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<h2> XXXVI </h2>
<p>There was a garden out in the suburbs; a small, leafy corner, with a few
green tables under the orange trees. An old cat slept all day on the stone
step in the sun, and an old mulatresse slept her idle hours away in her
chair at the open window, till some one happened to knock on one of the
green tables. She had milk and cream cheese to sell, and bread and butter.
There was no one who could make such excellent coffee or fry a chicken so
golden brown as she.</p>
<p>The place was too modest to attract the attention of people of fashion,
and so quiet as to have escaped the notice of those in search of pleasure
and dissipation. Edna had discovered it accidentally one day when the
high-board gate stood ajar. She caught sight of a little green table,
blotched with the checkered sunlight that filtered through the quivering
leaves overhead. Within she had found the slumbering mulatresse, the
drowsy cat, and a glass of milk which reminded her of the milk she had
tasted in Iberville.</p>
<p>She often stopped there during her perambulations; sometimes taking a book
with her, and sitting an hour or two under the trees when she found the
place deserted. Once or twice she took a quiet dinner there alone, having
instructed Celestine beforehand to prepare no dinner at home. It was the
last place in the city where she would have expected to meet any one she
knew.</p>
<p>Still she was not astonished when, as she was partaking of a modest dinner
late in the afternoon, looking into an open book, stroking the cat, which
had made friends with her—she was not greatly astonished to see
Robert come in at the tall garden gate.</p>
<p>"I am destined to see you only by accident," she said, shoving the cat off
the chair beside her. He was surprised, ill at ease, almost embarrassed at
meeting her thus so unexpectedly.</p>
<p>"Do you come here often?" he asked.</p>
<p>"I almost live here," she said.</p>
<p>"I used to drop in very often for a cup of Catiche's good coffee. This is
the first time since I came back."</p>
<p>"She'll bring you a plate, and you will share my dinner. There's always
enough for two—even three." Edna had intended to be indifferent and
as reserved as he when she met him; she had reached the determination by a
laborious train of reasoning, incident to one of her despondent moods. But
her resolve melted when she saw him before designing Providence had led
him into her path.</p>
<p>"Why have you kept away from me, Robert?" she asked, closing the book that
lay open upon the table.</p>
<p>"Why are you so personal, Mrs. Pontellier? Why do you force me to idiotic
subterfuges?" he exclaimed with sudden warmth. "I suppose there's no use
telling you I've been very busy, or that I've been sick, or that I've been
to see you and not found you at home. Please let me off with any one of
these excuses."</p>
<p>"You are the embodiment of selfishness," she said. "You save yourself
something—I don't know what—but there is some selfish motive,
and in sparing yourself you never consider for a moment what I think, or
how I feel your neglect and indifference. I suppose this is what you would
call unwomanly; but I have got into a habit of expressing myself. It
doesn't matter to me, and you may think me unwomanly if you like."</p>
<p>"No; I only think you cruel, as I said the other day. Maybe not
intentionally cruel; but you seem to be forcing me into disclosures which
can result in nothing; as if you would have me bare a wound for the
pleasure of looking at it, without the intention or power of healing it."</p>
<p>"I'm spoiling your dinner, Robert; never mind what I say. You haven't
eaten a morsel."</p>
<p>"I only came in for a cup of coffee." His sensitive face was all
disfigured with excitement.</p>
<p>"Isn't this a delightful place?" she remarked. "I am so glad it has never
actually been discovered. It is so quiet, so sweet, here. Do you notice
there is scarcely a sound to be heard? It's so out of the way; and a good
walk from the car. However, I don't mind walking. I always feel so sorry
for women who don't like to walk; they miss so much—so many rare
little glimpses of life; and we women learn so little of life on the
whole.</p>
<p>"Catiche's coffee is always hot. I don't know how she manages it, here in
the open air. Celestine's coffee gets cold bringing it from the kitchen to
the dining-room. Three lumps! How can you drink it so sweet? Take some of
the cress with your chop; it's so biting and crisp. Then there's the
advantage of being able to smoke with your coffee out here. Now, in the
city—aren't you going to smoke?"</p>
<p>"After a while," he said, laying a cigar on the table.</p>
<p>"Who gave it to you?" she laughed.</p>
<p>"I bought it. I suppose I'm getting reckless; I bought a whole box." She
was determined not to be personal again and make him uncomfortable.</p>
<p>The cat made friends with him, and climbed into his lap when he smoked his
cigar. He stroked her silky fur, and talked a little about her. He looked
at Edna's book, which he had read; and he told her the end, to save her
the trouble of wading through it, he said.</p>
<p>Again he accompanied her back to her home; and it was after dusk when they
reached the little "pigeon-house." She did not ask him to remain, which he
was grateful for, as it permitted him to stay without the discomfort of
blundering through an excuse which he had no intention of considering. He
helped her to light the lamp; then she went into her room to take off her
hat and to bathe her face and hands.</p>
<p>When she came back Robert was not examining the pictures and magazines as
before; he sat off in the shadow, leaning his head back on the chair as if
in a reverie. Edna lingered a moment beside the table, arranging the books
there. Then she went across the room to where he sat. She bent over the
arm of his chair and called his name.</p>
<p>"Robert," she said, "are you asleep?"</p>
<p>"No," he answered, looking up at her.</p>
<p>She leaned over and kissed him—a soft, cool, delicate kiss, whose
voluptuous sting penetrated his whole being-then she moved away from him.
He followed, and took her in his arms, just holding her close to him. She
put her hand up to his face and pressed his cheek against her own. The
action was full of love and tenderness. He sought her lips again. Then he
drew her down upon the sofa beside him and held her hand in both of his.</p>
<p>"Now you know," he said, "now you know what I have been fighting against
since last summer at Grand Isle; what drove me away and drove me back
again."</p>
<p>"Why have you been fighting against it?" she asked. Her face glowed with
soft lights.</p>
<p>"Why? Because you were not free; you were Leonce Pontellier's wife. I
couldn't help loving you if you were ten times his wife; but so long as I
went away from you and kept away I could help telling you so." She put her
free hand up to his shoulder, and then against his cheek, rubbing it
softly. He kissed her again. His face was warm and flushed.</p>
<p>"There in Mexico I was thinking of you all the time, and longing for you."</p>
<p>"But not writing to me," she interrupted.</p>
<p>"Something put into my head that you cared for me; and I lost my senses. I
forgot everything but a wild dream of your some way becoming my wife."</p>
<p>"Your wife!"</p>
<p>"Religion, loyalty, everything would give way if only you cared."</p>
<p>"Then you must have forgotten that I was Leonce Pontellier's wife."</p>
<p>"Oh! I was demented, dreaming of wild, impossible things, recalling men
who had set their wives free, we have heard of such things."</p>
<p>"Yes, we have heard of such things."</p>
<p>"I came back full of vague, mad intentions. And when I got here—"</p>
<p>"When you got here you never came near me!" She was still caressing his
cheek.</p>
<p>"I realized what a cur I was to dream of such a thing, even if you had
been willing."</p>
<p>She took his face between her hands and looked into it as if she would
never withdraw her eyes more. She kissed him on the forehead, the eyes,
the cheeks, and the lips.</p>
<p>"You have been a very, very foolish boy, wasting your time dreaming of
impossible things when you speak of Mr. Pontellier setting me free! I am
no longer one of Mr. Pontellier's possessions to dispose of or not. I give
myself where I choose. If he were to say, 'Here, Robert, take her and be
happy; she is yours,' I should laugh at you both."</p>
<p>His face grew a little white. "What do you mean?" he asked.</p>
<p>There was a knock at the door. Old Celestine came in to say that Madame
Ratignolle's servant had come around the back way with a message that
Madame had been taken sick and begged Mrs. Pontellier to go to her
immediately.</p>
<p>"Yes, yes," said Edna, rising; "I promised. Tell her yes—to wait for
me. I'll go back with her."</p>
<p>"Let me walk over with you," offered Robert.</p>
<p>"No," she said; "I will go with the servant." She went into her room to
put on her hat, and when she came in again she sat once more upon the sofa
beside him. He had not stirred. She put her arms about his neck.</p>
<p>"Good-by, my sweet Robert. Tell me good-by." He kissed her with a degree
of passion which had not before entered into his caress, and strained her
to him.</p>
<p>"I love you," she whispered, "only you; no one but you. It was you who
awoke me last summer out of a life-long, stupid dream. Oh! you have made
me so unhappy with your indifference. Oh! I have suffered, suffered! Now
you are here we shall love each other, my Robert. We shall be everything
to each other. Nothing else in the world is of any consequence. I must go
to my friend; but you will wait for me? No matter how late; you will wait
for me, Robert?"</p>
<p>"Don't go; don't go! Oh! Edna, stay with me," he pleaded. "Why should you
go? Stay with me, stay with me."</p>
<p>"I shall come back as soon as I can; I shall find you here." She buried
her face in his neck, and said good-by again. Her seductive voice,
together with his great love for her, had enthralled his senses, had
deprived him of every impulse but the longing to hold her and keep her.</p>
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<h2> XXXVII </h2>
<p>Edna looked in at the drug store. Monsieur Ratignolle was putting up a
mixture himself, very carefully, dropping a red liquid into a tiny glass.
He was grateful to Edna for having come; her presence would be a comfort
to his wife. Madame Ratignolle's sister, who had always been with her at
such trying times, had not been able to come up from the plantation, and
Adele had been inconsolable until Mrs. Pontellier so kindly promised to
come to her. The nurse had been with them at night for the past week, as
she lived a great distance away. And Dr. Mandelet had been coming and
going all the afternoon. They were then looking for him any moment.</p>
<p>Edna hastened upstairs by a private stairway that led from the rear of the
store to the apartments above. The children were all sleeping in a back
room. Madame Ratignolle was in the salon, whither she had strayed in her
suffering impatience. She sat on the sofa, clad in an ample white
peignoir, holding a handkerchief tight in her hand with a nervous clutch.
Her face was drawn and pinched, her sweet blue eyes haggard and unnatural.
All her beautiful hair had been drawn back and plaited. It lay in a long
braid on the sofa pillow, coiled like a golden serpent. The nurse, a
comfortable looking Griffe woman in white apron and cap, was urging her to
return to her bedroom.</p>
<p>"There is no use, there is no use," she said at once to Edna. "We must get
rid of Mandelet; he is getting too old and careless. He said he would be
here at half-past seven; now it must be eight. See what time it is,
Josephine."</p>
<p>The woman was possessed of a cheerful nature, and refused to take any
situation too seriously, especially a situation with which she was so
familiar. She urged Madame to have courage and patience. But Madame only
set her teeth hard into her under lip, and Edna saw the sweat gather in
beads on her white forehead. After a moment or two she uttered a profound
sigh and wiped her face with the handkerchief rolled in a ball. She
appeared exhausted. The nurse gave her a fresh handkerchief, sprinkled
with cologne water.</p>
<p>"This is too much!" she cried. "Mandelet ought to be killed! Where is
Alphonse? Is it possible I am to be abandoned like this—neglected by
every one?"</p>
<p>"Neglected, indeed!" exclaimed the nurse. Wasn't she there? And here was
Mrs. Pontellier leaving, no doubt, a pleasant evening at home to devote to
her? And wasn't Monsieur Ratignolle coming that very instant through the
hall? And Josephine was quite sure she had heard Doctor Mandelet's coupe.
