<h2>XX.</h2>
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<p class="firstp"><span class="dcap">rom</span> the beginning
now," Kerk said. "And
leave out nothing."</p>
<p>"There is very little
more that I can add to
the physical facts. I saw the animals,
understood the message. I even experimented
with some of them and
they reacted to my mental commands.
What I must do now is track
down the source of the orders that
keep this war going.</p>
<p>"I'll tell you something that I
have never told anyone else. I'm not
only lucky at gambling. I have
enough psi ability to alter probability
in my favor. It's an erratic ability
that I have tried to improve for obvious
reasons. During the past ten
years I managed to study at all of
the centers that do psi research.
Compared to other fields of knowledge
it is amazing how little they
know. Basic psi talents can be improved
by practice, and some machines
have been devised that act as
psionic amplifiers. One of these,
used correctly, is a very good directional
indicator."</p>
<p>"You want to build this machine?"
Kerk asked.</p>
<p>"Exactly. Build it and take it outside
the city in the ship. Any signal
strong enough to keep this centuries-old
battle going should be strong
enough to track down. I'll follow it,
contact the creatures who are sending
it, and try to find out why they are
doing it. I assume you'll go along
with any reasonable plan that will
end this war?"</p>
<p>"Anything reasonable," Kerk said
coldly. "How long will it take you
to build this machine?"</p>
<p>"Just a few days if you have all
the parts here," Jason told him.</p>
<p>"Then do it. I'm canceling the
flight that's leaving now and I'll keep
the ship here, ready to go. When
the machine is built I want you to
track the signal and report back to
me."</p>
<p>"Agreed," Jason said, standing
up. "As soon as I have this hole in
my back looked at I'll draw up a list
of things needed."</p>
<p>A grim, unsmiling man named
Skop was assigned to Jason as a combination
guide and guard. He took
his job very seriously, and it didn't
take Jason long to realize that he
was a prisoner-at-large. Kerk had accepted
his story, but that was no
guarantee that he believed it. At a
single word from him, the guard
could turn executioner.</p>
<p>The chill thought hit Jason that
undoubtedly this was what would
happen. Whether Kerk accepted the
story or not—he couldn't afford to
take a chance. As long as there was
the slightest possibility Jason had
contacted the grubbers, he could not
be allowed to leave the planet alive.
The woods people were being simple
if they thought a plan this obvious
might succeed. Or had they just
gambled on the very long chance it
might work? <i>They</i> certainly had
nothing to lose by it.</p>
<p>Only half of Jason's mind was occupied
with the work as he drew up
a list of materials he would need for
the psionic direction finder. His
thoughts plodded in tight circles,
searching for a way out that didn't
exist. He was too deeply involved
now to just leave. Kerk would see
to that. Unless he could find a way
to end the war and settle the grubber
question he was marooned on
Pyrrus for life. A very short life.</p>
<p>When the list was ready he called
Supply. With a few substitutions,
everything he might possibly need
was in stock, and would be sent
over. Skop sank into an apparent
doze in his chair and Jason, his head
propped against the pull of gravity
by one arm, began a working sketch
of his machine.</p>
<p>Jason looked up suddenly, aware
of the silence. He could hear machinery
in the building and voices
in the hall outside. What kind of
silence then—?</p>
<p>Mental silence. He had been so
preoccupied since his return to the
city that he hadn't noticed the complete
lack of any kind of psi sensation.
The constant wash of animal
reactions was missing, as was the
vague tactile awareness of his PK.
With sudden realization he remembered
that it was always this way
inside the city.</p>
<p>He tried to listen with his mind—and
stopped almost before he began.
There was a constant press of
thought about him that he was made
aware of when he reached out. It
was like being in a vessel far beneath
the ocean, with your hand on
the door that held back the frightening
pressure. Touching the door,
without opening it, you could feel
the stresses, the power pushing in
and waiting to crush you. It was this
way with the psi pressure on the
city. The unvoiced hate-filled
screams of Pyrrus would instantly
destroy any mind that received them.
Some function of his brain acted as
a psi-circuit breaker, shutting off
awareness before his mind could be
blasted. There was just enough leak-through
to keep him aware of the
pressure—and supply the raw materials
for his constant nightmares.</p>
<p>There was only one fringe benefit.
The lack of thought pressure made
it easier for him to concentrate. In
spite of his fatigue the diagram developed
swiftly.</p>
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<p>Meta arrived late that afternoon,
bringing the parts he had ordered.
She slid the long box onto the workbench,
started to speak, but changed
her mind and said nothing. Jason
looked up at her and smiled.</p>
<p>"Confused?" he asked.</p>
<p>"I don't know what you mean,"
she said, "I'm not confused. Just
annoyed. The regular trip has been
canceled and our supply schedule will
be thrown off for months to come.
