<h2><SPAN name="CHAPTER_XII" id="CHAPTER_XII"></SPAN>CHAPTER XII.</h2>
<p>"Ay, man, Templandmuir, it's you!" said Gourlay, coming forward with
great heartiness. "Ay, man, and how are ye? C'way into the parlour!"</p>
<p>"Good-evening, Mr. Gourlay," said the Templar. His manner was curiously
subdued.</p>
<p>Since his marriage there was a great change in the rubicund squireen.
Hitherto he had lived in sluttish comfort on his own land, content with
the little it brought in, and proud to be the friend of Gourlay, whom
everybody feared. If it ever dawned on his befuddled mind that Gourlay
turned the friendship to his own account, his vanity was flattered by
the prestige he acquired because of it. Like many another robustious big
toper, the Templar was a chicken at heart, and "to be in with Gourlay"
lent him a consequence that covered his deficiency. "Yes, I'm sleepy,"
he would yawn in Skeighan Mart; "I had a sederunt yestreen wi' John
Gourlay," and he would slap his boot with his riding-switch and feel
like a hero. "I know how it is, I know how it is!" Provost Connal of
Barbie used to cry; "Gourlay both courts and cowes him—first he courts
and then he cowes—and the Templar hasn't the courage to break it off!"
The Provost hit the mark.</p>
<p>But when the Templar married the miller's daughter of the Mill o' Blink
(a sad come-down, said foolish neighbours, for a Halliday of
Templandmuir) there was a sudden change about the laird. In our good
Scots proverb, "A miller's daughter has a shrill voice," and<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_94" id="Page_94">[Pg 94]</SPAN></span> the new
leddy of Templandmuir ("a leddy she is!" said the frightened
housekeeper) justified the proverb. Her voice went with the skirl of an
east wind through the rat-riddled mansion of the Hallidays. She was
nine-and-twenty, and a birkie woman of nine-and-twenty can make a good
husband out of very unpromising material. The Templar wore a scared look
in those days and went home betimes. His cronies knew the fun was over
when they heard what happened to the great punchbowl—she made it a
swine-trough. It was the heirloom of a hundred years, and as much as a
man could carry with his arms out, a massive curio in stone; but to her
husband's plaint about its degradation, "Oh," she cried, "it'll never
know the difference! It's been used to swine!"</p>
<p>But she was not content with the cessation of the old; she was
determined on bringing in the new. For a twelvemonth now she had urged
her husband to be rid of Gourlay. The country was opening up, she said,
and the quarry ought to be their own. A dozen times he had promised her
to warn Gourlay that he must yield the quarry when his tack ran out at
the end of the year, and a dozen times he had shrunk from the encounter.</p>
<p>"I'll write," he said feebly.</p>
<p>"Write!" said she, lowered in her pride to think her husband was a
coward. "Write, indeed! Man, have ye no spunk? Think what he has made
out o' ye! Think o' the money that has gone to him that should have come
to you! You should be glad o' the chance to tell him o't. My certy, if I
was you I wouldn't miss it for the world—just to let him know of his
cheatry! Oh, it's very right that <i>I</i>"—she sounded the <i>I</i> big and
brave—"it's very right that <i>I</i> should live in this tumbledown hole
while <i>he</i> builds a palace from your plunder! It's right that <i>I</i> should
put up with this"—she flung hands of contempt at her dwelling—"it's
right that <i>I</i> should put up with this, while yon trollop has a
splendid<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_95" id="Page_95">[Pg 95]</SPAN></span> mansion on the top o' the brae! And every bawbee of his
fortune has come out of you—the fool makes nothing from his other
business—he would have been a pauper if he hadn't met a softie like you
that he could do what he liked with. Write, indeed! I have no patience
with a wheen sumphs of men! Them do the work o' the world! They may wear
the breeks, but the women wear the brains, I trow. I'll have it out with
