<h2><SPAN name="CHAPTER_VII" id="CHAPTER_VII">CHAPTER VII.</SPAN></h2>
<h3>THE FIRST OF THEM.</h3>
<p>Young Mrs. Merridew's <i>Thés Dansantes</i> made a
great commotion in Redborough. Dancing teas—what
did it mean? It meant some nonsense or
another. You might be sure it meant nonsense of
some kind, as it was Ellen Vernon that was at the
bottom of it, the elder people said; but the younger
ones were of a different opinion. It did not matter
to them so much that Ellen Vernon was silly; indeed
the greater part of them were so dazzled by the
furs and the bracelets, and the victoria, if not by
the brilliant fairness and beaming smiles and prettiness
of the bride, that they did not remember Ellen
Vernon had been silly, and thought Mrs. Algernon
Merridew not only the leader of fashion, but the
most amiable and good-natured of all queens of
society, the most "easy to get on with" and most
full of "go." Nothing like her and her dresses,
and her house and her company, had ever been seen
in the quiet, steady-going country town. She made<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_105" id="Page_105">[Pg 105]</SPAN></span>
it known graciously, that she was always at home at
lunch, and there was scarcely a day that a merry
party did not assemble at her house, filling the
newly-furnished pretty room with chatter and
laughter, and all the distracting devices of careless
youth to get rid of a few of its golden hours. And
already there had been half a dozen dinners, far too
soon and quite unnecessary, as all the elders said.
She ought to have waited until everybody had given
her and her husband a dinner before she began to
return their hospitalities. But Ellen had no idea
either of waiting or returning the heavy dinners to
which she, as a daughter of one of the reigning
houses of the town, and her husband as belonging,
if not to that rank, at least to the foremost respectability,
were invited by all the principal people.
The entertainments she gave were reckless young
dinners, where there was no solemnity at all, and
perhaps not much wit, but where laughter abounded
and all sorts of wild schemes of pleasure were invented.
And just as the solid people who had made a
point of having a dinner for the Algernon Merridews
began to feel a little offended at the goings-on of the
young household which paid no attention to ordinary
rules of civility, the younger portion of the population
was thrown into the wildest excitement by
the announcement of the <i>Thés Dansantes</i>, and
frowning mothers were courted to smiles again, by
the anticipated pleasure of their children. The old
Merridews, the father and mother, looked on with
pride but misgiving, the brothers and sisters with<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_106" id="Page_106">[Pg 106]</SPAN></span>
pride and delight, as they felt themselves already
rising high upon the topmost wave of society by
means of their brilliant sister-in-law.</p>
<p>"Only mind what you are about and keep hold
on the reins, my boy," old Merridew said to his son,
which Algernon promised with a laughing "Trust
me for that."</p>
<p>"Trust Algy, indeed!" his mother said, shaking
her head. "I would not trust him a step further
that I saw him with that crazy little thing by the
side of him; all my hope is that being a Vernon her
people will step in." They were all sure that no
great harm could happen to a Vernon in Redborough.
Harry, her brother, was always at her side, as faithful
as her husband, backing her up. And Catherine
herself could not disapprove, for she went to the
house now and then, and laughed when she was
spoken to on the subject. "Ellen was always like
that," she said, "wild for pleasure and amusement.
She has asked me to her dancing teas, as an entertainment
quite suited to my years and habits." All
which things reassured the Merridews and the other
anxious persons about.</p>
<p>"And you are going to this dancing tea?" Catherine
Vernon said.</p>
<p>"I suppose so," said Edward, indifferently. "They
would think it strange if I did not go. And they
expect you—Merridew told me so. He said it would
add such dignity to their little party!"</p>
<p>There was something in the tone with which
Edward said this which Catherine did not like. It<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_107" id="Page_107">[Pg 107]</SPAN></span>
was true that she herself had always represented the
invitation as ludicrous, yet it was quite true that her
presence would have added dignity to the party,
and there was nothing ridiculous in the idea that
Algernon Merridew thought so. This annoyed her
a little, but it was the annoyance of a moment.
