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<h2> CHAPTER XXIX. IN THE LIGHT. </h2>
<p>A LITTLE interval of solitude was a relief to me, as well as to Miserrimus
Dexter.</p>
<p>Startling doubts beset me as I walked restlessly backward and forward, now
in the anteroom, and now in the corridor outside. It was plain that I had
(quite innocently) disturbed the repose of some formidable secrets in
Miserrimus Dexter's mind. I confused and wearied my poor brains in trying
to guess what the secrets might be. All my ingenuity—as after-events
showed me—was wasted on speculations not one of which even
approached the truth. I was on surer ground when I arrived at the
conclusion that Dexter had really kept every mortal creature out of his
confidence. He could never have betrayed such serious signs of disturbance
as I had noticed in him, if he had publicly acknowledged at the Trial, or
if he had privately communicated to any chosen friend, all that he knew of
the tragic and terrible drama acted in the bedchamber at Gleninch. What
powerful influence had induced him to close his lips? Had he been silent
in mercy to others? or in dread of consequences to himself? Impossible to
tell! Could I hope that he would confide to Me what he had kept secret
from Justice and Friendship alike? When he knew what I really wanted of
him, would he arm me, out of his own stores of knowledge, with the weapon
that would win me victory in the struggle to come? The chances were
against it—there was no denying that. Still the end was worth trying
for. The caprice of the moment might yet stand my friend, with such a
wayward being as Miserrimus Dexter. My plans and projects were
sufficiently strange, sufficiently wide of the ordinary limits of a
woman's thoughts and actions, to attract his sympathies. "Who knows," I
thought to myself, "if I may not take his confidence by surprise, by
simply telling him the truth?"</p>
<p>The interval expired; the door was thrown open; the voice of my host
summoned me again to the inner room.</p>
<p>"Welcome back!" said Miserrimus Dexter.</p>
<p>"Dear Mrs. Valeria, I am quite myself again. How are you?"</p>
<p>He looked and spoke with the easy cordiality of an old friend. During the
period of my absence, short as it was, another change had passed over this
most multiform of living beings. His eyes sparkled with good-humor; his
cheeks were flushing under a new excitement of some sort. Even his dress
had undergone alteration since I had seen it last. He now wore an
extemporized cap of white paper; his ruffles were tucked up; a clean apron
was thrown over the sea-green coverlet. He hacked his chair before me,
bowing and smiling, and waved me to a seat with the grace of a dancing
master, chastened by the dignity of a lord in waiting.</p>
<p>"I am going to cook," he announced, with the most engaging simplicity. "We
both stand in need of refreshment before we return to the serious business
of our interview. You see me in my cook's dress; forgive it. There is a
form in these things. I am a great stickler for forms. I have been taking
some wine. Please sanction that proceeding by taking some wine too."</p>
<p>He filled a goblet of ancient Venetian glass with a purple-red liquor,
beautiful to see.</p>
<p>"Burgundy!" he said—"the king of wine: And this is the king of
Burgundies—Clos Vougeot. I drink to your health and happiness!"</p>
<p>He filled a second goblet for himself, and honored the toast by draining
it to the bottom. I now understood the sparkle in his eyes and the flush
in his cheeks. It was my interest not to offend him. I drank a little of
his wine, and I quite agreed with him. I thought it delicious.</p>
<p>"What shall we eat?" he asked. "It must be something worthy of our Clos
Vougeot. Ariel is good at roasting and boiling joints, poor wretch! but I
don't insult your taste by offering you Ariel's cookery. Plain joints!" he
exclaimed, with an expression of refined disgust. "Bah! A man who eats a
plain joint is only one remove from a cannibal or a butcher. Will you
leave it to me to discover something more worthy of us? Let us go to the
kitchen."</p>
<p>He wheeled his chair around, and invited me to accompany him with a
courteous wave of his hand.</p>
<p>I followed the chair to some closed curtains at one end of the room, which
I had not hitherto noticed. Drawing aside the curtains, he revealed to
view an alcove, in which stood a neat little gas-stove for cooking.
Drawers and cupboards, plates, dishes, and saucepans, were ranged around
the alcove—all on a miniature scale, all scrupulously bright and
clean. "Welcome to the kitchen!" said Miserrimus Dexter. He drew out of a
recess in the wall a marble slab, which served as a table, and reflected
profoundly, with his hand to his head. "I have it!" he cried, and opening
one of the cupboards next, took from it a black bottle of a form that was
new to me. Sounding this bottle with a spike, he pierced and produced to
view some little irregularly formed black objects, which might have been
familiar enough to a woman accustomed to the luxurious tables of the rich,
but which were a new revelation to a person like myself, who had led a
simple country life in the house of a clergyman with small means. When I
saw my host carefully lay out these occult substances of uninviting
appearance on a clean napkin, and then plunge once more into profound
reflection at the sight of them, my curiosity could be no longer
restrained. I ventured to say, "What are those things, Mr. Dexter, and are
we really going to eat them?"</p>
<p>He started at the rash question, and looked at me with hands outspread in
irrepressible astonishment.</p>
<p>"Where is our boasted progress?" he cried. "What is education but a name?
