<h2><SPAN name="THE_STORY_OF_THE_LATE_MR_ELVESHAM" id="THE_STORY_OF_THE_LATE_MR_ELVESHAM">THE STORY OF THE LATE MR. ELVESHAM</SPAN></h2>
<p class="cap"><span class="upper">I set</span> this story down, not expecting it will be
believed, but, if possible, to prepare a way of
escape for the next victim. He, perhaps, may
profit by my misfortune. My own case, I know, is
hopeless, and I am now in some measure prepared
to meet my fate.</p>
<p>My name is Edward George Eden. I was born
at Trentham, in Staffordshire, my father being
employed in the gardens there. I lost my mother
when I was three years old, and my father when I
was five, my uncle, George Eden, then adopting me
as his own son. He was a single man, self-educated,
and well-known in Birmingham as an enterprising
journalist; he educated me generously, fired my
ambition to succeed in the world, and at his death,
which happened four years ago, left me his entire
fortune, a matter of about five hundred pounds after
all outgoing charges were paid. I was then eighteen.
He advised me in his will to expend the money in
completing my education. I had already chosen
the profession of medicine, and through his posthumous
generosity, and my good fortune in a<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_48" id="Page_48">[48]</SPAN></span>
scholarship competition, I became a medical student
at University College, London. At the time of the
beginning of my story I lodged at 11<span class="f8">A</span> University
Street, in a little upper room, very shabbily furnished,
and draughty, overlooking the back of
Shoolbred’s premises. I used this little room both
to live in and sleep in, because I was anxious to
eke out my means to the very last shillingsworth.</p>
<p>I was taking a pair of shoes to be mended at a
shop in the Tottenham Court Road when I first
encountered the little old man with the yellow face,
with whom my life has now become so inextricably
entangled. He was standing on the kerb, and staring
at the number on the door in a doubtful way, as
I opened it. His eyes—they were dull grey eyes,
and reddish under the rims—fell to my face, and
his countenance immediately assumed an expression
of corrugated amiability.</p>
<p>“You come,” he said, “apt to the moment. I
had forgotten the number of your house. How do
you do, Mr. Eden?”</p>
<p>I was a little astonished at his familiar address,
for I had never set eyes on the man before. I was
a little annoyed, too, at his catching me with my
boots under my arm. He noticed my lack of
cordiality.</p>
<p>“Wonder who the deuce I am, eh? A friend,
let me assure you. I have seen you before, though
you haven’t seen me. Is there anywhere where I
can talk to you?”</p>
<p>I hesitated. The shabbiness of my room upstairs
was not a matter for every stranger. “Perhaps,”
said I, “we might walk down the street. I’m<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_49" id="Page_49">[49]</SPAN></span>
unfortunately prevented”—My gesture explained
the sentence before I had spoken it.</p>
<p>“The very thing,” he said, and faced this way
and then that. “The street? Which way shall we
go?” I slipped my boots down in the passage.
“Look here!” he said abruptly; “this business of
mine is a rigmarole. Come and lunch with me,
Mr. Eden. I’m an old man, a very old man, and
not good at explanations, and what with my piping
voice and the clatter of the traffic”—</p>
<p>He laid a persuasive skinny hand that trembled
a little upon my arm.</p>
<p>I was not so old that an old man might not treat
me to a lunch. Yet at the same time I was not
altogether pleased by this abrupt invitation. “I
had rather”—I began. “But <em>I</em> had rather,” he said,
catching me up, “and a certain civility is surely due
to my grey hairs.” And so I consented, and went
with him.</p>
<p>He took me to Blavitski’s; I had to walk slowly
to accommodate myself to his paces; and over such
a lunch as I had never tasted before, he fended off
my leading questions, and I took a better note of
his appearance. His clean-shaven face was lean
and wrinkled, his shrivelled lips fell over a set of
false teeth, and his white hair was thin and rather
long; he seemed small to me,—though, indeed, most
people seemed small to me,—and his shoulders were
rounded and bent. And watching him, I could not
help but observe that he too was taking note of
me, running his eyes, with a curious touch of greed
in them, over me, from my broad shoulders to my
sun-tanned hands, and up to my freckled face<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_50" id="Page_50">[50]</SPAN></span>
again. “And now,” said he, as we lit our cigarettes,
“I must tell you of the business in hand.</p>
<p>“I must tell you, then, that I am an old man, a
very old man.” He paused momentarily. “And
it happens that I have money that I must presently
be leaving, and never a child have I to leave it to.”
