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<h2> CHAPTER VII. </h2>
<p>READER, perhaps you were never in Belgium? Haply you don't know the
physiognomy of the country? You have not its lineaments defined upon your
memory, as I have them on mine?</p>
<p>Three—nay four—pictures line the four-walled cell where are
stored for me the records of the past. First, Eton. All in that picture is
in far perspective, receding, diminutive; but freshly coloured, green,
dewy, with a spring sky, piled with glittering yet showery clouds; for my
childhood was not all sunshine—it had its overcast, its cold, its
stormy hours. Second, X——, huge, dingy; the canvas cracked and
smoked; a yellow sky, sooty clouds; no sun, no azure; the verdure of the
suburbs blighted and sullied—a very dreary scene.</p>
<p>Third, Belgium; and I will pause before this landscape. As to the fourth,
a curtain covers it, which I may hereafter withdraw, or may not, as suits
my convenience and capacity. At any rate, for the present it must hang
undisturbed. Belgium! name unromantic and unpoetic, yet name that whenever
uttered has in my ear a sound, in my heart an echo, such as no other
assemblage of syllables, however sweet or classic, can produce. Belgium! I
repeat the word, now as I sit alone near midnight. It stirs my world of
the past like a summons to resurrection; the graves unclose, the dead are
raised; thoughts, feelings, memories that slept, are seen by me ascending
from the clouds—haloed most of them—but while I gaze on their
vapoury forms, and strive to ascertain definitely their outline, the sound
which wakened them dies, and they sink, each and all, like a light wreath
of mist, absorbed in the mould, recalled to urns, resealed in monuments.
Farewell, luminous phantoms!</p>
<p>This is Belgium, reader. Look! don't call the picture a flat or a dull one—it
was neither flat nor dull to me when I first beheld it. When I left Ostend
on a mild February morning, and found myself on the road to Brussels,
nothing could look vapid to me. My sense of enjoyment possessed an edge
whetted to the finest, untouched, keen, exquisite. I was young; I had good
health; pleasure and I had never met; no indulgence of hers had enervated
or sated one faculty of my nature. Liberty I clasped in my arms for the
first time, and the influence of her smile and embrace revived my life
like the sun and the west wind. Yes, at that epoch I felt like a morning
traveller who doubts not that from the hill he is ascending he shall
behold a glorious sunrise; what if the track be strait, steep, and stony?
he sees it not; his eyes are fixed on that summit, flushed already,
flushed and gilded, and having gained it he is certain of the scene
beyond. He knows that the sun will face him, that his chariot is even now
coming over the eastern horizon, and that the herald breeze he feels on
his cheek is opening for the god's career a clear, vast path of azure,
amidst clouds soft as pearl and warm as flame. Difficulty and toil were to
be my lot, but sustained by energy, drawn on by hopes as bright as vague,
I deemed such a lot no hardship. I mounted now the hill in shade; there
were pebbles, inequalities, briars in my path, but my eyes were fixed on
the crimson peak above; my imagination was with the refulgent firmament
beyond, and I thought nothing of the stones turning under my feet, or of
the thorns scratching my face and hands.</p>
<p>I gazed often, and always with delight, from the window of the diligence
(these, be it remembered, were not the days of trains and railroads).
