<SPAN name="startofbook"></SPAN>
<div class='figtag'>
<SPAN name='linki_1' id='linki_1'></SPAN></div>
<div class='figcenter'>
<ANTIMG src='images/illus-fpc.jpg' alt='' title='' width-obs='388' height-obs='572' /><br/>
<p class='caption'>
“Listen. Go with the love in your heart––for me.”<br/>
<span class='smcap'>Frontispiece.</span> <i>See Page 329.</i><br/></p>
</div>
<hr class='pb' />
<p class='tp' style='font-size:2.2em;margin-bottom:20px;'>The Eye of Dread</p>
<p class='tp' style='font-size:1.4em;margin-bottom:20px;'>By PAYNE ERSKINE</p>
<p class='tp'>Author of “The Mountain Girl,” “Joyful Heatherby,”<br/>Etc.</p>
<div style='margin:60px auto; text-align:center;'>
<ANTIMG alt='emblem' src='images/illus-emb.png' /></div>
<p class='tp' style='font-size:larger;margin-bottom:30px;'>With Frontispiece by<br/>GEORGE GIBBS</p>
<p class='tp' style='font-size:1.2em;'>A. L. BURT COMPANY, PUBLISHERS</p>
<p class='tp' >114-120 East Twenty-third Street - - New York</p>
<p class='tp' style='font-variant:small-caps;font-size:smaller;'>Published by Arrangement With Little, Brown & Company</p>
<hr class='pb' />
<p class='tp' ><i>Copyright, 1913,</i></p>
<p class='tp' ><span class='smcap'>By Little, Brown, and Company</span>.</p>
<hr class='p10' />
<p class='tp' style='margin-bottom:20px;'><i>All rights reserved</i></p>
<p class='tp' >Published, October, 1913</p>
<p class='tp' >Reprinted, October, 1913</p>
<hr class='pb' />
<h3>CONTENTS</h3>
<table border='0' cellpadding='2' cellspacing='0' summary='Contents' style='margin:1em auto;'>
<tr>
<td valign='top' colspan='3'><p style='margin:1em auto 0.5em auto; font-size:110%; text-align:center;'>BOOK ONE</p>
</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'><p style='font-size:small;text-align:left'>CHAPTER</p>
</td>
<td />
<td valign='top' align='right'><p style='font-size:small;text-align:right'>PAGE</p>
</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>I.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>Betty</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_I_BETTY'>1</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>II.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>Watching the Bees</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_II_WATCHING_THE_BEES'>9</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>III.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>A Mother’s Struggle</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_III_A_MOTHERS_STRUGGLE'>23</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>IV.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>Leave-Taking</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_IV_LEAVETAKING'>34</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>V.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>The Passing of Time</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_V_THE_PASSING_OF_TIME'>49</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>VI.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>The End of the War</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_VI_THE_END_OF_THE_WAR'>59</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>VII.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>A New Era Begins</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_VII_A_NEW_ERA_BEGINS'>69</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>VIII.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>Mary Ballard’s Discovery</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_VIII_MARY_BALLARDS_DISCOVERY'>87</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>IX.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>The Banker’s Point of View</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_IX_THE_BANKERS_POINT_OF_VIEW'>97</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>X.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>The Nutting Party</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_X_THE_NUTTING_PARTY'>110</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XI.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>Betty Ballard’s Awakening</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XI_BETTY_BALLARDS_AWAKENING'>125</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XII.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>Mysterious Findings</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XII_MYSTERIOUS_FINDINGS'>139</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XIII.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>Confession</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XIII_CONFESSION'>157</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' colspan='3'><p style='margin:1em auto 0.5em auto; font-size:110%; text-align:center;'>BOOK TWO</p>
</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XIV.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>Out of the Desert</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XIV_OUT_OF_THE_DESERT'>168</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XV.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>The Big Man’s Return</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XV_THE_BIG_MANS_RETURN'>183</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XVI.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>A Peculiar Position</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XVI_A_PECULIAR_POSITION'>198</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XVII.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>Adopting a Family</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XVII_ADOPTING_A_FAMILY'>208</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XVIII.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>Larry Kildene’s Story</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XVIII_LARRY_KILDENES_STORY'>219</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XIX.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>The Mine––And the Departure</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XIX_THE_MINEAND_THE_DEPARTURE'>237</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XX.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>Alone on the Mountain</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XX_ALONE_ON_THE_MOUNTAIN'>252</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XXI.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>The Violin</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XXI_THE_VIOLIN'>267</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XXII.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>The Beast on the Trail</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XXII_THE_BEAST_ON_THE_TRAIL'>282</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XXIII.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>A Discourse on Lying</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XXIII_A_DISCOURSE_ON_LYING'>295</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XXIV.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>Amalia’s Fête</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XXIV_AMALIAS_FTE'>305</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XXV.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>Harry King Leaves the Mountain</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XXV_HARRY_KING_LEAVES_THE_MOUNTAIN'>318</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' colspan='3'><p style='margin:1em auto 0.5em auto; font-size:110%; text-align:center;'>BOOK THREE</p>
