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<h2> CHAPTER III </h2>
<h3> DEATH </h3>
<p>After she had made a curtsey at the threshold, she would walk up the aisle
between the double lines of chairs, open Madame Aubain’s pew, sit down and
look around.</p>
<p>Girls and boys, the former on the right, the latter on the left-hand side
of the church, filled the stalls of the choir; the priest stood beside the
reading-desk; on one stained window of the side-aisle the Holy Ghost
hovered over the Virgin; on another one, Mary knelt before the Child
Jesus, and behind the altar, a wooden group represented Saint Michael
felling the dragon.</p>
<p>The priest first read a condensed lesson of sacred history. Félicité
evoked Paradise, the Flood, the Tower of Babel, the blazing cities, the
dying nations, the shattered idols; and out of this she developed a great
respect for the Almighty and a great fear of His wrath. Then, when she
listened to the Passion, she wept. Why had they crucified Him who loved
little children, nourished the people, made the blind see, and who, out of
humility, had wished to be born among the poor, in a stable? The sowings,
the harvests, the wine-presses, all those familiar things which the
Scriptures mention, formed a part of her life; the word of God sanctified
them; and she loved the lambs with increased tenderness for the sake of
the Lamb, and the doves because of the Holy Ghost.</p>
<p>She found it hard, however, to think of the latter as a person, for was it
not a bird, a flame, and sometimes only a breath? Perhaps it is its light
that at night hovers over swamps, its breath that propels the clouds, its
voice that renders church-bells harmonious. And Félicité worshipped
devoutly, while enjoying the coolness and the stillness of the church.</p>
<p>As for the dogma, she could not understand it and did not even try. The
priest discoursed, the children recited, and she went to sleep, only to
awaken with a start when they were leaving the church and their wooden
shoes clattered on the stone pavement.</p>
<p>In this way, she learned her catechism, her religious education having
been neglected in her youth; and thenceforth she imitated all Virginia’s
religious practises, fasted when she did, and went to confession with her.
At the Corpus-Christi Day they both decorated an altar.</p>
<p>She worried in advance over Virginia’s first communion. She fussed about
the shoes, the rosary, the book and the gloves. With what nervousness she
helped the mother dress the child!</p>
<p>During the entire ceremony, she felt anguished. Monsieur Bourais hid part
of the choir from view, but directly in front of her, the flock of
maidens, wearing white wreaths over their lowered veils, formed a
snow-white field, and she recognised her darling by the slenderness of her
neck and her devout attitude. The bell tinkled. All the heads bent and
there was a silence. Then, at the peals of the organ the singers and the
worshippers struck up the Agnus Dei; the boys’ procession began; behind
them came the girls. With clasped hands, they advanced step by step to the
lighted altar, knelt at the first step, received one by one the Host, and
returned to their seats in the same order. When Virginia’s turn came,
Félicité leaned forward to watch her, and through that imagination which
springs from true affection, she at once became the child, whose face and
dress became hers, whose heart beat in her bosom, and when Virginia opened
her mouth and closed her lids, she did likewise and came very near
fainting.</p>
<p>The following day, she presented herself early at the church so as to
receive communion from the curé. She took it with the proper feeling, but
did not experience the same delight as on the previous day.</p>
<p>Madame Aubain wished to make an accomplished girl of her daughter; and as
Guyot could not teach English nor music, she decided to send her to the
Ursulines at Honfleur.</p>
<p>The child made no objection, but Félicité sighed and thought Madame was
heartless. Then, she thought that perhaps her mistress was right, as these
things were beyond her sphere. Finally, one day, an old <i>fiacre</i>
stopped in front of the door and a nun stepped out. Félicité put
Virginia’s luggage on top of the carriage, gave the coachman some
instructions, and smuggled six jars of jam, a dozen pears and a bunch of
violets under the seat.</p>
<p>At the last minute, Virginia had a fit of sobbing; she embraced her mother
again and again, while the latter kissed her on her forehead, and said:
“Now, be brave, be brave!” The step was pulled up and the <i>fiacre</i>
rumbled off.</p>
<p>Then Madame Aubain had a fainting spell, and that evening all her friends,
including the two Lormeaus, Madame Lechaptois, the ladies Rochefeuille,
Messieurs de Houppeville and Bourais, called on her and tendered their
sympathy.</p>
<p>At first the separation proved very painful to her. But her daughter wrote
her three times a week and the other days she, herself, wrote to Virginia.