Well! and what did I see? I will tell you faithfully. Green, reedy swamps;
fields fertile but flat, cultivated in patches that made them look like
magnified kitchen-gardens; belts of cut trees, formal as pollard willows,
skirting the horizon; narrow canals, gliding slow by the road-side;
painted Flemish farmhouses; some very dirty hovels; a gray, dead sky; wet
road, wet fields, wet house-tops: not a beautiful, scarcely a picturesque
object met my eye along the whole route; yet to me, all was beautiful, all
was more than picturesque. It continued fair so long as daylight lasted,
though the moisture of many preceding damp days had sodden the whole
country; as it grew dark, however, the rain recommenced, and it was
through streaming and starless darkness my eye caught the first gleam of
the lights of Brussels. I saw little of the city but its lights that
night. Having alighted from the diligence, a fiacre conveyed me to the
Hotel de ——, where I had been advised by a fellow-traveller to
put up; having eaten a traveller's supper, I retired to bed, and slept a
traveller's sleep.</p>
<p>Next morning I awoke from prolonged and sound repose with the impression
that I was yet in X——, and perceiving it to be broad daylight
I started up, imagining that I had overslept myself and should be behind
time at the counting-house. The momentary and painful sense of restraint
vanished before the revived and reviving consciousness of freedom, as,
throwing back the white curtains of my bed, I looked forth into a wide,
lofty foreign chamber; how different from the small and dingy, though not
uncomfortable, apartment I had occupied for a night or two at a
respectable inn in London while waiting for the sailing of the packet! Yet
far be it from me to profane the memory of that little dingy room! It,
too, is dear to my soul; for there, as I lay in quiet and darkness, I
first heard the great bell of St. Paul's telling London it was midnight,
and well do I recall the deep, deliberate tones, so full charged with
colossal phlegm and force. From the small, narrow window of that room, I
first saw THE dome, looming through a London mist. I suppose the
sensations, stirred by those first sounds, first sights, are felt but
once; treasure them, Memory; seal them in urns, and keep them in safe
niches! Well—I rose. Travellers talk of the apartments in foreign
dwellings being bare and uncomfortable; I thought my chamber looked
stately and cheerful. It had such large windows—CROISEES that opened
like doors, with such broad, clear panes of glass; such a great
looking-glass stood on my dressing-table—such a fine mirror
glittered over the mantelpiece—the painted floor looked so clean and
glossy; when I had dressed and was descending the stairs, the broad marble
steps almost awed me, and so did the lofty hall into which they conducted.
On the first landing I met a Flemish housemaid: she had wooden shoes, a
short red petticoat, a printed cotton bedgown, her face was broad, her
physiognomy eminently stupid; when I spoke to her in French, she answered
me in Flemish, with an air the reverse of civil; yet I thought her
charming; if she was not pretty or polite, she was, I conceived, very
picturesque; she reminded me of the female figures in certain Dutch
paintings I had seen in other years at Seacombe Hall.</p>
<p>I repaired to the public room; that, too, was very large and very lofty,
and warmed by a stove; the floor was black, and the stove was black, and
most of the furniture was black: yet I never experienced a freer sense of
exhilaration than when I sat down at a very long, black table (covered,
however, in part by a white cloth), and, having ordered breakfast, began
to pour out my coffee from a little black coffee-pot. The stove might be
dismal-looking to some eyes, not to mine, but it was indisputably very
warm, and there were two gentlemen seated by it talking in French;
impossible to follow their rapid utterance, or comprehend much of the
purport of what they said—yet French, in the mouths of Frenchmen, or
Belgians (I was not then sensible of the horrors of the Belgian accent)
was as music to my ears. One of these gentlemen presently discerned me to
be an Englishman—no doubt from the fashion in which I addressed the
waiter; for I would persist in speaking French in my execrable
South-of-England style, though the man understood English. The gentleman,
after looking towards me once or twice, politely accosted me in very good
English; I remember I wished to God that I could speak French as well; his
fluency and correct pronunciation impressed me for the first time with a
due notion of the cosmopolitan character of the capital I was in; it was
my first experience of that skill in living languages I afterwards found
to be so general in Brussels.</p>
<p>I lingered over my breakfast as long as I could; while it was there on the
table, and while that stranger continued talking to me, I was a free,
independent traveller; but at last the things were removed, the two