I thought of the confidence trick, and resolved I
would be on the alert for the vestiges of my five
hundred pounds. He proceeded to enlarge on his
loneliness, and the trouble he had to find a proper
disposition of his money. “I have weighed this
plan and that plan, charities, institutions, and scholarships,
and libraries, and I have come to this conclusion
at last,”—he fixed his eyes on my face,—“that
I will find some young fellow, ambitious, pure-minded,
and poor, healthy in body and healthy in
mind, and, in short, make him my heir, give him all
that I have.” He repeated, “Give him all that I
have. So that he will suddenly be lifted out of all
the trouble and struggle in which his sympathies
have been educated, to freedom and influence.”</p>
<p>I tried to seem disinterested. With a transparent
hypocrisy, I said, “And you want my help, my professional
services, maybe, to find that person.”</p>
<p>He smiled, and looked at me over his cigarette,
and I laughed at his quiet exposure of my modest
pretence.</p>
<p>“What a career such a man might have!” he
said. “It fills me with envy to think how I have
accumulated that another man may spend—</p>
<p>“But there are conditions, of course, burdens to
be imposed. He must, for instance, take my name.
You cannot expect everything without some return.<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_51" id="Page_51">[51]</SPAN></span>
And I must go into all the circumstances of his life
before I can accept him. He <em>must</em> be sound. I
must know his heredity, how his parents and grandparents
died, have the strictest inquiries made into
his private morals”—</p>
<p>This modified my secret congratulations a little.
“And do I understand,” said I, “that I—?”</p>
<p>“Yes,” he said, almost fiercely. “You. <em>You.</em>”</p>
<p>I answered never a word. My imagination was
dancing wildly, my innate scepticism was useless to
modify its transports. There was not a particle of
gratitude in my mind—I did not know what to say
nor how to say it. “But why me in particular?”
I said at last.</p>
<p>He had chanced to hear of me from Professor
Haslar, he said, as a typically sound and sane young
man, and he wished, as far as possible, to leave his
money where health and integrity were assured.</p>
<p>That was my first meeting with the little old
man. He was mysterious about himself; he would
not give his name yet, he said, and after I had
answered some questions of his, he left me at the
Blavitski portal. I noticed that he drew a handful
of gold coins from his pocket when it came to paying
for the lunch. His insistence upon bodily health
was curious. In accordance with an arrangement
we had made I applied that day for a life policy
in the Loyal Insurance Company for a large sum,
and I was exhaustively overhauled by the medical
advisers of that company in the subsequent week.
Even that did not satisfy him, and he insisted I
must be re-examined by the great Doctor Henderson.
It was Friday in Whitsun week before he<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_52" id="Page_52">[52]</SPAN></span>
came to a decision. He called me down, quite
late in the evening,—nearly nine it was,—from
cramming chemical equations for my Preliminary
Scientific examination. He was standing in the
passage under the feeble gas-lamp, and his face
was a grotesque interplay of shadows. He seemed
more bowed than when I had first seen him, and
his cheeks had sunk in a little.</p>
<p>His voice shook with emotion. “Everything is
satisfactory, Mr. Eden,” he said. “Everything is
quite, quite satisfactory. And this night of all
nights, you must dine with me and celebrate your—accession.”
He was interrupted by a cough.
“You won’t have long to wait, either,” he said,
wiping his handkerchief across his lips, and gripping
my hand with his long bony claw that was
disengaged. “Certainly not very long to wait.”</p>
<p>We went into the street and called a cab. I
remember every incident of that drive vividly, the
swift, easy motion, the vivid contrast of gas and oil
and electric light, the crowds of people in the streets,
the place in Regent Street to which we went, and
the sumptuous dinner we were served with there. I
was disconcerted at first by the well-dressed waiter’s
glances at my rough clothes, bothered by the stones
of the olives, but as the champagne warmed my
blood, my confidence revived. At first the old man
talked of himself. He had already told me his
name in the cab; he was Egbert Elvesham, the
great philosopher, whose name I had known since
I was a lad at school. It seemed incredible to me
that this man, whose intelligence had so early dominated
mine, this great abstraction, should suddenly<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_53" id="Page_53">[53]</SPAN></span>
realise itself as this decrepit, familiar figure. I daresay
every young fellow who has suddenly fallen
among celebrities has felt something of my disappointment.