the black brute myself," screamed the hardy dame, "if you're feared of
his glower. If you havena the pluck for it, <i>I</i> have. Write, indeed! In
you go to the meeting that oald ass of a Provost has convened, and don't
show your face in Templandmuir till you have had it out with Gourlay!"</p>
<p>No wonder the Templar looked subdued.</p>
<p>When Gourlay came forward with his usual calculated heartiness, the
laird remembered his wife and felt very uncomfortable. It was ill to
round on a man who always imposed on him a hearty and hardy
good-fellowship. Gourlay, greeting him so warmly, gave him no excuse for
an outburst. In his dilemma he turned to the children, to postpone the
evil hour.</p>
<p>"Ay, man, John!" he said heavily, "you're there!" Heavy Scotsmen are
fond of telling folk that they are where they are. "You're there!" said
Templandmuir.</p>
<p>"Ay," said John, the simpleton, "I'm here."</p>
<p>In the grime of the boy's face there were large white circles round the
eyes, showing where his fists had rubbed off the tears through the day.</p>
<p>"How are you doing at the school?" said the Templar.</p>
<p>"Oh, he's an ass!" said Gourlay. "He takes after his mother in that! The
lassie's more smart—she favours our side o' the house! Eh, Jenny?" he
inquired, and tugged her pigtail, smiling down at her in grim fondness.</p>
<p>"Yes," nodded Janet, encouraged by the petting, "John's always at the
bottom of the class. Jimmy<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_96" id="Page_96">[Pg 96]</SPAN></span> Wilson's always at the top, and the dominie
set him to teach John his 'counts the day—after he had thrashed him!"</p>
<p>She cried out at a sudden tug on her pigtail, and looked up, with tears
in her eyes, to meet her father's scowl.</p>
<p>"You eediot!" said Gourlay, gazing at his son with a savage contempt,
"have you no pride to let Wilson's son be your master?"</p>
<p>John slunk from the room.</p>
<p>"Bide where you are, Templandmuir," said Gourlay after a little. "I'll
be back directly."</p>
<p>He went through to the kitchen and took a crystal jug from the dresser.
He "made a point" of bringing the water for his whisky. "I like to pump
it up <i>cold</i>," he used to say, "cold and cold, ye know, till there's a
mist on the outside of the glass like the bloom on a plum, and then, by
Goad, ye have the fine drinking! Oh no—ye needn't tell me, I wouldn't
lip drink if the water wasna ice-cold." He never varied from the tipple
he approved. In his long sederunts with Templandmuir he would slip out
to the pump, before every brew, to get water of sufficient coldness.</p>
<p>To-night he would birl the bottle with Templandmuir as usual, till the
fuddled laird should think himself a fine big fellow as being the
intimate of John Gourlay—and then, sober as a judge himself, he would
drive him home in the small hours. And when next they met, the
pot-valiant squireen would chuckle proudly, "Faith, yon was a night." By
a crude cunning of the kind Gourlay had maintained his ascendancy for
years, and to-night he would maintain it still. He went out to the pump
to fetch water with his own hands for their first libation.</p>
<p>But when he came back and set out the big decanter Templandmuir started
to his feet.</p>
<p>"Noat to-night, Mr. Gourlay," he stammered—and<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_97" id="Page_97">[Pg 97]</SPAN></span> his unusual flutter of
refusal might have warned Gourlay—"noat to-night, if <i>you</i> please; noat
to-night, if <i>you</i> please. As a matter of fact—eh—what I really came
into the town for, doan't you see, was—eh—to attend the meeting the
Provost has convened about the railway. You'll come down to the meeting,
will ye noat?"</p>
<p>He wanted to get Gourlay away from the House with the Green Shutters. It
would be easier to quarrel with him out of doors.</p>
<p>But Gourlay gaped at him across the table, his eyes big with surprise
and disapproval.</p>
<p>"Huh!" he growled, "I wonder at a man like you giving your head to that!
