<p>The evening came on, slow and calm. He seated himself at the end of an
alley leading into one of the larger streets. His brain was clear
to-night, keen, intent, mastering. It would not start back, cowardly, from
any hellish temptation, but meet it face to face. Therefore the great
temptation of his life came to him veiled by no sophistry, but bold,
defiant, owning its own vile name, trusting to one bold blow for victory.</p>
<p>He did not deceive himself. Theft! That was it. At first the word sickened
him; then he grappled with it. Sitting there on a broken cart-wheel, the
fading day, the noisy groups, the church-bells' tolling passed before him
like a panorama, while the sharp struggle went on within. This money! He
took it out, and looked at it. If he gave it back, what then? He was going
to be cool about it.</p>
<p>People going by to church saw only a sickly mill-boy watching them quietly
at the alley's mouth. They did not know that he was mad, or they would not
have gone by so quietly: mad with hunger; stretching out his hands to the
world, that had given so much to them, for leave to live the life God
meant him to live. His soul within him was smothering to death; he wanted
so much, thought so much, and knew—nothing. There was nothing of
which he was certain, except the mill and things there. Of God and heaven
he had heard so little, that they were to him what fairy-land is to a
child: something real, but not here; very far off. His brain, greedy,
dwarfed, full of thwarted energy and unused powers, questioned these men
and women going by, coldly, bitterly, that night. Was it not his right to
live as they,—a pure life, a good, true-hearted life, full of beauty
and kind words? He only wanted to know how to use the strength within him.
His heart warmed, as he thought of it. He suffered himself to think of it
longer. If he took the money?</p>
<p>Then he saw himself as he might be, strong, helpful, kindly. The night
crept on, as this one image slowly evolved itself from the crowd of other
thoughts and stood triumphant. He looked at it. As he might be! What
wonder, if it blinded him to delirium,—the madness that underlies
all revolution, all progress, and all fall?</p>
<p>You laugh at the shallow temptation? You see the error underlying its
argument so clearly,—that to him a true life was one of full
development rather than self-restraint? that he was deaf to the higher
tone in a cry of voluntary suffering for truth's sake than in the fullest
flow of spontaneous harmony? I do not plead his cause. I only want to show
you the mote in my brother's eye: then you can see clearly to take it out.</p>
<p>The money,—there it lay on his knee, a little blotted slip of paper,
nothing in itself; used to raise him out of the pit, something straight
from God's hand. A thief! Well, what was it to be a thief? He met the
question at last, face to face, wiping the clammy drops of sweat from his
forehead. God made this money—the fresh air, too—for his
children's use. He never made the difference between poor and rich. The
Something who looked down on him that moment through the cool gray sky had
a kindly face, he knew,—loved his children alike. Oh, he knew that!</p>
<p>There were times when the soft floods of color in the crimson and purple
flames, or the clear depth of amber in the water below the bridge, had
somehow given him a glimpse of another world than this,—of an
infinite depth of beauty and of quiet somewhere,—somewhere, a depth
of quiet and rest and love. Looking up now, it became strangely real. The
sun had sunk quite below the hills, but his last rays struck upward,
touching the zenith. The fog had risen, and the town and river were
steeped in its thick, gray damp; but overhead, the sun-touched
smoke-clouds opened like a cleft ocean,—shifting, rolling seas of
crimson mist, waves of billowy silver veined with blood-scarlet, inner
depths unfathomable of glancing light. Wolfe's artist-eye grew drunk with
color. The gates of that other world! Fading, flashing before him now!
What, in that world of Beauty, Content, and Right, were the petty laws,
the mine and thine, of mill-owners and mill hands?</p>
<p>A consciousness of power stirred within him. He stood up. A man,—he
thought, stretching out his hands,—free to work, to live, to love!
