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<h2> CHAPTER X. </h2>
<p>NEXT day the morning hours seemed to pass very slowly at M. Pelet's; I
wanted the afternoon to come that I might go again to the neighbouring pensionnat
and give my first lesson within its pleasant precincts; for pleasant they
appeared to me. At noon the hour of recreation arrived; at one o'clock we
had lunch; this got on the time, and at last St. Gudule's deep bell,
tolling slowly two, marked the moment for which I had been waiting.</p>
<p>At the foot of the narrow back-stairs that descended from my room, I met
M. Pelet.</p>
<p>"Comme vous avez l'air rayonnant!" said he. "Je ne vous ai jamais vu aussi
gai. Que s'est-il donc passe?"</p>
<p>"Apparemment que j'aime les changements," replied I.</p>
<p>"Ah! je comprends—c'est cela-soyez sage seulement. Vous etes bien
jeune—trop jeune pour le role que vous allez jouer; il faut prendre
garde—savez-vous?"</p>
<p>"Mais quel danger y a-t-il?"</p>
<p>"Je n'en sais rien—ne vous laissez pas aller a de vives impressions—voila
tout."</p>
<p>I laughed: a sentiment of exquisite pleasure played over my nerves at the
thought that "vives impressions" were likely to be created; it was the
deadness, the sameness of life's daily ongoings that had hitherto been my
bane; my blouse-clad "eleves" in the boys' seminary never stirred in me
any "vives impressions" except it might be occasionally some of anger. I
broke from M. Pelet, and as I strode down the passage he followed me with
one of his laughs—a very French, rakish, mocking sound.</p>
<p>Again I stood at the neighbouring door, and soon was re-admitted into the
cheerful passage with its clear dove-colour imitation marble walls. I
followed the portress, and descending a step, and making a turn, I found
myself in a sort of corridor; a side-door opened, Mdlle. Reuter's little
figure, as graceful as it was plump, appeared. I could now see her dress
in full daylight; a neat, simple mousseline-laine gown fitted her compact
round shape to perfection—delicate little collar and manchettes of
lace, trim Parisian brodequins showed her neck, wrists, and feet, to
complete advantage; but how grave was her face as she came suddenly upon
me! Solicitude and business were in her eye—on her forehead; she
looked almost stern. Her "Bon jour, monsieur," was quite polite, but so
orderly, so commonplace, it spread directly a cool, damp towel over my
"vives impressions." The servant turned back when her mistress appeared,
and I walked slowly along the corridor, side by side with Mdlle. Reuter.</p>
<p>"Monsieur will give a lesson in the first class to-day," said she;
"dictation or reading will perhaps be the best thing to begin with, for
those are the easiest forms of communicating instruction in a foreign
language; and, at the first, a master naturally feels a little unsettled."</p>
<p>She was quite right, as I had found from experience; it only remained for
me to acquiesce. We proceeded now in silence. The corridor terminated in a
hall, large, lofty, and square; a glass door on one side showed within a
long narrow refectory, with tables, an armoire, and two lamps; it was
empty; large glass doors, in front, opened on the playground and garden; a
broad staircase ascended spirally on the opposite side; the remaining wall
showed a pair of great folding-doors, now closed, and admitting:
doubtless, to the classes.</p>
<p>Mdlle. Reuter turned her eye laterally on me, to ascertain, probably,
whether I was collected enough to be ushered into her sanctum sanctorum. I
suppose she judged me to be in a tolerable state of self-government, for
she opened the door, and I followed her through. A rustling sound of
uprising greeted our entrance; without looking to the right or left, I
walked straight up the lane between two sets of benches and desks, and
took possession of the empty chair and isolated desk raised on an estrade,
of one step high, so as to command one division; the other division being
under the surveillance of a maitresse similarly elevated. At the back of
the estrade, and attached to a moveable partition dividing this schoolroom
from another beyond, was a large tableau of wood painted black and
varnished; a thick crayon of white chalk lay on my desk for the
convenience of elucidating any grammatical or verbal obscurity which might
occur in my lessons by writing it upon the tableau; a wet sponge appeared
beside the chalk, to enable me to efface the marks when they had served
the purpose intended.</p>
<p>I carefully and deliberately made these observations before allowing
myself to take one glance at the benches before me; having handled the
crayon, looked back at the tableau, fingered the sponge in order to
ascertain that it was in a right state of moisture, I found myself cool
enough to admit of looking calmly up and gazing deliberately round me.</p>
<p>And first I observed that Mdlle. Reuter had already glided away, she was
nowhere visible; a maitresse or teacher, the one who occupied the
corresponding estrade to my own, alone remained to keep guard over me; she
was a little in the shade, and, with my short sight, I could only see that
she was of a thin bony figure and rather tallowy complexion, and that her
attitude, as she sat, partook equally of listlessness and affectation.