He told me now of the future that
the feeble streams of his life would presently leave
dry for me, houses, copyrights, investments; I had
never suspected that philosophers were so rich. He
watched me drink and eat with a touch of envy.
“What a capacity for living you have!” he said;
and then, with a sigh, a sigh of relief I could have
thought it, “It will not be long.”</p>
<p>“Ay,” said I, my head swimming now with
champagne; “I have a future perhaps—of a passing
agreeable sort, thanks to you. I shall now have
the honour of your name. But you have a past.
Such a past as is worth all my future.”</p>
<p>He shook his head and smiled, as I thought,
with half-sad appreciation of my flattering admiration.
“That future,” he said, “would you in truth
change it?” The waiter came with liqueurs. “You
will not perhaps mind taking my name, taking my
position, but would you indeed—willingly—take
my years?”</p>
<p>“With your achievements,” said I gallantly.</p>
<p>He smiled again. “Kummel—both,” he said to
the waiter, and turned his attention to a little paper
packet he had taken from his pocket. “This hour,”
said he, “this after-dinner hour is the hour of small
things. Here is a scrap of my unpublished wisdom.”
He opened the packet with his shaking yellow
fingers, and showed a little pinkish powder on the
paper. “This,” said he—“well, you must guess
what it is. But Kummel—put but a dash of this<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_54" id="Page_54">[54]</SPAN></span>
powder in it—is Himmel.” His large greyish eyes
watched mine with an inscrutable expression.</p>
<p>It was a bit of a shock to me to find this great
teacher gave his mind to the flavour of liqueurs.
However, I feigned a great interest in his weakness,
for I was drunk enough for such small sycophancy.</p>
<p>He parted the powder between the little glasses,
and, rising suddenly, with a strange unexpected
dignity, held out his hand towards me. I imitated
his action, and the glasses rang. “To a quick succession,”
said he, and raised his glass towards his
lips.</p>
<p>“Not that,” I said hastily. “Not that.”</p>
<p>He paused, with the liqueur at the level of his
chin, and his eyes blazing into mine.</p>
<p>“To a long life,” said I.</p>
<p>He hesitated. “To a long life,” said he, with a
sudden bark of laughter, and with eyes fixed on one
another we tilted the little glasses. His eyes looked
straight into mine, and as I drained the stuff off, I
felt a curiously intense sensation. The first touch
of it set my brain in a furious tumult; I seemed to
feel an actual physical stirring in my skull, and a
seething humming filled my ears. I did not notice
the flavour in my mouth, the aroma that filled my
throat; I saw only the grey intensity of his gaze
that burnt into mine. The draught, the mental confusion,
the noise and stirring in my head, seemed to
last an interminable time. Curious vague impressions
of half-forgotten things danced and vanished
on the edge of my consciousness. At last he broke
the spell. With a sudden explosive sigh he put
down his glass.</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_55" id="Page_55">[55]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>“Well?” he said.</p>
<p>“It’s glorious,” said I, though I had not tasted
the stuff.</p>
<p>My head was spinning. I sat down. My brain
was chaos. Then my perception grew clear and
minute as though I saw things in a concave mirror.
His manner seemed to have changed into something
nervous and hasty. He pulled out his watch and
grimaced at it. “Eleven-seven! And to-night I
must—Seven—twenty-five. Waterloo! I must go
at once.” He called for the bill, and struggled with
his coat. Officious waiters came to our assistance.
In another moment I was wishing him good-bye,
over the apron of a cab, and still with an absurd
feeling of minute distinctness, as though—how can I
express it?—I not only saw but <em>felt</em> through an
inverted opera-glass.</p>
<p>“That stuff,” he said. He put his hand to his
forehead. “I ought not to have given it to you.
It will make your head split to-morrow. Wait a
minute. Here.” He handed me out a little flat
thing like a seidlitz-powder. “Take that in water
as you are going to bed. The other thing was a
drug. Not till you’re ready to go to bed, mind.
It will clear your head. That’s all. One more shake—Futurus!”</p>
<p>I gripped his shrivelled claw. “Good-bye,” he
said, and by the droop of his eyelids I judged he
too was a little under the influence of that brain-twisting
cordial.</p>
<p>He recollected something else with a start, felt in
his breast-pocket, and produced another packet, this
time a cylinder the size and shape of a shaving-stick.<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_56" id="Page_56">[56]</SPAN></span>
“Here,” said he. “I’d almost forgotten. Don’t open
this until I come to-morrow—but take it now.”</p>
<p>It was so heavy that I well-nigh dropped it.