Free! His right! He folded the scrap of paper in his hand. As his nervous
fingers took it in, limp and blotted, so his soul took in the mean
temptation, lapped it in fancied rights, in dreams of improved existences,
drifting and endless as the cloud-seas of color. Clutching it, as if the
tightness of his hold would strengthen his sense of possession, he went
aimlessly down the street. It was his watch at the mill. He need not go,
need never go again, thank God!—shaking off the thought with
unspeakable loathing.</p>
<p>Shall I go over the history of the hours of that night? how the man
wandered from one to another of his old haunts, with a half-consciousness
of bidding them farewell,—lanes and alleys and back-yards where the
mill-hands lodged,—noting, with a new eagerness, the filth and
drunkenness, the pig-pens, the ash-heaps covered with potato-skins, the
bloated, pimpled women at the doors, with a new disgust, a new sense of
sudden triumph, and, under all, a new, vague dread, unknown before,
smothered down, kept under, but still there? It left him but once during
the night, when, for the second time in his life, he entered a church. It
was a sombre Gothic pile, where the stained light lost itself in
far-retreating arches; built to meet the requirements and sympathies of a
far other class than Wolfe's. Yet it touched, moved him uncontrollably.
The distances, the shadows, the still, marble figures, the mass of silent
kneeling worshippers, the mysterious music, thrilled, lifted his soul with
a wonderful pain. Wolfe forgot himself, forgot the new life he was going
to live, the mean terror gnawing underneath. The voice of the speaker
strengthened the charm; it was clear, feeling, full, strong. An old man,
who had lived much, suffered much; whose brain was keenly alive, dominant;
whose heart was summer-warm with charity. He taught it to-night. He held
up Humanity in its grand total; showed the great world-cancer to his
people. Who could show it better? He was a Christian reformer; he had
studied the age thoroughly; his outlook at man had been free, world-wide,
over all time. His faith stood sublime upon the Rock of Ages; his fiery
zeal guided vast schemes by which the Gospel was to be preached to all
nations. How did he preach it to-night? In burning, light-laden words he
painted Jesus, the incarnate Life, Love, the universal Man: words that
became reality in the lives of these people,—that lived again in
beautiful words and actions, trifling, but heroic. Sin, as he defined it,
was a real foe to them; their trials, temptations, were his. His words
passed far over the furnace-tender's grasp, toned to suit another class of
culture; they sounded in his ears a very pleasant song in an unknown
tongue. He meant to cure this world-cancer with a steady eye that had
never glared with hunger, and a hand that neither poverty nor
strychnine-whiskey had taught to shake. In this morbid, distorted heart of
the Welsh puddler he had failed.</p>
<p>Eighteen centuries ago, the Master of this man tried reform in the streets
of a city as crowded and vile as this, and did not fail. His disciple,
showing Him to-night to cultured hearers, showing the clearness of the
God-power acting through Him, shrank back from one coarse fact; that in
birth and habit the man Christ was thrown up from the lowest of the
people: his flesh, their flesh; their blood, his blood; tempted like them,
to brutalize day by day; to lie, to steal: the actual slime and want of
their hourly life, and the wine-press he trod alone.</p>
<p>Yet, is there no meaning in this perpetually covered truth? If the son of
the carpenter had stood in the church that night, as he stood with the
fishermen and harlots by the sea of Galilee, before His Father and their
Father, despised and rejected of men, without a place to lay His head,
wounded for their iniquities, bruised for their transgressions, would not
that hungry mill-boy at least, in the back seat, have "known the man"?