Yes, there it was, down at the door.</p>
<p>Adele consented to go back to her room. She sat on the edge of a little
low couch next to her bed.</p>
<p>Doctor Mandelet paid no attention to Madame Ratignolle's upbraidings. He
was accustomed to them at such times, and was too well convinced of her
loyalty to doubt it.</p>
<p>He was glad to see Edna, and wanted her to go with him into the salon and
entertain him. But Madame Ratignolle would not consent that Edna should
leave her for an instant. Between agonizing moments, she chatted a little,
and said it took her mind off her sufferings.</p>
<p>Edna began to feel uneasy. She was seized with a vague dread. Her own like
experiences seemed far away, unreal, and only half remembered. She
recalled faintly an ecstasy of pain, the heavy odor of chloroform, a
stupor which had deadened sensation, and an awakening to find a little new
life to which she had given being, added to the great unnumbered multitude
of souls that come and go.</p>
<p>She began to wish she had not come; her presence was not necessary. She
might have invented a pretext for staying away; she might even invent a
pretext now for going. But Edna did not go. With an inward agony, with a
flaming, outspoken revolt against the ways of Nature, she witnessed the
scene of torture.</p>
<p>She was still stunned and speechless with emotion when later she leaned
over her friend to kiss her and softly say good-by. Adele, pressing her
cheek, whispered in an exhausted voice: "Think of the children, Edna. Oh
think of the children! Remember them!"</p>
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<h2> XXXVIII </h2>
<p>Edna still felt dazed when she got outside in the open air. The Doctor's
coupe had returned for him and stood before the porte cochere. She did not
wish to enter the coupe, and told Doctor Mandelet she would walk; she was
not afraid, and would go alone. He directed his carriage to meet him at
Mrs. Pontellier's, and he started to walk home with her.</p>
<p>Up—away up, over the narrow street between the tall houses, the
stars were blazing. The air was mild and caressing, but cool with the
breath of spring and the night. They walked slowly, the Doctor with a
heavy, measured tread and his hands behind him; Edna, in an absent-minded
way, as she had walked one night at Grand Isle, as if her thoughts had
gone ahead of her and she was striving to overtake them.</p>
<p>"You shouldn't have been there, Mrs. Pontellier," he said. "That was no
place for you. Adele is full of whims at such times. There were a dozen
women she might have had with her, unimpressionable women. I felt that it
was cruel, cruel. You shouldn't have gone."</p>
<p>"Oh, well!" she answered, indifferently. "I don't know that it matters
after all. One has to think of the children some time or other; the sooner
the better."</p>
<p>"When is Leonce coming back?"</p>
<p>"Quite soon. Some time in March."</p>
<p>"And you are going abroad?"</p>
<p>"Perhaps—no, I am not going. I'm not going to be forced into doing
things. I don't want to go abroad. I want to be let alone. Nobody has any
right—except children, perhaps—and even then, it seems to me—or
it did seem—" She felt that her speech was voicing the incoherency
of her thoughts, and stopped abruptly.</p>
<p>"The trouble is," sighed the Doctor, grasping her meaning intuitively,
"that youth is given up to illusions. It seems to be a provision of
Nature; a decoy to secure mothers for the race. And Nature takes no
account of moral consequences, of arbitrary conditions which we create,
and which we feel obliged to maintain at any cost."</p>
<p>"Yes," she said. "The years that are gone seem like dreams—if one
might go on sleeping and dreaming—but to wake up and find—oh!
well! perhaps it is better to wake up after all, even to suffer, rather
than to remain a dupe to illusions all one's life."</p>
<p>"It seems to me, my dear child," said the Doctor at parting, holding her
hand, "you seem to me to be in trouble. I am not going to ask for your
confidence. I will only say that if ever you feel moved to give it to me,
perhaps I might help you. I know I would understand. And I tell you there
are not many who would—not many, my dear."</p>
<p>"Some way I don't feel moved to speak of things that trouble me. Don't
think I am ungrateful or that I don't appreciate your sympathy. There are
periods of despondency and suffering which take possession of me. But I
don't want anything but my own way. That is wanting a good deal, of
course, when you have to trample upon the lives, the hearts, the
prejudices of others—but no matter—still, I shouldn't want to
trample upon the little lives. Oh! I don't know what I'm saying, Doctor.
Good night. Don't blame me for anything."</p>
<p>"Yes, I will blame you if you don't come and see me soon. We will talk of
things you never have dreamt of talking about before. It will do us both
good. I don't want you to blame yourself, whatever comes. Good night, my
child."</p>
<p>She let herself in at the gate, but instead of entering she sat upon the
step of the porch. The night was quiet and soothing. All the tearing
emotion of the last few hours seemed to fall away from her like a somber,
uncomfortable garment, which she had but to loosen to be rid of. She went
back to that hour before Adele had sent for her; and her senses kindled
afresh in thinking of Robert's words, the pressure of his arms, and the
feeling of his lips upon her own. She could picture at that moment no
greater bliss on earth than possession of the beloved one. His expression
of love had already given him to her in part. When she thought that he was
there at hand, waiting for her, she grew numb with the intoxication of
expectancy. It was so late; he would be asleep perhaps. She would awaken
him with a kiss. She hoped he would be asleep that she might arouse him
with her caresses.</p>
<p>Still, she remembered Adele's voice whispering, "Think of the children;
think of them." She meant to think of them; that determination had driven
into her soul like a death wound—but not to-night. To-morrow would
be time to think of everything.</p>
<p>Robert was not waiting for her in the little parlor. He was nowhere at
hand. The house was empty. But he had scrawled on a piece of paper that
lay in the lamplight:</p>
<p>"I love you. Good-by—because I love you."</p>
<p>Edna grew faint when she read the words. She went and sat on the sofa.
Then she stretched herself out there, never uttering a sound. She did not
sleep. She did not go to bed. The lamp sputtered and went out. She was
still awake in the morning, when Celestine unlocked the kitchen door and
came in to light the fire.</p>
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<h2> XXXIX </h2>
<p>Victor, with hammer and nails and scraps of scantling, was patching a
corner of one of the galleries. Mariequita sat near by, dangling her legs,
watching him work, and handing him nails from the tool-box. The sun was
beating down upon them. The girl had covered her head with her apron
folded into a square pad. They had been talking for an hour or more. She
was never tired of hearing Victor describe the dinner at Mrs.
Pontellier's. He exaggerated every detail, making it appear a veritable
Lucullean feast. The flowers were in tubs, he said. The champagne was
quaffed from huge golden goblets. Venus rising from the foam could have
presented no more entrancing a spectacle than Mrs. Pontellier, blazing
with beauty and diamonds at the head of the board, while the other women
were all of them youthful houris, possessed of incomparable charms. She
got it into her head that Victor was in love with Mrs. Pontellier, and he
gave her evasive answers, framed so as to confirm her belief. She grew
sullen and cried a little, threatening to go off and leave him to his fine
ladies. There were a dozen men crazy about her at the Cheniere; and since
it was the fashion to be in love with married people, why, she could run
away any time she liked to New Orleans with Celina's husband.</p>
<p>Celina's husband was a fool, a coward, and a pig, and to prove it to her,
Victor intended to hammer his head into a jelly the next time he
encountered him. This assurance was very consoling to Mariequita. She
dried her eyes, and grew cheerful at the prospect.</p>
<p>They were still talking of the dinner and the allurements of city life
when Mrs. Pontellier herself slipped around the corner of the house. The
two youngsters stayed dumb with amazement before what they considered to
be an apparition. But it was really she in flesh and blood, looking tired
and a little travel-stained.</p>
<p>"I walked up from the wharf," she said, "and heard the hammering. I
supposed it was you, mending the porch. It's a good thing. I was always
tripping over those loose planks last summer. How dreary and deserted
everything looks!"</p>
<p>It took Victor some little time to comprehend that she had come in
Beaudelet's lugger, that she had come alone, and for no purpose but to
rest.</p>
<p>"There's nothing fixed up yet, you see. I'll give you my room; it's the
only place."</p>
<p>"Any corner will do," she assured him.</p>
<p>"And if you can stand Philomel's cooking," he went on, "though I might try
to get her mother while you are here. Do you think she would come?"
turning to Mariequita.</p>
<p>Mariequita thought that perhaps Philomel's mother might come for a few
days, and money enough.</p>
<p>Beholding Mrs. Pontellier make her appearance, the girl had at once
suspected a lovers' rendezvous. But Victor's astonishment was so genuine,
and Mrs. Pontellier's indifference so apparent, that the disturbing notion
did not lodge long in her brain. She contemplated with the greatest
interest this woman who gave the most sumptuous dinners in America, and
who had all the men in New Orleans at her feet.</p>
<p>"What time will you have dinner?" asked Edna. "I'm very hungry; but don't
get anything extra."</p>
<p>"I'll have it ready in little or no time," he said, bustling and packing
away his tools. "You may go to my room to brush up and rest yourself.
Mariequita will show you."</p>
<p>"Thank you," said Edna. "But, do you know, I have a notion to go down to
the beach and take a good wash and even a little swim, before dinner?"</p>
<p>"The water is too cold!" they both exclaimed. "Don't think of it."</p>
<p>"Well, I might go down and try—dip my toes in. Why, it seems to me
the sun is hot enough to have warmed the very depths of the ocean. Could
you get me a couple of towels? I'd better go right away, so as to be back
in time. It would be a little too chilly if I waited till this afternoon."</p>
<p>Mariequita ran over to Victor's room, and returned with some towels, which
she gave to Edna.</p>
<p>"I hope you have fish for dinner," said Edna, as she started to walk away;
"but don't do anything extra if you haven't."</p>
<p>"Run and find Philomel's mother," Victor instructed the girl. "I'll go to
the kitchen and see what I can do. By Gimminy! Women have no
consideration! She might have sent me word."</p>
<p>Edna walked on down to the beach rather mechanically, not noticing
anything special except that the sun was hot. She was not dwelling upon
any particular train of thought. She had done all the thinking which was
necessary after Robert went away, when she lay awake upon the sofa till
morning.</p>
<p>She had said over and over to herself: "To-day it is Arobin; to-morrow it
will be some one else. It makes no difference to me, it doesn't matter
about Leonce Pontellier—but Raoul and Etienne!" She understood now
clearly what she had meant long ago when she said to Adele Ratignolle that
she would give up the unessential, but she would never sacrifice herself
for her children.</p>
<p>Despondency had come upon her there in the wakeful night, and had never
lifted. There was no one thing in the world that she desired. There was no
human being whom she wanted near her except Robert; and she even realized
that the day would come when he, too, and the thought of him would melt
out of her existence, leaving her alone. The children appeared before her
like antagonists who had overcome her; who had overpowered and sought to
drag her into the soul's slavery for the rest of her days. But she knew a
way to elude them. She was not thinking of these things when she walked
down to the beach.</p>
<p>The water of the Gulf stretched out before her, gleaming with the million
lights of the sun. The voice of the sea is seductive, never ceasing,
whispering, clamoring, murmuring, inviting the soul to wander in abysses
of solitude. All along the white beach, up and down, there was no living
thing in sight. A bird with a broken wing was beating the air above,
reeling, fluttering, circling disabled down, down to the water.</p>
<p>Edna had found her old bathing suit still hanging, faded, upon its
accustomed peg.</p>
<p>She put it on, leaving her clothing in the bath-house. But when she was
there beside the sea, absolutely alone, she cast the unpleasant, pricking
garments from her, and for the first time in her life she stood naked in
the open air, at the mercy of the sun, the breeze that beat upon her, and
the waves that invited her.</p>
<p>How strange and awful it seemed to stand naked under the sky! how
delicious! She felt like some new-born creature, opening its eyes in a
familiar world that it had never known.</p>
<p>The foamy wavelets curled up to her white feet, and coiled like serpents
about her ankles. She walked out. The water was chill, but she walked on.
The water was deep, but she lifted her white body and reached out with a
long, sweeping stroke. The touch of the sea is sensuous, enfolding the
body in its soft, close embrace.</p>
<p>She went on and on. She remembered the night she swam far out, and
recalled the terror that seized her at the fear of being unable to regain
the shore. She did not look back now, but went on and on, thinking of the
blue-grass meadow that she had traversed when a little child, believing
that it had no beginning and no end.</p>
<p>Her arms and legs were growing tired.</p>
<p>She thought of Leonce and the children. They were a part of her life. But
they need not have thought that they could possess her, body and soul. How
Mademoiselle Reisz would have laughed, perhaps sneered, if she knew! "And
you call yourself an artist! What pretensions, Madame! The artist must
possess the courageous soul that dares and defies."</p>
<p>Exhaustion was pressing upon and overpowering her.</p>
<p>"Good-by—because I love you." He did not know; he did not
understand. He would never understand. Perhaps Doctor Mandelet would have
understood if she had seen him—but it was too late; the shore was
far behind her, and her strength was gone.</p>
<p>She looked into the distance, and the old terror flamed up for an instant,
then sank again. Edna heard her father's voice and her sister Margaret's.