gentlemen left the room; suddenly the illusion ceased, reality and
business came back. I, a bondsman just released from the yoke, freed for
one week from twenty-one years of constraint, must, of necessity, resume
the fetters of dependency. Hardly had I tasted the delight of being
without a master when duty issued her stern mandate: "Go forth and seek
another service." I never linger over a painful and necessary task; I
never take pleasure before business, it is not in my nature to do so;
impossible to enjoy a leisurely walk over the city, though I perceived the
morning was very fine, until I had first presented Mr. Hunsden's letter of
introduction, and got fairly on to the track of a new situation. Wrenching
my mind from liberty and delight, I seized my hat, and forced my reluctant
body out of the Hotel de —— into the foreign street.</p>
<p>It was a fine day, but I would not look at the blue sky or at the stately
houses round me; my mind was bent on one thing, finding out "Mr. Brown,
Numero —, Rue Royale," for so my letter was addressed. By dint of
inquiry I succeeded; I stood at last at the desired door, knocked, asked
for Mr. Brown, and was admitted.</p>
<p>Being shown into a small breakfast-room, I found myself in the presence of
an elderly gentleman—very grave, business-like, and
respectable-looking. I presented Mr. Hunsden's letter; he received me very
civilly. After a little desultory conversation he asked me if there was
anything in which his advice or experience could be of use. I said, "Yes,"
and then proceeded to tell him that I was not a gentleman of fortune,
travelling for pleasure, but an ex-counting-house clerk, who wanted
employment of some kind, and that immediately too. He replied that as a
friend of Mr. Hunsden's he would be willing to assist me as well as he
could. After some meditation he named a place in a mercantile house at
Liege, and another in a bookseller's shop at Louvain.</p>
<p>"Clerk and shopman!" murmured I to myself. "No." I shook my head. I had
tried the high stool; I hated it; I believed there were other occupations
that would suit me better; besides I did not wish to leave Brussels.</p>
<p>"I know of no place in Brussels," answered Mr. Brown, "unless indeed you
were disposed to turn your attention to teaching. I am acquainted with the
director of a large establishment who is in want of a professor of English
and Latin."</p>
<p>I thought two minutes, then I seized the idea eagerly.</p>
<p>"The very thing, sir!" said I.</p>
<p>"But," asked he, "do you understand French well enough to teach Belgian
boys English?"</p>
<p>Fortunately I could answer this question in the affirmative; having
studied French under a Frenchman, I could speak the language intelligibly
though not fluently. I could also read it well, and write it decently.</p>
<p>"Then," pursued Mr. Brown, "I think I can promise you the place, for
Monsieur Pelet will not refuse a professor recommended by me; but come
here again at five o'clock this afternoon, and I will introduce you to
him."</p>
<p>The word "professor" struck me. "I am not a professor," said I.</p>
<p>"Oh," returned Mr. Brown, "professor, here in Belgium, means a teacher,
that is all."</p>
<p>My conscience thus quieted, I thanked Mr. Brown, and, for the present,
withdrew. This time I stepped out into the street with a relieved heart;
the task I had imposed on myself for that day was executed. I might now
take some hours of holiday. I felt free to look up. For the first time I
remarked the sparkling clearness of the air, the deep blue of the sky, the
gay clean aspect of the white-washed or painted houses; I saw what a fine
street was the Rue Royale, and, walking leisurely along its broad
pavement, I continued to survey its stately hotels, till the palisades,
the gates, and trees of the park appearing in sight, offered to my eye a
new attraction. I remember, before entering the park, I stood awhile to
contemplate the statue of General Belliard, and then I advanced to the top
of the great staircase just beyond, and I looked down into a narrow back
street, which I afterwards learnt was called the Rue d'Isabelle. I well
recollect that my eye rested on the green door of a rather large house
opposite, where, on a brass plate, was inscribed, "Pensionnat de
Demoiselles." Pensionnat! The word excited an uneasy sensation in my mind;
it seemed to speak of restraint. Some of the demoiselles, externats no
doubt, were at that moment issuing from the door—I looked for a
pretty face amongst them, but their close, little French bonnets hid their
features; in a moment they were gone.</p>
<p>I had traversed a good deal of Brussels before five o'clock arrived, but
punctually as that hour struck I was again in the Rue Royale. Re-admitted
to Mr. Brown's breakfast-room, I found him, as before, seated at the
table, and he was not alone—a gentleman stood by the hearth. Two
words of introduction designated him as my future master. "M. Pelet, Mr.