That Jesus did not stand there.</p>
<p>Wolfe rose at last, and turned from the church down the street. He looked
up; the night had come on foggy, damp; the golden mists had vanished, and
the sky lay dull and ash-colored. He wandered again aimlessly down the
street, idly wondering what had become of the cloud-sea of crimson and
scarlet. The trial-day of this man's life was over, and he had lost the
victory. What followed was mere drifting circumstance,—a quicker
walking over the path,—that was all. Do you want to hear the end of
it? You wish me to make a tragic story out of it? Why, in the
police-reports of the morning paper you can find a dozen such tragedies:
hints of shipwrecks unlike any that ever befell on the high seas; hints
that here a power was lost to heaven,—that there a soul went down
where no tide can ebb or flow. Commonplace enough the hints are,—jocose
sometimes, done up in rhyme.</p>
<p>Doctor May a month after the night I have told you of, was reading to his
wife at breakfast from this fourth column of the morning-paper: an unusual
thing,—these police-reports not being, in general, choice reading
for ladies; but it was only one item he read.</p>
<p>"Oh, my dear! You remember that man I told you of, that we saw at Kirby's
mill?—that was arrested for robbing Mitchell? Here he is; just
listen:—'Circuit Court. Judge Day. Hugh Wolfe, operative in Kirby
& John's Loudon Mills. Charge, grand larceny. Sentence, nineteen years
hard labor in penitentiary. Scoundrel! Serves him right! After all our
kindness that night! Picking Mitchell's pocket at the very time!"</p>
<p>His wife said something about the ingratitude of that kind of people, and
then they began to talk of something else.</p>
<p>Nineteen years! How easy that was to read! What a simple word for Judge
Day to utter! Nineteen years! Half a lifetime!</p>
<p>Hugh Wolfe sat on the window-ledge of his cell, looking out. His ankles
Were ironed. Not usual in such cases; but he had made two desperate
efforts to escape. "Well," as Haley, the jailer, said, "small blame to
him! Nineteen years' imprisonment was not a pleasant thing to look forward
to." Haley was very good-natured about it, though Wolfe had fought him
savagely.</p>
<p>"When he was first caught," the jailer said afterwards, in telling the
story, "before the trial, the fellow was cut down at once,—laid
there on that pallet like a dead man, with his hands over his eyes. Never
saw a man so cut down in my life. Time of the trial, too, came the
queerest dodge of any customer I ever had. Would choose no lawyer. Judge
gave him one, of course. Gibson it Was. He tried to prove the fellow
crazy; but it wouldn't go. Thing was plain as daylight: money found on
him. 'T was a hard sentence,—all the law allows; but it was for
'xample's sake. These mill-hands are gettin' onbearable. When the sentence
was read, he just looked up, and said the money was his by rights, and
that all the world had gone wrong. That night, after the trial, a
gentleman came to see him here, name of Mitchell,—him as he stole
from. Talked to him for an hour. Thought he came for curiosity, like.
After he was gone, thought Wolfe was remarkable quiet, and went into his
cell. Found him very low; bed all bloody. Doctor said he had been bleeding
at the lungs. He was as weak as a cat; yet if ye'll b'lieve me, he tried
to get a-past me and get out. I just carried him like a baby, and threw
him on the pallet. Three days after, he tried it again: that time reached
the wall. Lord help you! he fought like a tiger,—giv' some terrible
blows. Fightin' for life, you see; for he can't live long, shut up in the
stone crib down yonder. Got a death-cough now. 'T took two of us to bring
him down that day; so I just put the irons on his feet. There he sits, in
there. Goin' to-morrow, with a batch more of 'em. That woman, hunchback,
tried with him,—you remember?—she's only got three years.
'Complice. But she's a woman, you know. He's been quiet ever since I put
on irons: giv' up, I suppose. Looks white, sick-lookin'. It acts different
on 'em, bein' sentenced. Most of 'em gets reckless, devilish-like. Some
prays awful, and sings them vile songs of the mills, all in a breath. That
woman, now, she's desper't'. Been beggin' to see Hugh, as she calls him,
for three days. I'm a-goin' to let her in. She don't go with him. Here she
is in this next cell. I'm a-goin' now to let her in."</p>
<p>He let her in. Wolfe did not see her. She crept into a corner of the cell,
and stood watching him. He was scratching the iron bars of the window with
a piece of tin which he had picked up, with an idle, uncertain, vacant
stare, just as a child or idiot would do.</p>
<p>"Tryin' to get out, old boy?" laughed Haley. "Them irons will need a