Then she walked in the garden, read a little, and in this way managed to
fill out the emptiness of the hours.</p>
<p>Each morning, out of habit, Félicité entered Virginia’s room and gazed at
the walls. She missed combing her hair, lacing her shoes, tucking her in
her bed, and the bright face and little hand when they used to go out for
a walk. In order to occupy herself she tried to make lace. But her clumsy
fingers broke the threads; she had no heart for anything, lost her sleep
and “wasted away,” as she put it.</p>
<p>In order to have some distraction, she asked leave to receive the visits
of her nephew Victor.</p>
<p>He would come on Sunday, after church, with ruddy cheeks and bared chest,
bringing with him the scent of the country. She would set the table and
they would sit down opposite each other, and eat their dinner; she ate as
little as possible, herself, to avoid any extra expense, but would stuff
him so with food that he would finally go to sleep. At the first stroke of
vespers, she would wake him up, brush his trousers, tie his cravat and
walk to church with him, leaning on his arm with maternal pride.</p>
<p>His parents always told him to get something out of her, either a package
of brown sugar, or soap, or brandy, and sometimes even money. He brought
her his clothes to mend, and she accepted the task gladly, because it
meant another visit from him.</p>
<p>In August, his father took him on a coasting-vessel.</p>
<p>It was vacation time and the arrival of the children consoled Félicité.
But Paul was capricious, and Virginia was growing too old to be
thee-and-thou’d, a fact which seemed to produce a sort of embarrassment in
their relations.</p>
<p>Victor went successively to Morlaix, to Dunkirk, and to Brighton; whenever
he returned from a trip he would bring her a present. The first time it
was a box of shells; the second, a coffee-cup; the third, a big doll of
ginger-bread. He was growing handsome, had a good figure, a tiny
moustache, kind eyes, and a little leather cap that sat jauntily on the
back of his head. He amused his aunt by telling her stories mingled with
nautical expressions.</p>
<p>One Monday, the 14th of July, 1819 (she never forgot the date), Victor
announced that he had been engaged on merchant-vessel and that in two days
he would take the steamer at Honfleur and join his sailer, which was going
to start from Havre very soon. Perhaps he might be away two years.</p>
<p>The prospect of his departure filled Félicité with despair, and in order
to bid him farewell, on Wednesday night, after Madame’s dinner, she put on
her pattens and trudged the four miles that separated Pont-l’Evêque from
Honfleur.</p>
<p>When she reached the Calvary, instead of turning to the right, she turned
to the left and lost herself in coal-yards; she had to retrace her steps;
some people she spoke to advised her to hasten. She walked helplessly
around the harbour filled with vessels, and knocked against hawsers.
Presently the ground sloped abruptly, lights flittered to and fro, and she
thought all at once that she had gone mad when she saw some horses in the
sky.</p>
<p>Others, on the edge of the dock, neighed at the sight of the ocean. A
derrick pulled them up in the air and dumped them into a boat, where
passengers were bustling about among barrels of cider, baskets of cheese
and bags of meal; chickens cackled, the captain swore and a cabin-boy
rested on the railing, apparently indifferent to his surroundings.
