<h2><SPAN name="chap15"></SPAN>CHAPTER XV<br/> SOLA TELLS ME HER STORY</h2>
<p>When consciousness returned, and, as I soon learned, I was down but a moment, I
sprang quickly to my feet searching for my sword, and there I found it, buried
to the hilt in the green breast of Zad, who lay stone dead upon the ochre moss
of the ancient sea bottom. As I regained my full senses I found his weapon
piercing my left breast, but only through the flesh and muscles which cover my
ribs, entering near the center of my chest and coming out below the shoulder.
As I had lunged I had turned so that his sword merely passed beneath the
muscles, inflicting a painful but not dangerous wound.</p>
<p>Removing the blade from my body I also regained my own, and turning my back
upon his ugly carcass, I moved, sick, sore, and disgusted, toward the chariots
which bore my retinue and my belongings. A murmur of Martian applause greeted
me, but I cared not for it.</p>
<p>Bleeding and weak I reached my women, who, accustomed to such happenings,
dressed my wounds, applying the wonderful healing and remedial agents which
make only the most instantaneous of death blows fatal. Give a Martian woman a
chance and death must take a back seat. They soon had me patched up so that,
except for weakness from loss of blood and a little soreness around the wound,
I suffered no great distress from this thrust which, under earthly treatment,
undoubtedly would have put me flat on my back for days.</p>
<p>As soon as they were through with me I hastened to the chariot of Dejah Thoris,
where I found my poor Sola with her chest swathed in bandages, but apparently
little the worse for her encounter with Sarkoja, whose dagger it seemed had
struck the edge of one of Sola’s metal breast ornaments and, thus
deflected, had inflicted but a slight flesh wound.</p>
<p>As I approached I found Dejah Thoris lying prone upon her silks and furs, her
lithe form wracked with sobs. She did not notice my presence, nor did she hear
me speaking with Sola, who was standing a short distance from the vehicle.</p>
<p>“Is she injured?” I asked of Sola, indicating Dejah Thoris by an
inclination of my head.</p>
<p>“No,” she answered, “she thinks that you are dead.”</p>
<p>“And that her grandmother’s cat may now have no one to polish its
teeth?” I queried, smiling.</p>
<p>“I think you wrong her, John Carter,” said Sola. “I do not
understand either her ways or yours, but I am sure the granddaughter of ten
thousand jeddaks would never grieve like this over any who held but the highest
claim upon her affections. They are a proud race, but they are just, as are all
Barsoomians, and you must have hurt or wronged her grievously that she will not
admit your existence living, though she mourns you dead.</p>
<p>“Tears are a strange sight upon Barsoom,” she continued, “and
so it is difficult for me to interpret them. I have seen but two people weep in
all my life, other than Dejah Thoris; one wept from sorrow, the other from
baffled rage. The first was my mother, years ago before they killed her; the
other was Sarkoja, when they dragged her from me today.”</p>
<p>“Your mother!” I exclaimed, “but, Sola, you could not have
known your mother, child.”</p>
<p>“But I did. And my father also,” she added. “If you would
like to hear the strange and un-Barsoomian story come to the chariot tonight,
John Carter, and I will tell you that of which I have never spoken in all my
life before. And now the signal has been given to resume the march, you must
go.”</p>
<p>“I will come tonight, Sola,” I promised. “Be sure to tell
Dejah Thoris I am alive and well. I shall not force myself upon her, and be
sure that you do not let her know I saw her tears. If she would speak with me I
but await her command.”</p>
<p>Sola mounted the chariot, which was swinging into its place in line, and I
hastened to my waiting thoat and galloped to my station beside Tars Tarkas at
the rear of the column.</p>
<p>We made a most imposing and awe-inspiring spectacle as we strung out across the
yellow landscape; the two hundred and fifty ornate and brightly colored
chariots, preceded by an advance guard of some two hundred mounted warriors and
chieftains riding five abreast and one hundred yards apart, and followed by a
like number in the same formation, with a score or more of flankers on either
side; the fifty extra mastodons, or heavy draught animals, known as zitidars,
and the five or six hundred extra thoats of the warriors running loose within
the hollow square formed by the surrounding warriors. The gleaming metal and
jewels of the gorgeous ornaments of the men and women, duplicated in the
trappings of the zitidars and thoats, and interspersed with the flashing colors
of magnificent silks and furs and feathers, lent a barbaric splendor to the
caravan which would have turned an East Indian potentate green with envy.</p>
<p>The enormous broad tires of the chariots and the padded feet of the animals
brought forth no sound from the moss-covered sea bottom; and so we moved in
utter silence, like some huge phantasmagoria, except when the stillness was
broken by the guttural growling of a goaded zitidar, or the squealing of
fighting thoats. The green Martians converse but little, and then usually in
monosyllables, low and like the faint rumbling of distant thunder.</p>
<p>We traversed a trackless waste of moss which, bending to the pressure of broad
tire or padded foot, rose up again behind us, leaving no sign that we had
passed. We might indeed have been the wraiths of the departed dead upon the
dead sea of that dying planet for all the sound or sign we made in passing. It
was the first march of a large body of men and animals I had ever witnessed
which raised no dust and left no spoor; for there is no dust upon Mars except
in the cultivated districts during the winter months, and even then the absence
of high winds renders it almost unnoticeable.</p>
<p>We camped that night at the foot of the hills we had been approaching for two
days and which marked the southern boundary of this particular sea. Our animals
had been two days without drink, nor had they had water for nearly two months,
not since shortly after leaving Thark; but, as Tars Tarkas explained to me,
they require but little and can live almost indefinitely upon the moss which
covers Barsoom, and which, he told me, holds in its tiny stems sufficient
moisture to meet the limited demands of the animals.</p>
<p>After partaking of my evening meal of cheese-like food and vegetable milk I
sought out Sola, whom I found working by the light of a torch upon some of Tars
Tarkas’ trappings. She looked up at my approach, her face lighting with
pleasure and with welcome.</p>
<p>“I am glad you came,” she said; “Dejah Thoris sleeps and I am
lonely. Mine own people do not care for me, John Carter; I am too unlike them.