“All ri’!” said I, and he grinned at me through the
cab window as the cabman flicked his horse into
wakefulness. It was a white packet he had given
me, with red seals at either end and along its edge.
“If this isn’t money,” said I, “it’s platinum or lead.”</p>
<p>I stuck it with elaborate care into my pocket,
and with a whirling brain walked home through the
Regent Street loiterers and the dark back streets
beyond Portland Road. I remember the sensations
of that walk very vividly, strange as they were. I
was still so far myself that I could notice my strange
mental state, and wonder whether this stuff I had
had was opium—a drug beyond my experience. It
is hard now to describe the peculiarity of my mental
strangeness—mental doubling vaguely expresses it.
As I was walking up Regent Street I found in my
mind a queer persuasion that it was Waterloo station,
and had an odd impulse to get into the Polytechnic
as a man might get into a train. I put a knuckle
in my eye, and it was Regent Street. How can I
express it? You see a skilful actor looking quietly
at you, he pulls a grimace, and lo!—another person.
Is it too extravagant if I tell you that it seemed to
me as if Regent Street had, for the moment, done
that? Then, being persuaded it was Regent Street
again, I was oddly muddled about some fantastic
reminiscences that cropped up. “Thirty years ago,”
thought I, “it was here that I quarrelled with my
brother.” Then I burst out laughing, to the astonishment
and encouragement of a group of night prowlers.<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_57" id="Page_57">[57]</SPAN></span>
Thirty years ago I did not exist, and never in my
life had I boasted a brother. The stuff was surely
liquid folly, for the poignant regret for that lost
brother still clung to me. Along Portland Road
the madness took another turn. I began to recall
vanished shops, and to compare the street with what
it used to be. Confused, troubled thinking is comprehensible
enough after the drink I had taken, but
what puzzled me were these curiously vivid phantasm
memories that had crept into my mind, and
not only the memories that had crept in, but also
the memories that had slipped out. I stopped opposite
Stevens’, the natural history dealer’s, and cudgelled
my brains to think what he had to do with me. A
’bus went by, and sounded exactly like the rumbling
of a train. I seemed to be dipped into some dark,
remote pit for the recollection. “Of course,” said I,
at last, “he has promised me three frogs to-morrow.
Odd I should have forgotten.”</p>
<p>Do they still show children dissolving views? In
those I remember one view would begin like a faint
ghost, and grow and oust another. In just that way
it seemed to me that a ghostly set of new sensations
was struggling with those of my ordinary self.</p>
<p>I went on through Euston Road to Tottenham
Court Road, puzzled, and a little frightened, and
scarcely noticed the unusual way I was taking, for
commonly I used to cut through the intervening
network of back streets. I turned into University
Street, to discover that I had forgotten my number.
Only by a strong effort did I recall 11<span class="f8">A</span>, and even
then it seemed to me that it was a thing some
forgotten person had told me. I tried to steady my<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_58" id="Page_58">[58]</SPAN></span>
mind by recalling the incidents of the dinner, and
for the life of me I could conjure up no picture of
my host’s face; I saw him only as a shadowy outline,
as one might see oneself reflected in a window
through which one was looking. In his place, however,
I had a curious exterior vision of myself sitting
at a table, flushed, bright-eyed, and talkative.</p>
<p>“I must take this other powder,” said I. “This
is getting impossible.”</p>
<p>I tried the wrong side of the hall for my candle
and the matches, and had a doubt of which landing
my room might be on. “I’m drunk,” I said, “that’s
certain,” and blundered needlessly on the staircase to
sustain the proposition.</p>
<p>At the first glance my room seemed unfamiliar.
“What rot!” I said, and stared about me. I seemed
to bring myself back by the effort, and the odd
phantasmal quality passed into the concrete familiar.
There was the old glass still, with my notes on the
albumens stuck in the corner of the frame, my old
everyday suit of clothes pitched about the floor.
And yet it was not so real after all. I felt an idiotic
persuasion trying to creep into my mind, as it were,
that I was in a railway carriage in a train just
stopping, that I was peering out of the window at
some unknown station. I gripped the bed-rail firmly
to reassure myself. “It’s clairvoyance, perhaps,” I
said. “I must write to the Psychical Research
Society.”</p>
<p>I put the rouleau on my dressing-table, sat on
my bed and began to take off my boots. It was as
if the picture of my present sensations was painted
over some other picture that was trying to show<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_59" id="Page_59">[59]</SPAN></span>
through. “Curse it!” said I; “my wits are going, or
am I in two places at once?” Half-undressed, I
tossed the powder into a glass and drank it off. It
effervesced, and became a fluorescent amber colour.