Félicité, who did not recognise him, kept shouting: “Victor!” He suddenly
raised his eyes, but while she was preparing to rush up to him, they
withdrew the gangplank.</p>
<p>The packet, towed by singing women, glided out of the harbour. Her hull
squeaked and the heavy waves beat up against her sides. The sail had
turned and nobody was visible;—and on the ocean, silvered by the
light of the moon, the vessel formed a black spot that grew dimmer and
dimmer, and finally disappeared.</p>
<p>When Félicité passed the Calvary again, she felt as if she must entrust
that which was dearest to her to the Lord; and for a long while she
prayed, with uplifted eyes and a face wet with tears. The city was
sleeping; some customs officials were taking the air; and the water kept
pouring through the holes of the dam with a deafening roar. The town clock
struck two.</p>
<p>The parlour of the convent would not open until morning, and surely a
delay would annoy Madame; so, in spite of her desire to see the other
child, she went home. The maids of the inn were just arising when she
reached Pont-l’Evêque.</p>
<p>So the poor boy would be on the ocean for months! His previous trips had
not alarmed her. One can come back from England and Brittany; but America,
the colonies, the islands, were all lost in an uncertain region at the
very end of the world.</p>
<p>From that time on, Félicité thought solely of her nephew. On warm days she
feared he would suffer from thirst, and when it stormed, she was afraid he
would be struck by lightning. When she harkened to the wind that rattled
in the chimney and dislodged the tiles on the roof, she imagined that he
was being buffeted by the same storm, perched on top of a shattered mast,
with his whole body bent backward and covered with sea-foam; or,—these
were recollections of the engraved geography—he was being devoured
by savages, or captured in a forest by apes, or dying on some lonely
coast. She never mentioned her anxieties, however.</p>
<p>Madame Aubain worried about her daughter.</p>
<p>The sisters thought that Virginia was affectionate but delicate. The
slightest emotion enervated her. She had to give up her piano lessons. Her
mother insisted upon regular letters from the convent. One morning, when
the postman failed to come, she grew impatient and began to pace to and
fro, from her chair to the window. It was really extraordinary! No news
since four days!</p>
<p>In order to console her mistress by her own example, Félicité said:</p>
<p>“Why, Madame, I haven’t had any news since six months!”—</p>
<p>“From whom?”—</p>
<p>The servant replied gently:</p>
<p>“Why—from my nephew.”</p>
<p>“Oh, yes, your nephew!” And shrugging her shoulders, Madame Aubain
continued to pace the floor as if to say: “I did not think of it.—Besides,
I do not care, a cabin-boy, a pauper!—but my daughter—what a
difference! just think of it!—”</p>
<p>Félicité, although she had been reared roughly, was very indignant. Then
she forgot about it.</p>
<p>It appeared quite natural to her that one should lose one’s head about
Virginia.</p>
<p>The two children were of equal importance; they were united in her heart
and their fate was to be the same.</p>
<p>The chemist informed her that Victor’s vessel had reached Havana. He had
read the information in a newspaper.</p>
<p>Félicité imagined that Havana was a place where people did nothing but
smoke, and that Victor walked around among negroes in a cloud of tobacco.
Could a person, in case of need, return by land? How far was it from
Pont-l’Evêque? In order to learn these things she questioned Monsieur
Bourais. He reached for his map and began some explanations concerning
longitudes, and smiled with superiority at Félicité’s bewilderment. At
last, he took his pencil and pointed out an imperceptible black point in
the scallops of an oval blotch, adding: “There it is.” She bent over the
map; the maze of coloured lines hurt her eyes without enlightening her;
and when Bourais asked her what puzzled her, she requested him to show her
the house Victor lived in. Bourais threw up his hands, sneezed, and then
laughed uproariously; such ignorance delighted his soul; but Félicité
failed to understand the cause of his mirth, she whose intelligence was so
limited that she perhaps expected to see even the picture of her nephew!</p>
<p>It was two weeks later that Liébard came into the kitchen at market-time,
and handed her a letter from her brother-in-law. As neither of them could
read, she called upon her mistress.</p>
<p>Madame Aubain, who was counting the stitches of her knitting, laid her
work down beside her, opened the letter, started, and in a low tone and
with a searching look said: “They tell you of a—misfortune. Your
nephew—.”</p>
<p>He had died. The letter told nothing more.</p>
<p>Félicité dropped on a chair, leaned her head against the back and closed
her lids; presently they grew pink. Then, with drooping head, inert hands
and staring eyes she repeated at intervals:</p>
<p>“Poor little chap! poor little chap!”</p>
<p>Liébard watched her and sighed. Madame Aubain was trembling.</p>
<p>She proposed to the girl to go see her sister in Trouville.</p>
<p>With a single motion, Félicité replied that it was not necessary.</p>
<p>There was a silence. Old Liébard thought it about time for him to take
leave.</p>
<p>Then Félicité uttered:</p>
<p>“They have no sympathy, they do not care!”</p>
<p>Her head fell forward again, and from time to time, mechanically, she
toyed with the long knitting-needles on the work-table.</p>
<p>Some women passed through the yard with a basket of wet clothes.</p>
<p>When she saw them through the window, she suddenly remembered her own
wash; as she had soaked it the day before, she must go and rinse it now.