crow-bar beside your tin, before you can open 'em."</p>
<p>Wolfe laughed, too, in a senseless way.</p>
<p>"I think I'll get out," he said.</p>
<p>"I believe his brain's touched," said Haley, when he came out.</p>
<p>The puddler scraped away with the tin for half an hour. Still Deborah did
not speak. At last she ventured nearer, and touched his arm.</p>
<p>"Blood?" she said, looking at some spots on his coat with a shudder.</p>
<p>He looked up at her, "Why, Deb!" he said, smiling,—such a bright,
boyish smile, that it Went to poor Deborah's heart directly, and she
sobbed and cried out loud.</p>
<p>"Oh, Hugh, lad! Hugh! dunnot look at me, when it wur my fault! To think I
brought hur to it! And I loved hur so! Oh lad, I dud!"</p>
<p>The confession, even In this wretch, came with the woman's blush through
the sharp cry.</p>
<p>He did not seem to hear her,—scraping away diligently at the bars
with the bit of tin.</p>
<p>Was he going mad? She peered closely into his face. Something she saw
there made her draw suddenly back,—something which Haley had not
seen, that lay beneath the pinched, vacant look it had caught since the
trial, or the curious gray shadow that rested on it. That gray shadow,—yes,
she knew what that meant. She had often seen it creeping over women's
faces for months, who died at last of slow hunger or consumption. That
meant death, distant, lingering: but this—Whatever it was the woman
saw, or thought she saw, used as she was to crime and misery, seemed to
make her sick with a new horror. Forgetting her fear of him, she caught
his shoulders, and looked keenly, steadily, into his eyes.</p>
<p>"Hugh!" she cried, in a desperate whisper,—"oh, boy, not that! for
God's sake, not that!"</p>
<p>The vacant laugh went off his face, and he answered her in a muttered word
or two that drove her away. Yet the words were kindly enough. Sitting
there on his pallet, she cried silently a hopeless sort of tears, but did
not speak again. The man looked up furtively at her now and then. Whatever
his own trouble was, her distress vexed him with a momentary sting.</p>
<p>It was market-day. The narrow window of the jail looked down directly on
the carts and wagons drawn up in a long line, where they had unloaded. He
could see, too, and hear distinctly the clink of money as it changed
hands, the busy crowd of whites and blacks shoving, pushing one another,
and the chaffering and swearing at the stalls. Somehow, the sound, more
than anything else had done, wakened him up,—made the whole real to
him. He was done with the world and the business of it. He let the tin
fall, and looked out, pressing his face close to the rusty bars. How they
crowded and pushed! And he,—he should never walk that pavement
again! There came Neff Sanders, one of the feeders at the mill, with a
basket on his arm. Sure enough, Nyeff was married the other week. He
whistled, hoping he would look up; but he did not. He wondered if Neff
remembered he was there,—if any of the boys thought of him up there,
and thought that he never was to go down that old cinder-road again. Never
again! He had not quite understood it before; but now he did. Not for days
or years, but never!—that was it.</p>
<p>How clear the light fell on that stall in front of the market! and how
like a picture it was, the dark-green heaps of corn, and the crimson
beets, and golden melons! There was another with game: how the light
flickered on that pheasant's breast, with the purplish blood dripping over
the brown feathers! He could see the red shining of the drops, it was so
near. In one minute he could be down there. It was just a step. So easy,
as it seemed, so natural to go! Yet it could never be—not in all the
thousands of years to come—that he should put his foot on that
street again! He thought of himself with a sorrowful pity, as of some one
else. There was a dog down in the market, walking after his master with
such a stately, grave look!—only a dog, yet he could go backwards
and forwards just as he pleased: he had good luck! Why, the very vilest
cur, yelping there in the gutter, had not lived his life, had been free to
act out whatever thought God had put into his brain; while he—No, he
would not think of that! He tried to put the thought away, and to listen
to a dispute between a countryman and a woman about some meat; but it
would come back. He, what had he done to bear this?</p>
<p>Then came the sudden picture of what might have been, and now. He knew
what it was to be in the penitentiary, how it went with men there. He knew
how in these long years he should slowly die, but not until soul and body
had become corrupt and rotten,—how, when he came out, if he lived to
come, even the lowest of the mill-hands would jeer him,—how his
