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<h2> Chapter Fourteen </h2>
<p>To begin with, he did not know how he could pay Monsieur Homais for all
the physic supplied by him, and though, as a medical man, he was not
obliged to pay for it, he nevertheless blushed a little at such an
obligation. Then the expenses of the household, now that the servant was
mistress, became terrible. Bills rained in upon the house; the tradesmen
grumbled; Monsieur Lheureux especially harassed him. In fact, at the
height of Emma's illness, the latter, taking advantage of the
circumstances to make his bill larger, had hurriedly brought the cloak,
the travelling-bag, two trunks instead of one, and a number of other
things. It was very well for Charles to say he did not want them. The
tradesman answered arrogantly that these articles had been ordered, and
that he would not take them back; besides, it would vex madame in her
convalescence; the doctor had better think it over; in short, he was
resolved to sue him rather than give up his rights and take back his
goods. Charles subsequently ordered them to be sent back to the shop.
Felicite forgot; he had other things to attend to; then thought no more
about them. Monsieur Lheureux returned to the charge, and, by turns
threatening and whining, so managed that Bovary ended by signing a bill at
six months. But hardly had he signed this bill than a bold idea occurred
to him: it was to borrow a thousand francs from Lheureux. So, with an
embarrassed air, he asked if it were possible to get them, adding that it
would be for a year, at any interest he wished. Lheureux ran off to his
shop, brought back the money, and dictated another bill, by which Bovary
undertook to pay to his order on the 1st of September next the sum of one
thousand and seventy francs, which, with the hundred and eighty already
agreed to, made just twelve hundred and fifty, thus lending at six per
cent in addition to one-fourth for commission: and the things bringing him
in a good third at the least, this ought in twelve months to give him a
profit of a hundred and thirty francs. He hoped that the business would
not stop there; that the bills would not be paid; that they would be
renewed; and that his poor little money, having thriven at the doctor's as
at a hospital, would come back to him one day considerably more plump, and
fat enough to burst his bag.</p>
<p>Everything, moreover, succeeded with him. He was adjudicator for a supply
of cider to the hospital at Neufchatel; Monsieur Guillaumin promised him
some shares in the turf-pits of Gaumesnil, and he dreamt of establishing a
new diligence service between Arcueil and Rouen, which no doubt would not
be long in ruining the ramshackle van of the "Lion d'Or," and that,
travelling faster, at a cheaper rate, and carrying more luggage, would
thus put into his hands the whole commerce of Yonville.</p>
<p>Charles several times asked himself by what means he should next year be
able to pay back so much money. He reflected, imagined expedients, such as
applying to his father or selling something. But his father would be deaf,
and he—he had nothing to sell. Then he foresaw such worries that he
quickly dismissed so disagreeable a subject of meditation from his mind.
He reproached himself with forgetting Emma, as if, all his thoughts
belonging to this woman, it was robbing her of something not to be
constantly thinking of her.</p>
<p>The winter was severe, Madame Bovary's convalescence slow. When it was
fine they wheeled her arm-chair to the window that overlooked the square,
for she now had an antipathy to the garden, and the blinds on that side
were always down. She wished the horse to be sold; what she formerly liked
now displeased her. All her ideas seemed to be limited to the care of
herself. She stayed in bed taking little meals, rang for the servant to
inquire about her gruel or to chat with her. The snow on the market-roof
threw a white, still light into the room; then the rain began to fall; and
Emma waited daily with a mind full of eagerness for the inevitable return
of some trifling events which nevertheless had no relation to her. The
most important was the arrival of the "Hirondelle" in the evening. Then
the landlady shouted out, and other voices answered, while Hippolyte's
lantern, as he fetched the boxes from the boot, was like a star in the
darkness. At mid-day Charles came in; then he went out again; next she
took some beef-tea, and towards five o'clock, as the day drew in, the
children coming back from school, dragging their wooden shoes along the
pavement, knocked the clapper of the shutters with their rulers one after
the other.</p>
<p>It was at this hour that Monsieur Bournisien came to see her. He inquired
after her health, gave her news, exhorted her to religion, in a coaxing
little prattle that was not without its charm. The mere thought of his
cassock comforted her.</p>
<p>One day, when at the height of her illness, she had thought herself dying,
and had asked for the communion; and, while they were making the
preparations in her room for the sacrament, while they were turning the
night table covered with syrups into an altar, and while Felicite was
strewing dahlia flowers on the floor, Emma felt some power passing over
her that freed her from her pains, from all perception, from all feeling.
Her body, relieved, no longer thought; another life was beginning; it
seemed to her that her being, mounting toward God, would be annihilated in
that love like a burning incense that melts into vapour. The bed-clothes
were sprinkled with holy water, the priest drew from the holy pyx the
white wafer; and it was fainting with a celestial joy that she put out her
lips to accept the body of the Saviour presented to her. The curtains of
the alcove floated gently round her like clouds, and the rays of the two
tapers burning on the night-table seemed to shine like dazzling halos.