It's a wheen damned nonsense."</p>
<p>"Oh, I'm no so sure of that," drawled the Templar. "I think the railway
means to come."</p>
<p>The whole country was agog about the new railway. The question agitating
solemn minds was whether it should join the main line at Fechars, thirty
miles ahead, or pass to the right, through Fleckie and Barbie, to a
junction up at Skeighan Drone. Many were the reasons spluttered in
vehement debate for one route or the other. "On the one side, ye see,
Skeighan was a big place a'readys, and look what a centre it would be if
it had three lines of rail running out and in! Eh, my, what a centre!
Then there was Fleckie and Barbie—they would be the big towns! Up the
valley, too, was the shortest road; it would be a daft-like thing to
build thirty mile of rail, when fifteen was enough to establish the
connection! And was it likely—I put it to ainy man of sense—was it
likely the Coal Company wouldn't do everything in their power to get the
railway up the valley, seeing that if it didn't come that airt they
would need to build a line of their own?"—"Ah, but then, ye see,
Fechars was a big place too, and there was lots of mineral up there as
well! And though it was a longer road to Fechars and part of it lay
across the moors,<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_98" id="Page_98">[Pg 98]</SPAN></span> there were several wee towns that airt just waiting
for a chance of growth! I can tell ye, sirs, this was going to be a
close question!"</p>
<p>Such was the talk in pot-house and parlour, at kirk and mart and tryst
and fair, and wherever potentates did gather and abound. The partisans
on either side began to canvass the country in support of their
contentions. They might have kept their breath to cool their porridge,
for these matters, we know, are settled in the great Witenagemot. But
petitions were prepared and meetings were convened. In those days
Provost Connal of Barbie was in constant communion with the "Pow-ers."
"Yass," he nodded gravely—only "nod" is a word too swift for the grave
inclining of that mighty pow—"yass, ye know, the great thing in matters
like this is to get at the Pow-ers, doan't you see? Oh yass, yass; we
must get at the Pow-ers!" and he looked as if none but he were equal to
the job. He even went to London (to interrogate the "Pow-ers"), and
simple bodies, gathered at the Cross for their Saturday at e'en, told
each other with bated breath that the Provost was away to the "seat of
Goaver'ment to see about the railway." When he came back and shook his
head, hope drained from his fellows and left them hollow in an empty
world. But when he smacked his lips on receiving an important letter,
the heavens were brightened and the landscapes smiled.</p>
<p>The Provost walked about the town nowadays with the air of a man on
whose shoulders the weight of empires did depend. But for all his airs
it was not the Head o' the Town who was the ablest advocate of the route
up the Water of Barbie. It was that public-spirited citizen, Mr. James
Wilson of the Cross! Wilson championed the cause of Barbie with an
ardour that did infinite credit to his civic heart. For one thing, it
was a grand way of recommending himself to his new townsfolk, as he told
his wife, "and so increasing the circle of our present<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_99" id="Page_99">[Pg 99]</SPAN></span> trade, don't ye
understand?"—for another, he was as keen as the keenest that the
railway should come and enhance the value of his property. "We must
agitate," he cried, when Sandy Toddle murmured a doubt whether anything
they could do would be of much avail. "It's not settled yet what road
the line's to follow, and who knows but a trifle may turn the scale in
our behalf? Local opinion ought to be expressed! They're sending a
monster petition from the Fechars side; we'll send the Company a bigger
one from ours! Look at Skeighan and Fleckie and Barbie—three towns at
our back, and the new Coal Company forbye! A public opinion of that size
ought to have a great weight—if put forward properly! We must agitate,
sirs, we must agitate; we maun scour the country for names in our
support. Look what a number of things there are to recommend <i>our</i>
route. It's the shortest, and there's no need for heavy cuttings such as
are needed on the other side; the road's there a'ready—Barbie Water has
cut it through the hills. It's the manifest design of Providence that