More obvious, more prominent, shone on by the full light of the large
window, were the occupants of the benches just before me, of whom some
were girls of fourteen, fifteen, sixteen, some young women from eighteen
(as it appeared to me) up to twenty; the most modest attire, the simplest
fashion of wearing the hair, were apparent in all; and good features,
ruddy, blooming complexions, large and brilliant eyes, forms full, even to
solidity, seemed to abound. I did not bear the first view like a stoic; I
was dazzled, my eyes fell, and in a voice somewhat too low I murmured—</p>
<p>"Prenez vos cahiers de dictee, mesdemoiselles."</p>
<p>Not so had I bid the boys at Pelet's take their reading-books. A rustle
followed, and an opening of desks; behind the lifted lids which
momentarily screened the heads bent down to search for exercise-books, I
heard tittering and whispers.</p>
<p>"Eulalie, je suis prete a pamer de rire," observed one.</p>
<p>"Comme il a rougi en parlant!"</p>
<p>"Oui, c'est un veritable blanc-bec."</p>
<p>"Tais-toi, Hortense—il nous ecoute."</p>
<p>And now the lids sank and the heads reappeared; I had marked three, the
whisperers, and I did not scruple to take a very steady look at them as
they emerged from their temporary eclipse. It is astonishing what ease and
courage their little phrases of flippancy had given me; the idea by which
I had been awed was that the youthful beings before me, with their dark
nun-like robes and softly braided hair, were a kind of half-angels. The
light titter, the giddy whisper, had already in some measure relieved my
mind of that fond and oppressive fancy.</p>
<p>The three I allude to were just in front, within half a yard of my
estrade, and were among the most womanly-looking present. Their names I
knew afterwards, and may as well mention now; they were Eulalie, Hortense,
Caroline. Eulalie was tall, and very finely shaped: she was fair, and her
features were those of a Low Country Madonna; many a "figure de Vierge"
have I seen in Dutch pictures exactly resembling hers; there were no
angles in her shape or in her face, all was curve and roundness—neither
thought, sentiment, nor passion disturbed by line or flush the equality of
her pale, clear skin; her noble bust heaved with her regular breathing,
her eyes moved a little—by these evidences of life alone could I
have distinguished her from some large handsome figure moulded in wax.
Hortense was of middle size and stout, her form was ungraceful, her face
striking, more alive and brilliant than Eulalie's, her hair was dark
brown, her complexion richly coloured; there were frolic and mischief in
her eye: consistency and good sense she might possess, but none of her
features betokened those qualities.</p>
<p>Caroline was little, though evidently full grown; raven-black hair, very
dark eyes, absolutely regular features, with a colourless olive
complexion, clear as to the face and sallow about the neck, formed in her
that assemblage of points whose union many persons regard as the
perfection of beauty. How, with the tintless pallor of her skin and the
classic straightness of her lineaments, she managed to look sensual, I
don't know. I think her lips and eyes contrived the affair between them,
and the result left no uncertainty on the beholder's mind. She was sensual
now, and in ten years' time she would be coarse—promise plain was
written in her face of much future folly.</p>
<p>If I looked at these girls with little scruple, they looked at me with
still less. Eulalie raised her unmoved eye to mine, and seemed to expect,
passively but securely, an impromptu tribute to her majestic charms.