She heard the barking of an old dog that was chained to the sycamore tree.
The spurs of the cavalry officer clanged as he walked across the porch.
There was the hum of bees, and the musky odor of pinks filled the air.</p>
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<h2> BEYOND THE BAYOU </h2>
<p>The bayou curved like a crescent around the point of land on which La
Folle's cabin stood. Between the stream and the hut lay a big abandoned
field, where cattle were pastured when the bayou supplied them with water
enough. Through the woods that spread back into unknown regions the woman
had drawn an imaginary line, and past this circle she never stepped. This
was the form of her only mania.</p>
<p>She was now a large, gaunt black woman, past thirty-five. Her real name
was Jacqueline, but every one on the plantation called her La Folle,
because in childhood she had been frightened literally "out of her
senses," and had never wholly regained them.</p>
<p>It was when there had been skirmishing and sharpshooting all day in the
woods. Evening was near when P'tit Maitre, black with powder and crimson
with blood, had staggered into the cabin of Jacqueline's mother, his
pursuers close at his heels. The sight had stunned her childish reason.</p>
<p>She dwelt alone in her solitary cabin, for the rest of the quarters had
long since been removed beyond her sight and knowledge. She had more
physical strength than most men, and made her patch of cotton and corn and
tobacco like the best of them. But of the world beyond the bayou she had
long known nothing, save what her morbid fancy conceived.</p>
<p>People at Bellissime had grown used to her and her way, and they thought
nothing of it. Even when "Old Mis'" died, they did not wonder that La
Folle had not crossed the bayou, but had stood upon her side of it,
wailing and lamenting.</p>
<p>P'tit Maitre was now the owner of Bellissime. He was a middle-aged man,
with a family of beautiful daughters about him, and a little son whom La
Folle loved as if he had been her own. She called him Cheri, and so did
every one else because she did.</p>
<p>None of the girls had ever been to her what Cheri was. They had each and
all loved to be with her, and to listen to her wondrous stories of things
that always happened "yonda, beyon' de bayou."</p>
<p>But none of them had stroked her black hand quite as Cheri did, nor rested
their heads against her knee so confidingly, nor fallen asleep in her arms
as he used to do. For Cheri hardly did such things now, since he had
become the proud possessor of a gun, and had had his black curls cut off.</p>
<p>That summer—the summer Cheri gave La Folle two black curls tied with
a knot of red ribbon—the water ran so low in the bayou that even the
little children at Bellissime were able to cross it on foot, and the
cattle were sent to pasture down by the river. La Folle was sorry when
they were gone, for she loved these dumb companions well, and liked to
feel that they were there, and to hear them browsing by night up to her
own enclosure.</p>
<p>It was Saturday afternoon, when the fields were deserted. The men had
flocked to a neighboring village to do their week's trading, and the women
were occupied with household affairs,—La Folle as well as the
others. It was then she mended and washed her handful of clothes, scoured
her house, and did her baking.</p>
<p>In this last employment she never forgot Cheri. To-day she had fashioned
croquignoles of the most fantastic and alluring shapes for him. So when
she saw the boy come trudging across the old field with his gleaming
little new rifle on his shoulder, she called out gayly to him, "Cheri!
Cheri!"</p>
<p>But Cheri did not need the summons, for he was coming straight to her. His
pockets all bulged out with almonds and raisins and an orange that he had
secured for her from the very fine dinner which had been given that day up
at his father's house.</p>
<p>He was a sunny-faced youngster of ten. When he had emptied his pockets, La
Folle patted his round red cheek, wiped his soiled hands on her apron, and
smoothed his hair. Then she watched him as, with his cakes in his hand, he
crossed her strip of cotton back of the cabin, and disappeared into the
wood.</p>
<p>He had boasted of the things he was going to do with his gun out there.</p>
<p>"You think they got plenty deer in the wood, La Folle?" he had inquired,
with the calculating air of an experienced hunter.</p>
<p>"Non, non!" the woman laughed. "Don't you look fo' no deer, Cheri. Dat's
too big. But you bring La Folle one good fat squirrel fo' her dinner
to-morrow, an' she goin' be satisfi'."</p>
<p>"One squirrel ain't a bite. I'll bring you mo' 'an one, La Folle," he had
boasted pompously as he went away.</p>
<p>When the woman, an hour later, heard the report of the boy's rifle close
to the wood's edge, she would have thought nothing of it if a sharp cry of
distress had not followed the sound.</p>
<p>She withdrew her arms from the tub of suds in which they had been plunged,
dried them upon her apron, and as quickly as her trembling limbs would
bear her, hurried to the spot whence the ominous report had come.</p>
<p>It was as she feared. There she found Cheri stretched upon the ground,
with his rifle beside him. He moaned piteously:—</p>
<p>"I'm dead, La Folle! I'm dead! I'm gone!"</p>
<p>"Non, non!" she exclaimed resolutely, as she knelt beside him. "Put you'
arm 'roun' La Folle's nake, Cheri. Dat's nuttin'; dat goin' be nuttin'."
She lifted him in her powerful arms.</p>
<p>Cheri had carried his gun muzzle-downward. He had stumbled,—he did
not know how. He only knew that he had a ball lodged somewhere in his leg,
and he thought that his end was at hand. Now, with his head upon the
woman's shoulder, he moaned and wept with pain and fright.</p>
<p>"Oh, La Folle! La Folle! it hurt so bad! I can' stan' it, La Folle!"</p>
<p>"Don't cry, mon bebe, mon bebe, mon Cheri!" the woman spoke soothingly as
she covered the ground with long strides. "La Folle goin' mine you; Doctor
Bonfils goin' come make mon Cheri well agin."</p>
<p>She had reached the abandoned field. As she crossed it with her precious
burden, she looked constantly and restlessly from side to side. A terrible
fear was upon her,—the fear of the world beyond the bayou, the
morbid and insane dread she had been under since childhood.</p>
<p>When she was at the bayou's edge she stood there, and shouted for help as
if a life depended upon it:—</p>
<p>"Oh, P'tit Maitre! P'tit Maitre! Venez donc! Au secours! Au secours!"</p>
<p>No voice responded. Cheri's hot tears were scalding her neck. She called
for each and every one upon the place, and still no answer came.</p>
<p>She shouted, she wailed; but whether her voice remained unheard or
unheeded, no reply came to her frenzied cries. And all the while Cheri
moaned and wept and entreated to be taken home to his mother.</p>
<p>La Folle gave a last despairing look around her. Extreme terror was upon
her. She clasped the child close against her breast, where he could feel
her heart beat like a muffled hammer. Then shutting her eyes, she ran
suddenly down the shallow bank of the bayou, and never stopped till she
had climbed the opposite shore.</p>
<p>She stood there quivering an instant as she opened her eyes. Then she
plunged into the footpath through the trees.</p>
<p>She spoke no more to Cheri, but muttered constantly, "Bon Dieu, ayez pitie
La Folle! Bon Dieu, ayez pitie moi!"</p>
<p>Instinct seemed to guide her. When the pathway spread clear and smooth
enough before her, she again closed her eyes tightly against the sight of
that unknown and terrifying world.</p>
<p>A child, playing in some weeds, caught sight of her as she neared the
quarters. The little one uttered a cry of dismay.</p>
<p>"La Folle!" she screamed, in her piercing treble. "La Folle done cross de
bayer!"</p>
<p>Quickly the cry passed down the line of cabins.</p>
<p>"Yonda, La Folle done cross de bayou!"</p>
<p>Children, old men, old women, young ones with infants in their arms,
flocked to doors and windows to see this awe-inspiring spectacle. Most of
them shuddered with superstitious dread of what it might portend. "She
totin' Cheri!" some of them shouted.</p>
<p>Some of the more daring gathered about her, and followed at her heels,
only to fall back with new terror when she turned her distorted face upon
them. Her eyes were bloodshot and the saliva had gathered in a white foam
on her black lips.</p>
<p>Some one had run ahead of her to where P'tit Maitre sat with his family
and guests upon the gallery.</p>
<p>"P'tit Maitre! La Folle done cross de bayou! Look her! Look her yonda
totin' Cheri!" This startling intimation was the first which they had of
the woman's approach.</p>
<p>She was now near at hand. She walked with long strides. Her eyes were
fixed desperately before her, and she breathed heavily, as a tired ox.</p>
<p>At the foot of the stairway, which she could not have mounted, she laid
the boy in his father's arms. Then the world that had looked red to La
Folle suddenly turned black,—like that day she had seen powder and
blood.</p>
<p>She reeled for an instant. Before a sustaining arm could reach her, she
fell heavily to the ground.</p>
<p>When La Folle regained consciousness, she was at home again, in her own
cabin and upon her own bed. The moon rays, streaming in through the open
door and windows, gave what light was needed to the old black mammy who
stood at the table concocting a tisane of fragrant herbs. It was very
late.</p>
<p>Others who had come, and found that the stupor clung to her, had gone
again. P'tit Maitre had been there, and with him Doctor Bonfils, who said
that La Folle might die.</p>
<p>But death had passed her by. The voice was very clear and steady with
which she spoke to Tante Lizette, brewing her tisane there in a corner.</p>
<p>"Ef you will give me one good drink tisane, Tante Lizette, I b'lieve I'm
goin' sleep, me."</p>
<p>And she did sleep; so soundly, so healthfully, that old Lizette without
compunction stole softly away, to creep back through the moonlit fields to
her own cabin in the new quarters.</p>
<p>The first touch of the cool gray morning awoke La Folle. She arose,
calmly, as if no tempest had shaken and threatened her existence but
yesterday.</p>
<p>She donned her new blue cottonade and white apron, for she remembered that
this was Sunday. When she had made for herself a cup of strong black
coffee, and drunk it with relish, she quitted the cabin and walked across
the old familiar field to the bayou's edge again.</p>
<p>She did not stop there as she had always done before, but crossed with a
long, steady stride as if she had done this all her life.</p>
<p>When she had made her way through the brush and scrub cottonwood-trees
that lined the opposite bank, she found herself upon the border of a field
where the white, bursting cotton, with the dew upon it, gleamed for acres
and acres like frosted silver in the early dawn.</p>
<p>La Folle drew a long, deep breath as she gazed across the country. She
walked slowly and uncertainly, like one who hardly knows how, looking
about her as she went.</p>
<p>The cabins, that yesterday had sent a clamor of voices to pursue her, were
quiet now. No one was yet astir at Bellissime. Only the birds that darted
here and there from hedges were awake, and singing their matins.</p>
<p>When La Folle came to the broad stretch of velvety lawn that surrounded
the house, she moved slowly and with delight over the springy turf, that
was delicious beneath her tread.</p>
<p>She stopped to find whence came those perfumes that were assailing her
senses with memories from a time far gone.</p>
<p>There they were, stealing up to her from the thousand blue violets that
peeped out from green, luxuriant beds. There they were, showering down
from the big waxen bells of the magnolias far above her head, and from the
jessamine clumps around her.</p>
<p>There were roses, too, without number. To right and left palms spread in
broad and graceful curves. It all looked like enchantment beneath the
sparkling sheen of dew.</p>
<p>When La Folle had slowly and cautiously mounted the many steps that led up
to the veranda, she turned to look back at the perilous ascent she had
made. Then she caught sight of the river, bending like a silver bow at the
foot of Bellissime. Exultation possessed her soul.</p>
<p>La Folle rapped softly upon a door near at hand. Cheri's mother soon
cautiously opened it. Quickly and cleverly she dissembled the astonishment
she felt at seeing La Folle.</p>
<p>"Ah, La Folle! Is it you, so early?"</p>
<p>"Oui, madame. I come ax how my po' li'le Cheri do, 's mo'nin'."</p>
<p>"He is feeling easier, thank you, La Folle. Dr. Bonfils says it will be
nothing serious. He's sleeping now. Will you come back when he awakes?"</p>
<p>"Non, madame. I'm goin' wait yair tell Cheri wake up." La Folle seated
herself upon the topmost step of the veranda.</p>
<p>A look of wonder and deep content crept into her face as she watched for
the first time the sun rise upon the new, the beautiful world beyond the
bayou.</p>
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<h2> MA'AME PELAGIE </h2>
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<h2> I </h2>
<p>When the war began, there stood on Cote Joyeuse an imposing mansion of red
brick, shaped like the Pantheon. A grove of majestic live-oaks surrounded
it.</p>
<p>Thirty years later, only the thick walls were standing, with the dull red
brick showing here and there through a matted growth of clinging vines.