hands would be weak, and his brain senseless and stupid. He believed he
was almost that now. He put his hand to his head, with a puzzled, weary
look. It ached, his head, with thinking. He tried to quiet himself. It was
only right, perhaps; he had done wrong. But was there right or wrong for
such as he? What was right? And who had ever taught him? He thrust the
whole matter away. A dark, cold quiet crept through his brain. It was all
wrong; but let it be! It was nothing to him more than the others. Let it
be!</p>
<p>The door grated, as Haley opened it.</p>
<p>"Come, my woman! Must lock up for t' night. Come, stir yerself!"</p>
<p>She went up and took Hugh's hand.</p>
<p>"Good-night, Deb," he said, carelessly.</p>
<p>She had not hoped he would say more; but the tired pain on her mouth just
then was bitterer than death. She took his passive hand and kissed it.</p>
<p>"Hur'll never see Deb again!" she ventured, her lips growing colder and
more bloodless.</p>
<p>What did she say that for? Did he not know it? Yet he would not be
impatient with poor old Deb. She had trouble of her own, as well as he.</p>
<p>"No, never again," he said, trying to be cheerful.</p>
<p>She stood just a moment, looking at him. Do you laugh at her, standing
there, with her hunchback, her rags, her bleared, withered face, and the
great despised love tugging at her heart?</p>
<p>"Come, you!" called Haley, impatiently.</p>
<p>She did not move.</p>
<p>"Hugh!" she whispered.</p>
<p>It was to be her last word. What was it?</p>
<p>"Hugh, boy, not THAT!"</p>
<p>He did not answer. She wrung her hands, trying to be silent, looking in
his face in an agony of entreaty. He smiled again, kindly.</p>
<p>"It is best, Deb. I cannot bear to be hurted any more.</p>
<p>"Hur knows," she said, humbly.</p>
<p>"Tell my father good-bye; and—and kiss little Janey."</p>
<p>She nodded, saying nothing, looked in his face again, and went out of the
door. As she went, she staggered.</p>
<p>"Drinkin' to-day?" broke out Haley, pushing her before him. "Where the
Devil did you get it? Here, in with ye!" and he shoved her into her cell,
next to Wolfe's, and shut the door.</p>
<p>Along the wall of her cell there was a crack low down by the floor,
through which she could see the light from Wolfe's. She had discovered it
days before. She hurried in now, and, kneeling down by it, listened,
hoping to hear some sound. Nothing but the rasping of the tin on the bars.
He was at his old amusement again. Something in the noise jarred on her
ear, for she shivered as she heard it. Hugh rasped away at the bars. A
dull old bit of tin, not fit to cut korl with.</p>
<p>He looked out of the window again. People were leaving the market now. A
tall mulatto girl, following her mistress, her basket on her head, crossed
the street just below, and looked up. She was laughing; but, when she
caught sight of the haggard face peering out through the bars, suddenly
grew grave, and hurried by. A free, firm step, a clear-cut olive face,
with a scarlet turban tied on one side, dark, shining eyes, and on the
head the basket poised, filled with fruit and flowers, under which the
scarlet turban and bright eyes looked out half-shadowed. The picture
caught his eye. It was good to see a face like that. He would try
to-morrow, and cut one like it. To-morrow! He threw down the tin,
trembling, and covered his face with his hands. When he looked up again,
the daylight was gone.</p>
<p>Deborah, crouching near by on the other side of the wall, heard no noise.
He sat on the side of the low pallet, thinking. Whatever was the mystery
which the woman had seen on his face, it came out now slowly, in the dark
there, and became fixed,—a something never seen on his face before.
The evening was darkening fast. The market had been over for an hour; the
rumbling of the carts over the pavement grew more infrequent: he listened
to each, as it passed, because he thought it was to be for the last time.
For the same reason, it was, I suppose, that he strained his eyes to catch
a glimpse of each passer-by, wondering who they were, what kind of homes
they were going to, if they had children,—listening eagerly to every
chance word in the street, as if—(God be merciful to the man! what
strange fancy was this?)—as if he never should hear human voices
again.</p>
<p>It was quite dark at last. The street was a lonely one. The last
passenger, he thought, was gone. No,—there was a quick step: Joe
Hill, lighting the lamps. Joe was a good old chap; never passed a fellow
without some joke or other. He remembered once seeing the place where he
lived with his wife. "Granny Hill" the boys called her. Bedridden she Was;
but so kind as Joe was to her! kept the room so clean!—and the old
woman, when he was there, was laughing at some of "t' lad's foolishness."