Hortense regarded me boldly, and giggled at the same time, while she said,
with an air of impudent freedom—</p>
<p>"Dictez-nous quelquechose de facile pour commencer, monsieur."</p>
<p>Caroline shook her loose ringlets of abundant but somewhat coarse hair
over her rolling black eyes; parting her lips, as full as those of a
hot-blooded Maroon, she showed her well-set teeth sparkling between them,
and treated me at the same time to a smile "de sa facon." Beautiful as
Pauline Borghese, she looked at the moment scarcely purer than Lucrece de
Borgia. Caroline was of noble family. I heard her lady-mother's character
afterwards, and then I ceased to wonder at the precocious accomplishments
of the daughter. These three, I at once saw, deemed themselves the queens
of the school, and conceived that by their splendour they threw all the
rest into the shade. In less than five minutes they had thus revealed to
me their characters, and in less than five minutes I had buckled on a
breast-plate of steely indifference, and let down a visor of impassible
austerity.</p>
<p>"Take your pens and commence writing," said I, in as dry and trite a voice
as if I had been addressing only Jules Vanderkelkov and Co.</p>
<p>The dictee now commenced. My three belles interrupted me perpetually with
little silly questions and uncalled-for remarks, to some of which I made
no answer, and to others replied very quietly and briefly. "Comment dit-on
point et virgule en Anglais, monsieur?"</p>
<p>"Semi-colon, mademoiselle."</p>
<p>"Semi-collong? Ah, comme c'est drole!" (giggle.)</p>
<p>"J'ai une si mauvaise plume—impossible d'ecrire!"</p>
<p>"Mais, monsieur—je ne sais pas suivre—vous allez si vite."</p>
<p>"Je n'ai rien compris, moi!"</p>
<p>Here a general murmur arose, and the teacher, opening her lips for the
first time, ejaculated—</p>
<p>"Silence, mesdemoiselles!"</p>
<p>No silence followed—on the contrary, the three ladies in front began
to talk more loudly.</p>
<p>"C'est si difficile, l'Anglais!"</p>
<p>"Je deteste la dictee."</p>
<p>"Quel ennui d'ecrire quelquechose que l'on ne comprend pas!"</p>
<p>Some of those behind laughed: a degree of confusion began to pervade the
class; it was necessary to take prompt measures.</p>
<p>"Donnez-moi votre cahier," said I to Eulalie in an abrupt tone; and
bending over, I took it before she had time to give it.</p>
<p>"Et vous, mademoiselle-donnez-moi le votre," continued I, more mildly,
addressing a little pale, plain looking girl who sat in the first row of
the other division, and whom I had remarked as being at once the ugliest
and the most attentive in the room; she rose up, walked over to me, and
delivered her book with a grave, modest curtsey. I glanced over the two
dictations; Eulalie's was slurred, blotted, and full of silly mistakes—Sylvie's
(such was the name of the ugly little girl) was clearly written, it
contained no error against sense, and but few faults of orthography. I
coolly read aloud both exercises, marking the faults—then I looked
at Eulalie:</p>
<p>"C'est honteux!" said I, and I deliberately tore her dictation in four
parts, and presented her with the fragments. I returned Sylvie her book
with a smile, saying—</p>
<p>"C'est bien—je suis content de vous."</p>
<p>Sylvie looked calmly pleased, Eulalie swelled like an incensed turkey, but
the mutiny was quelled: the conceited coquetry and futile flirtation of
the first bench were exchanged for a taciturn sullenness, much more
convenient to me, and the rest of my lesson passed without interruption.</p>
<p>A bell clanging out in the yard announced the moment for the cessation of
school labours. I heard our own bell at the same time, and that of a
certain public college immediately after. Order dissolved instantly; up
started every pupil, I hastened to seize my hat, bow to the maitresse, and
quit the room before the tide of externats should pour from the inner
class, where I knew near a hundred were prisoned, and whose rising tumult
I already heard.</p>
<p>I had scarcely crossed the hall and gained the corridor, when Mdlle.