there should be a line up Barbie Valley! What a position for't!—And,
oh," thought Wilson, "what a site for building houses in my holm!—Let a
meeting be convened at wunst!"</p>
<p>The meeting was convened, with Provost Connal in the chair and Wilson as
general factotum.</p>
<p>"You'll come down to the meeting?" said Templandmuir to Gourlay.</p>
<p>Go to a meeting for which Wilson had sent out the bills! At another,
Gourlay would have hurled his usual objurgation that he would see him
condemned to eternal agonies ere he granted his request! But
Templandmuir was different. Gourlay had always flattered this man (whom
he inwardly despised) by a companionship which made proud the other. He
had always yielded to Templandmuir in small things, for the sake of the
quarry, which was a great thing. He yielded to him now.</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_100" id="Page_100">[Pg 100]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>"Verra well," he said shortly, and rose to get his hat.</p>
<p>When Gourlay put on his hat the shallow meanness of his brow was hid,
and nothing was seen to impair his dark, strong gravity of face. He was
a man you would have turned to look at as he marched in silence by the
side of Templandmuir. Though taller than the laird, he looked shorter
because of his enormous breadth. He had a chest like the heave of a
hill. Templandmuir was afraid of him. And fretting at the necessity he
felt to quarrel with a man of whom he was afraid, he had an unreasonable
hatred of Gourlay, whose conduct made this quarrel necessary at the same
time that his character made it to be feared; and he brooded on his
growing rage that, with it for a stimulus, he might work his cowardly
nature to the point of quarrelling. Conscious of the coming row, then,
he felt awkward in the present, and was ignorant what to say. Gourlay
was silent too. He felt it an insult to the House with the Green
Shutters that the laird should refuse its proffered hospitality. He
hated to be dragged to a meeting he despised. Never before was such
irritation between them.</p>
<p>When they came to the hall where the meeting was convened, there were
knots of bodies grouped about the floor. Wilson fluttered from group to
group, an important man, with a roll of papers in his hand. Gourlay,
quick for once in his dislike, took in every feature of the man he
loathed.</p>
<p>Wilson was what the sentimental women of the neighbourhood called a
"bonny man." His features were remarkably regular, and his complexion
was remarkably fair. His brow was so delicate of hue that the blue veins
running down his temples could be traced distinctly beneath the
whiteness of the skin. Unluckily for him, he was so fair that in a
strong light (as now beneath the gas) the suspicion of his unwashedness
became a certainty—"as if he got a bit idle slaik now and than, and
never a good rub," thought Gourlay in a clean<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_101" id="Page_101">[Pg 101]</SPAN></span> disgust. Full lips showed
themselves bright red in the middle between the two wings of a very
blonde and very symmetrical moustache. The ugly feature of the face was
the blue calculating eyes. They were tender round the lids, so that the
white lashes stuck out in little peaks. And in conversation he had a
habit of peering out of these eyes as if he were constantly spying for
something to emerge that he might twist to his advantage. As he talked
to a man close by and glimmered (not at the man beside him, but far away
in the distance of his mind at some chance of gain suggested by the
other's words) Gourlay heard him say musingly, "Imphm, imphm, imphm!
there might be something <i>in</i> that!" nodding his head and stroking his
moustache as he uttered each meditative "imphm."</p>
<p>It was Wilson's unconscious revelation that his mind was busy with a
commercial hint which he had stolen from his neighbour's talk. "The
damned sneck-drawer!" thought Gourlay, enlightened by his hate; "he's
sucking Tam Finlay's brains, to steal some idea for himsell!" And still
as Wilson listened he murmured swiftly, "Imphm! I see, Mr. Finlay;
imphm! imphm! imphm!" nodding his head and pulling his moustache and
glimmering at his new "opportunity."</p>
<p>Our insight is often deepest into those we hate, because annoyance fixes
our thought on them to probe. We cannot keep our minds off them. "Why do
they do it?" we snarl, and wondering why, we find out their character.