And instead of piloting or perimeter
assignment all I can do is stand
around and wait for you. Then take
some silly flight following your directions.
Do you wonder that I'm
annoyed?"</p>
<p>Jason carefully set the parts out
on the chassis before he spoke. "As I
said, you're confused. I can point out
how you're confused—which will
make you even more confused. A
temptation that I frankly find hard
to resist."</p>
<p>She looked across the bench at
him, frowning. One finger unconsciously
curling and uncurling a
short lock of hair. Jason liked her
this way. As a Pyrran operating at
full blast she had as much personality
as a gear in a machine. Once
out of that pattern she reminded
him more of the girl he had known
on that first flight to Pyrrus. He wondered
if it was possible to really get
across to her what he meant.</p>
<p>"I'm not being insulting when I
say 'confused,' Meta. With your
background you couldn't be any other
way. You have an insular personality.
Admittedly, Pyrrus is an unusual
island with a lot of high-power
problems that you are an expert
at solving. That doesn't make it any
less of an island. When you face a
cosmopolitan problem you are confused.
Or even worse, when your island
problems are put into a bigger
context. That's like playing your own
game, only having the rules change
constantly as you go along."</p>
<p>"You're talking nonsense," she
snapped at him. "Pyrrus isn't an island
and battling for survival is
definitely not a game."</p>
<p>"I'm sorry," he smiled. "I was
using a figure of speech, and a badly
chosen one at that. Let's put the
problem on more concrete terms.
Take an example. Suppose I were
to tell you that over there, hanging
from the doorframe, was a stingwing—"</p>
<p>Meta's gun was pointing at the
door before he finished the last word.
There was a crash as the guard's
chair went over. He had jumped
from a half-doze to full alertness in
an instant, his gun also searching the
doorframe.</p>
<p>"That was just an example," Jason
said. "There's really nothing
there." The guard's gun vanished
and he scowled a look of contempt
at Jason, as he righted the chair and
dropped into it.</p>
<p>"You both have proved yourself
capable of handling a Pyrran problem."
Jason continued. "But what if
I said that there is a thing hanging
from the doorframe that <i>looks</i> like
a stingwing, but is really a kind of
large insect that spins a fine silk that
can be used to weave clothes?"</p>
<p>The guard glared from under his
thick eyebrows at the empty doorframe,
his gun whined part way out,
then snapped back into the holster.
He growled something inaudible at
Jason, then stamped into the outer
room, slamming the door behind
him. Meta frowned in concentration
and looked puzzled.</p>
<p>"It couldn't be anything except a
stingwing," she finally said. "Nothing
else could possibly look like that.
And even if it didn't spin silk, it
would bite if you got near, so you
would have to kill it." She smiled
with satisfaction at the indestructible
logic of her answer.</p>
<p>"Wrong again," Jason said. "I
just described the mimic-spinner
that lives on Stover's Planet. It imitates
the most violent forms of life
there, does such a good job that it
has no need for other defenses. It'll
sit quietly on your hand and spin
for you by the yard. If I dropped a
shipload of them here on Pyrrus,
you never could be sure when to
shoot, could you?"</p>
<p>"But they are not here now," Meta
insisted.</p>
<p>"Yet they could be quite easily.
And if they were, all the rules of
your game would change. Getting
the idea now? There are some fixed
laws and rules in the galaxy—but
they're not the ones you live by.
Your rule is war unending with the
local life. I want to step outside your
rule book and end that war. Wouldn't
you like that? Wouldn't you like
an existence that was more than just
an endless battle for survival? A life
with a chance for happiness, love,
music, art—all the enjoyable things
you have never had the time for."</p>
<p>All the Pyrran sternness was gone
from her face as she listened to what
he said, letting herself follow these
alien concepts. He had put his hand
out automatically as he talked, and
had taken hers. It was warm and
her pulse fast to his touch.</p>
<p>Meta suddenly became conscious
of his hand and snapped hers away,
rising to her feet at the same time.
As she started blindly towards the
door, Jason's voice snapped after
her.</p>
<p>"The guard, Skop, ran out because
he didn't want to lose his precious
two-value logic. It's all he has. But
you've seen other parts of the galaxy,
Meta, you know there is a lot
more to life than kill-and-be-killed
on Pyrrus. You feel it is true, even
if you won't admit it."</p>
<p>She turned and ran out the door.</p>
<p>Jason looked after her, his hand
scraping the bristle on his chin
thoughtfully. "Meta, I have the faint
hope that the woman is winning
over the Pyrran. I think that I saw—perhaps
for the first time in the
history of this bloody war-torn city—a
tear in one of its citizen's eyes."</p>
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