The huge round pillars were intact; so to some extent was the stone
flagging of hall and portico. There had been no home so stately along the
whole stretch of Cote Joyeuse. Every one knew that, as they knew it had
cost Philippe Valmet sixty thousand dollars to build, away back in 1840.
No one was in danger of forgetting that fact, so long as his daughter
Pelagie survived. She was a queenly, white-haired woman of fifty. "Ma'ame
Pelagie," they called her, though she was unmarried, as was her sister
Pauline, a child in Ma'ame Pelagie's eyes; a child of thirty-five.</p>
<p>The two lived alone in a three-roomed cabin, almost within the shadow of
the ruin. They lived for a dream, for Ma'ame Pelagie's dream, which was to
rebuild the old home.</p>
<p>It would be pitiful to tell how their days were spent to accomplish this
end; how the dollars had been saved for thirty years and the picayunes
hoarded; and yet, not half enough gathered! But Ma'ame Pelagie felt sure
of twenty years of life before her, and counted upon as many more for her
sister. And what could not come to pass in twenty—in forty—years?</p>
<p>Often, of pleasant afternoons, the two would drink their black coffee,
seated upon the stone-flagged portico whose canopy was the blue sky of
Louisiana. They loved to sit there in the silence, with only each other
and the sheeny, prying lizards for company, talking of the old times and
planning for the new; while light breezes stirred the tattered vines high
up among the columns, where owls nested.</p>
<p>"We can never hope to have all just as it was, Pauline," Ma'ame Pelagie
would say; "perhaps the marble pillars of the salon will have to be
replaced by wooden ones, and the crystal candelabra left out. Should you
be willing, Pauline?"</p>
<p>"Oh, yes Sesoeur, I shall be willing." It was always, "Yes, Sesoeur," or
"No, Sesoeur," "Just as you please, Sesoeur," with poor little Mam'selle
Pauline. For what did she remember of that old life and that old spendor?
Only a faint gleam here and there; the half-consciousness of a young,
uneventful existence; and then a great crash. That meant the nearness of
war; the revolt of slaves; confusion ending in fire and flame through
which she was borne safely in the strong arms of Pelagie, and carried to
the log cabin which was still their home. Their brother, Leandre, had
known more of it all than Pauline, and not so much as Pelagie. He had left
the management of the big plantation with all its memories and traditions
to his older sister, and had gone away to dwell in cities. That was many
years ago. Now, Leandre's business called him frequently and upon long
journeys from home, and his motherless daughter was coming to stay with
her aunts at Cote Joyeuse.</p>
<p>They talked about it, sipping their coffee on the ruined portico.
Mam'selle Pauline was terribly excited; the flush that throbbed into her
pale, nervous face showed it; and she locked her thin fingers in and out
incessantly.</p>
<p>"But what shall we do with La Petite, Sesoeur? Where shall we put her? How
shall we amuse her? Ah, Seigneur!"</p>
<p>"She will sleep upon a cot in the room next to ours," responded Ma'ame
Pelagie, "and live as we do. She knows how we live, and why we live; her
father has told her. She knows we have money and could squander it if we
chose. Do not fret, Pauline; let us hope La Petite is a true Valmet."</p>
<p>Then Ma'ame Pelagie rose with stately deliberation and went to saddle her
horse, for she had yet to make her last daily round through the fields;
and Mam'selle Pauline threaded her way slowly among the tangled grasses
toward the cabin.</p>
<p>The coming of La Petite, bringing with her as she did the pungent
atmosphere of an outside and dimly known world, was a shock to these two,
living their dream-life. The girl was quite as tall as her aunt Pelagie,
with dark eyes that reflected joy as a still pool reflects the light of
stars; and her rounded cheek was tinged like the pink crepe myrtle.
Mam'selle Pauline kissed her and trembled. Ma'ame Pelagie looked into her
eyes with a searching gaze, which seemed to seek a likeness of the past in
the living present.</p>
<p>And they made room between them for this young life.</p>
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<h2> II </h2>
<p>La Petite had determined upon trying to fit herself to the strange, narrow
existence which she knew awaited her at Cote Joyeuse. It went well enough
at first. Sometimes she followed Ma'ame Pelagie into the fields to note
how the cotton was opening, ripe and white; or to count the ears of corn
upon the hardy stalks. But oftener she was with her aunt Pauline,
assisting in household offices, chattering of her brief past, or walking
with the older woman arm-in-arm under the trailing moss of the giant oaks.</p>
<p>Mam'selle Pauline's steps grew very buoyant that summer, and her eyes were
sometimes as bright as a bird's, unless La Petite were away from her side,
when they would lose all other light but one of uneasy expectancy. The
girl seemed to love her well in return, and called her endearingly
Tan'tante. But as the time went by, La Petite became very quiet,—not
listless, but thoughtful, and slow in her movements. Then her cheeks began
to pale, till they were tinged like the creamy plumes of the white crepe
myrtle that grew in the ruin.</p>
<p>One day when she sat within its shadow, between her aunts, holding a hand
of each, she said: "Tante Pelagie, I must tell you something, you and
Tan'tante." She spoke low, but clearly and firmly. "I love you both,—please
remember that I love you both. But I must go away from you. I can't live
any longer here at Cote Joyeuse."</p>
<p>A spasm passed through Mam'selle Pauline's delicate frame. La Petite could
feel the twitch of it in the wiry fingers that were intertwined with her
own. Ma'ame Pelagie remained unchanged and motionless. No human eye could
penetrate so deep as to see the satisfaction which her soul felt. She
said: "What do you mean, Petite? Your father has sent you to us, and I am
sure it is his wish that you remain."</p>
<p>"My father loves me, tante Pelagie, and such will not be his wish when he
knows. Oh!" she continued with a restless, movement, "it is as though a
weight were pressing me backward here. I must live another life; the life
I lived before. I want to know things that are happening from day to day
over the world, and hear them talked about. I want my music, my books, my
companions. If I had known no other life but this one of privation, I
suppose it would be different. If I had to live this life, I should make
the best of it. But I do not have to; and you know, tante Pelagie, you do
not need to. It seems to me," she added in a whisper, "that it is a sin
against myself. Ah, Tan'tante!—what is the matter with Tan'tante?"</p>
<p>It was nothing; only a slight feeling of faintness, that would soon pass.
She entreated them to take no notice; but they brought her some water and
fanned her with a palmetto leaf.</p>
<p>But that night, in the stillness of the room, Mam'selle Pauline sobbed and
would not be comforted. Ma'ame Pelagie took her in her arms.</p>
<p>"Pauline, my little sister Pauline," she entreated, "I never have seen you
like this before. Do you no longer love me? Have we not been happy
together, you and I?"</p>
<p>"Oh, yes, Sesoeur."</p>
<p>"Is it because La Petite is going away?"</p>
<p>"Yes, Sesoeur."</p>
<p>"Then she is dearer to you than I!" spoke Ma'ame Pelagie with sharp
resentment. "Than I, who held you and warmed you in my arms the day you
were born; than I, your mother, father, sister, everything that could
cherish you. Pauline, don't tell me that."</p>
<p>Mam'selle Pauline tried to talk through her sobs.</p>
<p>"I can't explain it to you, Sesoeur. I don't understand it myself. I love
you as I have always loved you; next to God. But if La Petite goes away I
shall die. I can't understand,—help me, Sesoeur. She seems—she
seems like a saviour; like one who had come and taken me by the hand and
was leading me somewhere-somewhere I want to go."</p>
<p>Ma'ame Pelagie had been sitting beside the bed in her peignoir and
slippers. She held the hand of her sister who lay there, and smoothed down
the woman's soft brown hair. She said not a word, and the silence was
broken only by Mam'selle Pauline's continued sobs. Once Ma'ame Pelagie
arose to mix a drink of orange-flower water, which she gave to her sister,
as she would have offered it to a nervous, fretful child. Almost an hour
passed before Ma'ame Pelagie spoke again. Then she said:—</p>
<p>"Pauline, you must cease that sobbing, now, and sleep. You will make
yourself ill. La Petite will not go away. Do you hear me? Do you
understand? She will stay, I promise you."</p>
<p>Mam'selle Pauline could not clearly comprehend, but she had great faith in
the word of her sister, and soothed by the promise and the touch of Ma'ame
Pelagie's strong, gentle hand, she fell asleep.</p>
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<h2> III </h2>
<p>Ma'ame Pelagie, when she saw that her sister slept, arose noiselessly and
stepped outside upon the low-roofed narrow gallery. She did not linger
there, but with a step that was hurried and agitated, she crossed the
distance that divided her cabin from the ruin.</p>
<p>The night was not a dark one, for the sky was clear and the moon
resplendent. But light or dark would have made no difference to Ma'ame
Pelagie. It was not the first time she had stolen away to the ruin at
night-time, when the whole plantation slept; but she never before had been
there with a heart so nearly broken. She was going there for the last time
to dream her dreams; to see the visions that hitherto had crowded her days
and nights, and to bid them farewell.</p>
<p>There was the first of them, awaiting her upon the very portal; a robust
old white-haired man, chiding her for returning home so late. There are
guests to be entertained. Does she not know it? Guests from the city and
from the near plantations. Yes, she knows it is late. She had been abroad
with Felix, and they did not notice how the time was speeding. Felix is
there; he will explain it all. He is there beside her, but she does not
want to hear what he will tell her father.</p>
<p>Ma'ame Pelagie had sunk upon the bench where she and her sister so often
came to sit. Turning, she gazed in through the gaping chasm of the window
at her side. The interior of the ruin is ablaze. Not with the moonlight,
for that is faint beside the other one—the sparkle from the crystal
candelabra, which negroes, moving noiselessly and respectfully about, are
lighting, one after the other. How the gleam of them reflects and glances
from the polished marble pillars!</p>
<p>The room holds a number of guests. There is old Monsieur Lucien Santien,
leaning against one of the pillars, and laughing at something which
Monsieur Lafirme is telling him, till his fat shoulders shake. His son
Jules is with him—Jules, who wants to marry her. She laughs. She
wonders if Felix has told her father yet. There is young Jerome Lafirme
playing at checkers upon the sofa with Leandre. Little Pauline stands
annoying them and disturbing the game. Leandre reproves her. She begins to
cry, and old black Clementine, her nurse, who is not far off, limps across
the room to pick her up and carry her away. How sensitive the little one
is! But she trots about and takes care of herself better than she did a
year or two ago, when she fell upon the stone hall floor and raised a
great "bo-bo" on her forehead. Pelagie was hurt and angry enough about it;
and she ordered rugs and buffalo robes to be brought and laid thick upon
the tiles, till the little one's steps were surer.</p>
<p>"Il ne faut pas faire mal a Pauline." She was saying it aloud—"faire
mal a Pauline."</p>
<p>But she gazes beyond the salon, back into the big dining hall, where the
white crepe myrtle grows. Ha! how low that bat has circled. It has struck
Ma'ame Pelagie full on the breast. She does not know it. She is beyond
there in the dining hall, where her father sits with a group of friends
over their wine. As usual they are talking politics. How tiresome! She has
heard them say "la guerre" oftener than once. La guerre. Bah! She and
Felix have something pleasanter to talk about, out under the oaks, or back
in the shadow of the oleanders.</p>
<p>But they were right! The sound of a cannon, shot at Sumter, has rolled
across the Southern States, and its echo is heard along the whole stretch
of Cote Joyeuse.</p>
<p>Yet Pelagie does not believe it. Not till La Ricaneuse stands before her
with bare, black arms akimbo, uttering a volley of vile abuse and of
brazen impudence. Pelagie wants to kill her. But yet she will not believe.