</td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XXVI.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>The Little School-Teacher</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XXVI_THE_LITTLE_SCHOOLTEACHER'>331</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XXVII.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>The Swede’s Telegram</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XXVII_THE_SWEDES_TELEGRAM'>342</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XXVIII.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>“A Resemblance Somewhere”</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XXVIII_A_RESEMBLANCE_SOMEWHERE'>354</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XXIX.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>The Arrest</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XXIX_THE_ARREST'>365</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XXX.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>The Argument</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XXX_THE_ARGUMENT'>376</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XXXI.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>Robert Kater’s Success</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XXXI_ROBERT_KATERS_SUCCESS'>387</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XXXII.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>The Prisoner</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XXXII_THE_PRISONER'>408</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XXXIII.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>Hester Craigmile Receives Her Letter</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XXXIII_HESTER_CRAIGMILE_RECEIVES_HER_LETTER'>422</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XXXIV.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>Jean Craigmile’s Return</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XXXIV_JEAN_CRAIGMILES_RETURN'>433</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XXXV.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>The Trial</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XXXV_THE_TRIAL'>445</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XXXVI.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>Nels Nelson’s Testimony</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XXXVI_NELS_NELSONS_TESTIMONY'>453</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XXXVII.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>The Stranger’s Arrival</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XXXVII_THE_STRANGERS_ARRIVAL'>463</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XXXVIII.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>Betty Ballard’s Testimony</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XXXVIII_BETTY_BALLARDS_TESTIMONY'>475</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XXXIX.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>Reconciliation</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XXXIX_RECONCILIATION'>487</SPAN></td>
</tr>
<tr>
<td valign='top' class='chalgn'>XL.</td>
<td valign='top' align='left' style='padding-right:4em;'><span class='smcap'>The Same Boy</span></td>
<td valign='bottom' align='right'><SPAN href='#CHAPTER_XL_THE_SAME_BOY'>499</SPAN></td>
</tr>
</table>
<hr class='pb' />
<div><span class='pagenum pncolor'><SPAN name='page_1' name='page_1'></SPAN>1</span></div>
<h1>THE EYE OF DREAD</h1>
<h2>BOOK ONE</h2>
<hr class='toprule' />
<div class='chsp'>
<SPAN name='CHAPTER_I_BETTY' id='CHAPTER_I_BETTY'></SPAN>
<h2>CHAPTER I</h2>
<h3>BETTY</h3></div>
<p>Two whip-poor-wills were uttering their insistent note,
hidden somewhere among the thick foliage of the maple
and basswood trees that towered above the spring down
behind the house where the Ballards lived. The sky in
the west still glowed with amber light, and the crescent
moon floated like a golden boat above the horizon’s edge.
The day had been unusually warm, and the family were
all gathered on the front porch in the dusk. The lamps
within were unlighted, and the evening wind blew the white
muslin curtains out and in through the opened windows.
The porch was low,––only a step from the ground,––and
the grass of the dooryard felt soft and cool to the bare feet
of the children.</p>
<p>In front and all around lay the garden––flowers and
fruit quaintly intermingled. Down the long path to the
gate, where three roads met, great bunches of peonies lifted
white blossoms––luminously white in the moonlight;
and on either side rows of currant bushes cast low, dark
shadows, and here and there dwarf crab-apple trees tossed
pale, scented flowers above them. In the dusky evening
<span class='pagenum pncolor'><SPAN name='page_2' name='page_2'></SPAN>2</span>
light the iris flowers showed frail and iridescent against
the dark shadows under the bushes.</p>
<p>The children chattered quietly at their play, as if they
felt a mystery around them, and small Betty was sure she
saw fairies dancing on the iris flowers when the light breeze
stirred them; but of this she said nothing, lest her practical
older sister should drop a scornful word of unbelief, a thing
Betty shrank from and instinctively avoided. Why should
she be told there were no such things as fairies and goblins
and pigwidgeons, when one might be at that very moment
dancing at her elbow and hear it all?</p>
<p>So Betty wagged her curly golden head, wise with the
wisdom of childhood, and went her own ways and thought
her own thoughts. As for the strange creatures of wondrous
power that peopled the earth, and the sky, and the
streams, she knew they were there. She could almost see
them, could almost feel them and hear them, even though
they were hidden from mortal sight.</p>
<p>Did she not often go when the sun was setting and climb
the fence behind the barn under the great locust and silver-leaf
poplar trees, where none could see her, and watch the
fiery griffins in the west? Could she not see them flame
and flash, their wings spreading far out across the sky in
fantastic flight, or drawn close and folded about them in
hues of purple and crimson and gold? Could she not see
the flying mist-women flinging their floating robes of
softest pink and palest green around their slender limbs,
and trailing them delicately across the deepening sky?</p>
<p>Had she not heard the giants––nay, seen them––driving
their terrible steeds over the tumbled clouds, and
rolling them smooth with noise of thunder, under huge
<span class='pagenum pncolor'><SPAN name='page_3' name='page_3'></SPAN>3</span>
rolling machines a thousand times bigger than that Farmer
Hopkins used to crush the clods in his wheat field in the
spring? Had she not seen the flashes of fire dart through
the heavens, struck by the hoofs of the giants’ huge beasts?
