<h3><SPAN name="XIV" id="XIV"></SPAN>XIV</h3>
<p>It was the third day after their meeting. Hour by hour their intimacy
had increased. Ethel was sitting in a large wicker-chair. She restlessly
fingered her parasol, mechanically describing magic circles in the sand.
Ernest lay at her feet. With his knees clasped between his hands, he
gazed into her eyes.</p>
<p>"Why are you trying so hard to make love to me?" the woman asked, with
the half-amused smile with which the Eve near thirty receives the homage
of a boy. There is an element of insincerity in that smile, but it is a
weapon of defence against love's artillery.</p>
<p>Sometimes, indeed, the pleading in the boy's eyes and the cry of the
blood pierces the woman's smiling superiority. She listens, loves and
loses.</p>
<p>Ethel Brandenbourg was listening, but the idea of love had not yet
entered into her mind.<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_78" id="Page_78"></SPAN></span> Her interest in Ernest was due in part to his
youth and the trembling in his voice when he spoke of love. But what
probably attracted her most powerfully was the fact that he intimately
knew the man who still held her woman's heart in the hollow of his hand.
It was half in play, therefore, that she had asked him that question.</p>
<p>Why did he make love to her? He did not know. Perhaps it was the
irresistible desire to be petted which young poets share with
domesticated cats. But what should he tell her? Polite platitudes were
out of place between them.</p>
<p>Besides he knew the penalty of all tender entanglements. Women treat
love as if it were an extremely tenuous wire that can be drawn out
indefinitely. This is a very expensive process. It costs us the most
precious, the only irretrievable thing in the universe—time. And to him
time was song; for money he did not care. The Lord had hallowed his lips
with rhythmic speech; only in the intervals of his singing might he
listen to the voice of his heart—strangest of all watches, that tells
<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_79" id="Page_79"></SPAN></span>the time not by minutes and hours, but by the coming and going of love.</p>
<p>The woman beside him seemed to read his thoughts.</p>
<p>"Child, child," she said, "why will you toy with love? Like Jehovah, he
is a jealous god, and nothing but the whole heart can placate him. Woe
to the woman who takes a poet for a lover. I admit it is fascinating,
but it is playing <i>va banque</i>. In fact, it is fatal. Art or love will
come to harm. No man can minister equally to both. A genuine poet is
incapable of loving a woman."</p>
<p>"Pshaw! You exaggerate. Of course, there is a measure of truth in what
you say, but it is only one side of the truth, and the truth, you know,
is always Janus-faced. In fact, it often has more than two faces. I can
assure you that I have cared deeply for the women to whom my love-poetry
was written. And you will not deny that it is genuine."</p>
<p>"God forbid! Only you have been using the wrong preposition. You should
have said that it was written at them."</p>
<p>Ernest stared at her in child-like wonder.</p>
<p><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_80" id="Page_80"></SPAN></span>"By Jove! you are too devilishly clever!" he exclaimed.</p>
<p>After a little silence he said not without hesitation: "And do you apply
your theory to all artists, or only to us makers of rhyme?"</p>
<p>"To all," she replied.</p>
<p>He looked at her questioningly.</p>
<p>"Yes," she said, with a new sadness in her voice, "I, too, have paid the
price."</p>
<p>"You mean?"</p>
<p>"I loved."</p>
<p>"And art?"</p>
<p>"That was the sacrifice."</p>
<p>"Perhaps you have chosen the better part," Ernest said without
conviction.</p>
<p>"No," she replied, "my tribute was brought in vain."</p>
<p>This she said calmly, but Ernest knew that her words were of tragic
import.</p>
<p>"You love him still?" he observed simply.</p>
<p>Ethel made no reply. Sadness clouded her face like a veil or like a grey
mist over the face of the waters. Her eyes went out to the sea,
following the sombre flight of the sea-mews.</p>
<p><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_81" id="Page_81"></SPAN></span>In that moment he could have taken her in his arms and kissed her with
infinite tenderness.</p>
<p>But tenderness between man and woman is like a match in a
powder-magazine. The least provocation, and an amorous explosion will
ensue, tumbling down the card-houses of platonic affection. If he
yielded to the impulse of the moment, the wine of the springtide would
set their blood afire, and from the flames within us there is no escape.</p>
<p>"Come, come," she said, "you do not love me."</p>
<p>He protested.</p>
<p>"Ah!" she cried triumphantly, "how many sonnets would you give for me?