Gourlay was not an observant man, but every man is in any man somewhere,
and hate to-night driving his mind into Wilson, helped him to read him
like an open book. He recognized with a vague uneasiness—not with fear,
for Gourlay did not know what it meant, but with uneasy anger—the
superior cunning of his rival. Gourlay, a strong block of a man cut off
from the world by impotence of speech, could never<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_102" id="Page_102">[Pg 102]</SPAN></span> have got out of
Finlay what Wilson drew from him in two minutes' easy conversation.</p>
<p>Wilson ignored Gourlay, but he was very blithe with Templandmuir, and
inveigled him off to a corner. They talked together very briskly, and
Wilson laughed once with uplifted head, glancing across at Gourlay as he
laughed. Curse them, were they speaking of him?</p>
<p>The hall was crammed at last, and the important bodies took their seats
upon the front benches. Gourlay refused to be seated with the rest, but
stood near the platform, with his back to the wall, by the side of
Templandmuir.</p>
<p>After what the Provost described "as a few preliminary remarks"—they
lasted half an hour—he called on Mr. Wilson to address the meeting.
Wilson descanted on the benefits that would accrue to Barbie if it got
the railway, and on the needcessity for a "long pull, and a strong pull,
and a pull all together"—a phrase which he repeated many times in the
course of his address. He sat down at last amid thunders of applause.</p>
<p>"There's no needcessity for me to make a loang speech," said the
Provost.</p>
<p>"Hear, hear!" said Gourlay, and the meeting was unkind enough to laugh.</p>
<p>"Order, order!" cried Wilson perkily.</p>
<p>"As I was saying when I was grossly interrupted," fumed the Provost,
"there's no needcessity for me to make a loang speech. I had thoat we
were a-all agreed on the desirabeelity of the rileway coming in our
direction. I had thoat, after the able—I must say the very able—speech
of Mr. Wilson, that there wasn't a man in this room so shtupid as to
utter a word of dishapproval. I had thoat we might prosheed at woance to
elect a deputation. I had thoat we would get the name of everybody here
for the great petition we mean to send the Pow-ers. I had thoat it was
all, so to shpeak, a foregone conclusion. But it seems I was mistaken,
ladies<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_103" id="Page_103">[Pg 103]</SPAN></span> and gentlemen—or rather, I oat to say gentlemen, for I believe
there are no ladies present. Yass, it seems I was mistaken. It may be
there are some who would like to keep Barbie going on in the oald way
which they found so much to their advantage. It may be there are some
who regret a change that will put an end to their chances of
tyraneezin'. It may be there are some who know themselves so shtupid
that they fear the new condeetions of trade the railway's bound to
bring."—Here Wilson rose and whispered in his ear, and the people
watched them, wondering what hint J. W. was passing to the Provost. The
Provost leaned with pompous gravity toward his monitor, hand at ear to
catch the treasured words. He nodded and resumed.—"Now, gentlemen, as
Mr. Wilson said, this is a case that needs a loang pull, and a stroang
pull, and a pull all together. We must be unanimous. It will <i>noat</i> do
to show ourselves divided among ourselves. Therefore I think we oat to
have expressions of opinion from some of our leading townsmen. That will
show how far we are unanimous. I had thoat there could be only one
opinion, and that we might prosheed at once with the petition. But it
seems I was wroang. It is best to inquire first exactly where we stand.
So I call upon Mr. John Gourlay, who has been the foremost man in the
town for mainy years—at least he used to be that—I call upon Mr.