Crimsworth; Mr. Crimsworth, M. Pelet" a bow on each side finished the
ceremony. I don't know what sort of a bow I made; an ordinary one, I
suppose, for I was in a tranquil, commonplace frame of mind; I felt none
of the agitation which had troubled my first interview with Edward
Crimsworth. M. Pelet's bow was extremely polite, yet not theatrical,
scarcely French; he and I were presently seated opposite to each other. In
a pleasing voice, low, and, out of consideration to my foreign ears, very
distinct and deliberate, M. Pelet intimated that he had just been
receiving from "le respectable M. Brown," an account of my attainments and
character, which relieved him from all scruple as to the propriety of
engaging me as professor of English and Latin in his establishment;
nevertheless, for form's sake, he would put a few questions to test; my
powers. He did, and expressed in flattering terms his satisfaction at my
answers. The subject of salary next came on; it was fixed at one thousand
francs per annum, besides board and lodging. "And in addition," suggested
M. Pelet, "as there will be some hours in each day during which your
services will not be required in my establishment, you may, in time,
obtain employment in other seminaries, and thus turn your vacant moments
to profitable account."</p>
<p>I thought this very kind, and indeed I found afterwards that the terms on
which M. Pelet had engaged me were really liberal for Brussels;
instruction being extremely cheap there on account of the number of
teachers. It was further arranged that I should be installed in my new
post the very next day, after which M. Pelet and I parted.</p>
<p>Well, and what was he like? and what were my impressions concerning him?
He was a man of about forty years of age, of middle size, and rather
emaciated figure; his face was pale, his cheeks were sunk, and his eyes
hollow; his features were pleasing and regular, they had a French turn
(for M. Pelet was no Fleming, but a Frenchman both by birth and
parentage), yet the degree of harshness inseparable from Gallic lineaments
was, in his case, softened by a mild blue eye, and a melancholy, almost
suffering, expression of countenance; his physiognomy was "fine et
spirituelle." I use two French words because they define better than any
English terms the species of intelligence with which his features were
imbued. He was altogether an interesting and prepossessing personage. I
wondered only at the utter absence of all the ordinary characteristics of
his profession, and almost feared he could not be stern and resolute
enough for a schoolmaster. Externally at least M. Pelet presented an
absolute contrast to my late master, Edward Crimsworth.</p>
<p>Influenced by the impression I had received of his gentleness, I was a
good deal surprised when, on arriving the next day at my new employer's
house, and being admitted to a first view of what was to be the sphere of
my future labours, namely the large, lofty, and well lighted schoolrooms,
I beheld a numerous assemblage of pupils, boys of course, whose collective
appearance showed all the signs of a full, flourishing, and
well-disciplined seminary. As I traversed the classes in company with M.
Pelet, a profound silence reigned on all sides, and if by chance a murmur
or a whisper arose, one glance from the pensive eye of this most gentle
pedagogue stilled it instantly. It was astonishing, I thought, how so mild
a check could prove so effectual. When I had perambulated the length and
breadth of the classes, M. Pelet turned and said to me—</p>
<p>"Would you object to taking the boys as they are, and testing their
proficiency in English?"</p>
<p>The proposal was unexpected. I had thought I should have been allowed at
least 3 days to prepare; but it is a bad omen to commence any career by
hesitation, so I just stepped to the professor's desk near which we stood,
and faced the circle of my pupils. I took a moment to collect my thoughts,
and likewise to frame in French the sentence by which I proposed to open
business. I made it as short as possible:—</p>
<p>"Messieurs, prenez vos livres de lecture."</p>
<p>"Anglais ou Francais, monsieur?" demanded a thickset, moon-faced young
Flamand in a blouse. The answer was fortunately easy:—</p>
<p>"Anglais."</p>
<p>I determined to give myself as little trouble as possible in this lesson;
it would not do yet to trust my unpractised tongue with the delivery of
explanations; my accent and idiom would be too open to the criticisms of
the young gentlemen before me, relative to whom I felt already it would be
necessary at once to take up an advantageous position, and I proceeded to
employ means accordingly.</p>
<p>"Commencez!" cried I, when they had all produced their books. The
moon-faced youth (by name Jules Vanderkelkov, as I afterwards learnt) took
the first sentence. The "livre de lecture" was the "Vicar of Wakefield,"
much used in foreign schools because it is supposed to contain prime
samples of conversational English; it might, however, have been a Runic
scroll for any resemblance the words, as enunciated by Jules, bore to the