Ah! She knew! If Martha would only listen to her,
she could show her some of these true things and stop her
scoffing.</p>
<p>Lured by these mysteries, Betty made short excursions
into the garden away from the others, peering among the
shadows, and gazing wide-eyed into the clusters of iris
flowers above which night moths fluttered softly and
silently. Maybe there were fairies there. Three could
ride at once on the back of a devil’s riding horse, she knew,
and in the daytime they rode the dragon flies, two at a time;
they were so light it was nothing for the great green and
gold, big-eyed dragon flies to carry two.</p>
<p>Betty knew a place below the spring where the maidenhair
fern grew thick and spread out wide, perfect fronds on
slender brown stems, shading fairy bowers; and where
taller ferns grew high and leaned over like a delicate fairy
forest; and where the wild violets grew so thick you could
not see the ground beneath them, and the grass was lush
and long like fine green hair, and crept up the hillside and
over the roots of the maple and basswood trees. Here
lived the elves; she knew them well, and often lay with
her head among the violets, listening for the thin sound of
their elfin fiddles. Often she had drowsed the summer
noon in the coolness, unheeding the dinner call, until busy
Martha roused her with the sisterly scolding she knew she
deserved and took in good part.</p>
<p>Now as Betty crept cautiously about, peering and hoping
<span class='pagenum pncolor'><SPAN name='page_4' name='page_4'></SPAN>4</span>
with a half-fearing expectation, a sweet, threadlike wail
trembled out toward her across the moonlit and shadowed
space. Her father was tuning his violin. Her mother
sat at his side, hushing Bobby in her arms. Betty could
hear the sound of her rockers on the porch floor. Now the
plaintive call of the violin came stronger, and she hastened
back to curl up at her father’s feet and listen. She closed
her vision-seeing eyes and leaned against her father’s knee.
He felt the gentle pressure of his little daughter’s head and
liked it.</p>
<p>All the long summer day Betty’s small feet had carried
her on numberless errands for young and old, and as the
season advanced she would be busier still. This Betty
well knew, for she was old enough to remember other
summers, several of them, each bringing an advancing
crescendo of work. But oh, the happy days! For Betty
lived in a world all her own, wherein her play was as real
as her work, and labor was turned by her imaginative little
mind into new forms of play, and although night often
found her weary––too tired to lie quietly in her bed sometimes––the
line between the two was never in her thoughts
distinctly drawn.</p>
<p>To-night Betty’s conscience was troubling her a little,
for she had done two naughty things, and the pathetic
quality of her father’s music made her wish with all the
intensity of her sensitive soul that she might confess to
some one what she had done, but it was all too peaceful
and sweet now to tell her mother of naughty things, and,
anyway, she could not confess before the whole family,
so she tried to repent very hard and tell God all about it.
Somehow it was always easier to tell God about things;
<span class='pagenum pncolor'><SPAN name='page_5' name='page_5'></SPAN>5</span>
for she reasoned, if God was everywhere and knew everything,
then he knew she had been bad, and had seen her
all the time, and all she need do was to own up to it, without
explaining everything in words, as she would have to
do to her mother.</p>
<p>Brother Bobby’s bare feet swung close to her cheek as
they dangled from her mother’s knee, and she turned and
kissed them, first one and then the other, with eager kisses.