Before I was in bed my mind was already tranquillised.
I felt the pillow at my cheek, and thereupon
I must have fallen asleep.</p>
<hr class="l3" />
<p>I awoke abruptly out of a dream of strange beasts,
and found myself lying on my back. Probably
everyone knows that dismal, emotional dream from
which one escapes, awake indeed, but strangely cowed.
There was a curious taste in my mouth, a tired feeling
in my limbs, a sense of cutaneous discomfort. I
lay with my head motionless on my pillow, expecting
that my feeling of strangeness and terror would
probably pass away, and that I should then doze
off again to sleep. But instead of that, my uncanny
sensations increased. At first I could perceive
nothing wrong about me. There was a faint light
in the room, so faint that it was the very next thing
to darkness, and the furniture stood out in it as vague
blots of absolute darkness. I stared with my eyes
just over the bedclothes.</p>
<p>It came into my mind that someone had entered
the room to rob me of my rouleau of money, but
after lying for some moments, breathing regularly
to simulate sleep, I realised this was mere fancy.
Nevertheless, the uneasy assurance of something
wrong kept fast hold of me. With an effort I raised
my head from the pillow, and peered about me at
the dark. What it was I could not conceive. I
looked at the dim shapes around me, the greater and<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_60" id="Page_60">[60]</SPAN></span>
lesser darknesses that indicated curtains, table, fireplace,
bookshelves, and so forth. Then I began to
perceive something unfamiliar in the forms of the
darkness. Had the bed turned round? Yonder
should be the bookshelves, and something shrouded
and pallid rose there, something that would not
answer to the bookshelves, however I looked at it.
It was far too big to be my shirt thrown on a
chair.</p>
<p>Overcoming a childish terror, I threw back the
bedclothes and thrust my leg out of bed. Instead
of coming out of my truckle-bed upon the floor,
I found my foot scarcely reached the edge of the
mattress. I made another step, as it were, and sat
up on the edge of the bed. By the side of my bed
should be the candle, and the matches upon the
broken chair. I put out my hand and touched—nothing.
I waved my hand in the darkness, and it
came against some heavy hanging, soft and thick in
texture, which gave a rustling noise at my touch.
I grasped this and pulled it; it appeared to be
a curtain suspended over the head of my bed.</p>
<p>I was now thoroughly awake, and beginning to
realise that I was in a strange room. I was puzzled.
I tried to recall the overnight circumstances, and
I found them now, curiously enough, vivid in my
memory: the supper, my reception of the little
packages, my wonder whether I was intoxicated,
my slow undressing, the coolness to my flushed face
of my pillow. I felt a sudden distrust. Was that
last night, or the night before? At anyrate, this
room was strange to me, and I could not imagine
how I had got into it. The dim, pallid outline<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_61" id="Page_61">[61]</SPAN></span>
was growing paler, and I perceived it was a window,
with the dark shape of an oval toilet-glass against
the weak intimation of the dawn that filtered through
the blind. I stood up, and was surprised by a
curious feeling of weakness and unsteadiness. With
trembling hands outstretched, I walked slowly towards
the window, getting, nevertheless, a bruise on the
knee from a chair by the way. I fumbled round the
glass, which was large, with handsome brass sconces,
to find the blind-cord. I could not find any. By
chance I took hold of the tassel, and with the click
of a spring the blind ran up.</p>
<p>I found myself looking out upon a scene that was
altogether strange to me. The night was overcast,
and through the flocculent grey of the heaped clouds
there filtered a faint half-light of dawn. Just at the
edge of the sky, the cloud-canopy had a blood-red
rim. Below, everything was dark and indistinct,
dim hills in the distance, a vague mass of buildings
running up into pinnacles, trees like spilt ink, and
below the window a tracery of black bushes and
pale grey paths. It was so unfamiliar that for the
moment I thought myself still dreaming. I felt the
toilet-table; it appeared to be made of some polished
wood, and was rather elaborately furnished—there
were little cut-glass bottles and a brush upon it.