She said, "I hope you will enjoy yourself," with a
laugh, which Edward on his side found as offensive:
but he did not betray this, and smiled in reply, as
he knew she meant him to smile, with a sort of
apologetic indulgent air.</p>
<p>"I shall do the best I can," he said, and they both
laughed. She tenderly, thinking how good he was
to take this trouble in order to gratify the frivolous
young pair and keep up the Vernon traditions; he
with a fierce question to herself, why shouldn't he
enjoy it? at least it would be an evening to himself,
with nobody to keep watch over him and make a
note of every girl he danced with. Alas for Catherine!
if she noticed the girls he danced with it was in
order to invite them afterwards (if she approved of
them), for she had no jealous desire to keep him to
herself, but wanted him to marry. But then there was
one at least whom she could never have tolerated.
And the chief point in Edward's anticipations, as in
Hester's, was the freedom of intercourse permitted
under Ellen's easy young wing, and the opportunity
he would have of seeing how the eager, large-eyed
girl would look among other girls, when he could
approach her freely. This gave him something of
the same sense of curiosity which was so warm in<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_108" id="Page_108">[Pg 108]</SPAN></span>
Hester's mind. How would she look among other
girls—how would she receive him? It did not occur
to him as probable that she would resent that avoidance
of her when under Catherine's eye which he
had so often assured her made him wretched. He
felt that the little secret between them, the stolen
glance he would give her at the Grange parties, the
little shrug with which he pointed her attention to
his bondage, would have an attraction even greater
than had he been always at her side; and in some
sense this was true. But he did not think of Hester's
judgment and of the natural indignation of her high
spirit; neither did he think of the comparison she
made between him and Harry, who had never
hesitated to show his devotion. To compare himself
and Harry, seemed to Edward impossible. A big
idiot—a nonentity. She had more sense than that.</p>
<p>Never was there such a spectacle seen in Redborough
as the first of the <i>Thés Dansantes</i>. The
Merridews' house was near the White House, and
consequently on a little eminence, which answered
all the purposes of a great eminence in that flat
country. It stood in the midst of a little shrubbery
above which it rose on white steps, to make the position
still more commanding. There was a long domed
conservatory at one side, the windows were all plate
glass, and when you consider that within and without
the place was lighted up—like the Crystal
Palace, people said—you may imagine something of
the imposing effect. The conservatory was all hung
with Chinese lanterns, and was fairy land to the<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_109" id="Page_109">[Pg 109]</SPAN></span>
young guests inexperienced in such glorious effects;
the two drawing-rooms were both thrown open
for dancing. There were very few chaperons; only
here and there a middle-aged mother, too devoted
to her charge, yawned behind her fan with nobody
to speak to, not a lady of her own age to exchange
experiences with, no elderly gallant to get her a cup
of tea. All was youth, rampant, insolent, careless—feeling
that the world was made for it, and rejoicing
to shake itself free of every trammel. Mrs. Ellen
set them the example in the most daring way.</p>
<p>"What do we want with the old things here?" she
said; "they would much rather be in bed, and the
best place for them. I don't suppose you mean to do
anything wrong, any of you girls, and if you did they
wouldn't stop you. If you can't take care of yourselves,
if you want a chaperon, there's me. And
there's Fanny Willoughby, and Lilian Melville, and
Maud Seton; they've all been married as long as I
have. Where could you find steadier married women?