Then she let her head fall back, fancying she heard in space the music of
seraphic harps, and perceived in an azure sky, on a golden throne in the
midst of saints holding green palms, God the Father, resplendent with
majesty, who with a sign sent to earth angels with wings of fire to carry
her away in their arms.</p>
<p>This splendid vision dwelt in her memory as the most beautiful thing that
it was possible to dream, so that now she strove to recall her sensation.
That still lasted, however, but in a less exclusive fashion and with a
deeper sweetness. Her soul, tortured by pride, at length found rest in
Christian humility, and, tasting the joy of weakness, she saw within
herself the destruction of her will, that must have left a wide entrance
for the inroads of heavenly grace. There existed, then, in the place of
happiness, still greater joys—another love beyond all loves, without
pause and without end, one that would grow eternally! She saw amid the
illusions of her hope a state of purity floating above the earth mingling
with heaven, to which she aspired. She wanted to become a saint. She
bought chaplets and wore amulets; she wished to have in her room, by the
side of her bed, a reliquary set in emeralds that she might kiss it every
evening.</p>
<p>The cure marvelled at this humour, although Emma's religion, he thought,
might, from its fervour, end by touching on heresy, extravagance. But not
being much versed in these matters, as soon as they went beyond a certain
limit he wrote to Monsieur Boulard, bookseller to Monsignor, to send him
"something good for a lady who was very clever." The bookseller, with as
much indifference as if he had been sending off hardware to niggers,
packed up, pellmell, everything that was then the fashion in the pious
book trade. There were little manuals in questions and answers, pamphlets
of aggressive tone after the manner of Monsieur de Maistre, and certain
novels in rose-coloured bindings and with a honied style, manufactured by
troubadour seminarists or penitent blue-stockings. There were the "Think
of it; the Man of the World at Mary's Feet, by Monsieur de ***, decorated
with many Orders"; "The Errors of Voltaire, for the Use of the Young,"
etc.</p>
<p>Madame Bovary's mind was not yet sufficiently clear to apply herself
seriously to anything; moreover, she began this reading in too much hurry.
She grew provoked at the doctrines of religion; the arrogance of the
polemic writings displeased her by their inveteracy in attacking people
she did not know; and the secular stories, relieved with religion, seemed
to her written in such ignorance of the world, that they insensibly
estranged her from the truths for whose proof she was looking.
Nevertheless, she persevered; and when the volume slipped from her hands,
she fancied herself seized with the finest Catholic melancholy that an
ethereal soul could conceive.</p>
<p>As for the memory of Rodolphe, she had thrust it back to the bottom of her
heart, and it remained there more solemn and more motionless than a king's
mummy in a catacomb. An exhalation escaped from this embalmed love, that,
penetrating through everything, perfumed with tenderness the immaculate
atmosphere in which she longed to live. When she knelt on her Gothic
prie-Dieu, she addressed to the Lord the same suave words that she had
murmured formerly to her lover in the outpourings of adultery. It was to
make faith come; but no delights descended from the heavens, and she arose
with tired limbs and with a vague feeling of a gigantic dupery.</p>
<p>This searching after faith, she thought, was only one merit the more, and
in the pride of her devoutness Emma compared herself to those grand ladies
of long ago whose glory she, had dreamed of over a portrait of La
Valliere, and who, trailing with so much majesty the lace-trimmed trains
of their long gowns, retired into solitudes to shed at the feet of Christ
all the tears of hearts that life had wounded.</p>
<p>Then she gave herself up to excessive charity. She sewed clothes for the
poor, she sent wood to women in childbed; and Charles one day, on coming
home, found three good-for-nothings in the kitchen seated at the table
eating soup. She had her little girl, whom during her illness her husband
had sent back to the nurse, brought home. She wanted to teach her to read;
even when Berthe cried, she was not vexed. She had made up her mind to
resignation, to universal indulgence. Her language about everything was
full of ideal expressions. She said to her child, "Is your stomach-ache
better, my angel?"</p>
<p>Madame Bovary senior found nothing to censure except perhaps this mania of
knitting jackets for orphans instead of mending her own house-linen; but,