Gourlay as the first to express an opinion on the subjeck."</p>
<p>Wilson's hint to the Provost placed Gourlay in a fine dilemma. Stupid as
he was, he was not so stupid as not to perceive the general advantage of
the railway. If he approved it, however, he would seem to support Wilson
and the Provost, whom he loathed. If he disapproved, his opposition
would be set down to a selfish consideration for his own trade, and he
would incur the anger of the meeting, which was all for the coming of
the railway, Wilson had seized the chance to put him in a false<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_104" id="Page_104">[Pg 104]</SPAN></span>
position. He knew Gourlay could not put forty words together in public,
and that in his dilemma he would blunder and give himself away.</p>
<p>Gourlay evaded the question.</p>
<p>"It would be better to convene a meeting," he bawled to the Provost, "to
consider the state of some folk's back doors."—That was a nipper to
Wilson!—"There's a stink at the Cross that's enough to kill a cuddy!"</p>
<p>"Evidently not," yelled Wilson, "since you're still alive!"</p>
<p>A roar went up against Gourlay. All he could do was to scowl before him,
with hard-set mouth and gleaming eyes, while they bellowed him to scorn.</p>
<p>"I would like to hear what Templandmuir has to say on the subject," said
Wilson, getting up. "But no doubt he'll follow his friend Mr. Gourlay."</p>
<p>"No, I don't follow Mr. Gourlay," bawled Templandmuir with unnecessary
loudness. The reason of his vehemence was twofold. He was nettled (as
Wilson meant he should) by the suggestion that he was nothing but
Gourlay's henchman. And being eager to oppose Gourlay, yet a coward, he
yelled to supply in noise what he lacked in resolution.</p>
<p>"I don't follow Mr. Gourlay at all," he roared; "I follow nobody but
myself! Every man in the district's in support of this petition. It
would be absurd to suppose anything else. I'll be glad to sign't among
the first, and do everything I can in its support."</p>
<p>"Verra well," said the Provost; "it seems we're agreed after all. We'll
get some of our foremost men to sign the petition at this end of the
hall, and then it'll be placed in the anteroom for the rest to sign as
they go out."</p>
<p>"Take it across to Gourlay," whispered Wilson to the two men who were
carrying the enormous tome. They took it over to the grain merchant, and
one of them handed him an inkhorn. He dashed it to the ground.</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_105" id="Page_105">[Pg 105]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>The meeting hissed like a cellarful of snakes. But Gourlay turned and
glowered at them, and somehow the hisses died away. His was the high
courage that feeds on hate, and welcomes rather than shrinks from its
expression. He was smiling as he faced them.</p>
<p>"Let <i>me</i> pass," he said, and shouldered his way to the door, the
bystanders falling back to make room. Templandmuir followed him out.</p>
<p>"I'll walk to the head o' the brae," said the Templar.</p>
<p>He must have it out with Gourlay at once, or else go home to meet the
anger of his wife. Having opposed Gourlay already, he felt that now was
the time to break with him for good. Only a little was needed to
complete the rupture. And he was the more impelled to declare himself
to-night because he had just seen Gourlay discomfited, and was beginning
to despise the man he had formerly admired. Why, the whole meeting had
laughed at his expense! In quarrelling with Gourlay, moreover, he would
have the whole locality behind him. He would range himself on the
popular side. Every impulse of mind and body pushed him forward to the
brink of speech; he would never get a better occasion to bring out his
grievance.</p>
<p>They trudged together in a burning silence. Though nothing was said
between them, each was in wrathful contact with the other's mind.
