<h2><SPAN name="Page_185" title="185"> </SPAN>THE CASTAWAY</h2>
<p class="no-indent"> <span class="small-caps">Towards</span> evening the storm was at its height.
From the terrific downpour of rain, the crash of
thunder, and the repeated flashes of lightning,
you might think that a battle of the gods and
demons was raging in the skies. Black clouds
waved like the Flags of Doom. The Ganges was
lashed into a fury, and the trees of the gardens on
either bank swayed from side to side with sighs
and groans.</p>
<p>In a closed room of one of the riverside houses
at Chandernagore, a husband and his wife were
seated on a bed spread on the floor, intently
discussing. An earthen lamp burned beside them.</p>
<p>The husband, Sharat, was saying: ‘I wish you
would stay on a few days more; you would then
be able to return home quite strong again.’</p>
<p>The wife, Kiran, was saying: ‘I have quite
recovered already. It will not, cannot possibly,
do me any harm to go home now.’</p>
<p><SPAN name="Page_186" title="186"> </SPAN>Every married person will at once understand
that the conversation was not quite so brief as I
have reported it. The matter was not difficult,
but the arguments for and against did not advance
it towards a solution. Like a rudderless boat,
the discussion kept turning round and round the
same point; and at last it threatened to be overwhelmed
in a flood of tears.</p>
<p>Sharat said: ‘The doctor thinks you should
stop here a few days longer.’</p>
<p>Kiran replied: ‘Your doctor knows everything!’</p>
<p>‘Well,’ said Sharat, ‘you know that just now
all sorts of illness are abroad. You would do
well to stop here a month or two more.’</p>
<p>‘And at this moment I suppose every one in
this place is perfectly well!’</p>
<p>What had happened was this: Kiran was a
universal favourite with her family and neighbours,
so that, when she fell seriously ill, they were all
anxious. The village wiseacres thought it shameless
for her husband to make so much fuss about
a mere wife and even to suggest a change of air,
and asked if Sharat supposed that no woman had
ever been ill before, or whether he had found out
that the folk of the place to which he meant to
take her were immortal. Did he imagine that the
<SPAN name="Page_187" title="187"> </SPAN>
writ of Fate did not run there? But Sharat and
his mother turned a deaf ear to them, thinking
that the little life of their darling was of greater
importance than the united wisdom of a village.
People are wont to reason thus when danger
threatens their loved ones. So Sharat went to
Chandernagore, and Kiran recovered, though she
was still very weak. There was a pinched look
on her face which filled the beholder with pity,
and made his heart tremble, as he thought how
narrowly she had escaped death.</p>
<p>Kiran was fond of society and amusement;
the loneliness of her riverside villa did not suit
her at all. There was nothing to do, there were
no interesting neighbours, and she hated to be
busy all day with medicine and dieting. There
was no fun in measuring doses and making
fomentations. Such was the subject discussed in
their closed room on this stormy evening.</p>
<p>So long as Kiran deigned to argue, there was a
chance of a fair fight. When she ceased to reply,
and with a toss of her head disconsolately looked
the other way, the poor man was disarmed. He
was on the point of surrendering unconditionally
when a servant shouted a message through the shut
door.</p>
<p><SPAN name="Page_188" title="188"> </SPAN>Sharat got up, and, opening the door, learnt
that a boat had been upset in the storm, and that
one of the occupants, a young Brahmin boy, had
succeeded in swimming ashore in their garden.</p>
<p>Kiran was at once her own sweet self, and set
to work to get out some dry clothes for the boy.
She then warmed a cup of milk, and invited him
to her room.</p>
<p>The boy had long curly hair, big expressive
eyes, and no sign yet of hair on the face. Kiran,
after getting him to drink some milk, asked him
all about himself.</p>
<p>He told her that his name was Nilkanta, and
that he belonged to a theatrical troupe. They
were coming to play in a neighbouring villa when
the boat had suddenly foundered in the storm.
He had no idea what had become of his
companions. He was a good swimmer, and had
just managed to reach the shore.</p>
<p>The boy stayed with them. His narrow
escape from a terrible death made Kiran take a
warm interest in him. Sharat thought the boy's
appearance at this moment rather a good thing,
as his wife would now have something to amuse
her, and might be persuaded to stay on for some
time longer. Her mother-in-law, too, was pleased
<SPAN name="Page_189" title="189"> </SPAN>
at the prospect of profiting their Brahmin guest by
her kindness. And Nilkanta himself was delighted
at his double escape from his master and from
the other world, as well as at finding a home in
this wealthy family.</p>
<p>But in a short while Sharat and his mother
changed their opinion, and longed for his departure.