He stirred and kicked out at her fretfully.</p>
<p>“Don’t wake him, dear,” said her mother.</p>
<p>Then Betty drew up her knees and clasped them about
with her arms, and hid her face on them while she repented
very hard. Mother had said that very day that she never
felt troubled about the baby when Betty had care of him,
and that very day she had recklessly taken him up into the
barn loft, climbing behind him and guiding his little feet
from one rung of the perpendicular ladder to another,
teaching him to cling with clenched hands to the rounds
until she had landed him in the loft. There she had persuaded
him he was a swallow in his nest, while she had taken
her fill of the delight of leaping from the loft down into the
bay, where she had first tossed enough hay to make a soft
lighting place for the twelve-foot leap.</p>
<p>Oh, the joy of it––flying through the air! If she could
only fly up instead of down! Every time she climbed
back into the loft she would stop and cuddle the little
brother and toss hay over him and tell him he was a baby
bird, and she was the mother bird, and must fly away and
bring him nice worms. She bade him look up to the rafters
above and see the mother birds flying out and in, while
the little birds just sat still in their nests and opened their
<span class='pagenum pncolor'><SPAN name='page_6' name='page_6'></SPAN>6</span>
mouths. So Bobby sat still, and when she returned, obediently
opened his mouth; but alas! he wearied of his rôle
in the play, and at last crept to the very edge of the loft
at a place where there was no hay spread beneath to break
his fall; and when Betty looked up and saw his sweet
baby face peering down at her over the edge, her heart
stopped beating. How wildly she called for him to wait
for her to come to him! She promised him all the dearest
of her treasures if he would wait until “sister” got there.</p>
<p>Now, as she sat clasping her knees, her little body grew
all trembling and weak again as she lived over the terrible
moment when she had reached him just in time to drag
him back from the edge, and to cuddle and caress him,
until he lifted up his voice and wept, not because he was in
the least troubled or hurt, but because it seemed to be the
right thing to do.</p>
<p>Then she gave him the pretty round comb that held back
her hair, and he promptly straightened it and broke it;
and when she reluctantly brought him back to dinner––how
she had succeeded in getting him down from the loft
would make a chapter of diplomacy––her mother reproved
her for allowing him to take it, and lapped the two pieces
and wound them about with thread, and told her she
must wear the broken comb after this. She was glad––glad
it was broken––and she had treasured it so––and
glad that her mother had scolded her; she wished she
had scolded harder instead of speaking words of praise
that cut her to the heart. Oh, oh, oh! If he had fallen
over, he would be dead now, and she would have killed
him! Thus she tortured herself, and repented very hard.</p>
<p>The other sin she had that day committed she felt to be
<span class='pagenum pncolor'><SPAN name='page_7' name='page_7'></SPAN>7</span>
a double sin, because she knew all the time it was wrong
and did it deliberately. When she went out with the corn
meal to feed the little chicks and fetch in the new-laid eggs,
she carried, concealed under her skirt, a small, squat book
of Robert Burns’ poems. These poems she loved; not
that she understood them, but that the rhythm pleased
her, and the odd words and half-comprehended phrases
stirred her imagination.</p>
<p>So, after feeding the chicks and gathering the eggs, she
did not return to the house, but climbed instead up into the
top of the silver-leaf poplar behind the barn, and sat there
long, swaying with the swaying tree top and reading the
lines that most fascinated her and stirred her soul, until
she forgot she must help Martha with the breakfast dishes––forgot
she must carry milk to the neighbor’s––forgot
she must mind the baby and peel the potatoes for dinner.
It was so delightful to sway and swing and chant the
rythmic lines over and over that almost she forgot she was
being bad, and Martha had done the things she ought to
have done, and the baby cried himself to sleep without her,
and lay with the pathetic tear marks still on his cheeks,
but her tired mother had only looked reproachfully at her
and had not said one word. Oh, dear! If she could only
be a good girl! If only she might pass one day being good
all day long with nothing to regret!</p>
<p>Now with the wailing of the violin her soul grew hungry
and sad, and a strange, unchildish fear crept over her, a
fear of the years to come––so long and endless they would
be, always coming, coming, one after another; and here
she was, never to stop living, and every day doing something
that she ought not and every evening repenting it––and
<span class='pagenum pncolor'><SPAN name='page_8' name='page_8'></SPAN>8</span>
her father might stop loving her, and her sister might
stop loving her, and her little brother might stop loving
her, and Bobby might die––and even her mother might
die or stop loving her, and she might grow up and marry
a man who forgot after a while to love her––and she
might be very poor––even poorer than they were now, and
have to wash dishes every day and no one to help her––until
at last she could bear the sadness no longer, and could
not repent as hard as she ought, there where she could not
go down on her knees and just cry and cry. So she slipped
away and crept in the darkness to her own room, where her
mother found her half an hour later on her knees beside
the bed fast asleep. She lovingly undressed the limp,
weary little girl, lifted her tenderly and laid her curly head
on the pillow, and kissed her cheek with a repentant sigh
of her own, regretting that she must lay so many tasks on
so small a child.</p>
<hr class='toprule' />
<div class='chsp'>
<span class='pagenum pncolor'><SPAN name='page_9' name='page_9'></SPAN>9</span>
<SPAN name='CHAPTER_II_WATCHING_THE_BEES' id='CHAPTER_II_WATCHING_THE_BEES'></SPAN>
<div style="break-after:column;"></div><br />