If you were a usurer in gold instead of in rhyme, I would ask how many
dollars. But it is unjust to pay in a coin that we value little. To a
man starving in gold mines, a piece of bread weighs more than all the
treasures of the earth. To you, I warrant your poems are the standard of
appreciation. How many would you give for me? One, two, three?"</p>
<p>"More."</p>
<p><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_82" id="Page_82"></SPAN></span>"Because you think love would repay you with compound interest," she
observed merrily.</p>
<p>He laughed.</p>
<p>And when love turns to laughter the danger is passed for the moment.</p>
<hr style="width: 65%;" /><p><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_83" id="Page_83"></SPAN></span></p>
<h3><SPAN name="XV" id="XV"></SPAN>XV</h3>
<p>Thus three weeks passed without apparent change in their relations.
Ernest possessed a personal magnetism that, always emanating from him,
was felt most deeply when withdrawn. He was at all times involuntarily
exerting his power, which she ever resisted, always on the alert, always
warding off.</p>
<p>When at last pressure of work made his immediate departure for New York
imperative, he had not apparently gained the least ground. But Ethel
knew in her heart that she was fascinated, if not in love. The personal
fascination was supplemented by a motherly feeling toward Ernest that,
sensuous in essence, was in itself not far removed from love. She
struggled bravely and with external success against her emotions, never
losing sight of the fact that twenty and thirty are fifty.</p>
<p>Increasingly aware of her own weakness, <span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_84" id="Page_84"></SPAN></span>she constantly attempted to
lead the conversation into impersonal channels, speaking preferably of
his work.</p>
<p>"Tell me," she said, negligently fanning herself, "what new inspiration
have you drawn from your stay at the seaside?"</p>
<p>"Why," he exclaimed enthusiastically, "volumes and volumes of it. I
shall write the great novel of my life after I am once more quietly
installed at Riverside Drive."</p>
<p>"The great American novel?" she rejoined.</p>
<p>"Perhaps."</p>
<p>"Who will be your hero—Clarke?"</p>
<p>There was a slight touch of malice in her words, or rather in the pause
between the penultimate word and the last. Ernest detected its presence,
and knew that her love for Reginald was dead. Stiff and cold it lay in
her heart's chamber—beside how many others?—all emboxed in the coffin
of memory.</p>
<p>"No," he replied after a while, a little piqued by her suggestion,
"Clarke is not the hero. What makes you think that he casts a spell on
everything I do?"</p>
<p>"Dear child," she replied, "I know him.<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_85" id="Page_85"></SPAN></span> He cannot fail to impress his
powerful personality upon all with whom he comes in contact, to the
injury of their intellectual independence. Moreover, he is so brilliant
and says everything so much better than anybody else, that by his very
splendor he discourages effort in others. At best his influence will
shape your development according to the tenets of his mind—curious,
subtle and corrupted. You will become mentally distorted, like one of
those hunchback Japanese trees, infinitely wrinkled and infinitely
grotesque, whose laws of growth are not determined by nature, but by the
diseased imagination of the East."</p>
<p>"I am no weakling," Ernest asserted, "and your picture of Clarke is
altogether out of perspective. His splendid successes are to me a source
of constant inspiration. We have some things in common, but I realise
that it is along entirely different lines that success will come to me.
