<h2><SPAN name="CHAPTER_IV" id="CHAPTER_IV"></SPAN>CHAPTER IV.</h2>
<h3>I QUIT THE WRECK.</h3>
<p>The east grew pale and grey at last. The sea rolled black as the night
from it, with a rounded smooth-backed swell; the wind was spent; only a
small air, still from the north-east, stirred. There were a few stars
dying out in the dark west; the atmosphere was clear, and when the sun
rose I knew he would turn the sable pall overhead into blueness.</p>
<p>The hull lay very deep. I had at one time, during the black hours,
struck into a mournful calculation, and reckoned that the brig would
float some two or three hours after sunrise; but when the glorious beam
flashed out at last, and transformed the ashen hue of dawn into a
cerulean brilliance and a deep of rolling sapphire, I started with
sudden terror to observe how close the covering-board sat upon the
water, and how the head of every swell ran past as high as the bulwark
rail.</p>
<p>Yet for a few moments I stood contemplating the scene of ruin. It was
visible now to its most trifling detail. The foremast was gone smooth
off at the deck; it lay over the starboard bow; and the topmast floated
ahead of the hull, held by the gear. Many feet of bulwarks were crushed
level; the pumps had vanished; the caboose was gone! A completer
nautical ruin I had never viewed.</p>
<p>One extraordinary stroke I quickly detected. The jolly-boat had lain
stowed in the long-boat; it was thus we carried those boats, the little
one lying snugly enough in the other. The sea that had flooded our decks
had floated the jolly-boat out of the long-boat, and swept it bottom up
to the gangway where it lay, as though God's mercy designed it should be
preserved for my use; for, not long after it had been floated out, the
brig struck the berg, the masts fell—and there lay the long-boat
crushed into staves!</p>
<p>This signal and surprising intervention filled my heart with
thankfulness, though my spirits sank again at the sight of my poor
drowned shipmates. But, unless I had a mind to join them, it was
necessary I should speedily bestir myself. So after a minute's
reflection I whipped out my knife, and cutting a couple of blocks away
from the raffle on deck, I rove a line through them, and so made a
tackle, by the help of which I turned the jolly-boat over; I then with a
handspike prised her nose to the gangway, secured a bunch of rope on
either side her to act as fenders or buffers when she should be launched
and lying alongside, ran her midway out by the tackle, and, attaching a
line to a ring-bolt in her bow, shoved her over the side, and she fell
with a splash, shipping scarce a hatful of water.</p>
<p>I found her mast and sail—the sail furled to the mast, as it was used
to lie in her—close against the stump of the mainmast; but though I
sought with all the diligence that hurry would permit for her rudder, I
nowhere saw it, but I met with an oar that had belonged to the other
boat, and this with the mast and sail I dropped into her, the swell
lifting her up to my hand when the blue fold swung past.</p>
<p>My next business was to victual her. I ran to the cabin, but the
lazarette was full of water, and none of the provisions in it to be come
at. I thereupon ransacked the cabin, and found a whole Dutch cheese, a
piece of raw pork, half a ham, eight or ten biscuits, some candles, a
tinder-box, several lemons, a little bag of flower, and thirteen bottles
of beer. These things I rolled up in a cloth and placed them in the
boat, then took from the captain's locker four jars of spirits, two of
which I emptied that I might fill them with fresh water. I also took
with me from the captain's cabin a small boat compass.</p>
<p>The heavy, sluggish, sodden movement of the hull advised me to make
haste. She was now barely lifting to the swell that came brimming in
broad liquid blue brows to her stem. It seemed as though another ton of
water would sink her; and if the swell fell over her bows and filled the
decks, down she would go. I had a small parcel of guineas in my chest,
and was about to fetch this money, when a sort of staggering sensation
in the upward slide of the hull gave me a fright, and, watching my
chance, I jumped into the boat and cast the line that held her adrift.</p>
<p>The sun was an hour above the horizon. The sea was a deep blue, heaving
very slowly, though you felt the weight of the mighty ocean in every
fold; and eastwards, the shoulders of the swell, catching the glorious
reflection of the sun, hurled the splendour along, till all that quarter
of the sea looked to be a mass of leaping dazzle. Upon the eastern
sea-line lay a range of white clouds, compact as the chalk cliffs of
Dover; threads, crescents, feather-shapes of vapour of the daintiest
sort, shot with pearly lustre, floated overhead very high. It was in
truth a fair and pleasant morning—of an icy coldness indeed, but the
air being dry, its shrewdness was endurable. Yet was it a brightness to
fill me with anguish by obliging me to reflect how it would have been
with us had it dawned yesterday instead of to-day. My companions would
have been alive, and yonder sinking ruined fabric a trim ship capable of
bearing us stoutly into warm seas and to our homes at last.</p>
<p>I threw the oar over the stern of the boat to keep her near to the brig,
not so much because I desired to see the last of her, as because of the
shrinking of my soul within me from the thought of heading in my
loneliness into those prodigious leagues of ocean which lay stretched