It is a sad fate, since I must live my life amongst them, and I often wish that
I were a true green Martian woman, without love and without hope; but I have
known love and so I am lost.</p>
<p>“I promised to tell you my story, or rather the story of my parents. From
what I have learned of you and the ways of your people I am sure that the tale
will not seem strange to you, but among green Martians it has no parallel
within the memory of the oldest living Thark, nor do our legends hold many
similar tales.</p>
<p>“My mother was rather small, in fact too small to be allowed the
responsibilities of maternity, as our chieftains breed principally for size.
She was also less cold and cruel than most green Martian women, and caring
little for their society, she often roamed the deserted avenues of Thark alone,
or went and sat among the wild flowers that deck the nearby hills, thinking
thoughts and wishing wishes which I believe I alone among Tharkian women today
may understand, for am I not the child of my mother?</p>
<p>“And there among the hills she met a young warrior, whose duty it was to
guard the feeding zitidars and thoats and see that they roamed not beyond the
hills. They spoke at first only of such things as interest a community of
Tharks, but gradually, as they came to meet more often, and, as was now quite
evident to both, no longer by chance, they talked about themselves, their
likes, their ambitions and their hopes. She trusted him and told him of the
awful repugnance she felt for the cruelties of their kind, for the hideous,
loveless lives they must ever lead, and then she waited for the storm of
denunciation to break from his cold, hard lips; but instead he took her in his
arms and kissed her.</p>
<p>“They kept their love a secret for six long years. She, my mother, was of
the retinue of the great Tal Hajus, while her lover was a simple warrior,
wearing only his own metal. Had their defection from the traditions of the
Tharks been discovered both would have paid the penalty in the great arena
before Tal Hajus and the assembled hordes.</p>
<p>“The egg from which I came was hidden beneath a great glass vessel upon
the highest and most inaccessible of the partially ruined towers of ancient
Thark. Once each year my mother visited it for the five long years it lay there
in the process of incubation. She dared not come oftener, for in the mighty
guilt of her conscience she feared that her every move was watched. During this
period my father gained great distinction as a warrior and had taken the metal
from several chieftains. His love for my mother had never diminished, and his
own ambition in life was to reach a point where he might wrest the metal from
Tal Hajus himself, and thus, as ruler of the Tharks, be free to claim her as
his own, as well as, by the might of his power, protect the child which
otherwise would be quickly dispatched should the truth become known.</p>
<p>“It was a wild dream, that of wresting the metal from Tal Hajus in five
short years, but his advance was rapid, and he soon stood high in the councils
of Thark. But one day the chance was lost forever, in so far as it could come
in time to save his loved ones, for he was ordered away upon a long expedition
to the ice-clad south, to make war upon the natives there and despoil them of
their furs, for such is the manner of the green Barsoomian; he does not labor
for what he can wrest in battle from others.</p>
<p>“He was gone for four years, and when he returned all had been over for
three; for about a year after his departure, and shortly before the time for
the return of an expedition which had gone forth to fetch the fruits of a
community incubator, the egg had hatched. Thereafter my mother continued to
keep me in the old tower, visiting me nightly and lavishing upon me the love
the community life would have robbed us both of. She hoped, upon the return of
the expedition from the incubator, to mix me with the other young assigned to
the quarters of Tal Hajus, and thus escape the fate which would surely follow
discovery of her sin against the ancient traditions of the green men.</p>
<p>“She taught me rapidly the language and customs of my kind, and one night
she told me the story I have told to you up to this point, impressing upon me
the necessity for absolute secrecy and the great caution I must exercise after
she had placed me with the other young Tharks to permit no one to guess that I
was further advanced in education than they, nor by any sign to divulge in the
presence of others my affection for her, or my knowledge of my parentage; and
then drawing me close to her she whispered in my ear the name of my father.</p>
<p>“And then a light flashed out upon the darkness of the tower chamber, and
there stood Sarkoja, her gleaming, baleful eyes fixed in a frenzy of loathing
and contempt upon my mother. The torrent of hatred and abuse she poured out
upon her turned my young heart cold in terror. That she had heard the entire
story was apparent, and that she had suspected something wrong from my
mother’s long nightly absences from her quarters accounted for her
presence there on that fateful night.</p>
<p>“One thing she had not heard, nor did she know, the whispered name of my
father. This was apparent from her repeated demands upon my mother to disclose