and ain't we enough to chaperon a couple of dozen
girls? I never pretend to ask old people, unless it
was just to let them see how everything looks, poor
old things, once in a way."</p>
<p>This being the creed of the mistress of the feast,
it is not to be supposed that her disciples were more
catholic. And there was no limit to the fun which
the young people promised themselves. To do them
justice, it was very innocent fun. The greatest sin
on the conscience of the wildest romp in the place
was that of having danced ten times with a favourite<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_110" id="Page_110">[Pg 110]</SPAN></span>
partner, besides sitting out all the square dances (of
which there were only two) in his company. Algernon
himself had insisted upon two. He said it was
respectable: and he danced both with the least
popular of the young ladies, that they might not feel
themselves slighted, for he was a very good fellow.</p>
<p>"Did you ever see such a muff?" his wife said,
who never condescended to the Lancers. "I do
believe he likes to hop about with the ugliest thing
he can pick up. I thought I had kept out all the
ugly girls, but I haven't succeeded. If there is one,
Algy is sure to find her out."</p>
<p>"To show you that you have no need to be jealous,"
some one said.</p>
<p>"Oh, <i>jealous</i>!" cried Ellen, with supreme disdain.</p>
<p>The young Merridews, brothers and sisters, thought
her the most wonderful creature that had ever been
born. Her light hair was in curls and frizzes (newly
come in and extremely captivating) all over her
head. Her dress was a sort of purple, a colour nobody
but herself ventured to wear, but which threw
up her fairness with the most brilliant effect. She
had all her jewellery on, from the diamonds Harry
had spent all his available money (under her own
directions) in buying for her, to the little bracelet
contributed by the clerks at the bank. Her arm was
covered nearly up to the elbow, and the sound she
made when they fell over her hands and she had to
push them back again was wonderful. It was like a
whole concert of fairy music, the bangles representing
the higher notes, the big golden manacles furnishing<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_111" id="Page_111">[Pg 111]</SPAN></span>
a bass. She liked to hold up her hands and shake
them back with a pretty cry of "Tiresome! Why
is one forced to wear all this upon one?" Ellen said.</p>
<p>And Mrs. John had accomplished her wish. She had
got, if not three, at least two new dresses for Hester,
one upon her shoulders at this moment, the other,
the blue one, laid up all ready in the box. White of
course was the first. It had the silk slip upon which
Mrs. John had set her heart, which was so much
more thrifty than anything else, which could be
covered over again and again, as she pointed out to
her daughter, and which at the present moment was
veiled in floods and billows of tarlatan. Tarlatan
was the fashion of those days: anything that was
limp, that took—as people now love to say, "nice
folds," being considered utterly dowdy. And when
Hester appeared in those crisp puffings, with her
pearls round her throat, and white flowers in the
hair which her mother called auburn, even young
Mrs. Merridew herself held her breath. She turned
her cousin round and round to examine her.</p>
<p>"Well, I call that a <i>beautiful</i> dress," she said.
"Who put it into your head to get a dress like that?
Why, it is the height of the fashion! Those <i>bouillonées</i>
are just the right thing to wear. And do you
mean to say these are real pearls? Oh, go away, or
I shall kill you! Why have I not pearls? They
are far more <i>distingués</i>—oh, far more!—than my
paltry bits of diamonds. Oh, take her away, or I shall
not be able to keep my hands off her. And such
flowers! they must have come from Forster's. I am<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_112" id="Page_112">[Pg 112]</SPAN></span>
certain they came from Forster's. Mine are French,
but they are not so pretty," Ellen said.</p>
<p>Hester stood and smiled while these comments
were made, though with a half sense of shame. She
thought it annoyed her very much to be subjected to
such a survey, and so no doubt it would have done
had not the result been so satisfactory; but it is hard
to be really displeased by approbation.</p>
<p>As for Ellen, she whispered behind her hand to
Harry, "The old lady must have a great deal more
than we think for. She must have been saving up.
You don't get a dress like that for nothing."</p>
<p>"It's not the dress—she always looks nice, whatever
she puts on," said faithful Harry.</p>
<p>His sister contemplated him with eyes full of contempt.
"What is the use of talking to such a silly?"
she said. "Not the dress! She never looked one
ten-thousandth part so well all her life, and that you
know just as well as me."</p>
<p>No, she had never looked so well all her nineteen
years. Her dress was simple indeed, but it was
perfect in all its details, for Mrs. John had remembered
everything. The flowers were artificial, which also
was the fashion then, but they were from Forster's,
procured by Roland Ashton and brought down by his
sister Emma, who had arrived that same afternoon.
The pearls were beautiful, more beautiful than any
other ornament in the room. Hester stood beside
her cousin to receive the guests with a sense that
there were no imperfections about her. In the days
of the washed muslin there was always a fear that the<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_113" id="Page_113">[Pg 113]</SPAN></span>
flounces were not quite even, the bows were not quite
firmly sewed on, or something else which at any
moment might come to pieces and betray the homemadeness
of the garment. But she stood up in her
virgin robes with a sense of delightful security—a
knowledge that all was complete, which was exhilarating
to her spirits. She was not the one white
swan in this little provincial party: there were faces
quite as lovely as Hester's, which, as a matter of
fact, was not so perfect as her dress; but there was
no one to whom the anticipated pleasure was so
entirely ideal. Her mind did not come down to
practical delights at all. She was going to be happy—was
she going to be happy? How does it feel to
be happy? These were the questions in her mind.