Here is a cultivated person who doesn't know Truffles when she sees them!"</p>
<p>"I have heard of truffles," I answered, humbly, "but I never saw them
before. We had no such foreign luxuries as those, Mr. Dexter, at home in
the North."</p>
<p>Miserrimus Dexter lifted one of the truffles tenderly on his spike, and
held it up to me in a favorable light.</p>
<p>"Make the most of one of the few first sensations in this life which has
no ingredient of disappointment lurking under the surface," he said. "Look
at it; meditate over it. You shall eat it, Mrs. Valeria, stewed in
Burgundy!"</p>
<p>He lighted the gas for cooking with the air of a man who was about to
offer me an inestimable proof of his good-will.</p>
<p>"Forgive me if I observe the most absolute silence," he said, "dating from
the moment when I take this in my hand." He produced a bright little
stew-pan from his collection of culinary utensils as he spoke. "Properly
pursued, the Art of Cookery allows of no divided attention," he continued,
gravely. "In that observation you will find the reason why no woman ever
has reached, or ever will reach, the highest distinction as a cook. As a
rule, women are incapable of absolutely concentrating their attention on
any one occupation for any given time. Their minds will run on something
else—say; typically, for the sake of illustration, their sweetheart
or their new bonnet. The one obstacle, Mrs. Valeria, to your rising equal
to the men in the various industrial processes of life is not raised, as
the women vainly suppose, by the defective institutions of the age they
live in. No! the obstacle is in themselves. No institutions that can be
devised to encourage them will ever be strong enough to contend
successfully with the sweetheart and the new bonnet. A little while ago,
for instance, I was instrumental in getting women employed in our local
post-office here. The other day I took the trouble—a serious
business to me—of getting downstairs, and wheeling myself away to
the office to see how they were getting on. I took a letter with me to
register. It had an unusually long address. The registering woman began
copying the address on the receipt form, in a business-like manner
cheering and delightful to see. Half way through, a little child-sister of
one of the other women employed trotted into the office, and popped under
the counter to go and speak to her relative. The registering woman's mind
instantly gave way. Her pencil stopped; her eyes wandered off to the child
with a charming expression of interest. 'Well, Lucy,' she said, 'how d'ye
do?' Then she remembered business again, and returned to her receipt. When
I took it across the counter, an important line in the address of my
letter was left out in the copy. Thanks to Lucy. Now a man in the same
position would not have seen Lucy—he would have been too closely
occupied with what he was about at the moment. There is the whole
difference between the mental constitution of the sexes, which no
legislation will ever alter as long as the world lasts! What does it
matter? Women are infinitely superior to men in the moral qualities which
are the true adornments of humanity. Be content—oh, my mistaken
sisters, be content with that!"</p>
<p>He twisted his chair around toward the stove. It was useless to dispute
the question with him, even if I had felt inclined to do so. He absorbed
himself in his stew-pan.</p>
<p>I looked about me in the room.</p>
<p>The same insatiable relish for horrors exhibited downstairs by the
pictures in the hall was displayed again here. The photographs hanging on
the wall represented the various forms of madness taken from the life. The
plaster casts ranged on the shelf opposite were casts (after death) of the
heads of famous murderers. A frightful little skeleton of a woman hung in
a cupboard, behind a glazed door, with this cynical inscription placed
above the skull: "Behold the scaffolding on which beauty is built!" In a
corresponding cupboard, with the door wide open, there hung in loose folds
a shirt (as I took it to be) of chamois leather. Touching it (and finding
it to be far softer than any chamois leather that my fingers had ever felt
before), I disarranged the folds, and disclosed a ticket pinned among
them, describing the thing in these horrid lines: "Skin of a French
Marquis, tanned in the Revolution of Ninety-three. Who says the nobility
are not good for something? They make good leather."</p>
<p>After this last specimen of my host's taste in curiosities, I pursued my
investigation no further. I returned to my chair, and waited for the
truffles.</p>
<p>After a brief interval, the voice of the poet-painter-composer-and-cook
summoned me back to the alcove.</p>
<p>The gas was out. The stew-pan and its accompaniments had vanished. On the
marble slab were two plates, two napkins, two rolls of bread, and a dish,
with another napkin in it, on which reposed two quaint little black balls.