language in ordinary use amongst the natives of Great Britain. My God! how
he did snuffle, snort, and wheeze! All he said was said in his throat and
nose, for it is thus the Flamands speak, but I heard him to the end of his
paragraph without proffering a word of correction, whereat he looked
vastly self-complacent, convinced, no doubt, that he had acquitted himself
like a real born and bred "Anglais." In the same unmoved silence I
listened to a dozen in rotation, and when the twelfth had concluded with
splutter, hiss, and mumble, I solemnly laid down the book.</p>
<p>"Arretez!" said I. There was a pause, during which I regarded them all
with a steady and somewhat stern gaze; a dog, if stared at hard enough and
long enough, will show symptoms of embarrassment, and so at length did my
bench of Belgians. Perceiving that some of the faces before me were
beginning to look sullen, and others ashamed, I slowly joined my hands,
and ejaculated in a deep "voix de poitrine"—</p>
<p>"Comme c'est affreux!"</p>
<p>They looked at each other, pouted, coloured, swung their heels; they were
not pleased, I saw, but they were impressed, and in the way I wished them
to be. Having thus taken them down a peg in their self-conceit, the next
step was to raise myself in their estimation; not a very easy thing,
considering that I hardly dared to speak for fear of betraying my own
deficiencies.</p>
<p>"Ecoutez, messieurs!" said I, and I endeavoured to throw into my accents
the compassionate tone of a superior being, who, touched by the extremity
of the helplessness, which at first only excited his scorn, deigns at
length to bestow aid. I then began at the very beginning of the "Vicar of
Wakefield," and read, in a slow, distinct voice, some twenty pages, they
all the while sitting mute and listening with fixed attention; by the time
I had done nearly an hour had elapsed. I then rose and said:—</p>
<p>"C'est assez pour aujourd'hui, messieurs; demain nous recommencerons, et
j'espere que tout ira bien."</p>
<p>With this oracular sentence I bowed, and in company with M. Pelet quitted
the school-room.</p>
<p>"C'est bien! c'est tres bien!" said my principal as we entered his
parlour. "Je vois que monsieur a de l'adresse; cela, me plait, car, dans
l'instruction, l'adresse fait tout autant que le savoir."</p>
<p>From the parlour M. Pelet conducted me to my apartment, my "chambre," as
Monsieur said with a certain air of complacency. It was a very small room,
with an excessively small bed, but M. Pelet gave me to understand that I
was to occupy it quite alone, which was of course a great comfort. Yet,
though so limited in dimensions, it had two windows. Light not being taxed
in Belgium, the people never grudge its admission into their houses; just
here, however, this observation is not very APROPOS, for one of these
windows was boarded up; the open windows looked into the boys' playground.
I glanced at the other, as wondering what aspect it would present if
disencumbered of the boards. M. Pelet read, I suppose, the expression of
my eye; he explained:—</p>
<p>"La fenetre fermee donne sur un jardin appartenant a un pensionnat de
demoiselles," said he, "et les convenances exigent—enfin, vous
comprenez—n'est-ce pas, monsieur?"</p>
<p>"Oui, oui," was my reply, and I looked of course quite satisfied; but when
M. Pelet had retired and closed the door after him, the first thing I did
was to scrutinize closely the nailed boards, hoping to find some chink or
crevice which I might enlarge, and so get a peep at the consecrated
ground. My researches were vain, for the boards were well joined and
strongly nailed. It is astonishing how disappointed I felt. I thought it
would have been so pleasant to have looked out upon a garden planted with
flowers and trees, so amusing to have watched the demoiselles at their
play; to have studied female character in a variety of phases, myself the
while sheltered from view by a modest muslin curtain, whereas, owing
doubtless to the absurd scruples of some old duenna of a directress, I had
now only the option of looking at a bare gravelled court, with an enormous
"pas de geant" in the middle, and the monotonous walls and windows of a
boys' school-house round. Not only then, but many a time after, especially
in moments of weariness and low spirits, did I look with dissatisfied eyes
on that most tantalizing board, longing to tear it away and get a glimpse
of the green region which I imagined to lie beyond. I knew a tree grew
close up to the window, for though there were as yet no leaves to rustle,
I often heard at night the tapping of branches against the panes. In the
daytime, when I listened attentively, I could hear, even through the
boards, the voices of the demoiselles in their hours of recreation, and,
to speak the honest truth, my sentimental reflections were occasionally a
trifle disarranged by the not quite silvery, in fact the too often brazen
sounds, which, rising from the unseen paradise below, penetrated
clamorously into my solitude. Not to mince matters, it really seemed to me
a doubtful case whether the lungs of Mdlle. Reuter's girls or those of M.