under the sky. Whilst the hull floated she was something to hold on to,
so to say, something for the eye amid the vastness of water to rest
upon, something to take out of the insufferable feeling of solitude the
poisonous sting of conviction.</p>
<p>But her end was at hand. I had risen to step the boat's mast, and was
standing and grasping it whilst I directed a slow look round the horizon
in God knows what vain hope of beholding a sail, when my eye coming to
the brig, I observed that she was sinking. She went down very slowly;
there was a horrible gurgling sound of water rushing into her, and her
main deck blew up with a loud clap or blast of noise. I could follow the
line of her bulwarks fluctuating and waving in the clear dark blue when
she was some feet under. A number of whirlpools spun round over her, but
the slowness of her foundering was solemnly marked by the gradual
descent of the ruins of masts and yards which were attached to the hull
by their rigging, and which she dragged down with her. On a sudden, when
the last fragment of mast had disappeared, and when the hollows of the
whirlpools were flattening to the level surface of the sea, up rose a
body, with a sort of leap. It was the sailor that had lain drowned on
the starboard side of the forward deck. Being frozen stiff he rose in
the posture in which he had expired, that is, with his arms extended; so
that, when he jumped to the surface, he came with his hands lifted up to
heaven, and thus he stayed a minute, sustained by the eddies which also
revolved him.</p>
<p>The shock occasioned by this melancholy object was so great, it came
near to causing me to swoon. He sank when the water ceased to twist
him, and I was unspeakingly thankful to see him vanish, for his posture
had all the horror of a spectral appeal, and such was the state of my
mind that imagination might quickly have worked the apparition, had it
lingered, into an instrument for the unsettling of my reason.</p>
<p>I rose from the seat on to which I had sunk and loosed the sail, and
hauling the sheet aft, put the oar over the stern, and brought the
little craft's head to an easterly course. The draught of air was
extremely weak, and scarce furnished impulse enough to the sail to raise
a bubble alongside. The boat was about fifteen feet long; she would be
but a small boat for summer pleasuring in English July lake-waters, yet
here was I in her in the heart of a vast ocean, many leagues south and
west of the stormiest, most inhospitable point of land in the world,
with distances before me almost infinite for such a boat as this to
measure ere I could heave a civilized coast or a habitable island into
view!</p>
<p>At the start I had a mind to steer north-west and blow, as the wind
would suffer, into the South Sea, where perchance I might meet a whaler
or a Southseaman from New Holland; but my heart sank at the prospect of
the leagues of water which rolled between me and the islands and the
western American seaboard. Indeed I understood that my only hope of
deliverance lay in being picked up; and that, though by heading east I
should be clinging to the stormy parts, I was more likely to meet with a
ship hereabouts than by sailing into the great desolation of the
north-west. The burden of my loneliness weighed down upon me so
crushingly that I cannot but consider my senses must have been somewhat
dulled by suffering, for had they been active to their old accustomed
height, I am persuaded my heart must have broken and that I should have
died of grief.</p>
<p>Faintly as the wind blew, it speedily wafted me out of sight of the
floating relics of the wreck, and then all was bare, bald, swelling sea
and empearled sky, darkening in lagoons of azure down to the soft
mountainous masses of white vapour lying like the coast of a continent
on the larboard horizon. But one living thing there was besides myself:
a grey-breasted albatross, of a princely width of pinion. I had not
observed it till the hull went down, and then, lifting my eyes with
involuntary sympathy in the direction pointed to by the upraised arms of
the sailor, I observed the great royal bird hanging like a shape of
marble directly over the frothing eddies. It was as though the spirit of
the deep had taken form in the substance of the noblest of all the fowls
of its dominions, and, poised on tremorless wings, was surveying with
the cold curiosity of an intelligence empty of human emotion the
destruction of one of those fabrics whose unequal contests and repeated
triumphs had provoked its haughty surprise. The bird quitted the spot of
the wreck after a while and followed me. Its eyes had the sparkling
blood-red gleam of rubies. It was as silent as a phantom, and with
arched neck and motionless plumes seemed to watch me with an
earnestness that presently grew insufferable. So far from finding any
comfort of companionship in the creature, methought if it did not
speedily break from the motionless posture in which it rested on its
seat of air, and remove its piercing gaze, it would end in crazing me. I
felt a sudden rage, and, jumping up, shouted and shook my fist at it.
This frightened the thing. It uttered a strange salt cry—the very note
of a gust of wind splitting upon a rope—flapped its wings, and after a
turn or two sailed away into the north.</p>
<p>I watched it till its figure melted into the blue atmosphere, and then
sank trembling into the sternsheets of the boat.</p>
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