Reuter came again upon me.</p>
<p>"Step in here a moment," said she, and she held open the door of the side
room from whence she had issued on my arrival; it was a SALLE-A-MANGER, as
appeared from the beaufet and the armoire vitree, filled with glass and
china, which formed part of its furniture. Ere she had closed the door on
me and herself, the corridor was already filled with day-pupils, tearing
down their cloaks, bonnets, and cabas from the wooden pegs on which they
were suspended; the shrill voice of a maitresse was heard at intervals
vainly endeavouring to enforce some sort of order; vainly, I say:
discipline there was none in these rough ranks, and yet this was
considered one of the best-conducted schools in Brussels.</p>
<p>"Well, you have given your first lesson," began Mdlle. Reuter in the most
calm, equable voice, as though quite unconscious of the chaos from which
we were separated only by a single wall.</p>
<p>"Were you satisfied with your pupils, or did any circumstance in their
conduct give you cause for complaint? Conceal nothing from me, repose in
me entire confidence."</p>
<p>Happily, I felt in myself complete power to manage my pupils without aid;
the enchantment, the golden haze which had dazzled my perspicuity at
first, had been a good deal dissipated. I cannot say I was chagrined or
downcast by the contrast which the reality of a pensionnat de demoiselles
presented to my vague ideal of the same community; I was only enlightened
and amused; consequently, I felt in no disposition to complain to Mdlle.
Reuter, and I received her considerate invitation to confidence with a
smile.</p>
<p>"A thousand thanks, mademoiselle, all has gone very smoothly."</p>
<p>She looked more than doubtful.</p>
<p>"Et les trois demoiselles du premier banc?" said she.</p>
<p>"Ah! tout va au mieux!" was my answer, and Mdlle. Reuter ceased to
question me; but her eye—not large, not brilliant, not melting, or
kindling, but astute, penetrating, practical, showed she was even with me;
it let out a momentary gleam, which said plainly, "Be as close as you
like, I am not dependent on your candour; what you would conceal I already
know."</p>
<p>By a transition so quiet as to be scarcely perceptible, the directress's
manner changed; the anxious business-air passed from her face, and she
began chatting about the weather and the town, and asking in neighbourly
wise after M. and Madame Pelet. I answered all her little questions; she
prolonged her talk, I went on following its many little windings; she sat
so long, said so much, varied so often the topics of discourse, that it
was not difficult to perceive she had a particular aim in thus detaining
me. Her mere words could have afforded no clue to this aim, but her
countenance aided; while her lips uttered only affable commonplaces, her
eyes reverted continually to my face. Her glances were not given in full,
but out of the corners, so quietly, so stealthily, yet I think I lost not
one. I watched her as keenly as she watched me; I perceived soon that she
was feeling after my real character; she was searching for salient points,
and weak; points, and eccentric points; she was applying now this test,
now that, hoping in the end to find some chink, some niche, where she
could put in her little firm foot and stand upon my neck—mistress of
my nature, Do not mistake me, reader, it was no amorous influence she
wished to gain—at that time it was only the power of the politician
to which she aspired; I was now installed as a professor in her
establishment, and she wanted to know where her mind was superior to mine—by
what feeling or opinion she could lead me.</p>
<p>I enjoyed the game much, and did not hasten its conclusion; sometimes I
gave her hopes, beginning a sentence rather weakly, when her shrewd eye
would light up—she thought she had me; having led her a little way,
I delighted to turn round and finish with sound, hard sense, whereat her
countenance would fall. At last a servant entered to announce dinner; the
conflict being thus necessarily terminated, we parted without having
gained any advantage on either side: Mdlle. Reuter had not even given me
an opportunity of attacking her with feeling, and I had managed to baffle
her little schemes of craft. It was a regular drawn battle. I again held
out my hand when I left the room, she gave me hers; it was a small and
white hand, but how cool! I met her eye too in full—obliging her to
give me a straightforward look; this last test went against me: it left
her as it found her—moderate, temperate, tranquil; me it
disappointed.</p>
<p>"I am growing wiser," thought I, as I walked back to M. Pelet's. "Look at
this little woman; is she like the women of novelists and romancers? To
read of female character as depicted in Poetry and Fiction, one would
think it was made up of sentiment, either for good or bad—here is a
specimen, and a most sensible and respectable specimen, too, whose staple
ingredient is abstract reason. No Talleyrand was ever more passionless
than Zoraide Reuter!" So I thought then; I found afterwards that blunt
susceptibilities are very consistent with strong propensities.</p>
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