The step was far down the street; but he could see him place the ladder,
run up, and light the gas. A longing seized him to be spoken to once more.</p>
<p>"Joe!" he called, out of the grating. "Good-bye, Joe!"</p>
<p>The old man stopped a moment, listening uncertainly; then hurried on. The
prisoner thrust his hand out of the window, and called again, louder; but
Joe was too far down the street. It was a little thing; but it hurt him,—this
disappointment.</p>
<p>"Good-bye, Joe!" he called, sorrowfully enough.</p>
<p>"Be quiet!" said one of the jailers, passing the door, striking on it with
his club.</p>
<p>Oh, that was the last, was it?</p>
<p>There was an inexpressible bitterness on his face, as he lay down on the
bed, taking the bit of tin, which he had rasped to a tolerable degree of
sharpness, in his hand,—to play with, it may be. He bared his arms,
looking intently at their corded veins and sinews. Deborah, listening in
the next cell, heard a slight clicking sound, often repeated. She shut her
lips tightly, that she might not scream; the cold drops of sweat broke
over her, in her dumb agony.</p>
<p>"Hur knows best," she muttered at last, fiercely clutching the boards
where she lay.</p>
<p>If she could have seen Wolfe, there was nothing about him to frighten her.
He lay quite still, his arms outstretched, looking at the pearly stream of
moonlight coming into the window. I think in that one hour that came then
he lived back over all the years that had gone before. I think that all
the low, vile life, all his wrongs, all his starved hopes, came then, and
stung him with a farewell poison that made him sick unto death. He made
neither moan nor cry, only turned his worn face now and then to the pure
light, that seemed so far off, as one that said, "How long, O Lord? how
long?"</p>
<p>The hour was over at last. The moon, passing over her nightly path, slowly
came nearer, and threw the light across his bed on his feet. He watched it
steadily, as it crept up, inch by inch, slowly. It seemed to him to carry
with it a great silence. He had been so hot and tired there always in the
mills! The years had been so fierce and cruel! There was coming now quiet
and coolness and sleep. His tense limbs relaxed, and settled in a calm
languor. The blood ran fainter and slow from his heart. He did not think
now with a savage anger of what might be and was not; he was conscious
only of deep stillness creeping over him. At first he saw a sea of faces:
the mill-men,—women he had known, drunken and bloated,—Janey's
timid and pitiful-poor old Debs: then they floated together like a mist,
and faded away, leaving only the clear, pearly moonlight.</p>
<p>Whether, as the pure light crept up the stretched-out figure, it brought
with It calm and peace, who shall say? His dumb soul was alone with God in
judgment. A Voice may have spoken for it from far-off Calvary, "Father,
forgive them, for they know not what they do!" Who dare say? Fainter and
fainter the heart rose and fell, slower and slower the moon floated from
behind a cloud, until, when at last its full tide of white splendor swept
over the cell, it seemed to wrap and fold into a deeper stillness the dead
figure that never should move again. Silence deeper than the Night!
Nothing that moved, save the black, nauseous stream of blood dripping
slowly from the pallet to the floor!</p>
<p>There was outcry and crowd enough in the cell the next day. The coroner
and his jury, the local editors, Kirby himself, and boys with their hands
thrust knowingly into their pockets and heads on one side, jammed into the
corners. Coming and going all day. Only one woman. She came late, and
outstayed them all. A Quaker, or Friend, as they call themselves. I think
this woman Was known by that name in heaven. A homely body, coarsely
dressed in gray and white. Deborah (for Haley had let her in) took notice
of her. She watched them all—sitting on the end of the pallet,
holding his head in her arms with the ferocity of a watch-dog, if any of
them touched the body. There was no meekness, no sorrow, in her face; the
stuff out of which murderers are made, instead. All the time Haley and the
woman were laying straight the limbs and cleaning the cell, Deborah sat
still, keenly watching the Quaker's face. Of all the crowd there that day,
this woman alone had not spoken to her,—only once or twice had put
some cordial to her lips. After they all were gone, the woman, in the same
still, gentle way, brought a vase of wood-leaves and berries, and placed
it by the pallet, then opened the narrow window. The fresh air blew in,
and swept the woody fragrance over the dead face, Deborah looked up with a
quick wonder.</p>
<p>"Did hur know my boy wud like it? Did hur know Hugh?"</p>
<p>"I know Hugh now."</p>
<p>The white fingers passed in a slow, pitiful way over the dead, worn face.