Not till Felix comes to her in the chamber above the dining hall—there
where that trumpet vine hangs—comes to say good-by to her. The hurt
which the big brass buttons of his new gray uniform pressed into the
tender flesh of her bosom has never left it. She sits upon the sofa, and
he beside her, both speechless with pain. That room would not have been
altered. Even the sofa would have been there in the same spot, and Ma'ame
Pelagie had meant all along, for thirty years, all along, to lie there
upon it some day when the time came to die.</p>
<p>But there is no time to weep, with the enemy at the door. The door has
been no barrier. They are clattering through the halls now, drinking the
wines, shattering the crystal and glass, slashing the portraits.</p>
<p>One of them stands before her and tells her to leave the house. She slaps
his face. How the stigma stands out red as blood upon his blanched cheek!</p>
<p>Now there is a roar of fire and the flames are bearing down upon her
motionless figure. She wants to show them how a daughter of Louisiana can
perish before her conquerors. But little Pauline clings to her knees in an
agony of terror. Little Pauline must be saved.</p>
<p>"Il ne faut pas faire mal a Pauline." Again she is saying it aloud—"faire
mal a Pauline."</p>
<p>The night was nearly spent; Ma'ame Pelagie had glided from the bench upon
which she had rested, and for hours lay prone upon the stone flagging,
motionless. When she dragged herself to her feet it was to walk like one
in a dream. About the great, solemn pillars, one after the other, she
reached her arms, and pressed her cheek and her lips upon the senseless
brick.</p>
<p>"Adieu, adieu!" whispered Ma'ame Pelagie.</p>
<p>There was no longer the moon to guide her steps across the familiar
pathway to the cabin. The brightest light in the sky was Venus, that swung
low in the east. The bats had ceased to beat their wings about the ruin.
Even the mocking-bird that had warbled for hours in the old mulberry-tree
had sung himself asleep. That darkest hour before the day was mantling the
earth. Ma'ame Pelagie hurried through the wet, clinging grass, beating
aside the heavy moss that swept across her face, walking on toward the
cabin-toward Pauline. Not once did she look back upon the ruin that
brooded like a huge monster—a black spot in the darkness that
enveloped it.</p>
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<h2> IV </h2>
<p>Little more than a year later the transformation which the old Valmet
place had undergone was the talk and wonder of Cote Joyeuse. One would
have looked in vain for the ruin; it was no longer there; neither was the
log cabin. But out in the open, where the sun shone upon it, and the
breezes blew about it, was a shapely structure fashioned from woods that
the forests of the State had furnished. It rested upon a solid foundation
of brick.</p>
<p>Upon a corner of the pleasant gallery sat Leandre smoking his afternoon
cigar, and chatting with neighbors who had called. This was to be his pied
a terre now; the home where his sisters and his daughter dwelt. The
laughter of young people was heard out under the trees, and within the
house where La Petite was playing upon the piano. With the enthusiasm of a
young artist she drew from the keys strains that seemed marvelously
beautiful to Mam'selle Pauline, who stood enraptured near her. Mam'selle
Pauline had been touched by the re-creation of Valmet. Her cheek was as
full and almost as flushed as La Petite's. The years were falling away
from her.</p>
<p>Ma'ame Pelagie had been conversing with her brother and his friends. Then
she turned and walked away; stopping to listen awhile to the music which
La Petite was making. But it was only for a moment. She went on around the
curve of the veranda, where she found herself alone. She stayed there,
erect, holding to the banister rail and looking out calmly in the distance
across the fields.</p>
<p>She was dressed in black, with the white kerchief she always wore folded
across her bosom. Her thick, glossy hair rose like a silver diadem from
her brow. In her deep, dark eyes smouldered the light of fires that would
never flame. She had grown very old. Years instead of months seemed to
have passed over her since the night she bade farewell to her visions.</p>
<p>Poor Ma'ame Pelagie! How could it be different! While the outward pressure
of a young and joyous existence had forced her footsteps into the light,
her soul had stayed in the shadow of the ruin.</p>
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<h2> DESIREE'S BABY </h2>
<p>As the day was pleasant, Madame Valmonde drove over to L'Abri to see
Desiree and the baby.</p>
<p>It made her laugh to think of Desiree with a baby. Why, it seemed but
yesterday that Desiree was little more than a baby herself; when Monsieur
in riding through the gateway of Valmonde had found her lying asleep in
the shadow of the big stone pillar.</p>
<p>The little one awoke in his arms and began to cry for "Dada." That was as
much as she could do or say. Some people thought she might have strayed
there of her own accord, for she was of the toddling age. The prevailing
belief was that she had been purposely left by a party of Texans, whose
canvas-covered wagon, late in the day, had crossed the ferry that Coton
Mais kept, just below the plantation. In time Madame Valmonde abandoned
every speculation but the one that Desiree had been sent to her by a
beneficent Providence to be the child of her affection, seeing that she
was without child of the flesh. For the girl grew to be beautiful and
gentle, affectionate and sincere,—the idol of Valmonde.</p>
<p>It was no wonder, when she stood one day against the stone pillar in whose
shadow she had lain asleep, eighteen years before, that Armand Aubigny
riding by and seeing her there, had fallen in love with her. That was the
way all the Aubignys fell in love, as if struck by a pistol shot. The
wonder was that he had not loved her before; for he had known her since
his father brought him home from Paris, a boy of eight, after his mother
died there. The passion that awoke in him that day, when he saw her at the
gate, swept along like an avalanche, or like a prairie fire, or like
anything that drives headlong over all obstacles.</p>
<p>Monsieur Valmonde grew practical and wanted things well considered: that
is, the girl's obscure origin. Armand looked into her eyes and did not
care. He was reminded that she was nameless. What did it matter about a
name when he could give her one of the oldest and proudest in Louisiana?
He ordered the corbeille from Paris, and contained himself with what
patience he could until it arrived; then they were married.</p>
<p>Madame Valmonde had not seen Desiree and the baby for four weeks. When she
reached L'Abri she shuddered at the first sight of it, as she always did.
It was a sad looking place, which for many years had not known the gentle
presence of a mistress, old Monsieur Aubigny having married and buried his
wife in France, and she having loved her own land too well ever to leave
it. The roof came down steep and black like a cowl, reaching out beyond
the wide galleries that encircled the yellow stuccoed house. Big, solemn
oaks grew close to it, and their thick-leaved, far-reaching branches
shadowed it like a pall. Young Aubigny's rule was a strict one, too, and
under it his negroes had forgotten how to be gay, as they had been during
the old master's easy-going and indulgent lifetime.</p>
<p>The young mother was recovering slowly, and lay full length, in her soft
white muslins and laces, upon a couch. The baby was beside her, upon her
arm, where he had fallen asleep, at her breast. The yellow nurse woman sat
beside a window fanning herself.</p>
<p>Madame Valmonde bent her portly figure over Desiree and kissed her,
holding her an instant tenderly in her arms. Then she turned to the child.</p>
<p>"This is not the baby!" she exclaimed, in startled tones. French was the
language spoken at Valmonde in those days.</p>
<p>"I knew you would be astonished," laughed Desiree, "at the way he has
grown. The little cochon de lait! Look at his legs, mamma, and his hands
and fingernails,—real finger-nails. Zandrine had to cut them this
morning. Isn't it true, Zandrine?"</p>
<p>The woman bowed her turbaned head majestically, "Mais si, Madame."</p>
<p>"And the way he cries," went on Desiree, "is deafening. Armand heard him
the other day as far away as La Blanche's cabin."</p>
<p>Madame Valmonde had never removed her eyes from the child. She lifted it
and walked with it over to the window that was lightest. She scanned the
baby narrowly, then looked as searchingly at Zandrine, whose face was
turned to gaze across the fields.</p>
<p>"Yes, the child has grown, has changed," said Madame Valmonde, slowly, as
she replaced it beside its mother. "What does Armand say?"</p>
<p>Desiree's face became suffused with a glow that was happiness itself.</p>
<p>"Oh, Armand is the proudest father in the parish, I believe, chiefly
because it is a boy, to bear his name; though he says not,—that he
would have loved a girl as well. But I know it isn't true. I know he says
that to please me. And mamma," she added, drawing Madame Valmonde's head
down to her, and speaking in a whisper, "he hasn't punished one of them—not
one of them—since baby is born. Even Negrillon, who pretended to
have burnt his leg that he might rest from work—he only laughed, and
said Negrillon was a great scamp. Oh, mamma, I'm so happy; it frightens
me."</p>
<p>What Desiree said was true. Marriage, and later the birth of his son had
softened Armand Aubigny's imperious and exacting nature greatly. This was
what made the gentle Desiree so happy, for she loved him desperately. When
he frowned she trembled, but loved him. When he smiled, she asked no
greater blessing of God. But Armand's dark, handsome face had not often
been disfigured by frowns since the day he fell in love with her.</p>
<p>When the baby was about three months old, Desiree awoke one day to the
conviction that there was something in the air menacing her peace. It was
at first too subtle to grasp. It had only been a disquieting suggestion;
an air of mystery among the blacks; unexpected visits from far-off
neighbors who could hardly account for their coming. Then a strange, an
awful change in her husband's manner, which she dared not ask him to
explain. When he spoke to her, it was with averted eyes, from which the
old love-light seemed to have gone out. He absented himself from home; and
when there, avoided her presence and that of her child, without excuse.
And the very spirit of Satan seemed suddenly to take hold of him in his
dealings with the slaves. Desiree was miserable enough to die.</p>
<p>She sat in her room, one hot afternoon, in her peignoir, listlessly
drawing through her fingers the strands of her long, silky brown hair that
hung about her shoulders. The baby, half naked, lay asleep upon her own
great mahogany bed, that was like a sumptuous throne, with its satin-lined
half-canopy. One of La Blanche's little quadroon boys—half naked too—stood
fanning the child slowly with a fan of peacock feathers. Desiree's eyes
had been fixed absently and sadly upon the baby, while she was striving to
penetrate the threatening mist that she felt closing about her. She looked
from her child to the boy who stood beside him, and back again; over and
over. "Ah!" It was a cry that she could not help; which she was not
conscious of having uttered. The blood turned like ice in her veins, and a
clammy moisture gathered upon her face.</p>
<p>She tried to speak to the little quadroon boy; but no sound would come, at
first. When he heard his name uttered, he looked up, and his mistress was
pointing to the door. He laid aside the great, soft fan, and obediently
stole away, over the polished floor, on his bare tiptoes.</p>
<p>She stayed motionless, with gaze riveted upon her child, and her face the
picture of fright.</p>
<p>Presently her husband entered the room, and without noticing her, went to
a table and began to search among some papers which covered it.</p>
<p>"Armand," she called to him, in a voice which must have stabbed him, if he
was human. But he did not notice. "Armand," she said again. Then she rose
and tottered towards him. "Armand," she panted once more, clutching his
arm, "look at our child. What does it mean? tell me."</p>
<p>He coldly but gently loosened her fingers from about his arm and thrust
the hand away from him. "Tell me what it means!" she cried despairingly.</p>
<p>"It means," he answered lightly, "that the child is not white; it means
that you are not white."</p>
<p>A quick conception of all that this accusation meant for her nerved her
with unwonted courage to deny it. "It is a lie; it is not true, I am
white! Look at my hair, it is brown; and my eyes are gray, Armand, you
know they are gray. And my skin is fair," seizing his wrist. "Look at my
hand; whiter than yours, Armand," she laughed hysterically.</p>
<p>"As white as La Blanche's," he returned cruelly; and went away leaving her
alone with their child.</p>
<p>When she could hold a pen in her hand, she sent a despairing letter to
Madame Valmonde.</p>
<p>"My mother, they tell me I am not white. Armand has told me I am not
white. For God's sake tell them it is not true. You must know it is not
true. I shall die. I must die. I cannot be so unhappy, and live."</p>
<p>The answer that came was brief:</p>
<p>"My own Desiree: Come home to Valmonde; back to your mother who loves you.