There was also a queer little object, horse-shoe-shaped
it felt, with smooth, hard projections, lying
in a saucer. I could find no matches nor candlestick.</p>
<p>I turned my eyes to the room again. Now the
blind was up, faint spectres of its furnishing came
<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_62" id="Page_62">[62]</SPAN></span>out of the darkness. There was a huge curtained
bed, and the fireplace at its foot had a large white
mantel with something of the shimmer of marble.</p>
<p>I leant against the toilet-table, shut my eyes and
opened them again, and tried to think. The whole
thing was far too real for dreaming. I was inclined
to imagine there was still some hiatus in my memory,
as a consequence of my draught of that strange
liqueur; that I had come into my inheritance perhaps,
and suddenly lost my recollection of everything
since my good fortune had been announced. Perhaps
if I waited a little, things would be clearer to
me again. Yet my dinner with old Elvesham was
now singularly vivid and recent. The champagne,
the observant waiters, the powder, and the liqueurs—I
could have staked my soul it all happened a
few hours ago.</p>
<p>And then occurred a thing so trivial and yet so
terrible to me that I shiver now to think of that
moment. I spoke aloud. I said, “How the devil
did I get here?” ... <em>And the voice was not my
own.</em></p>
<p>It was not my own, it was thin, the articulation
was slurred, the resonance of my facial bones was
different. Then, to reassure myself I ran one hand
over the other, and felt loose folds of skin, the bony
laxity of age. “Surely,” I said, in that horrible
voice that had somehow established itself in my
throat, “surely this thing is a dream!” Almost as
quickly as if I did it involuntarily, I thrust my
fingers into my mouth. My teeth had gone. My
finger-tips ran on the flaccid surface of an even
row of shrivelled gums. I was sick with dismay
and disgust.</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_63" id="Page_63">[63]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>I felt then a passionate desire to see myself, to
realise at once in its full horror the ghastly change
that had come upon me. I tottered to the mantel,
and felt along it for matches. As I did so, a barking
cough sprang up in my throat, and I clutched the
thick flannel nightdress I found about me. There
were no matches there, and I suddenly realised that
my extremities were cold. Sniffing and coughing,
whimpering a little, perhaps, I fumbled back to bed.
“It is surely a dream,” I whimpered to myself as I
clambered back, “surely a dream.” It was a senile
repetition. I pulled the bedclothes over my shoulders,
over my ears, I thrust my withered hand under the
pillow, and determined to compose myself to sleep.
Of course it was a dream. In the morning the
dream would be over, and I should wake up strong
and vigorous again to my youth and studies. I
shut my eyes, breathed regularly, and, finding myself
wakeful, began to count slowly through the
powers of three.</p>
<p>But the thing I desired would not come. I could
not get to sleep. And the persuasion of the inexorable
reality of the change that had happened to me
grew steadily. Presently I found myself with my
eyes wide open, the powers of three forgotten, and
my skinny fingers upon my shrivelled gums. I was,
indeed, suddenly and abruptly, an old man. I had
in some unaccountable manner fallen through my life
and come to old age, in some way I had been cheated
of all the best of my life, of love, of struggle, of strength,
and hope. I grovelled into the pillow and tried to
persuade myself that such hallucination was possible.
Imperceptibly, steadily, the dawn grew clearer.</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_64" id="Page_64">[64]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>At last, despairing of further sleep, I sat up in
bed and looked about me. A chill twilight rendered
the whole chamber visible. It was spacious and
well-furnished, better furnished than any room I
had ever slept in before. A candle and matches
became dimly visible upon a little pedestal in a
recess. I threw back the bedclothes, and, shivering
with the rawness of the early morning, albeit it was
summer-time, I got out and lit the candle. Then,
trembling horribly, so that the extinguisher rattled
on its spike, I tottered to the glass and saw—<em>Elvesham’s
face!</em> It was none the less horrible
because I had already dimly feared as much. He
had already seemed physically weak and pitiful to
me, but seen now, dressed only in a coarse flannel
nightdress that fell apart and showed the stringy
neck, seen now as my own body, I cannot describe
its desolate decrepitude. The hollow cheeks, the
straggling tail of dirty grey hair, the rheumy
bleared eyes, the quivering, shrivelled lips, the
lower displaying a gleam of the pink interior lining,
and those horrible dark gums showing. You
who are mind and body together, at your natural
years, cannot imagine what this fiendish imprisonment
meant to me. To be young and full of the
desire and energy of youth, and to be caught,
and presently to be crushed in this tottering ruin
of a body....</p>
<p>But I wander from the course of my story. For
some time I must have been stunned at this change
that had come upon me. It was daylight when I
did so far gather myself together as to think. In
some inexplicable way I had been changed, though<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_65" id="Page_65">[65]</SPAN></span>
how, short of magic, the thing had been done, I
could not say. And as I thought, the diabolical
ingenuity of Elvesham came home to me. It seemed
plain to me that as I found myself in his, so he must
be in possession of <em>my</em> body, of my strength, that is,
and my future. But how to prove it? Then, as I
thought, the thing became so incredible, even to me,
that my mind reeled, and I had to pinch myself, to
feel my toothless gums, to see myself in the glass,
and touch the things about me, before I could steady
myself to face the facts again. Was all life hallucination?
