggested toupees.</p>
<p>The ecologists were displeased. A medical
emergency skip-boat zoomed out of the dome to
go to their rescue; and Trigger gave it its directions
while dialing for the medical checker who'd
allowed the visitors to avoid their shots. She had a
brief chat with the young man, and left him
twitching as the G P Squad came back on to inquire
whether the reports had been found yet.
Trigger began to get a comfortable feeling of being
back in the good old groove.</p>
<p>Then a message from the Medical Department
popped out on her desk. It was addressed to
Commissioner Tate and stated that Brule Inger
was now able to speak again.</p>
<p>Trigger frowned, sighed, bit her lip and thought
a moment. She dialed for Doctor Leehaven. "Got
your message," she said. "How's he doing?"</p>
<p>"All right," the old medic said.</p>
<p>"Has he said anything?"</p>
<p>"No. He's scared. If he could get up the courage,
he'd ask for a personnel lawyer."</p>
<p>"Yes, I imagine. Tell him this then—from the
Commissioner; not from me—there'll be no
charges, but Precol expects his resignation, end of
the month."</p>
<p>"That on the level?" Doctor Leehaven demanded
incredulously.</p>
<p>"Of course."</p>
<p>The doctor snorted. "You people are getting
soft-headed! But I'll tell him."</p>
<p>The morning went on. Trigger was suspiciously
studying a traffic control note stating that
a Devagas missionary ship had checked in and
berthed at the spaceport when the G C Center's
management called in to report, with some nervousness,
that the Center's much advertised
meteor-repellent roof had just flipped several
dozen tons of falling Moon Belt material into the
spaceport area. Most of it, unfortunately, had
dropped around and upon a Devagas missionary
ship.</p>
<p>"Not damaged, is it?" she asked.</p>
<p>The Center said no, but the Missionary Captain
insisted on speaking to the person in charge here.
To whom should they refer him?</p>
<p>"Refer him to me," Trigger said expectantly.
She switched on the vision screen.</p>
<p>The Missionary Captain was a tall, gray-haired,
gray-eyed, square-jawed man in uniform. After
confirming to his satisfaction that Trigger was
indeed in charge, he informed her in chilled tones
that the Devagas Union would hold her personally
responsible for the unprovoked outrage unless
an apology was promptly forthcoming.</p>
<p>Trigger apologized promptly. He acknowledged
with a curt nod.</p>
<p>"The ship will now require new spacepaint,"
he pointed out, <ins class="typo" title="Transcriber's Note: 'unmollifed' in the original text.">unmollified</ins>.</p>
<p>Trigger nodded. "We'll send a work squad out
immediately."</p>
<p>"We," the Missionary Captain said, "shall
supervise the work. Only the best grade of paint
will be acceptable!"</p>
<p>"The very best only," Trigger agreed.</p>
<p>He gave her another curt nod, and switched off.</p>
<p>"Ass," she said. She cut in the don't-disturb
barrier and dialed Holati's ship.</p>
<p>It took a while to get through; he was probably
busy somewhere in the crate. Like Belchik Pluly,
the Commissioner, while still a very wealthy man,
would have been a very much wealthier one if it
weren't for his hobby. In his case, the hobby was
ships, of which he now owned two. What made
them expensive was that they had been tailor-made
to the Commissioner's specifications, and
his specifications had provided him with two
rather exact duplicates of the two types of Scout
fighting ships in which Squadron Commander
Tate had made space hideous for evildoers in the
good old days. Nobody as yet had got up the
nerve to point out to him that private battlecraft
definitely were not allowable in the Manon System.</p>
<p>He came on finally. Trigger told him about the
Devagas. "Did you know those characters were in
the area?" she asked.</p>
<p>The Commissioner knew. They'd stopped in at
the system check station three days before. The
ship was clean. "Their missionaries all go armed,
of course; but that's their privilege by treaty.
They've been browsing around and going hither
and yon in skiffs. The ship's been in orbit till this
morning."</p>
<p>"Think they're here in connection with whatever
Balmordan is up to?" Trigger inquired.</p>
<p>"We'll take that for granted. Balmordan, by the
way, attended a big shindig on the Pluly yacht
yesterday. Unless his tail goofed, he's still up
there, apparently staying on as a guest."</p>
<p>"Are you having these other Devagas
watched?"</p>
<p>"Not individually. Too many of them, and
they're scattered all over the place. Mantelish got
back. He checked in an hour ago."</p>
<p>"You mean he's upstairs in his quarters now?"
she asked.</p>
<p>"Right. He had a few more crates hauled into
the lab, and he's locked himself in with them and
spy-blocked the place. May have got something
important, and may just be going through one of
his secrecy periods again. We'll find out by and
by. Oh, and here's a social note. The First Lady of
Tranest is shopping in the Grand Commerce
Center this morning."</p>
<p>"Well, that should boost business," said Trigger.
"Are you going to be back in the dome by
lunchtime?"</p>
<p>"I think so. Might have some interesting news,
too, incidentally."</p>
<p>"Fine," she said. "See you then."</p>
<p>Twenty minutes later the desk transmitter gave
her the "to be shielded" signal. Up went the barrier
again.</p>
<p>Major Quillan's face looked out at her from the
screen. He was, Trigger saw, in Mantelish's lab.
Mantelish stood at a work bench behind him.</p>
<p>"Hi!" he said.</p>
<p>"Hi, yourself. When did you get in?"</p>
<p>"Just now. Could you pick up the whoosis-and-whichis
and bring it up here?"</p>
<p>"Right now?"</p>
<p>"If you can," Quillan said. "The professor's got
something new, he thinks."</p>
<p>"I'm on my way," said Trigger. "Take about five
minutes."</p>
<p>She hurried down to her quarters, summoned
Repulsive's container into the room and slung the
strap over her shoulder.</p>
<p>Then she stood still a moment, frowning
slightly. Something—something like a wisp of
memory, something she <i>should</i> be remembering—was
stirring in the back of her mind. Then it
was gone.</p>
<p>Trigger shook her head. It would keep. She
opened the door and stepped out into the hall.</p>
<p>She fell down.</p>
<p>As she fell, she tried to give the bag the send-off
squeeze, but she couldn't move her fingers. She
couldn't move anything.</p>
<p>There were people around her. They were
doing things swiftly. She was turned over on her
back and, for a few moments then, she saw her
own face smiling down at her from just a few feet
away.</p>
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