<h2>VIII.</h2>
<p>Days turned into weeks in the
school, cut off from the world outside.
Jason almost became proud of
his ability to deal death. He recognized
all the animals and plants in
the nursery room and had been promoted
to a trainer where the beasts
made sluggish charges at him. His
gun picked off the attackers with dull
regularity. The constant, daily classes
were beginning to bore him as well.</p>
<p>Though the gravity still dragged at
him, his muscles were making great
efforts to adjust. After the daily classes
he no longer collapsed immediately
into bed. Only the nightmares got
worse. He had finally mentioned them
to Brucco, who mixed up a sleeping
potion that took away most of their
effect. The dreams were still there,
but Jason was only vaguely aware of
them upon awakening.</p>
<p>By the time Jason had mastered all
the gadgetry that kept the Pyrrans
alive, he had graduated to a most realistic
trainer that was only a hair-breadth
away from the real thing. The
difference was just in quality. The insect
poisons caused swelling and pain
instead of instant death. Animals
could cause bruises and tear flesh, but
stopped short of ripping off limbs.
You couldn't get killed in this trainer,
but could certainly come very close
to it.</p>
<p>Jason wandered through this large
and rambling jungle with the rest of
the five-year-olds. There was something
a bit humorous, yet sad, about
their unchildlike grimness. Though
they still might laugh in their quarters,
they realized there was no laughing
outside. To them survival was
linked up with social acceptance and
desirability. In this way Pyrrus was a
simple black-and-white society. To
prove your value to yourself and your
world, you only had to stay alive. This
had great importance in racial survival,
but had very stultifying effects
on individual personality. Children
were turned into like-faced killers, always
on the alert to deal out death.</p>
<p>Some of the children graduated into
the outside world and others took
their places. Jason watched this process
for a while before he realized
that all of those from the original
group he had entered with were gone.
That same day he looked up the chief
of the adaptation center.</p>
<p>"Brucco," Jason asked, "how long
do you plan to keep me in this kindergarten
shooting gallery?"</p>
<p>"You're not being 'kept' here,"
Brucco told him in his usual irritated
tone. "You will be here until you
qualify for the outside."</p>
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<p>"Which I have a funny feeling will
be never. I can now field strip and
reassemble every one of your blasted
gadgets in the dark. I am a dead shot
with this cannon. At this present moment,
if I had to, I could write a book
on the Complete Flora and Fauna of
Pyrrus, and How to Kill It. Perhaps
I don't do as well as my six-year-old
companions, but I have a hunch I
do about as good a job now as I
ever will. Is that true?"</p>
<p>Brucco squirmed with the effort to
be evasive, yet didn't succeed. "I
think, that is, you know you weren't
born here, and—"</p>
<p>"Come, come," Jason said with
glee, "a straight-faced old Pyrran like
you shouldn't try to lie to one of the
weaker races that specialize in that
sort of thing. It goes without saying
that I'll always be sluggish with this
gravity, as well as having other inborn
handicaps. I admit that. We're
not talking about that now. The question
is—will I improve with more
training, or have I reached a peak of
my own <i>development</i> now?"</p>
<p>Brucco sweated. "With the passage
of time there will be improvement of
course—"</p>
<p>"Sly devil!" Jason waggled a finger
at him. "Yes or no, now. Will I improve
<i>now</i> by more training <i>now</i>?"</p>
<p>"No," Brucco said, and still looked
troubled. Jason sized him up like a
poker hand.</p>
<p>"Now let's think about that. I won't
improve—yet I'm still stuck here.
That's no accident. So you must have
been ordered to keep me here. And
from what I have seen of this planet,
admittedly very little, I would say that
Kerk ordered you to keep me here. Is
that right?"</p>
<p>"He was only doing it for your
own sake," Brucco explained, "trying
to keep you alive."</p>
<p>"The truth is out," Jason said, "so
let us now forget about it. I didn't
come here to shoot robots with your
offspring. So please show me the
street door. Or is there a graduating
ceremony first? Speeches, handing out
school pins, sabers overhead—"</p>
<p>"Nothing like that," Brucco snapped.
"I don't see how a grown man
like you can talk such nonsense all
the time. There is none of that, of
course. Only some final work in the
partial survival chamber. That is a
compound that connects with the outside—really
is a part of the outside—except
the most violent life forms are
excluded. And even some of those
manage to find their way in once in
a while."</p>
<p>"When do I go?" Jason shot the
question.</p>
<p>"Tomorrow morning. Get a good
night's sleep first. You'll need it."</p>
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<p>There was one bit of ceremony
attendant with the graduation. When
Jason came into his office in the
morning, Brucco slid a heavy gun clip
across the table.</p>
<p>"These are live bullets," he said.
"I'm sure you'll be needing them.
After this your gun will always be
loaded."</p>
<p>They came up to a heavy air lock,
the only locked door Jason had seen
in the center. While Brucco unlocked
it and threw the bolts, a sober-faced
eight-year-old with a bandaged leg
limped up.</p>
<p>"This is Grif," Brucco said. "He
will stay with you, wherever you go,
from now on."</p>
<p>"My personal bodyguard?" Jason
asked, looking down at the stocky
child who barely reached his waist.</p>
<p>"You might call him that." Brucco
swung the door open. "Grif tangled
with a sawbird, so he won't be able
to do any real work for a while. You
yourself admitted that you will never
be able to equal a Pyrran, so you
should be glad of a little protection."</p>
<p>"Always a kind word, that's you,
Brucco," Jason said. He bent over
and shook hands with the boy. Even
the eight-year-olds had a bone-crushing
grip.</p>
<p>The two of them entered the lock
and Brucco swung the inner door shut
behind them. As soon as it was sealed
the outer door opened automatically.
It was only partly open when Grif's
gun blasted twice. Then they stepped
out onto the surface of Pyrrus, over
the smoking body of one of its animals.</p>
<p>Very symbolic, Jason thought.
He was also bothered by the realization
that he hadn't remembered to
look for something coming in. Then,
too, he couldn't even identify the
beast from its charred remains. He
glanced around, hoping he would be
able to fire first himself, next time.</p>
<p>This was an unfulfilled hope. The
few beasts that came their way were
always seen first by the boy. After an
hour of this, Jason was so irritated
that he blasted an evil-looking thorn
plant out of existence. He hoped that
Grif wouldn't look too closely at it.
Of course the boy did.</p>
<p>"That plant wasn't close. It is stupid
to waste good ammunition on a
plant," Grif said.</p>
<p>There was no real trouble during
the day. Jason ended by being bored,
though soaked by the frequent rainstorms.
If Grif was capable of carrying
on a conversation, he didn't show
it. All Jason's gambits failed. The
following day went the same way. On
the third day, Brucco appeared and
looked Jason carefully up and down.</p>
<p>"I don't like to say it, but I suppose
you are as ready to leave now
as you ever will be. Change the virus
filter noseplugs every day. Always
check boots for tears and metalcloth
suiting for rips. Medikit supplies renewed
once a week."</p>
<p>"And wipe my nose and wear my
galoshes. Anything else?" Jason
asked.</p>
<p>Brucco started to say something,
then changed his mind. "Nothing that
you shouldn't know well by now.
Keep alert. And ... good luck." He
followed up the words with a crushing
handshake that was totally unexpected.
As soon as the numbness left
Jason's hand, he and Grif went out
through the large entrance lock.</p>
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