He has never sought to influence me, in fact, I never received the
smallest suggestion from him." Here the Princess Marigold seemed to peer
at him through the veil of the past, but he waved her aside. "As for <span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_86" id="Page_86"></SPAN></span>my
story," he continued, "you need not go so far out of your way to find
the leading character?"</p>
<p>"Who can it be?" Ethel remarked, with a merry twinkle, "You?"</p>
<p>"Ethel," he said sulkingly, "be serious. You know that it is you."</p>
<p>"I am immensely flattered," she replied. "Really, nothing pleases me
better than to be immortalised in print, since I have little hope
nowadays of perpetuating my name by virtue of pencil or brush. I have
been put into novels before and am consumed with curiosity to hear the
plot of yours."</p>
<p>"If you don't mind, I had rather not tell you just yet," Ernest said.
"It's going to be called Leontina—that's you. But all depends on the
treatment. You know it doesn't matter much what you say so long as you
say it well. That's what counts. At any rate, any indication of the plot
at this stage would be decidedly inadequate."</p>
<p>"I think you are right," she ventured. "By all means choose your own
time to tell me. Let's talk of something else. Have you writ<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_87" id="Page_87"></SPAN></span>ten
anything since your delightful book of verse last spring? Surely now is
your singing season. By the time we are thirty the springs of pure lyric
passion are usually exhausted."</p>
<p>Ethel's inquiry somehow startled him. In truth, he could find no
satisfactory answer. A remark relative to his play—Clarke's play—rose
to the threshold of his lips, but he almost bit his tongue as soon as he
realised that the strange delusion which had possessed him that night
still dominated the undercurrents of his cerebration. No, he had
accomplished but little during the last few months—at least, by way of
creative literature. So he replied that he had made money. "That is
something," he said. "Besides, who can turn out a masterpiece every
week? An artist's brain is not a machine, and in the respite from
creative work I have gathered strength for the future. But," he added,
slightly annoyed, "you are not listening."</p>
<p>His exclamation brought her back from the train of thoughts that his
words had suggested. For in his reasoning she had recognised the <span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_88" id="Page_88"></SPAN></span>same
arguments that she had hourly repeated to herself in defence of her
inactivity when she was living under the baneful influence of Reginald
Clarke. Yes, baneful; for the first time she dared to confess it to
herself. In a flash the truth dawned upon her that it was not her love
alone, but something else, something irresistable and very mysterious,
that had dried up the well of creation in her. Could it be that the same
power was now exerting its influence upon the struggling soul of this
talented boy? Rack her brains as she might, she could not definitely
formulate her apprehensions and a troubled look came into her eyes.</p>
<p>"Ethel," the boy repeated, impatiently, "why are you not listening? Do
you realise that I must leave you in half an hour?"</p>
<p>She looked at him with deep tenderness. Something like a tear lent a
soft radiance to her large child-like eyes.</p>
<p>Ernest saw it and was profoundly moved. In that moment he loved her
passionately.</p>
<p>"Foolish boy," she said softly; then, lowering her voice to a whisper:
"You may kiss me before you go."</p>
<p><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_89" id="Page_89"></SPAN></span>His lips gently touched hers, but she took his head between her hands
and pressed her mouth upon his in a long kiss.</p>
<p>Ernest drew back a little awkwardly. He had not been kissed like this
before.</p>
<p>"Poet though you are," Ethel whispered, "you have not yet learned to
kiss."</p>
<p>She was deeply agitated when she noticed that his hand was fumbling for
the watch in his vest-pocket. She suddenly released him, and said, a
little hurt: "No, you must not miss your train. Go by all means."</p>
<p>Vainly Ernest remonstrated with her.</p>
<p>"Go to him," she said, and again, "go to him."</p>
<p>With a heavy heart the boy obeyed. He waved his hat to her once more
from below, and then rapidly disappeared in the crowd. For a moment
strange misgivings cramped her heart, and something within her called
out to him: "Do not go! Do not return to that house." But no sound
issued from her lips. Worldly wisdom had sealed them, had stifled the
inner voice. And soon the boy's golden head was swallowed up in the
distance.</p>
<hr style="width: 65%;" /><p><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_90" id="Page_90"></SPAN></span></p>
<p><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_91" id="Page_91"></SPAN></span></p>
<h3><SPAN name="XVI" id="XVI"></SPAN>XVI</h3>
<p>While the train sped to New York, Ethel Brandenbourg was the one object
engaging Ernest's mind. He still felt the pressure of her lips upon his,
and his nostrils dilated at the thought of the fragrance of her hair
brushing against his forehead.</p>
<p>But the moment his foot touched the ferry-boat that was to take him to
Manhattan, the past three weeks were, for the time being at least,
completely obliterated from his memory. All his other interests that he
had suppressed in her company because she had no part in them, came
rushing back to him. He anticipated with delight his meeting with
Reginald Clarke. The personal attractiveness of the man had never seemed
so powerful to Ernest as when he had not heard from him for some time.