So she arose and left the room.</p>
<p>Her tub and her board were on the bank of the Toucques. She threw a heap
of clothes on the ground, rolled up her sleeves and grasped her bat; and
her loud pounding could be heard in the neighbouring gardens. The meadows
were empty, the breeze wrinkled the stream, at the bottom of which were
long grasses that looked like the hair of corpses floating in the water.
She restrained her sorrow and was very brave until night; but, when she
had gone to her own room, she gave way to it, burying her face in the
pillow and pressing her two fists against her temples.</p>
<p>A long while afterward, she learned through Victor’s captain, the
circumstances which surrounded his death. At the hospital they had bled
him too much, treating him for yellow fever. Four doctors held him at one
time. He died almost instantly, and the chief surgeon had said:</p>
<p>“Here goes another one!”</p>
<p>His parents had always treated him barbarously; she preferred not to see
them again, and they made no advances, either from forgetfulness or out of
innate hardness.</p>
<p>Virginia was growing weaker.</p>
<p>A cough, continual fever, oppressive breathing and spots on her cheeks
indicated some serious trouble. Monsieur Poupart had advised a sojourn in
Provence. Madame Aubain decided that they would go, and she would have had
her daughter come home at once, had it not been for the climate of
Pont-l’Evêque.</p>
<p>She made an arrangement with a livery-stable man who drove her over to the
convent every Tuesday. In the garden there was a terrace, from which the
view extends to the Seine. Virginia walked in it, leaning on her mother’s
arm and treading the dead vine leaves. Sometimes the sun, shining through
the clouds, made her blink her lids, when she gazed at the sails in the
distance, and let her eyes roam over the horizon from the chateau of
Tancarville to the lighthouses of Havre. Then they rested in the arbour.
Her mother had bought a little cask of fine Malaga wine, and Virginia,
laughing at the idea of becoming intoxicated, would drink a few drops of
it, but never more.</p>
<p>Her strength returned. Autumn passed. Félicité began to reassure Madame
Aubain. But, one evening, when she returned home after an errand, she met
M. Boupart’s coach in front of the door; M. Boupart himself was standing
in the vestibule and Madame Aubain was tying the strings of her bonnet.