harassed with domestic quarrels, the good woman took pleasure in this
quiet house, and she even stayed there till after Easter, to escape the
sarcasms of old Bovary, who never failed on Good Friday to order
chitterlings.</p>
<p>Besides the companionship of her mother-in-law, who strengthened her a
little by the rectitude of her judgment and her grave ways, Emma almost
every day had other visitors. These were Madame Langlois, Madame Caron,
Madame Dubreuil, Madame Tuvache, and regularly from two to five o'clock
the excellent Madame Homais, who, for her part, had never believed any of
the tittle-tattle about her neighbour. The little Homais also came to see
her; Justin accompanied them. He went up with them to her bedroom, and
remained standing near the door, motionless and mute. Often even Madame
Bovary; taking no heed of him, began her toilette. She began by taking out
her comb, shaking her head with a quick movement, and when he for the
first time saw all this mass of hair that fell to her knees unrolling in
black ringlets, it was to him, poor child! like a sudden entrance into
something new and strange, whose splendour terrified him.</p>
<p>Emma, no doubt, did not notice his silent attentions or his timidity. She
had no suspicion that the love vanished from her life was there,
palpitating by her side, beneath that coarse holland shirt, in that
youthful heart open to the emanations of her beauty. Besides, she now
enveloped all things with such indifference, she had words so affectionate
with looks so haughty, such contradictory ways, that one could no longer
distinguish egotism from charity, or corruption from virtue. One evening,
for example, she was angry with the servant, who had asked to go out, and
stammered as she tried to find some pretext. Then suddenly—</p>
<p>"So you love him?" she said.</p>
<p>And without waiting for any answer from Felicite, who was blushing, she
added, "There! run along; enjoy yourself!"</p>
<p>In the beginning of spring she had the garden turned up from end to end,
despite Bovary's remonstrances. However, he was glad to see her at last
manifest a wish of any kind. As she grew stronger she displayed more
wilfulness. First, she found occasion to expel Mere Rollet, the nurse, who
during her convalescence had contracted the habit of coming too often to
the kitchen with her two nurslings and her boarder, better off for teeth
than a cannibal. Then she got rid of the Homais family, successively
dismissed all the other visitors, and even frequented church less
assiduously, to the great approval of the druggist, who said to her in a
friendly way—</p>
<p>"You were going in a bit for the cassock!"</p>
<p>As formerly, Monsieur Bournisien dropped in every day when he came out
after catechism class. He preferred staying out of doors to taking the air
"in the grove," as he called the arbour. This was the time when Charles
came home. They were hot; some sweet cider was brought out, and they drank
together to madame's complete restoration.</p>
<p>Binet was there; that is to say, a little lower down against the terrace
wall, fishing for crayfish. Bovary invited him to have a drink, and he
thoroughly understood the uncorking of the stone bottles.</p>
<p>"You must," he said, throwing a satisfied glance all round him, even to
the very extremity of the landscape, "hold the bottle perpendicularly on
the table, and after the strings are cut, press up the cork with little
thrusts, gently, gently, as indeed they do seltzer-water at restaurants."</p>
<p>But during his demonstration the cider often spurted right into their
faces, and then the ecclesiastic, with a thick laugh, never missed this
joke—</p>
<p>"Its goodness strikes the eye!"</p>
<p>He was, in fact, a good fellow and one day he was not even scandalised at
the chemist, who advised Charles to give madame some distraction by taking
her to the theatre at Rouen to hear the illustrious tenor, Lagardy.
Homais, surprised at this silence, wanted to know his opinion, and the
priest declared that he considered music less dangerous for morals than
literature.</p>
<p>But the chemist took up the defence of letters. The theatre, he contended,
served for railing at prejudices, and, beneath a mask of pleasure, taught
virtue.</p>
<p>"'Castigat ridendo mores,'* Monsieur Bournisien! Thus consider the greater
part of Voltaire's tragedies; they are cleverly strewn with philosophical
reflections, that made them a vast school of morals and diplomacy for the
people."</p>
<p>*It corrects customs through laughter.<br/></p>
<p>"I," said Binet, "once saw a piece called the 'Gamin de Paris,' in which
there was the character of an old general that is really hit off to a T.