Was I indeed Elvesham, and he me?
Had I been dreaming of Eden overnight? Was
there any Eden? But if I was Elvesham, I should
remember where I was on the previous morning, the
name of the town in which I lived, what happened
before the dream began. I struggled with my
thoughts. I recalled the queer doubleness of my
memories overnight. But now my mind was clear.
Not the ghost of any memories but those proper to
Eden could I raise.</p>
<p>“This way lies insanity!” I cried in my piping
voice. I staggered to my feet, dragged my feeble,
heavy limbs to the washhand-stand, and plunged my
grey head into a basin of cold water. Then, towelling
myself, I tried again. It was no good. I felt
beyond all question that I was indeed Eden, not
Elvesham. But Eden in Elvesham’s body!</p>
<p>Had I been a man of any other age, I might have
given myself up to my fate as one enchanted. But
in these sceptical days miracles do not pass current.
Here was some trick of psychology. What a drug
and a steady stare could do, a drug and a steady<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_66" id="Page_66">[66]</SPAN></span>
stare, or some similar treatment, could surely undo.
Men have lost their memories before. But to exchange
memories as one does umbrellas! I laughed.
Alas! not a healthy laugh, but a wheezing, senile
titter. I could have fancied old Elvesham laughing
at my plight, and a gust of petulant anger, unusual
to me, swept across my feelings. I began dressing
eagerly in the clothes I found lying about on the
floor, and only realised when I was dressed that it
was an evening suit I had assumed. I opened the
wardrobe and found some more ordinary clothes, a
pair of plaid trousers, and an old-fashioned dressing-gown.
I put a venerable smoking-cap on my venerable
head, and, coughing a little from my exertions,
tottered out upon the landing.</p>
<p>It was then, perhaps, a quarter to six, and the
blinds were closely drawn and the house quite silent.
The landing was a spacious one, a broad, richly-carpeted
staircase went down into the darkness of
the hall below, and before me a door ajar showed
me a writing-desk, a revolving bookcase, the back
of a study chair, and a fine array of bound books,
shelf upon shelf.</p>
<p>“My study,” I mumbled, and walked across the
landing. Then at the sound of my voice a thought
struck me, and I went back to the bedroom and put
in the set of false teeth. They slipped in with the
ease of old habit. “That’s better,” said I, gnashing
them, and so returned to the study.</p>
<p>The drawers of the writing-desk were locked.
Its revolving top was also locked. I could see no
indications of the keys, and there were none in the
<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_67" id="Page_67">[67]</SPAN></span>pockets of my trousers. I shuffled back at once to
the bedroom, and went through the dress suit, and
afterwards the pockets of all the garments I could
find. I was very eager, and one might have
imagined that burglars had been at work, to see
my room when I had done. Not only were there
no keys to be found, but not a coin, nor a scrap of
paper—save only the receipted bill of the overnight
dinner.</p>
<p>A curious weariness asserted itself. I sat down
and stared at the garments flung here and there,
their pockets turned inside out. My first frenzy had
already flickered out. Every moment I was beginning
to realise the immense intelligence of the plans
of my enemy, to see more and more clearly the
hopelessness of my position. With an effort I rose
and hurried hobbling into the study again. On the
staircase was a housemaid pulling up the blinds.
She stared, I think, at the expression of my face.