“Give me my foot-warmer, my purse and my gloves; and be quick about it,”
she said.</p>
<p>Virginia had congestion of the lungs; perhaps it was desperate.</p>
<p>“Not yet,” said the physician, and both got into the carriage, while the
snow fell in thick flakes. It was almost night and very cold.</p>
<p>Félicité rushed to the church to light a candle. Then she ran after the
coach which she overtook after an hour’s chase, sprang up behind and held
on to the straps. But suddenly a thought crossed her mind: “The yard had
been left open; supposing that burglars got in!” And down she jumped.</p>
<p>The next morning, at daybreak, she called at the doctor’s. He had been
home, but had left again. Then she waited at the inn, thinking that
strangers might bring her a letter. At last, at daylight she took the
diligence for Lisieux.</p>
<p>The convent was at the end of a steep and narrow street. When she arrived
about at the middle of it, she heard strange noises, a funeral knell. “It
must be for some one else,” thought she; and she pulled the knocker
violently.</p>
<p>After several minutes had elapsed, she heard footsteps, the door was half
opened and a nun appeared. The good sister, with an air of compunction,
told her that “she had just passed away.” And at the same time the tolling
of Saint-Léonard’s increased.</p>
<p>Félicité reached the second floor. Already at the threshold, she caught
sight of Virginia lying on her back, with clasped hands, her mouth open
and her head thrown back, beneath a black crucifix inclined toward her,
and stiff curtains which were less white than her face. Madame Aubain lay
at the foot of the couch, clasping it with her arms and uttering groans of
agony. The Mother Superior was standing on the right side of the bed. The
three candles on the bureau made red blurs, and the windows were dimmed by
the fog outside. The nuns carried Madame Aubain from the room.</p>
<p>For two nights, Félicité never left the corpse. She would repeat the same
prayers, sprinkle holy water over the sheets, get up, come back to the bed
and contemplate the body. At the end of the first vigil, she noticed that
the face had taken on a yellow tinge, the lips grew blue, the nose grew
pinched, the eyes were sunken. She kissed them several times and would not
have been greatly astonished had Virginia opened them; to souls like these
the supernatural is always quite simple. She washed her, wrapped her in a
shroud, put her into the casket, laid a wreath of flowers on her head and
arranged her curls. They were blond and of an extraordinary length for her
age. Félicité cut off a big lock and put half of it into her bosom,
resolving never to part with it.</p>
<p>The body was taken to Pont-l’Evêque, according to Madame Aubain’s wishes;
she followed the hearse in a closed carriage.</p>
<p>After the ceremony it took three quarters of an hour to reach the
cemetery. Paul, sobbing, headed the procession; Monsieur Bourais followed,
and then came the principal inhabitants of the town, the women covered
with black capes, and Félicité. The memory of her nephew, and the thought
that she had not been able to render him these honours, made her doubly
unhappy, and she felt as if he were being buried with Virginia.</p>
<p>Madame Aubain’s grief was uncontrollable. At first she rebelled against
God, thinking that he was unjust to have taken away her child—she
who had never done anything wrong, and whose conscience was so pure! But
no! she ought to have taken her South. Other doctors would have saved her.
She accused herself, prayed to be able to join her child, and cried in the
midst of her dreams. Of the latter, one more especially haunted her. Her
husband, dressed like a sailor, had come back from a long voyage, and with
tears in his eyes told her that he had received the order to take Virginia
away. Then they both consulted about a hiding-place.</p>
<p>Once she came in from the garden, all upset. A moment before (and she
showed the place), the father and daughter had appeared to her, one after
the other; they did nothing but look at her.</p>
<p>During several months she remained inert in her room. Félicité scolded her
gently; she must keep up for her son and also for the other one, for “her
memory.”</p>
<p>“Her memory!” replied Madame Aubain, as if she were just awakening, “Oh!