the name of her partner in sin, but no amount of abuse or threats could wring
this from her, and to save me from needless torture she lied, for she told
Sarkoja that she alone knew nor would she ever tell her child.</p>
<p>“With final imprecations, Sarkoja hastened away to Tal Hajus to report
her discovery, and while she was gone my mother, wrapping me in the silks and
furs of her night coverings, so that I was scarcely noticeable, descended to
the streets and ran wildly away toward the outskirts of the city, in the
direction which led to the far south, out toward the man whose protection she
might not claim, but on whose face she wished to look once more before she
died.</p>
<p>“As we neared the city’s southern extremity a sound came to us from
across the mossy flat, from the direction of the only pass through the hills
which led to the gates, the pass by which caravans from either north or south
or east or west would enter the city. The sounds we heard were the squealing of
thoats and the grumbling of zitidars, with the occasional clank of arms which
announced the approach of a body of warriors. The thought uppermost in her mind
was that it was my father returned from his expedition, but the cunning of the
Thark held her from headlong and precipitate flight to greet him.</p>
<p>“Retreating into the shadows of a doorway she awaited the coming of the
cavalcade which shortly entered the avenue, breaking its formation and
thronging the thoroughfare from wall to wall. As the head of the procession
passed us the lesser moon swung clear of the overhanging roofs and lit up the
scene with all the brilliancy of her wondrous light. My mother shrank further
back into the friendly shadows, and from her hiding place saw that the
expedition was not that of my father, but the returning caravan bearing the
young Tharks. Instantly her plan was formed, and as a great chariot swung close
to our hiding place she slipped stealthily in upon the trailing tailboard,
crouching low in the shadow of the high side, straining me to her bosom in a
frenzy of love.</p>
<p>“She knew, what I did not, that never again after that night would she
hold me to her breast, nor was it likely we would ever look upon each
other’s face again. In the confusion of the plaza she mixed me with the
other children, whose guardians during the journey were now free to relinquish
their responsibility. We were herded together into a great room, fed by women
who had not accompanied the expedition, and the next day we were parceled out
among the retinues of the chieftains.</p>
<p>“I never saw my mother after that night. She was imprisoned by Tal Hajus,
and every effort, including the most horrible and shameful torture, was brought
to bear upon her to wring from her lips the name of my father; but she remained
steadfast and loyal, dying at last amidst the laughter of Tal Hajus and his
chieftains during some awful torture she was undergoing.</p>
<p>“I learned afterwards that she told them that she had killed me to save
me from a like fate at their hands, and that she had thrown my body to the
white apes. Sarkoja alone disbelieved her, and I feel to this day that she
suspects my true origin, but does not dare expose me, at the present, at all
events, because she also guesses, I am sure, the identity of my father.</p>
<p>“When he returned from his expedition and learned the story of my
mother’s fate I was present as Tal Hajus told him; but never by the
quiver of a muscle did he betray the slightest emotion; only he did not laugh
as Tal Hajus gleefully described her death struggles. From that moment on he
was the cruelest of the cruel, and I am awaiting the day when he shall win the
goal of his ambition, and feel the carcass of Tal Hajus beneath his foot, for I
am as sure that he but waits the opportunity to wreak a terrible vengeance, and
that his great love is as strong in his breast as when it first transfigured
him nearly forty years ago, as I am that we sit here upon the edge of a
world-old ocean while sensible people sleep, John Carter.”</p>
<p>“And your father, Sola, is he with us now?” I asked.</p>
<p>“Yes,” she replied, “but he does not know me for what I am,
nor does he know who betrayed my mother to Tal Hajus. I alone know my
father’s name, and only I and Tal Hajus and Sarkoja know that it was she
who carried the tale that brought death and torture upon her he loved.”</p>
<p>We sat silent for a few moments, she wrapped in the gloomy thoughts of her
terrible past, and I in pity for the poor creatures whom the heartless,
senseless customs of their race had doomed to loveless lives of cruelty and of
hate. Presently she spoke.</p>
<p>“John Carter, if ever a real man walked the cold, dead bosom of Barsoom
you are one. I know that I can trust you, and because the knowledge may someday
help you or him or Dejah Thoris or myself, I am going to tell you the name of
my father, nor place any restrictions or conditions upon your tongue. When the
time comes, speak the truth if it seems best to you. I trust you because I know
that you are not cursed with the terrible trait of absolute and unswerving
truthfulness, that you could lie like one of your own Virginia gentlemen if a
lie would save others from sorrow or suffering. My father’s name is Tars
Tarkas.”</p>
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