She had been so, she was aware, as children are,
without knowing it; but this would be conscious,
whatever it was.</p>
<p>The dancing began. It was a very pretty scene,
and Hester, not in herself perhaps so overwhelmingly
gay as the others about her, was caught upon that
stream of careless youth and carried with it in spite of
herself. An atmosphere of pleasure was about her;
eyes looked upon her admiring, almost caressing,
every glance was pleasant; the rougher part of the
world had disappeared altogether. It was as if there
was nothing but merry dancers, laughing engagements,
an interchange of enjoyment, all about. Happy!
Well, she could not say that this was not happiness.
It might be so, for anything she could tell. There
was not much that was ideal about it, but yet—.<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_114" id="Page_114">[Pg 114]</SPAN></span>
Just as she was thinking this, she felt in a moment of
repose her hand suddenly taken, drawn into some one
else's hand: and, looking round suddenly, saw Edward
close to her, looking at her with a subdued glow in
his eyes, a look of admiration and wonder. It was
quite a steady, straightforward gaze—not furtive, not
flying. She started at the touch and look, and
attempted to draw away her hand, but it was held
fast. But he had not lifted her hand, he had taken
it where it hung half-veiled by her furbelows, and
he had turned his back towards the company
isolating her in a corner, while he inspected her.
He drew a long breath apparently of satisfaction
and pleasure.</p>
<p>"I am late," he said, "but this was worth waiting
for. Cinderella, where have you left your pumpkin
coach?"</p>
<p>Hester's brow grew dark, her heart seemed to swoon
away in her bosom altogether, then came to itself
again with a rush of heat and indignation. She
wrenched her hand out of that hold, a flood of colour
came to her cheeks.</p>
<p>"I suppose you mean to insult me," she said; "but
this is not a place to insult me—I am among friends
here."</p>
<p>"Why do you say so, Hester? Insult you! What
an ungenerous thing to say! as if I was in the habit
of doing so, and must not here because you have
friends. What a cruel thing to say!"</p>
<p>"Would you rather have it in your power to insult
me always?" said Hester. Her lip began to quiver<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_115" id="Page_115">[Pg 115]</SPAN></span>
a little. What an odious thing it is to be a woman,
to be always ready, when you would rather not, when
you want to show yourself most strong and angry, to
cry! She clenched her hands tightly to keep herself
down. "I am no cinder-wench, Mr. Edward Vernon,"
she said. "I have given you no reason to call me so.
It is a pitiful thing for a man to notice a girl's dress.
If I am dressed poorly, I am not ashamed of it. It is
not a sin to be poor."</p>
<p>"Hester! a girl of your sense to be so foolish!
How could I mean that? What I meant was, that
you have come out glorious, like the moon from the
clouds. Nothing could be sweeter than that little
house-frock you used to wear out on the Common. I
liked it better than all the finery. But to-night you
are like a young princess. Why did I say Cinderella?
Heaven knows; just because I was dazzled and
bewildered, and because you are a princess; and the
pleasure of seeing you made my head go round. Have
I made my peace? Well then, there's a darling, turn
round and let me see you, that I may see all the
finery, and everything that makes you so lovely, in
detail."</p>
<p>"You may have made it a little better," said Hester;
"but why do you go on talking like that? I am
neither lovely nor a darling; and you shall not say so—you!