Reginald's letters were always brief. "Professional writers," he was
wont to say,<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_92" id="Page_92"></SPAN></span> "cannot afford to put fine feeling into their private
correspondence. They must turn it into copy." He longed to sit with the
master in the studio when the last rays of the daylight were tremulously
falling through the stained window, and to discuss far into the
darkening night philosophies young and old. He longed for Reginald's
voice, his little mannerisms, the very perfume of his rooms.</p>
<p>There also was a deluge of letters likely to await him in his apartment.
For in his hurried departure he had purposely left his friends in the
dark as to his whereabouts. Only to Jack he had dropped a little note
the day after his meeting with Ethel.</p>
<p>He earnestly hoped to find Reginald at home, though it was well nigh ten
o'clock in the evening, and he cursed the "rapid transit" for its
inability to annihilate space and time. It is indeed disconcerting to
think how many months, if not years, of our earthly sojourn the dwellers
in cities spend in transportation conveyances that must be set down as a
dead loss in the ledger of life. A nervous impatience against things
material overcame Ernest <span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_93" id="Page_93"></SPAN></span>in the subway. It is ever the mere stupid
obstacle of matter that weights down the wings of the soul and prevents
it from soaring upward to the sun.</p>
<p>When at last he had reached the house, he learned from the hall-boy that
Clarke had gone out. Ruffled in temper he entered his rooms and went
over his mail. There were letters from editors with commissions that he
could not afford to reject. Everywhere newspapers and magazines opened
their yawning mouths to swallow up what time he had. He realised at once
that he would have to postpone the writing of his novel for several
weeks, if not longer.</p>
<p>Among the letters was one from Jack. It bore the postmark of a little
place in the Adirondacks where he was staying with his parents. Ernest
opened the missive not without hesitation. On reading and rereading it
the fine lines on his forehead, that would some day deepen into
wrinkles, became quite pronounced and a look of displeasure darkened his
face. Something was wrong with Jack, a slight change that defied
analysis. Their souls were <span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_94" id="Page_94"></SPAN></span>out of tune. It might only be a passing
disturbance; perhaps it was his own fault. It pained him, nevertheless.
Somehow it seemed of late that Jack was no longer able to follow the
vagaries of his mind. Only one person in the world possessed a similar
mental vision, only one seemed to understand what he said and what he
left unsaid. Reginald Clarke, being a man and poet, read in his soul as
in an open book. Ethel might have understood, had not love, like a
cloud, laid itself between her eyes and the page.</p>
<p>It was with exultation that Ernest heard near midnight the click of
Reginald's key in the door. He found him unchanged, completely,
radiantly himself. Reginald possessed the psychic power of undressing
the soul, of seeing it before him in primal nakedness. Although no word
was said of Ethel Brandenbourg except the mere mention of her presence
in Atlantic City, Ernest intuitively knew that Reginald was aware of the
transformation that absence had wrought in him. In the presence of this
man he could be absolutely himself, without shame or fear of
mis-<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_95" id="Page_95"></SPAN></span>understanding; and by a strange metamorphosis, all his affection
for Ethel and Jack went out for the time being to Reginald Clarke.</p>
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<p><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_97" id="Page_97"></SPAN></span></p>
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