Gourlay blamed everything that had happened on Templandmuir, who had
dragged him to the meeting and deserted him. And Templandmuir was
longing to begin about the quarry, but afraid to start.</p>
<p>That was why he began at last with false, unnecessary loudness. It was
partly to encourage himself (as a bull bellows to increase his rage),
and partly because his spite had been so long controlled. It burst the
louder for its pent fury.</p>
<p>"Mr. Gourlay!" he bawled suddenly, when they came<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_106" id="Page_106">[Pg 106]</SPAN></span> opposite the House
with the Green Shutters, "I've had a crow to pick with you for more than
a year."</p>
<p>It came on Gourlay with a flash that Templandmuir was slipping away from
him. But he must answer him civilly for the sake of the quarry.</p>
<p>"Ay, man," he said quietly, "and what may that be?"</p>
<p>"I'll damned soon tell you what it is," said the Templar. "Yon was a
monstrous overcharge for bringing my ironwork from Fleckie. I'll be
damned if I put up with that!"</p>
<p>And yet it was only a trifle. He had put up with fifty worse impositions
and never said a word. But when a man is bent on a quarrel any spark
will do for an explosion.</p>
<p>"How do ye make that out?" said Gourlay, still very quietly, lest he
should alienate the quarry laird.</p>
<p>"Damned fine do I make that out," yelled Templandmuir, and louder than
ever was the yell. He was the brave man now, with his bellow to hearten
him. "Damned fine do I make that out. You charged me for a whole day,
though half o't was spent upon your own concerns. I'm tired o' you and
your cheatry. You've made a braw penny out o' me in your time. But curse
me if I endure it loanger. I give you notice this verra night that your
tack o' the quarry must end at Martinmas."</p>
<p>He was off, glad to have it out and glad to escape the consequence,
leaving Gourlay a cauldron of wrath in the darkness. It was not merely
the material loss that maddened him. But for the first time in his life
he had taken a rebuff without a word or a blow in return. In his desire
to conciliate he had let Templandmuir get away unscathed. His blood
rocked him where he stood.</p>
<p>He walked blindly to the kitchen door, never knowing how he reached it.
It was locked—at this early hour!—and the simple inconvenience let
loose the fury<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_107" id="Page_107">[Pg 107]</SPAN></span> of his wrath. He struck the door with his clenched fist
till the blood streamed on his knuckles.</p>
<p>It was Mrs. Gourlay who opened the door to him. She started back before
his awful eyes.</p>
<p>"John!" she cried, "what's wrong wi' ye?"</p>
<p>The sight of the she-tatterdemalion there before him, whom he had
endured so long and must endure for ever, was the crowning burden of his
night. Damn her, why didn't she get out of the way? why did she stand
there in her dirt and ask silly questions? He struck her on the bosom
with his great fist, and sent her spinning on the dirty table.</p>
<p>She rose from among the broken dishes and came towards him, with slack
lips and great startled eyes. "John," she panted, like a pitiful
frightened child, "what have I been doing?... Man, what did you hit me
for?"</p>
<p>He gaped at her with hanging jaw. He knew he was a brute—knew she had
done nothing to-night more than she had ever done—knew he had vented on
her a wrath that should have burst on others. But his mind was at a
stick; how could he explain—to <i>her</i>? He gaped and glowered for a
speechless moment, then turned on his heel and went into the parlour,
slamming the door till the windows rattled in their frames.</p>
<p>She stared after him a while in large-eyed stupor, then flung herself in
her old nursing-chair by the fire, and spat blood in the ribs, hawking
it up coarsely—we forget to be delicate in moments of supremer agony.
And then she flung her apron over her head and rocked herself to and fro
in the chair where she had nursed his children, wailing, "It's a pity o'
me, it's a pity o' me! My God, ay, it's a geyan pity o' me!"</p>
<p>The boy was in bed, but Janet had watched the scene with a white, scared
face and tearful cries. She crept to her mother's side.</p>
<p>The sympathy of children with those who weep is<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_108" id="Page_108">[Pg 108]</SPAN></span> innocently selfish. The
sight of tears makes them uncomfortable, and they want them to cease, in
the interests of their own happiness. If the outward signs of grief
would only vanish, all would be well. They are not old enough to
appreciate the inward agony.</p>
<p>So Janet tugged at the obscuring apron, and whimpered, "Don't greet,
mother, don't greet. Woman, I dinna like to see ye greetin'."</p>
<p>But Mrs. Gourlay still rocked herself and wailed, "It's a pity o' me,
it's a pity o' me! My God, ay, it's a geyan pity o' me!"</p>
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