that would not see me if this, instead of being
Ellen's house, were the Grange."</p>
<p>"You have me at your mercy there," said
Edward. "I confess you have me at your mercy,
there."</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_116" id="Page_116">[Pg 116]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>Upon which Hester melted a little, and, perceiving
the abashed look which he had put on, began to
falter, and presently found herself guilty of the
commonplace expedient of asking if he did not think
it a pretty scene.</p>
<p>"Oh, very pretty," said Edward; "that is to say, I
don't know anything about it. I looked for one
individual when I came in, and as, as soon as I
found her, she began to bully me violently, I feel a
little muddled, and I don't know what to think. Give
me a little time."</p>
<p>By this time, as was natural, Hester began to
think herself a monster of folly and unkindness, and
to feel that she was ready to sink through the floor
with shame.</p>
<p>"I did not mean to be cross," she said. "I thought—that
is, I had been looking—that is——"</p>
<p>Here she stopped, feeling herself get deeper and
deeper into difficulty. Her countenance changed
from the girlish freshness of complexion, which
everybody admired, into a burning red; her eyelids
unable to keep up, her heart beating as if it would
burst through silk slip, and tarlatan <i>bouillonée</i>, and
all——</p>
<p>"Come, let us have this dance. I like the music,"
said Edward, drawing her hand suddenly through his
arm.</p>
<p>"But I am engaged."</p>
<p>"Oh, never mind, if you are engaged. You were
engaged to me before ever you came," he said, lightly,
and drew her into the whirl. Hester was at the age<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_117" id="Page_117">[Pg 117]</SPAN></span>
(in society), when, to throw over a partner, looks like
the guiltiest treachery. She could not take any
pleasure in the dance, for thought of it.</p>
<p>"I must go and ask his pardon. I am sure I am
very sorry. I did not intend to be so false; and there
he is, poor man, not dancing."</p>
<p>These words Hester said breathless over the
shoulder of the enterprising intruder, who had carried
her off under the victim's eyes.</p>
<p>"Poor man!" Edward echoed, with a laugh. "I
am glad he has nobody to dance with. What right
had he to engage you? and you regret him; and you
don't want me."</p>
<p>Here Hester rebuked her cousin.</p>
<p>"You have no right to say so. I might want—I
mean I might like very well to dance with you when
you condescended to ask me; but not to be run away
with, without a word, and made to do a false thing.
False things are what I hate."</p>
<p>"You say that with such meaning. You must be
thinking of more than a dance. Am I one of the false
things you hate?"</p>
<p>"I do not hate you," said Hester, as they came to
a pause, looking doubtfully into his face; "but I do
not think you are very true."</p>
<p>"You mean I don't blurt out everything I mean,
and am capable now and then of keeping something
to myself. I can keep my own counsel—not like
that fellow there," Edward permitted himself to say:
which was a mistake; for Hester looked up and saw
the gaze of honest Harry dwelling upon her with some<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_118" id="Page_118">[Pg 118]</SPAN></span>
regret, and much tenderness, and was touched at once
with sympathy and indignation.</p>
<p>"If you mean Harry, no one could ever doubt <i>him</i>,"
said Hester, in the warmth of her compunction. "If
he is your friend, he is always your friend. He is not
afraid of what any one says."</p>
<p>"Ah, Hester, you are always harping on that
string," said Edward. "I know what you mean;
but can't you understand the position I am in, and
understand <i>me</i>? Don't you know I am in bondage?
I cannot say my soul is my own. I dare not think
nor feel but as I am told. If I were to follow my
own heart without disguise, I think it would be my
ruin. We will not name any names, but you know.
And I know what you think about that big stupid
there, but you are mistaken. It is not that his heart is
more true. It is that he has not brains enough to see
what is liked and what is not liked. He is not even
sympathetic enough. He does what he likes, and
never considers if it is good for him or not."</p>
<p>"Sympathetic!" cried Hester. "He is sympathetic
with me. When he sees me lonely and neglected he
comes and stands beside me. If he cannot do more,
he does do that. I don't pretend to say that he is
very amusing," she continued, with a laugh, "but he
does what he can. He stands by me. Oh! failing
other things that are better, I like that. Rather than
being sympathetic with Catherine, I like him to
sympathise with me."</p>
<p>"There is no question of names," said Edward,
"We must not get personal. But I am glad you<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_119" id="Page_119">[Pg 119]</SPAN></span>
find Harry amusing. I never heard that he was so
before. He is standing by Ellen now; that's what
he's here for. They will come to grief, these young
people. They are beginning a great deal too fast.
You know young Merridew, or old Merridew either,
can never keep up this. Ellen ought to know better.