Pelet's boys were the strongest, and when it came to shrieking the girls
indisputably beat the boys hollow. I forgot to say, by-the-by, that Reuter
was the name of the old lady who had had my window bearded up. I say old,
for such I, of course, concluded her to be, judging from her cautious,
chaperon-like proceedings; besides, nobody ever spoke of her as young. I
remember I was very much amused when I first heard her Christian name; it
was Zoraide—Mademoiselle Zoraide Reuter. But the continental nations
do allow themselves vagaries in the choice of names, such as we sober
English never run into. I think, indeed, we have too limited a list to
choose from.</p>
<p>Meantime my path was gradually growing smooth before me. I, in a few
weeks, conquered the teasing difficulties inseparable from the
commencement of almost every career. Ere long I had acquired as much
facility in speaking French as set me at my ease with my pupils; and as I
had encountered them on a right footing at the very beginning, and
continued tenaciously to retain the advantage I had early gained, they
never attempted mutiny, which circumstance, all who are in any degree
acquainted with the ongoings of Belgian schools, and who know the relation
in which professors and pupils too frequently stand towards each other in
those establishments, will consider an important and uncommon one. Before
concluding this chapter I will say a word on the system I pursued with
regard to my classes: my experience may possibly be of use to others.</p>
<p>It did not require very keen observation to detect the character of the
youth of Brabant, but it needed a certain degree of tact to adopt one's
measures to their capacity. Their intellectual faculties were generally
weak, their animal propensities strong; thus there was at once an
impotence and a kind of inert force in their natures; they were dull, but
they were also singularly stubborn, heavy as lead and, like lead, most
difficult to move. Such being the case, it would have been truly absurd to
exact from them much in the way of mental exertion; having short memories,
dense intelligence, feeble reflective powers, they recoiled with
repugnance from any occupation that demanded close study or deep thought.
Had the abhorred effort been extorted from them by injudicious and
arbitrary measures on the part of the Professor, they would have resisted
as obstinately, as clamorously, as desperate swine; and though not brave
singly, they were relentless acting EN MASSE.</p>
<p>I understood that before my arrival in M. Pelet's establishment, the
combined insubordination of the pupils had effected the dismissal of more
than one English master. It was necessary then to exact only the most
moderate application from natures so little qualified to apply—to
assist, in every practicable way, understandings so opaque and contracted—to
be ever gentle, considerate, yielding even, to a certain point, with
dispositions so irrationally perverse; but, having reached that
culminating point of indulgence, you must fix your foot, plant it, root it
in rock—become immutable as the towers of Ste. Gudule; for a step—but
half a step farther, and you would plunge headlong into the gulf of
imbecility; there lodged, you would speedily receive proofs of Flemish
gratitude and magnanimity in showers of Brabant saliva and handfuls of Low
Country mud. You might smooth to the utmost the path of learning, remove
every pebble from the track; but then you must finally insist with
decision on the pupil taking your arm and allowing himself to be led
quietly along the prepared road. When I had brought down my lesson to the
lowest level of my dullest pupil's capacity—when I had shown myself
the mildest, the most tolerant of masters—a word of impertinence, a
movement of disobedience, changed me at once into a despot. I offered then
but one alternative—submission and acknowledgment of error, or
ignominious expulsion. This system answered, and my influence, by degrees,
became established on a firm basis. "The boy is father to the man," it is
said; and so I often thought when looked at my boys and remembered the
political history of their ancestors. Pelet's school was merely an epitome
of the Belgian nation.</p>
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