Come with your child."</p>
<p>When the letter reached Desiree she went with it to her husband's study,
and laid it open upon the desk before which he sat. She was like a stone
image: silent, white, motionless after she placed it there.</p>
<p>In silence he ran his cold eyes over the written words.</p>
<p>He said nothing. "Shall I go, Armand?" she asked in tones sharp with
agonized suspense.</p>
<p>"Yes, go."</p>
<p>"Do you want me to go?"</p>
<p>"Yes, I want you to go."</p>
<p>He thought Almighty God had dealt cruelly and unjustly with him; and felt,
somehow, that he was paying Him back in kind when he stabbed thus into his
wife's soul. Moreover he no longer loved her, because of the unconscious
injury she had brought upon his home and his name.</p>
<p>She turned away like one stunned by a blow, and walked slowly towards the
door, hoping he would call her back.</p>
<p>"Good-by, Armand," she moaned.</p>
<p>He did not answer her. That was his last blow at fate.</p>
<p>Desiree went in search of her child. Zandrine was pacing the sombre
gallery with it. She took the little one from the nurse's arms with no
word of explanation, and descending the steps, walked away, under the
live-oak branches.</p>
<p>It was an October afternoon; the sun was just sinking. Out in the still
fields the negroes were picking cotton.</p>
<p>Desiree had not changed the thin white garment nor the slippers which she
wore. Her hair was uncovered and the sun's rays brought a golden gleam
from its brown meshes. She did not take the broad, beaten road which led
to the far-off plantation of Valmonde. She walked across a deserted field,
where the stubble bruised her tender feet, so delicately shod, and tore
her thin gown to shreds.</p>
<p>She disappeared among the reeds and willows that grew thick along the
banks of the deep, sluggish bayou; and she did not come back again.</p>
<p>Some weeks later there was a curious scene enacted at L'Abri. In the
centre of the smoothly swept back yard was a great bonfire. Armand Aubigny
sat in the wide hallway that commanded a view of the spectacle; and it was
he who dealt out to a half dozen negroes the material which kept this fire
ablaze.</p>
<p>A graceful cradle of willow, with all its dainty furbishings, was laid
upon the pyre, which had already been fed with the richness of a priceless
layette. Then there were silk gowns, and velvet and satin ones added to
these; laces, too, and embroideries; bonnets and gloves; for the corbeille
had been of rare quality.</p>
<p>The last thing to go was a tiny bundle of letters; innocent little
scribblings that Desiree had sent to him during the days of their
espousal. There was the remnant of one back in the drawer from which he
took them. But it was not Desiree's; it was part of an old letter from his
mother to his father. He read it. She was thanking God for the blessing of
her husband's love:—</p>
<p>"But above all," she wrote, "night and day, I thank the good God for
having so arranged our lives that our dear Armand will never know that his
mother, who adores him, belongs to the race that is cursed with the brand
of slavery."</p>
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<h2> A RESPECTABLE WOMAN </h2>
<p>Mrs. Baroda was a little provoked to learn that her husband expected his
friend, Gouvernail, up to spend a week or two on the plantation.</p>
<p>They had entertained a good deal during the winter; much of the time had
also been passed in New Orleans in various forms of mild dissipation. She
was looking forward to a period of unbroken rest, now, and undisturbed
tete-a-tete with her husband, when he informed her that Gouvernail was
coming up to stay a week or two.</p>
<p>This was a man she had heard much of but never seen. He had been her
husband's college friend; was now a journalist, and in no sense a society
man or "a man about town," which were, perhaps, some of the reasons she
had never met him. But she had unconsciously formed an image of him in her
mind. She pictured him tall, slim, cynical; with eye-glasses, and his
hands in his pockets; and she did not like him. Gouvernail was slim
enough, but he wasn't very tall nor very cynical; neither did he wear
eyeglasses nor carry his hands in his pockets. And she rather liked him
when he first presented himself.</p>
<p>But why she liked him she could not explain satisfactorily to herself when
she partly attempted to do so. She could discover in him none of those
brilliant and promising traits which Gaston, her husband, had often
assured her that he possessed. On the contrary, he sat rather mute and
receptive before her chatty eagerness to make him feel at home and in face
of Gaston's frank and wordy hospitality. His manner was as courteous
toward her as the most exacting woman could require; but he made no direct
appeal to her approval or even esteem.</p>
<p>Once settled at the plantation he seemed to like to sit upon the wide
portico in the shade of one of the big Corinthian pillars, smoking his
cigar lazily and listening attentively to Gaston's experience as a sugar
planter.</p>
<p>"This is what I call living," he would utter with deep satisfaction, as
the air that swept across the sugar field caressed him with its warm and
scented velvety touch. It pleased him also to get on familiar terms with
the big dogs that came about him, rubbing themselves sociably against his
legs. He did not care to fish, and displayed no eagerness to go out and
kill grosbecs when Gaston proposed doing so.</p>
<p>Gouvernail's personality puzzled Mrs. Baroda, but she liked him. Indeed,
he was a lovable, inoffensive fellow. After a few days, when she could
understand him no better than at first, she gave over being puzzled and
remained piqued. In this mood she left her husband and her guest, for the
most part, alone together. Then finding that Gouvernail took no manner of
exception to her action, she imposed her society upon him, accompanying
him in his idle strolls to the mill and walks along the batture. She
persistently sought to penetrate the reserve in which he had unconsciously
enveloped himself.</p>
<p>"When is he going—your friend?" she one day asked her husband. "For
my part, he tires me frightfully."</p>
<p>"Not for a week yet, dear. I can't understand; he gives you no trouble."</p>
<p>"No. I should like him better if he did; if he were more like others, and
I had to plan somewhat for his comfort and enjoyment."</p>
<p>Gaston took his wife's pretty face between his hands and looked tenderly
and laughingly into her troubled eyes.</p>
<p>They were making a bit of toilet sociably together in Mrs. Baroda's
dressing-room.</p>
<p>"You are full of surprises, ma belle," he said to her. "Even I can never
count upon how you are going to act under given conditions." He kissed her
and turned to fasten his cravat before the mirror.</p>
<p>"Here you are," he went on, "taking poor Gouvernail seriously and making a
commotion over him, the last thing he would desire or expect."</p>
<p>"Commotion!" she hotly resented. "Nonsense! How can you say such a thing?
Commotion, indeed! But, you know, you said he was clever."</p>
<p>"So he is. But the poor fellow is run down by overwork now. That's why I
asked him here to take a rest."</p>
<p>"You used to say he was a man of ideas," she retorted, unconciliated. "I
expected him to be interesting, at least. I'm going to the city in the
morning to have my spring gowns fitted. Let me know when Mr. Gouvernail is
gone; I shall be at my Aunt Octavie's."</p>
<p>That night she went and sat alone upon a bench that stood beneath a live
oak tree at the edge of the gravel walk.</p>
<p>She had never known her thoughts or her intentions to be so confused. She
could gather nothing from them but the feeling of a distinct necessity to
quit her home in the morning.</p>
<p>Mrs. Baroda heard footsteps crunching the gravel; but could discern in the
darkness only the approaching red point of a lighted cigar. She knew it
was Gouvernail, for her husband did not smoke. She hoped to remain
unnoticed, but her white gown revealed her to him. He threw away his cigar
and seated himself upon the bench beside her; without a suspicion that she
might object to his presence.</p>
<p>"Your husband told me to bring this to you, Mrs. Baroda," he said, handing
her a filmy, white scarf with which she sometimes enveloped her head and
shoulders. She accepted the scarf from him with a murmur of thanks, and
let it lie in her lap.</p>
<p>He made some commonplace observation upon the baneful effect of the night
air at the season. Then as his gaze reached out into the darkness, he
murmured, half to himself:</p>
<p>"'Night of south winds—night of the large few stars! Still nodding
night—'"</p>
<p>She made no reply to this apostrophe to the night, which, indeed, was not
addressed to her.</p>
<p>Gouvernail was in no sense a diffident man, for he was not a
self-conscious one. His periods of reserve were not constitutional, but
the result of moods. Sitting there beside Mrs. Baroda, his silence melted
for the time.</p>
<p>He talked freely and intimately in a low, hesitating drawl that was not
unpleasant to hear. He talked of the old college days when he and Gaston
had been a good deal to each other; of the days of keen and blind
ambitions and large intentions. Now there was left with him, at least, a
philosophic acquiescence to the existing order—only a desire to be
permitted to exist, with now and then a little whiff of genuine life, such
as he was breathing now.</p>
<p>Her mind only vaguely grasped what he was saying. Her physical being was
for the moment predominant. She was not thinking of his words, only
drinking in the tones of his voice. She wanted to reach out her hand in
the darkness and touch him with the sensitive tips of her fingers upon the
face or the lips. She wanted to draw close to him and whisper against his
cheek—she did not care what—as she might have done if she had
not been a respectable woman.</p>
<p>The stronger the impulse grew to bring herself near him, the further, in
fact, did she draw away from him. As soon as she could do so without an
appearance of too great rudeness, she rose and left him there alone.</p>
<p>Before she reached the house, Gouvernail had lighted a fresh cigar and
ended his apostrophe to the night.</p>
<p>Mrs. Baroda was greatly tempted that night to tell her husband—who
was also her friend—of this folly that had seized her. But she did
not yield to the temptation. Beside being a respectable woman she was a
very sensible one; and she knew there are some battles in life which a
human being must fight alone.</p>
<p>When Gaston arose in the morning, his wife had already departed. She had
taken an early morning train to the city. She did not return till
Gouvernail was gone from under her roof.</p>
<p>There was some talk of having him back during the summer that followed.
That is, Gaston greatly desired it; but this desire yielded to his wife's
strenuous opposition.</p>
<p>However, before the year ended, she proposed, wholly from herself, to have
Gouvernail visit them again. Her husband was surprised and delighted with
the suggestion coming from her.</p>
<p>"I am glad, chere amie, to know that you have finally overcome your
dislike for him; truly he did not deserve it."</p>
<p>"Oh," she told him, laughingly, after pressing a long, tender kiss upon
his lips, "I have overcome everything! you will see. This time I shall be
very nice to him."</p>
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<h2> THE KISS </h2>
<p>It was still quite light out of doors, but inside with the curtains drawn
and the smouldering fire sending out a dim, uncertain glow, the room was
full of deep shadows.</p>
<p>Brantain sat in one of these shadows; it had overtaken him and he did not
mind. The obscurity lent him courage to keep his eyes fastened as ardently
as he liked upon the girl who sat in the firelight.</p>
<p>She was very handsome, with a certain fine, rich coloring that belongs to
the healthy brune type. She was quite composed, as she idly stroked the
satiny coat of the cat that lay curled in her lap, and she occasionally
sent a slow glance into the shadow where her companion sat. They were
talking low, of indifferent things which plainly were not the things that
occupied their thoughts. She knew that he loved her—a frank,
blustering fellow without guile enough to conceal his feelings, and no
desire to do so. For two weeks past he had sought her society eagerly and
persistently. She was confidently waiting for him to declare himself and
she meant to accept him. The rather insignificant and unattractive
Brantain was enormously rich; and she liked and required the entourage
which wealth could give her.</p>
<p>During one of the pauses between their talk of the last tea and the next
reception the door opened and a young man entered whom Brantain knew quite
well. The girl turned her face toward him. A stride or two brought him to
her side, and bending over her chair—before she could suspect his
intention, for she did not realize that he had not seen her visitor—he
pressed an ardent, lingering kiss upon her lips.</p>
<p>Brantain slowly arose; so did the girl arise, but quickly, and the
newcomer stood between them, a little amusement and some defiance
struggling with the confusion in his face.</p>
<p>"I believe," stammered Brantain, "I see that I have stayed too long. I—I
had no idea—that is, I must wish you good-by." He was clutching his
hat with both hands, and probably did not perceive that she was extending
her hand to him, her presence of mind had not completely deserted her; but
she could not have trusted herself to speak.</p>
<p>"Hang me if I saw him sitting there, Nattie! I know it's deuced awkward
for you. But I hope you'll forgive me this once—this very first
break. Why, what's the matter?"</p>
<p>"Don't touch me; don't come near me," she returned angrily. "What do you
mean by entering the house without ringing?"</p>
<p>"I came in with your brother, as I often do," he answered coldly, in
self-justification. "We came in the side way. He went upstairs and I came
in here hoping to find you. The explanation is simple enough and ought to
satisfy you that the misadventure was unavoidable. But do say that you
forgive me, Nathalie," he entreated, softening.</p>
<p>"Forgive you! You don't know what you are talking about. Let me pass. It
depends upon—a good deal whether I ever forgive you."</p>
<p>At that next reception which she and Brantain had been talking about she
approached the young man with a delicious frankness of manner when she saw
him there.</p>
<p>"Will you let me speak to you a moment or two, Mr. Brantain?" she asked
with an engaging but perturbed smile. He seemed extremely unhappy; but
when she took his arm and walked away with him, seeking a retired corner,
a ray of hope mingled with the almost comical misery of his expression.