He sets down a young swell who had seduced a working girl, who at the
ending—"</p>
<p>"Certainly," continued Homais, "there is bad literature as there is bad
pharmacy, but to condemn in a lump the most important of the fine arts
seems to me a stupidity, a Gothic idea, worthy of the abominable times
that imprisoned Galileo."</p>
<p>"I know very well," objected the cure, "that there are good works, good
authors. However, if it were only those persons of different sexes united
in a bewitching apartment, decorated rouge, those lights, those effeminate
voices, all this must, in the long-run, engender a certain mental
libertinage, give rise to immodest thoughts and impure temptations. Such,
at any rate, is the opinion of all the Fathers. Finally," he added,
suddenly assuming a mystic tone of voice while he rolled a pinch of snuff
between his fingers, "if the Church has condemned the theatre, she must be
right; we must submit to her decrees."</p>
<p>"Why," asked the druggist, "should she excommunicate actors? For formerly
they openly took part in religious ceremonies. Yes, in the middle of the
chancel they acted; they performed a kind of farce called 'Mysteries,'
which often offended against the laws of decency."</p>
<p>The ecclesiastic contented himself with uttering a groan, and the chemist
went on—</p>
<p>"It's like it is in the Bible; there there are, you know, more than one
piquant detail, matters really libidinous!"</p>
<p>And on a gesture of irritation from Monsieur Bournisien—</p>
<p>"Ah! you'll admit that it is not a book to place in the hands of a young
girl, and I should be sorry if Athalie—"</p>
<p>"But it is the Protestants, and not we," cried the other impatiently, "who
recommend the Bible."</p>
<p>"No matter," said Homais. "I am surprised that in our days, in this
century of enlightenment, anyone should still persist in proscribing an
intellectual relaxation that is inoffensive, moralising, and sometimes
even hygienic; is it not, doctor?"</p>
<p>"No doubt," replied the doctor carelessly, either because, sharing the
same ideas, he wished to offend no one, or else because he had not any
ideas.</p>
<p>The conversation seemed at an end when the chemist thought fit to shoot a
Parthian arrow.</p>
<p>"I've known priests who put on ordinary clothes to go and see dancers
kicking about."</p>
<p>"Come, come!" said the cure.</p>
<p>"Ah! I've known some!" And separating the words of his sentence, Homais
repeated, "I—have—known—some!"</p>
<p>"Well, they were wrong," said Bournisien, resigned to anything.</p>
<p>"By Jove! they go in for more than that," exclaimed the druggist.</p>
<p>"Sir!" replied the ecclesiastic, with such angry eyes that the druggist
was intimidated by them.</p>
<p>"I only mean to say," he replied in less brutal a tone, "that toleration
is the surest way to draw people to religion."</p>
<p>"That is true! that is true!" agreed the good fellow, sitting down again
on his chair. But he stayed only a few moments.</p>
<p>Then, as soon as he had gone, Monsieur Homais said to the doctor—</p>
<p>"That's what I call a cock-fight. I beat him, did you see, in a way!—Now
take my advice. Take madame to the theatre, if it were only for once in
your life, to enrage one of these ravens, hang it! If anyone could take my
place, I would accompany you myself. Be quick about it. Lagardy is only
going to give one performance; he's engaged to go to England at a high
salary. From what I hear, he's a regular dog; he's rolling in money; he's
taking three mistresses and a cook along with him. All these great artists
burn the candle at both ends; they require a dissolute life, that suits
the imagination to some extent. But they die at the hospital, because they
haven't the sense when young to lay by. Well, a pleasant dinner! Goodbye
till to-morrow."</p>
<p>The idea of the theatre quickly germinated in Bovary's head, for he at
once communicated it to his wife, who at first refused, alleging the
fatigue, the worry, the expense; but, for a wonder, Charles did not give
in, so sure was he that this recreation would be good for her. He saw
nothing to prevent it: his mother had sent them three hundred francs which
he had no longer expected; the current debts were not very large, and the
falling in of Lheureux's bills was still so far off that there was no need
to think about them. Besides, imagining that she was refusing from
delicacy, he insisted the more; so that by dint of worrying her she at
last made up her mind, and the next day at eight o'clock they set out in
the "Hirondelle."</p>
<p>The druggist, whom nothing whatever kept at Yonville, but who thought
himself bound not to budge from it, sighed as he saw them go.</p>
<p>"Well, a pleasant journey!" he said to them; "happy mortals that you are!"</p>
<p>Then addressing himself to Emma, who was wearing a blue silk gown with
four flounces—</p>
<p>"You are as lovely as a Venus. You'll cut a figure at Rouen."</p>
<p>The diligence stopped at the "Croix-Rouge" in the Place Beauvoisine. It
was the inn that is in every provincial faubourg, with large stables and
small bedrooms, where one sees in the middle of the court chickens
pilfering the oats under the muddy gigs of the commercial travellers—a
good old house, with worm-eaten balconies that creak in the wind on winter
nights, always full of people, noise, and feeding, whose black tables are
sticky with coffee and brandy, the thick windows made yellow by the flies,
the damp napkins stained with cheap wine, and that always smells of the
village, like ploughboys dressed in Sundayclothes, has a cafe on the
street, and towards the countryside a kitchen-garden. Charles at once set
out. He muddled up the stage-boxes with the gallery, the pit with the
boxes; asked for explanations, did not understand them; was sent from the
box-office to the acting-manager; came back to the inn, returned to the
theatre, and thus several times traversed the whole length of the town
from the theatre to the boulevard.</p>
<p>Madame Bovary bought a bonnet, gloves, and a bouquet. The doctor was much
afraid of missing the beginning, and, without having had time to swallow a
plate of soup, they presented themselves at the doors of the theatre,
which were still closed.</p>
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