yes, yes, you do not forget her!” This was an allusion to the cemetery
where she had been expressly forbidden to go.</p>
<p>But Félicité went there every day. At four o’clock exactly, she would go
through the town, climb the hill, open the gate and arrive at Virginia’s
tomb. It was a small column of pink marble with a flat stone at its base,
and it was surrounded by a little plot enclosed by chains. The flower-beds
were bright with blossoms. Félicité watered their leaves, renewed the
gravel, and knelt on the ground in order to till the earth properly. When
Madame Aubain was able to visit the cemetery she felt very much relieved
and consoled.</p>
<p>Years passed, all alike and marked by no other events than the return of
the great church holidays: Easter, Assumption, All Saints’ Day. Household
happenings constituted the only data to which in later years they often
referred. Thus, in 1825, workmen painted the vestibule; in 1827, a portion
of the roof almost killed a man by falling into the yard. In the summer of
1828, it was Madame’s turn to offer the hallowed bread; at that time,
Bourais disappeared mysteriously; and the old acquaintances, Guyot,
Liébard, Madame Lechaptois, Robelin, old Grémanville, paralysed since a
long time, passed away one by one. One night, the driver of the mail in
Pont-l’Evêque announced the Revolution of July. A few days afterward a new
sub-prefect was nominated, the Baron de Larsonnière, ex-consul in America,
who, besides his wife, had his sister-in-law and her three grown daughters
with him. They were often seen on their lawn, dressed in loose blouses,
and they had a parrot and a negro servant. Madame Aubain received a call,
which she returned promptly. As soon as she caught sight of them, Félicité
would run and notify her mistress. But only one thing was capable of
arousing her: a letter from her son.</p>
<p>He could not follow any profession as he was absorbed in drinking. His
mother paid his debts and he made fresh ones; and the sighs that she
heaved while she knitted at the window reached the ears of Félicité who
was spinning in the kitchen.</p>
<p>They walked in the garden together, always speaking of Virginia, and
asking each other if such and such a thing would have pleased her, and
what she would probably have said on this or that occasion.</p>
<p>All her little belongings were put away in a closet of the room which held
the two little beds. But Madame Aubain looked them over as little as
possible. One summer day, however, she resigned herself to the task and
when she opened the closet the moths flew out.</p>
<p>Virginia’s frocks were hung under a shelf where there were three dolls,
some hoops, a doll-house, and a basin which she had used. Félicité and
Madame Aubain also took out the skirts, the handkerchiefs, and the
stockings and spread them on the beds, before putting them away again. The
sun fell on the piteous things, disclosing their spots and the creases
formed by the motions of the body. The atmosphere was warm and blue, and a
blackbird trilled in the garden; everything seemed to live in happiness.
They found a little hat of soft brown plush, but it was entirely
moth-eaten. Félicité asked for it. Their eyes met and filled with tears;
at last the mistress opened her arms and the servant threw herself against
her breast and they hugged each other and giving vent to their grief in a
kiss which equalized them for a moment.</p>
<p>It was the first time that this had ever happened, for Madame Aubain was
not of an expansive nature. Félicité was as grateful for it as if it had
been some favour, and thenceforth loved her with animal-like devotion and
a religious veneration.</p>
<p>Her kind-heartedness developed. When she heard the drums of a marching
regiment passing through the street, she would stand in the doorway with a
jug of cider and give the soldiers a drink. She nursed cholera victims.
She protected Polish refugees, and one of them even declared that he
wished to marry her. But they quarrelled, for one morning when she
returned from the Angelus she found him in the kitchen coolly eating a
dish which he had prepared for himself during her absence.</p>
<p>After the Polish refugees, came Colmiche, an old man who was credited with
having committed frightful misdeeds in ’93. He lived near the river in the
ruins of a pig-sty. The urchins peeped at him through the cracks in the
walls and threw stones that fell on his miserable bed, where he lay
gasping with catarrh, with long hair, inflamed eyelids, and a tumour as
big as his head on one arm.</p>
<p>She got him some linen, tried to clean his hovel and dreamed of installing
him in the bake-house without his being in Madame’s way. When the cancer
broke, she dressed it every day; sometimes she brought him some cake and
placed him in the sun on a bundle of hay; and the poor old creature,
trembling and drooling, would thank her in his broken voice, and put out
his hands whenever she left him. Finally he died; and she had a mass said
for the repose of his soul.</p>
<p>That day a great joy came to her: at dinner-time, Madame de Larsonnière’s
servant called with the parrot, the cage, and the perch and chain and
lock. A note from the baroness told Madame Aubain that as her husband had
been promoted to a prefecture, they were leaving that night, and she
begged her to accept the bird as a remembrance and a token of her esteem.</p>
<p>Since a long time the parrot had been on Félicité’s mind, because he came
from America, which reminded her of Victor, and she had approached the
negro on the subject.</p>
<p>Once even, she had said:</p>
<p>“How glad Madame would be to have him!”</p>
<p>The man had repeated this remark to his mistress who, not being able to
keep the bird, took this means of getting rid of it.</p>
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