I shut the door of the study behind me, and, seizing
a poker, began an attack upon the desk. That is
how they found me. The cover of the desk was
split, the lock smashed, the letters torn out of the
pigeon-holes and tossed about the room. In my
senile rage I had flung about the pens and other
such light stationery, and overturned the ink. Moreover,
a large vase upon the mantel had got broken—I
do not know how. I could find no cheque-book,
no money, no indications of the slightest use
for the recovery of my body. I was battering madly
at the drawers, when the butler, backed by two women-servants,
intruded upon me.</p>
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<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_68" id="Page_68">[68]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>That simply is the story of my change. No one
will believe my frantic assertions. I am treated as
one demented, and even at this moment I am under
restraint. But I am sane, absolutely sane, and to
prove it I have sat down to write this story minutely
as the things happened to me. I appeal to the
reader, whether there is any trace of insanity in the
style or method of the story he has been reading.
I am a young man locked away in an old man’s
body. But the clear fact is incredible to everyone.
Naturally I appear demented to those who will not
believe this, naturally I do not know the names of
my secretaries, of the doctors who come to see me,
of my servants and neighbours, of this town (wherever
it is) where I find myself. Naturally I lose
myself in my own house, and suffer inconveniences
of every sort. Naturally I ask the oddest questions.
Naturally I weep and cry out, and have paroxysms
of despair. I have no money and no cheque-book.
The bank will not recognise my signature, for I
suppose that, allowing for the feeble muscles I now
have, my handwriting is still Eden’s. These people
about me will not let me go to the bank personally.
It seems, indeed, that there is no bank in this town,
and that I have an account in some part of London.
It seems that Elvesham kept the name of his
solicitor secret from all his household—I can ascertain
nothing. Elvesham was, of course, a profound
student of mental science, and all my declarations
of the facts of the case merely confirm the theory
that my insanity is the outcome of overmuch brooding
upon psychology. Dreams of the personal
identity indeed! Two days ago I was a healthy
youngster, with all life before me; now I am a<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_69" id="Page_69">[69]</SPAN></span>
furious old man, unkempt, and desperate, and miserable,
prowling about a great luxurious strange house,
watched, feared, and avoided as a lunatic by everyone
about me. And in London is Elvesham beginning
life again in a vigorous body, and with all the
accumulated knowledge and wisdom of threescore
and ten. He has stolen my life.</p>
<p>What has happened I do not clearly know. In
the study are volumes of manuscript notes referring
chiefly to the psychology of memory, and parts of
what may be either calculations or ciphers in symbols
absolutely strange to me. In some passages there
are indications that he was also occupied with the
philosophy of mathematics. I take it he has transferred
the whole of his memories, the accumulation
that makes up his personality, from this old withered
brain of his to mine, and, similarly, that he has
transferred mine to his discarded tenement. Practically,
that is, he has changed bodies. But how such
a change may be possible is without the range of my
philosophy. I have been a materialist for all my
thinking life, but here, suddenly, is a clear case of
man’s detachability from matter.</p>
<p>One desperate experiment I am about to try. I
sit writing here before putting the matter to issue.
This morning, with the help of a table-knife that I
had secreted at breakfast, I succeeded in breaking
open a fairly obvious secret drawer in this wrecked
writing-desk. I discovered nothing save a little
green glass phial containing a white powder. Round
the neck of the phial was a label, and thereon was
written this one word, “<em>Release</em>.” This may be—is
<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_70" id="Page_70">[70]</SPAN></span>most probably, poison. I can understand Elvesham
placing poison in my way, and I should be
sure that it was his intention so to get rid of the
only living witness against him, were it not for this
careful concealment. The man has practically solved
the problem of immortality. Save for the spite of
chance, he will live in my body until it has aged,
and then, again, throwing that aside, he will assume
some other victim’s youth and strength. When one
remembers his heartlessness, it is terrible to think of
the ever-growing experience, that.... How long has
he been leaping from body to body?... But I tire
of writing. The powder appears to be soluble in
water. The taste is not unpleasant.</p>
<hr class="l3" />
<p>There the narrative found upon Mr. Elvesham’s
desk ends. His dead body lay between the desk
and the chair. The latter had been pushed back,
probably by his last convulsions. The story was
written in pencil, and in a crazy hand, quite unlike
his usual minute characters. There remain only two
curious facts to record. Indisputably there was some
connection between Eden and Elvesham, since the
whole of Elvesham’s property was bequeathed to the
young man. But he never inherited. When Elvesham
committed suicide, Eden was, strangely enough,
already dead. Twenty-four hours before, he had
been knocked down by a cab and killed instantly,
at the crowded crossing at the intersection of Gower
Street and Euston Road. So that the only human
being who could have thrown light upon this fantastic
narrative is beyond the reach of questions. Without
further comment I leave this extraordinary matter to
the reader’s individual judgment.</p>
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