There was a heavy shadow in the quiet eyes.</p>
<p>"Did hur know where they'll bury Hugh?" said Deborah in a shrill tone,
catching her arm.</p>
<p>This had been the question hanging on her lips all day.</p>
<p>"In t' town-yard? Under t' mud and ash? T' lad'll smother, woman! He wur
born in t' lane moor, where t' air is frick and strong. Take hur out, for
God's sake, take hur out where t' air blows!"</p>
<p>The Quaker hesitated, but only for a moment. She put her strong arm around
Deborah and led her to the window.</p>
<p>"Thee sees the hills, friend, over the river? Thee sees how the light lies
warm there, and the winds of God blow all the day? I live there,—where
the blue smoke is, by the trees. Look at me," She turned Deborah's face to
her own, clear and earnest, "Thee will believe me? I will take Hugh and
bury him there to-morrow."</p>
<p>Deborah did not doubt her. As the evening wore on, she leaned against the
iron bars, looking at the hills that rose far off, through the thick
sodden clouds, like a bright, unattainable calm. As she looked, a shadow
of their solemn repose fell on her face; its fierce discontent faded into
a pitiful, humble quiet. Slow, solemn tears gathered in her eyes: the poor
weak eyes turned so hopelessly to the place where Hugh was to rest, the
grave heights looking higher and brighter and more solemn than ever
before. The Quaker watched her keenly. She came to her at last, and
touched her arm.</p>
<p>"When thee comes back," she said, in a low, sorrowful tone, like one who
speaks from a strong heart deeply moved with remorse or pity, "thee shall
begin thy life again,—there on the hills. I came too late; but not
for thee,—by God's help, it may be."</p>
<p>Not too late. Three years after, the Quaker began her work. I end my story
here. At evening-time it was light. There is no need to tire you with the
long years of sunshine, and fresh air, and slow, patient Christ-love,
needed to make healthy and hopeful this impure body and soul. There is a
homely pine house, on one of these hills, whose windows overlook broad,
wooded slopes and clover-crimsoned meadows,—niched into the very
place where the light is warmest, the air freest. It is the Friends'
meeting-house. Once a week they sit there, in their grave, earnest way,
waiting for the Spirit of Love to speak, opening their simple hearts to
receive His words. There is a woman, old, deformed, who takes a humble
place among them: waiting like them: in her gray dress, her worn face,
pure and meek, turned now and then to the sky. A woman much loved by these
silent, restful people; more silent than they, more humble, more loving.
Waiting: with her eyes turned to hills higher and purer than these on
which she lives, dim and far off now, but to be reached some day. There
may be in her heart some latent hope to meet there the love denied her
here,—that she shall find him whom she lost, and that then she will
not be all-unworthy. Who blames her? Something is lost in the passage of
every soul from one eternity to the other,—something pure and
beautiful, which might have been and was not: a hope, a talent, a love,
over which the soul mourns, like Esau deprived of his birthright. What
blame to the meek Quaker, if she took her lost hope to make the hills of
heaven more fair?</p>
<p>Nothing remains to tell that the poor Welsh puddler once lived, but this
figure of the mill-woman cut in korl. I have it here in a corner of my
library. I keep it hid behind a curtain,—it is such a rough,
ungainly thing. Yet there are about it touches, grand sweeps of outline,
that show a master's hand. Sometimes,—to-night, for instance,—the
curtain is accidentally drawn back, and I see a bare arm stretched out
imploringly in the darkness, and an eager, wolfish face watching mine: a
wan, woful face, through which the spirit of the dead korl-cutter looks
out, with its thwarted life, its mighty hunger, its unfinished work. Its
pale, vague lips seem to tremble with a terrible question. "Is this the
End?" they say,—"nothing beyond? no more?" Why, you tell me you have
seen that look in the eyes of dumb brutes,—horses dying under the
lash. I know.</p>
<p>The deep of the night is passing while I write. The gas-light wakens from
the shadows here and there the objects which lie scattered through the
room: only faintly, though; for they belong to the open sunlight. As I
glance at them, they each recall some task or pleasure of the coming day.
A half-moulded child's head; Aphrodite; a bough of forest-leaves; music;
work; homely fragments, in which lie the secrets of all eternal truth and
beauty. Prophetic all! Only this dumb, woful face seems to belong to and
end with the night. I turn to look at it. Has the power of its desperate
need commanded the darkness away? While the room is yet steeped in heavy
shadow, a cool, gray light suddenly touches its head like a blessing hand,
and its groping arm points through the broken cloud to the far East,
where, in the flickering, nebulous crimson, God has set the promise of the
Dawn.</p>
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