But Harry will have scope for this great accomplishment
that you appreciate so highly. He will have to
stand by his sister."</p>
<p>"And he will," Hester said.</p>
<p>She scarcely thought of the dancing, so much did
this conversation—so unlike a conversation to be
carried on in the whirl of a waltz—occupy her. It
occurred to her now, as breath failed her, to remember
how in all the accounts of a first ball she had
ever read, the heroine had felt all other sentiments
melt away in the rapturous pleasure of dancing with
the man of her heart. Novels were all Hester's
experience. She remembered this, and it gave her a
half comic, half miserable sensation to realise that she
was not thinking about the dancing at all. She was
carrying on her duel with Edward. There was
always a warm sense of gratification in that—a stirring
up of all her faculties. She liked to go on
carrying it a step further, defying and puzzling him,
and wondering on his side how much he meant, how
much that he left to be inferred, was true. The
heroine in a novel is generally the point of everybody's
admiration in the ball-room, and to look at
the perfection of the waltz which she and her lover
enjoy so deeply, the whole assemblage stands still.<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_120" id="Page_120">[Pg 120]</SPAN></span>
But nothing of this kind occurred in Hester's case.
As she had so little experience, the chances are that
she was by no means the best dancer in the room,
and certainly Edward was not the other best. Their
waltz was the means of carrying on the discussion
which to both was the most attractive possibility.
When she realised this, Hester was a little amused,
but likewise a good deal disappointed. She felt
a disagreeable limit thus placed to her power to
enjoy.</p>
<p>"Come into the conservatory," Edward said.
"Don't you think you have had enough? Oh, it
is your first ball. I suppose you like it; but I am
beginning to lose my relish for those sort of affairs."</p>
<p>"You are not so old that you should give up
dancing, Cousin Edward."</p>
<p>"Old! No, I hope I am not old yet, and I don't
intend to give up dancing; but I like to walk here
better—with you. I like to talk better—with you.
I like to see your face, Hester, and see how it
changes from kindness to wrath, from friendship to
indignation, from a patient sense that I am endurable,
to a violent consciousness—— Come and sit
here."</p>
<p>"You seem to think I never do anything but
think of you: and that is the greatest mistake,"
Hester said.</p>
<p>Upon which he laughed. The place he had led
her to was only partially lighted. There were many
other groups scattered about among the plants and
stands of flowers. Flirtation was openly recognised<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_121" id="Page_121">[Pg 121]</SPAN></span>
in this youthful house as one of the portions of the
evening's entertainment, and large provision made
for it. There was nobody to notice with whom it
was that Edward was amusing himself, and he felt
fully disposed to take advantage of his opportunities.
He laughed at Hester's indignant disclosures. "If
you did not think a little about me, dear, you would
not notice so distinctly my course of conduct in other
places, you could not be sure that it was much more
agreeable to me, instead of standing by your side
and trying to be as amusing as Harry, to lead down
Mrs. Houseman and old Lady Kearney to supper
or to tea."</p>
<p>"My mother should go out of the room before
either of them," cried Hester. "Do you know who
she is? Sir John Westwood is her cousin: a duke's
daughter once married into her family——"</p>
<p>"I quite understand you and agree with you,
Hester. It is nothing that she is a perfect little
gentlewoman, and has far better manners than any
of us; but because she is a cousin to a heavy
baronet, who is not good enough to tie her
shoe——"</p>
<p>"Edward!" The girl was so startled she could
not believe her ears.</p>
<p>"Oh, I know very well what I am saying. You
don't know me, that is all. You think I am a
natural snob, when I am only a snob by circumstances.
You yourself, Hester, do you really think
your mother should stand upon her cousin and upon
Lady Ethelinda (or whatever was her name), her<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_122" id="Page_122">[Pg 122]</SPAN></span>
great-grandmother, and not upon herself far better
than either? I can't imagine you think that."</p>
<p>Hester was surprised and silenced for the moment.
She had been so often reminded of the noble grandmother
and the baronet cousin, and so hard put to
it to find a ground of superiority on which her pride
could take refuge, that this sudden appeal to her
better judgment bewildered her. She was startled
to find those advantages which were indisputable,
and to which everybody deferred in theory, so
boldly under-valued; but yet the manner of doing it
made her heart beat with pleasure. Yes; people
thought her dear little mother silly, and Hester was
aware that she was not clever. Sometimes, in the
depths of her own soul, she had chafed, as children
will, at the poor lady's dulness and slowness of
comprehension; but she <i>was</i> a perfect little gentlewoman.
And he saw it! He felt in his heart that
she was above them all—not because of Lady
Ethelinda (she was Lady Sarah in reality) and Sir
John, but herself.</p>
<p>"I did not know you were a Radical," she said.