She was apparently very outspoken.</p>
<p>"Perhaps I should not have sought this interview, Mr. Brantain; but—but,
oh, I have been very uncomfortable, almost miserable since that little
encounter the other afternoon. When I thought how you might have
misinterpreted it, and believed things"—hope was plainly gaining the
ascendancy over misery in Brantain's round, guileless face—"Of
course, I know it is nothing to you, but for my own sake I do want you to
understand that Mr. Harvy is an intimate friend of long standing. Why, we
have always been like cousins—like brother and sister, I may say. He
is my brother's most intimate associate and often fancies that he is
entitled to the same privileges as the family. Oh, I know it is absurd,
uncalled for, to tell you this; undignified even," she was almost weeping,
"but it makes so much difference to me what you think of—of me." Her
voice had grown very low and agitated. The misery had all disappeared from
Brantain's face.</p>
<p>"Then you do really care what I think, Miss Nathalie? May I call you Miss
Nathalie?" They turned into a long, dim corridor that was lined on either
side with tall, graceful plants. They walked slowly to the very end of it.
When they turned to retrace their steps Brantain's face was radiant and
hers was triumphant.</p>
<p>Harvy was among the guests at the wedding; and he sought her out in a rare
moment when she stood alone.</p>
<p>"Your husband," he said, smiling, "has sent me over to kiss you."</p>
<p>A quick blush suffused her face and round polished throat. "I suppose it's
natural for a man to feel and act generously on an occasion of this kind.
He tells me he doesn't want his marriage to interrupt wholly that pleasant
intimacy which has existed between you and me. I don't know what you've
been telling him," with an insolent smile, "but he has sent me here to
kiss you."</p>
<p>She felt like a chess player who, by the clever handling of his pieces,
sees the game taking the course intended. Her eyes were bright and tender
with a smile as they glanced up into his; and her lips looked hungry for
the kiss which they invited.</p>
<p>"But, you know," he went on quietly, "I didn't tell him so, it would have
seemed ungrateful, but I can tell you. I've stopped kissing women; it's
dangerous."</p>
<p>Well, she had Brantain and his million left. A person can't have
everything in this world; and it was a little unreasonable of her to
expect it.</p>
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<h2> A PAIR OF SILK STOCKINGS </h2>
<p>Little Mrs. Sommers one day found herself the unexpected possessor of
fifteen dollars. It seemed to her a very large amount of money, and the
way in which it stuffed and bulged her worn old porte-monnaie gave her a
feeling of importance such as she had not enjoyed for years.</p>
<p>The question of investment was one that occupied her greatly. For a day or
two she walked about apparently in a dreamy state, but really absorbed in
speculation and calculation. She did not wish to act hastily, to do
anything she might afterward regret. But it was during the still hours of
the night when she lay awake revolving plans in her mind that she seemed
to see her way clearly toward a proper and judicious use of the money.</p>
<p>A dollar or two should be added to the price usually paid for Janie's
shoes, which would insure their lasting an appreciable time longer than
they usually did. She would buy so and so many yards of percale for new
shirt waists for the boys and Janie and Mag. She had intended to make the
old ones do by skilful patching. Mag should have another gown. She had
seen some beautiful patterns, veritable bargains in the shop windows. And
still there would be left enough for new stockings—two pairs apiece—and
what darning that would save for a while! She would get caps for the boys
and sailor-hats for the girls. The vision of her little brood looking
fresh and dainty and new for once in their lives excited her and made her
restless and wakeful with anticipation.</p>
<p>The neighbors sometimes talked of certain "better days" that little Mrs.
Sommers had known before she had ever thought of being Mrs. Sommers. She
herself indulged in no such morbid retrospection. She had no time—no
second of time to devote to the past. The needs of the present absorbed
her every faculty. A vision of the future like some dim, gaunt monster
sometimes appalled her, but luckily to-morrow never comes.</p>
<p>Mrs. Sommers was one who knew the value of bargains; who could stand for
hours making her way inch by inch toward the desired object that was
selling below cost. She could elbow her way if need be; she had learned to
clutch a piece of goods and hold it and stick to it with persistence and
determination till her turn came to be served, no matter when it came.</p>
<p>But that day she was a little faint and tired. She had swallowed a light
luncheon—no! when she came to think of it, between getting the
children fed and the place righted, and preparing herself for the shopping
bout, she had actually forgotten to eat any luncheon at all!</p>
<p>She sat herself upon a revolving stool before a counter that was
comparatively deserted, trying to gather strength and courage to charge
through an eager multitude that was besieging breastworks of shirting and
figured lawn. An all-gone limp feeling had come over her and she rested
her hand aimlessly upon the counter. She wore no gloves. By degrees she
grew aware that her hand had encountered something very soothing, very
pleasant to touch. She looked down to see that her hand lay upon a pile of
silk stockings. A placard near by announced that they had been reduced in
price from two dollars and fifty cents to one dollar and ninety-eight
cents; and a young girl who stood behind the counter asked her if she
wished to examine their line of silk hosiery. She smiled, just as if she
had been asked to inspect a tiara of diamonds with the ultimate view of
purchasing it. But she went on feeling the soft, sheeny luxurious things—with
both hands now, holding them up to see them glisten, and to feel them
glide serpent-like through her fingers.</p>
<p>Two hectic blotches came suddenly into her pale cheeks. She looked up at
the girl.</p>
<p>"Do you think there are any eights-and-a-half among these?"</p>
<p>There were any number of eights-and-a-half. In fact, there were more of
that size than any other. Here was a light-blue pair; there were some
lavender, some all black and various shades of tan and gray. Mrs. Sommers
selected a black pair and looked at them very long and closely. She
pretended to be examining their texture, which the clerk assured her was
excellent.</p>
<p>"A dollar and ninety-eight cents," she mused aloud. "Well, I'll take this
pair." She handed the girl a five-dollar bill and waited for her change
and for her parcel. What a very small parcel it was! It seemed lost in the
depths of her shabby old shopping-bag.</p>
<p>Mrs. Sommers after that did not move in the direction of the bargain
counter. She took the elevator, which carried her to an upper floor into
the region of the ladies' waiting-rooms. Here, in a retired corner, she
exchanged her cotton stockings for the new silk ones which she had just
bought. She was not going through any acute mental process or reasoning
with herself, nor was she striving to explain to her satisfaction the
motive of her action. She was not thinking at all. She seemed for the time
to be taking a rest from that laborious and fatiguing function and to have
abandoned herself to some mechanical impulse that directed her actions and
freed her of responsibility.</p>
<p>How good was the touch of the raw silk to her flesh! She felt like lying
back in the cushioned chair and reveling for a while in the luxury of it.
She did for a little while. Then she replaced her shoes, rolled the cotton
stockings together and thrust them into her bag. After doing this she
crossed straight over to the shoe department and took her seat to be
fitted.</p>
<p>She was fastidious. The clerk could not make her out; he could not
reconcile her shoes with her stockings, and she was not too easily
pleased. She held back her skirts and turned her feet one way and her head
another way as she glanced down at the polished, pointed-tipped boots. Her
foot and ankle looked very pretty. She could not realize that they
belonged to her and were a part of herself. She wanted an excellent and
stylish fit, she told the young fellow who served her, and she did not
mind the difference of a dollar or two more in the price so long as she
got what she desired.</p>
<p>It was a long time since Mrs. Sommers had been fitted with gloves. On rare
occasions when she had bought a pair they were always "bargains," so cheap
that it would have been preposterous and unreasonable to have expected
them to be fitted to the hand.</p>
<p>Now she rested her elbow on the cushion of the glove counter, and a
pretty, pleasant young creature, delicate and deft of touch, drew a
long-wristed "kid" over Mrs. Sommers's hand. She smoothed it down over the
wrist and buttoned it neatly, and both lost themselves for a second or two
in admiring contemplation of the little symmetrical gloved hand. But there
were other places where money might be spent.</p>
<p>There were books and magazines piled up in the window of a stall a few
paces down the street. Mrs. Sommers bought two high-priced magazines such
as she had been accustomed to read in the days when she had been
accustomed to other pleasant things. She carried them without wrapping. As
well as she could she lifted her skirts at the crossings. Her stockings
and boots and well fitting gloves had worked marvels in her bearing—had
given her a feeling of assurance, a sense of belonging to the well-dressed
multitude.</p>
<p>She was very hungry. Another time she would have stilled the cravings for
food until reaching her own home, where she would have brewed herself a
cup of tea and taken a snack of anything that was available. But the
impulse that was guiding her would not suffer her to entertain any such
thought.</p>
<p>There was a restaurant at the corner. She had never entered its doors;
from the outside she had sometimes caught glimpses of spotless damask and
shining crystal, and soft-stepping waiters serving people of fashion.</p>
<p>When she entered her appearance created no surprise, no consternation, as
she had half feared it might. She seated herself at a small table alone,
and an attentive waiter at once approached to take her order. She did not
want a profusion; she craved a nice and tasty bite—a half dozen
blue-points, a plump chop with cress, a something sweet—a
creme-frappee, for instance; a glass of Rhine wine, and after all a small
cup of black coffee.</p>
<p>While waiting to be served she removed her gloves very leisurely and laid
them beside her. Then she picked up a magazine and glanced through it,
cutting the pages with a blunt edge of her knife. It was all very
agreeable. The damask was even more spotless than it had seemed through
the window, and the crystal more sparkling. There were quiet ladies and
gentlemen, who did not notice her, lunching at the small tables like her
own. A soft, pleasing strain of music could be heard, and a gentle breeze,
was blowing through the window. She tasted a bite, and she read a word or
two, and she sipped the amber wine and wiggled her toes in the silk
stockings. The price of it made no difference. She counted the money out
to the waiter and left an extra coin on his tray, whereupon he bowed
before her as before a princess of royal blood.</p>
<p>There was still money in her purse, and her next temptation presented
itself in the shape of a matinee poster.</p>
<p>It was a little later when she entered the theatre, the play had begun and
the house seemed to her to be packed. But there were vacant seats here and
there, and into one of them she was ushered, between brilliantly dressed
women who had gone there to kill time and eat candy and display their
gaudy attire. There were many others who were there solely for the play
and acting. It is safe to say there was no one present who bore quite the
attitude which Mrs. Sommers did to her surroundings. She gathered in the
whole—stage and players and people in one wide impression, and
absorbed it and enjoyed it. She laughed at the comedy and wept—she
and the gaudy woman next to her wept over the tragedy. And they talked a
little together over it. And the gaudy woman wiped her eyes and sniffled
on a tiny square of filmy, perfumed lace and passed little Mrs. Sommers
her box of candy.</p>
<p>The play was over, the music ceased, the crowd filed out. It was like a
dream ended. People scattered in all directions. Mrs. Sommers went to the
corner and waited for the cable car.</p>
<p>A man with keen eyes, who sat opposite to her, seemed to like the study of
her small, pale face. It puzzled him to decipher what he saw there. In
truth, he saw nothing-unless he were wizard enough to detect a poignant
wish, a powerful longing that the cable car would never stop anywhere, but
go on and on with her forever.</p>
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<h2> THE LOCKET </h2>
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<h2> I </h2>
<p>One night in autumn a few men were gathered about a fire on the slope of a
hill. They belonged to a small detachment of Confederate forces and were
awaiting orders to march. Their gray uniforms were worn beyond the point
of shabbiness. One of the men was heating something in a tin cup over the
embers. Two were lying at full length a little distance away, while a
fourth was trying to decipher a letter and had drawn close to the light.