Miserrimus Dexter, regarding me with a smile of benevolent interest, put
one of the balls on my plate, and took the other himself. "Compose
yourself, Mrs. Valeria," he said. "This is an epoch in your life. Your
first Truffle! Don't touch it with the knife. Use the fork alone. And—pardon
me; this is most important—eat slowly."</p>
<p>I followed my instructions, and assumed an enthusiasm which I honestly
confess I did not feel. I privately thought the new vegetable a great deal
too rich, and in other respects quite unworthy of the fuss that had been
made about it. Miserrimus Dexter lingered and languished over his
truffles, and sipped his wonderful Burgundy, and sang his own praises as a
cook until I was really almost mad with impatience to return to the real
object of my visit. In the reckless state of mind which this feeling
produced, I abruptly reminded my host that he was wasting our time, by the
most dangerous question that I could possibly put to him.</p>
<p>"Mr. Dexter," I said, "have you seen anything lately of Mrs. Beauly?"</p>
<p>The easy sense of enjoyment expressed in his face left it at those rash
words, and went out like a suddenly extinguished light. That furtive
distrust of me which I had already noticed instantly made itself felt
again in his manner and in his voice.</p>
<p>"Do you know Mrs. Beauly?" he asked.</p>
<p>"I only know her," I answered, "by what I have read of her in the Trial."</p>
<p>He was not satisfied with that reply.</p>
<p>"You must have an interest of some sort in Mrs. Beauly," he said, "or you
would not have asked me about her. Is it the interest of a friend, or the
interest of an enemy?"</p>
<p>Rash as I might be, I was not quite reckless enough yet to meet that plain
question by an equally plain reply. I saw enough in his face to warn me to
be careful with him before it was too late.</p>
<p>"I can only answer you in one way," I rejoined. "I must return to a
subject which is very painful to you—the subject of the Trial."</p>
<p>"Go on," he said, with one of his grim outbursts of humor. "Here I am at
your mercy—a martyr at the stake. Poke the fire! poke the fire!"</p>
<p>"I am only an ignorant woman," I resumed, "and I dare say I am quite
wrong; but there is one part of my husband's trial which doesn't at all
satisfy me. The defense set up for him seems to me to have been a complete
mistake."</p>
<p>"A complete mistake?" he repeated. "Strange language, Mrs. Valeria, to say
the least of it!" He tried to speak lightly; he took up his goblet of
wine; but I could see that I had produced an effect on him. His hand
trembled as it carried the wine to his lips.</p>
<p>"I don't doubt that Eustace's first wife really asked him to buy the
arsenic," I continued. "I don't doubt that she used it secretly to improve
her complexion. But what I do <i>not</i> believe is that she died of an
overdose of the poison, taken by mistake."</p>
<p>He put back the goblet of wine on the table near him so unsteadily that he
spilled the greater part of it. For a moment his eyes met mine, then
looked down again.</p>
<p>"How do you believe she died?" he inquired, in tones so low that I could
barely hear them.</p>
<p>"By the hand of a poisoner," I answered.</p>
<p>He made a movement as if he were about to start up in the chair, and sank
back again, seized, apparently, with a sudden faintness.</p>
<p>"Not my husband!" I hastened to add. "You know that I am satisfied of <i>his</i>
innocence."</p>
<p>I saw him shudder. I saw his hands fasten their hold convulsively on the
arms of his chair.</p>
<p>"Who poisoned her?" he asked, still lying helplessly back in the chair.</p>
<p>At the critical moment my courage failed me. I was afraid to tell him in
what direction my suspicions pointed.</p>
<p>"Can't you guess?" I said.</p>
<p>There was a pause. I supposed him to be secretly following his own train
of thought. It was not for long. On a sudden he started up in his chair.
The prostration which had possessed him appeared to vanish in an instant.
His eyes recovered their wild light; his hands were steady again; his
color was brighter than ever. Had he been pondering over the secret of my
interest in Mrs. Beauly? and had he guessed? He had!</p>
<p>"Answer on your word of honor!" he cried. "Don't attempt to deceive me! Is
it a woman?"</p>
<p>"It is."</p>
<p>"What is the first letter of her name? Is it one of the first three
letters of the alphabet?"</p>
<p>"Yes."</p>
<p>"B?"</p>
<p>"Yes."</p>
<p>"Beauly?"</p>
<p>"Beauly."</p>
<p>He threw his hands up above his head, and burst into a frantic fit of
laughter.</p>
<p>"I have lived long enough!" he broke out, wildly. "At last I have
discovered one other person in the world who sees it as plainly as I do.
Cruel Mrs. Valeria! why did you torture me? Why didn't you own it before?"</p>
<p>"What!" I exclaimed, catching the infection of his excitement. "Are <i>your</i>
ideas <i>my</i> ideas? Is it possible that <i>you</i> suspect Mrs. Beauly
too?"</p>
<p>He made this remarkable reply:</p>
<p>"Suspect?" he repeated, contemptuously. "There isn't the shadow of a doubt
about it. Mrs. Beauly poisoned her."</p>
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