She knew nothing about Radicals, though instinctively
in her heart she agreed with them. "I
thought you cared for family and that sort of
thing."</p>
<p>"Do you?"</p>
<p>Hester paused. She flung higher her young head,
which was proud with life and a sense of power
unknown. "I should like to be a king's daughter,"
she said, "or a great soldier's or a great statesman's.<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_123" id="Page_123">[Pg 123]</SPAN></span>
I should like my name to mean something. I should
like people to say, when they hear it, that is——"</p>
<p>"But you don't care much about Sir John?—that
is what I thought. I am no Radical; I am all for
decorum and established order and church and state.
How could you doubt that? But, by the way, there
is a person whom neither of us like, who certainly
has the kind of rank you prize. Don't you know
who I mean, Hester? When a stranger comes to
Redborough, there is one name he is sure to hear.
If she were a duchess she could not be better
known. To be her relation carries a certain weight.
We were always a leading family in the place, I
suppose. But why are we, for instance, so much
better than the Merridews and all the rest of the
respectable people? She has something to do with
it, I can't deny, though I don't like her any more
than you."</p>
<p>"Edward," cried Hester breathlessly, "about that
we ought to understand each other. I have no
reason to like Catherine. Yes, I will say her name;
why shouldn't I? She has not liked me. I was
only a child, and if I was saucy she might have
forgiven me, all these years. But she has taken the
trouble on the contrary to humiliate me, to make
me feel that I am nobody, which was unworthy. But
you: she has been kind to you. She has been more
than kind—she has loved you. I have seen it in
her eyes. She thinks that nobody is worth thinking
of in comparison with you. If—if—who shall I
say?—if Sir Walter Scott came here, or Mr.<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_124" id="Page_124">[Pg 124]</SPAN></span>
Tennyson, she would rather have you. And yet,
you that ought to be so grateful, that ought to love
her back, that ought to be proud—oh, I should if
I were you. If she were fond of me I should be
proud. I hate all those wretched people who take
from her hand, and then sneer and snarl at her, like
dogs—no, not like dogs: dogs are far nobler—like
cats; that is better."</p>
<p>Hester's eyes were shining with eloquence and
ardour; the little movement of her head so proud,
so animated, so full of visionary passion, threw back
and gave a certain freedom to the hair which her
mother called auburn. Her whole figure was full
of that force and meaning which is above beauty.
Edward looked at her with smiling admiration. If
his conscience was touched, or his temper at least,
he did not show it.</p>
<p>"Do you call me a cat?" he said.</p>
<p>"Oh, I am not in fun. I am as earnest as ever
I can be. It is wicked, it is miserable, and I cannot
understand you. All the others are as nothing in
comparison with you."</p>
<p>He grew a little pale under this accusation; he
would not meet it directly. "But you know," he
said, "why she hates you. It is for your mother's
sake."</p>
<p>"My mother!" cried Hester astonished. "But
no one could hate my mother." The suggestion
took away her breath.</p>
<p>"It is true, all the same. I thought you did not
know. She was to have married John Vernon, your<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_125" id="Page_125">[Pg 125]</SPAN></span>
father, and he preferred——that is the whole account
of it; then he got into trouble, and she had her
revenge."</p>
<p>"Did she ruin my father?" said Hester in a low
whisper of horror.</p>
<p>"I—don't know if it went so far as that," Edward
said.</p>
<p>A hesitation was in his speech. It was scarcely
compunction, but doubt, lest a statement of this
kind, so easily to be contradicted, might be injudicious
on his part—but then, who would speak to
Hester on such a subject? And her mother was a
little fool, and, most likely, did not know, or would
be sure to mistake, the circumstances.</p>
<p>"Don't let us talk of that: it is so long past,"
he said; "and here is a wretch, a scoundrel, coming
up with his eye fixed upon you as if he was a
partner. How I loathe all your partners, Hester!
Mind, the rest of the dances are for me. I shall
watch for you as soon as you have shaken that
fellow off."</p>
<p>But Hester did not care for the dances that
followed. She went through them indifferently,
faithful to the partners who had presented themselves
before he came on the scene; and, indeed, the
conversation in the conservatory had not drawn
her nearer to Edward. It had given her a great
deal to think of. She had not time in the whirl
and fluster of this gaiety to think it all out.</p>
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