He had unfastened his collar and a good bit of his flannel shirt front.</p>
<p>"What's that you got around your neck, Ned?" asked one of the men lying in
the obscurity.</p>
<p>Ned—or Edmond—mechanically fastened another button of his
shirt and did not reply. He went on reading his letter.</p>
<p>"Is it your sweet heart's picture?"</p>
<p>"'Taint no gal's picture," offered the man at the fire. He had removed his
tin cup and was engaged in stirring its grimy contents with a small stick.
"That's a charm; some kind of hoodoo business that one o' them priests
gave him to keep him out o' trouble. I know them Cath'lics. That's how
come Frenchy got permoted an never got a scratch sence he's been in the
ranks. Hey, French! aint I right?" Edmond looked up absently from his
letter.</p>
<p>"What is it?" he asked.</p>
<p>"Aint that a charm you got round your neck?"</p>
<p>"It must be, Nick," returned Edmond with a smile. "I don't know how I
could have gone through this year and a half without it."</p>
<p>The letter had made Edmond heart sick and home sick. He stretched himself
on his back and looked straight up at the blinking stars. But he was not
thinking of them nor of anything but a certain spring day when the bees
were humming in the clematis; when a girl was saying good bye to him. He
could see her as she unclasped from her neck the locket which she fastened
about his own. It was an old fashioned golden locket bearing miniatures of
her father and mother with their names and the date of their marriage. It
was her most precious earthly possession. Edmond could feel again the
folds of the girl's soft white gown, and see the droop of the
angel-sleeves as she circled her fair arms about his neck. Her sweet face,
appealing, pathetic, tormented by the pain of parting, appeared before him
as vividly as life. He turned over, burying his face in his arm and there
he lay, still and motionless.</p>
<p>The profound and treacherous night with its silence and semblance of peace
settled upon the camp. He dreamed that the fair Octavie brought him a
letter. He had no chair to offer her and was pained and embarrassed at the
condition of his garments. He was ashamed of the poor food which comprised
the dinner at which he begged her to join them.</p>
<p>He dreamt of a serpent coiling around his throat, and when he strove to
grasp it the slimy thing glided away from his clutch. Then his dream was
clamor.</p>
<p>"Git your duds! you! Frenchy!" Nick was bellowing in his face. There was
what appeared to be a scramble and a rush rather than any regulated
movement. The hill side was alive with clatter and motion; with sudden
up-springing lights among the pines. In the east the dawn was unfolding
out of the darkness. Its glimmer was yet dim in the plain below.</p>
<p>"What's it all about?" wondered a big black bird perched in the top of the
tallest tree. He was an old solitary and a wise one, yet he was not wise
enough to guess what it was all about. So all day long he kept blinking
and wondering.</p>
<p>The noise reached far out over the plain and across the hills and awoke
the little babes that were sleeping in their cradles. The smoke curled up
toward the sun and shadowed the plain so that the stupid birds thought it
was going to rain; but the wise one knew better.</p>
<p>"They are children playing a game," thought he. "I shall know more about
it if I watch long enough."</p>
<p>At the approach of night they had all vanished away with their din and
smoke. Then the old bird plumed his feathers. At last he had understood!
With a flap of his great, black wings he shot downward, circling toward
the plain.</p>
<p>A man was picking his way across the plain. He was dressed in the garb of
a clergyman. His mission was to administer the consolations of religion to
any of the prostrate figures in whom there might yet linger a spark of
life. A negro accompanied him, bearing a bucket of water and a flask of
wine.</p>
<p>There were no wounded here; they had been borne away. But the retreat had
been hurried and the vultures and the good Samaritans would have to look
to the dead.</p>
<p>There was a soldier—a mere boy—lying with his face to the sky.
His hands were clutching the sward on either side and his finger nails
were stuffed with earth and bits of grass that he had gathered in his
despairing grasp upon life. His musket was gone; he was hatless and his
face and clothing were begrimed. Around his neck hung a gold chain and
locket. The priest, bending over him, unclasped the chain and removed it
from the dead soldier's neck. He had grown used to the terrors of war and
could face them unflinchingly; but its pathos, someway, always brought the
tears to his old, dim eyes.</p>
<p>The angelus was ringing half a mile away. The priest and the negro knelt
and murmured together the evening benediction and a prayer for the dead.</p>
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<h2> II </h2>
<p>The peace and beauty of a spring day had descended upon the earth like a
benediction. Along the leafy road which skirted a narrow, tortuous stream
in central Louisiana, rumbled an old fashioned cabriolet, much the worse
for hard and rough usage over country roads and lanes. The fat, black
horses went in a slow, measured trot, notwithstanding constant urging on
the part of the fat, black coachman. Within the vehicle were seated the
fair Octavie and her old friend and neighbor, Judge Pillier, who had come
to take her for a morning drive.</p>
<p>Octavie wore a plain black dress, severe in its simplicity. A narrow belt
held it at the waist and the sleeves were gathered into close fitting
wristbands. She had discarded her hoopskirt and appeared not unlike a nun.
Beneath the folds of her bodice nestled the old locket. She never
displayed it now. It had returned to her sanctified in her eyes; made
precious as material things sometimes are by being forever identified with
a significant moment of one's existence.</p>
<p>A hundred times she had read over the letter with which the locket had
come back to her. No later than that morning she had again pored over it.
As she sat beside the window, smoothing the letter out upon her knee,
heavy and spiced odors stole in to her with the songs of birds and the
humming of insects in the air.</p>
<p>She was so young and the world was so beautiful that there came over her a
sense of unreality as she read again and again the priest's letter. He
told of that autumn day drawing to its close, with the gold and the red
fading out of the west, and the night gathering its shadows to cover the
faces of the dead. Oh! She could not believe that one of those dead was
her own! with visage uplifted to the gray sky in an agony of supplication.
A spasm of resistance and rebellion seized and swept over her. Why was the
spring here with its flowers and its seductive breath if he was dead! Why
was she here! What further had she to do with life and the living!</p>
<p>Octavie had experienced many such moments of despair, but a blessed
resignation had never failed to follow, and it fell then upon her like a
mantle and enveloped her.</p>
<p>"I shall grow old and quiet and sad like poor Aunt Tavie," she murmured to
herself as she folded the letter and replaced it in the secretary. Already
she gave herself a little demure air like her Aunt Tavie. She walked with
a slow glide in unconscious imitation of Mademoiselle Tavie whom some
youthful affliction had robbed of earthly compensation while leaving her
in possession of youth's illusions.</p>
<p>As she sat in the old cabriolet beside the father of her dead lover, again
there came to Octavie the terrible sense of loss which had assailed her so
often before. The soul of her youth clamored for its rights; for a share
in the world's glory and exultation. She leaned back and drew her veil a
little closer about her face. It was an old black veil of her Aunt
Tavie's. A whiff of dust from the road had blown in and she wiped her
cheeks and her eyes with her soft, white handkerchief, a homemade
handkerchief, fabricated from one of her old fine muslin petticoats.</p>
<p>"Will you do me the favor, Octavie," requested the judge in the courteous
tone which he never abandoned, "to remove that veil which you wear. It
seems out of harmony, someway, with the beauty and promise of the day."</p>
<p>The young girl obediently yielded to her old companion's wish and
unpinning the cumbersome, sombre drapery from her bonnet, folded it neatly
and laid it upon the seat in front of her.</p>
<p>"Ah! that is better; far better!" he said in a tone expressing unbounded
relief. "Never put it on again, dear." Octavie felt a little hurt; as if
he wished to debar her from share and parcel in the burden of affliction
which had been placed upon all of them. Again she drew forth the old
muslin handkerchief.</p>
<p>They had left the big road and turned into a level plain which had
formerly been an old meadow. There were clumps of thorn trees here and
there, gorgeous in their spring radiance. Some cattle were grazing off in
the distance in spots where the grass was tall and luscious. At the far
end of the meadow was the towering lilac hedge, skirting the lane that led
to Judge Pillier's house, and the scent of its heavy blossoms met them
like a soft and tender embrace of welcome.</p>
<p>As they neared the house the old gentleman placed an arm around the girl's
shoulders and turning her face up to him he said: "Do you not think that
on a day like this, miracles might happen? When the whole earth is vibrant
with life, does it not seem to you, Octavie, that heaven might for once
relent and give us back our dead?" He spoke very low, advisedly, and
impressively. In his voice was an old quaver which was not habitual and
there was agitation in every line of his visage. She gazed at him with
eyes that were full of supplication and a certain terror of joy.</p>
<p>They had been driving through the lane with the towering hedge on one side
and the open meadow on the other. The horses had somewhat quickened their
lazy pace. As they turned into the avenue leading to the house, a whole
choir of feathered songsters fluted a sudden torrent of melodious greeting
from their leafy hiding places.</p>
<p>Octavie felt as if she had passed into a stage of existence which was like
a dream, more poignant and real than life. There was the old gray house
with its sloping eaves. Amid the blur of green, and dimly, she saw
familiar faces and heard voices as if they came from far across the
fields, and Edmond was holding her. Her dead Edmond; her living Edmond,
and she felt the beating of his heart against her and the agonizing
rapture of his kisses striving to awake her. It was as if the spirit of
life and the awakening spring had given back the soul to her youth and
bade her rejoice.</p>
<p>It was many hours later that Octavie drew the locket from her bosom and
looked at Edmond with a questioning appeal in her glance.</p>
<p>"It was the night before an engagement," he said. "In the hurry of the
encounter, and the retreat next day, I never missed it till the fight was
over. I thought of course I had lost it in the heat of the struggle, but
it was stolen."</p>
<p>"Stolen," she shuddered, and thought of the dead soldier with his face
uplifted to the sky in an agony of supplication.</p>
<p>Edmond said nothing; but he thought of his messmate; the one who had lain
far back in the shadow; the one who had said nothing.</p>
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<h2> A REFLECTION </h2>
<p>Some people are born with a vital and responsive energy. It not only
enables them to keep abreast of the times; it qualifies them to furnish in
their own personality a good bit of the motive power to the mad pace. They
are fortunate beings. They do not need to apprehend the significance of
things. They do not grow weary nor miss step, nor do they fall out of rank
and sink by the wayside to be left contemplating the moving procession.</p>
<p>Ah! that moving procession that has left me by the road-side! Its
fantastic colors are more brilliant and beautiful than the sun on the
undulating waters. What matter if souls and bodies are failing beneath the
feet of the ever-pressing multitude! It moves with the majestic rhythm of
the spheres. Its discordant clashes sweep upward in one harmonious tone
that blends with the music of other worlds—to complete God's
orchestra.</p>
<p>It is greater than the stars—that moving procession of human energy;
greater than the palpitating earth and the things growing thereon. Oh! I
could weep at being left by the wayside; left with the grass and the
clouds and a few dumb animals. True, I feel at home in the society of
these symbols of life's immutability. In the procession I should feel the
crushing feet, the clashing discords, the ruthless hands and stifling
breath. I could not hear the rhythm of the march.</p>
<p>Salve! ye dumb hearts. Let us be still and wait by the roadside.</p>
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