The boy found a secret pleasure in smoking
Sharat's hookas; he would calmly go off in
pouring rain with Sharat's best silk umbrella for a
stroll through the village, and make friends with
all whom he met. Moreover, he had got hold of a
mongrel village dog which he petted so recklessly
that it came indoors with muddy paws, and
left tokens of its visit on Sharat's spotless bed.
Then he gathered about him a devoted band of
boys of all sorts and sizes, and the result was that
not a solitary mango in the neighbourhood had a
chance of ripening that season.</p>
<p>There is no doubt that Kiran had a hand in
spoiling the boy. Sharat often warned her about
it, but she would not listen to him. She made a
dandy of him with Sharat's cast-off clothes, and
gave him new ones too. And because she felt
drawn towards him, and also had a curiosity to
know more about him, she was constantly calling
<SPAN name="Page_190" title="190"> </SPAN>
him to her own room. After her bath and mid-day
meal Kiran would be seated on the bedstead with
her betel-leaf box by her side; and while her
maid combed and dried her hair, Nilkanta would
stand in front and recite pieces out of his repertory
with appropriate gesture and song, his elf-locks
waving wildly. Thus the long afternoon hours
passed merrily away. Kiran would often try to
persuade Sharat to sit with her as one of the
audience, but Sharat, who had taken a cordial
dislike to the boy, refused, nor could Nilkanta do
his part half so well when Sharat was there. His
mother would sometimes be lured by the hope of
hearing sacred names in the recitation; but love
of her mid-day sleep speedily overcame devotion,
and she lay lapped in dreams.</p>
<p>The boy often got his ears boxed and pulled
by Sharat, but as this was nothing to what he
had been used to as a member of the troupe,
he did not mind it in the least. In his short experience
of the world he had come to the conclusion
that, as the earth consisted of land and water, so
human life was made up of eatings and beatings,
and that the beatings largely predominated.</p>
<p>It was hard to tell Nilkanta's age. If it was
about fourteen or fifteen, then his face was too old
<SPAN name="Page_191" title="191"> </SPAN>
for his years; if seventeen or eighteen, then it was
too young. He was either a man too early or
a boy too late. The fact was that, joining the
theatrical band when very young, he had played
the parts of Radhika, Damaynti, Sita, and Bidya's
Companion. A thoughtful Providence so arranged
things that he grew to the exact stature that his
manager required, and then growth ceased. Since
every one saw how small he was, and he himself
felt small, he did not receive due respect for his
years. These causes, natural and artificial, combined
to make him sometimes seem immature for
seventeen years, and at other times a lad of fourteen
but far too knowing for seventeen. And as
no sign of hair appeared on his face, the confusion
became greater. Either because he smoked or
because he used language beyond his years, his lips
puckered into lines that showed him to be old and
hard; but innocence and youth shone in his large
eyes. I fancy that his heart remained young, but
the hot glare of publicity had been a forcing-house
that ripened untimely his outward aspect.</p>
<p>In the quiet shelter of Sharat's house and garden
at Chandernagore, Nature had leisure to work her
way unimpeded. He had lingered in a kind of
unnatural youth, but now he silently and swiftly
<SPAN name="Page_192" title="192"> </SPAN>
overpassed that stage. His seventeen or eighteen
years came to adequate revelation. No one observed
the change, and its first sign was this, that when
Kiran treated him like a boy, he felt ashamed.
When the gay Kiran one day proposed that he
should play the part of lady's companion, the idea
of woman's dress hurt him, though he could not
say why. So now, when she called for him to act
over again his old characters, he disappeared. It
never occurred to him that he was even now not
much more than a lad-of-all-work in a strolling
company. He even made up his mind to pick
up a little education from Sharat's factor. But,
because Nilkanta was the pet of his master's wife,
the factor could not endure the sight of him. Also,
his restless training made it impossible for him to
keep his mind long engaged; presently, the alphabet
did a misty dance before his eyes. He would sit
long enough with an open book on his lap, leaning
against a <i>champak</i> bush beside the Ganges. The
waves sighed below, boats floated past, birds flitted
and twittered restlessly above. What thoughts
passed through his mind as he looked down on
that book he alone knew, if indeed he did know.
He never advanced from one word to another, but
the glorious thought that he was actually reading
<SPAN name="Page_193" title="193"> </SPAN>
a book filled his soul with exultation. Whenever
a boat went by, he lifted his book, and pretended
to be reading hard, shouting at the top of his voice.
But his energy dropped as soon as the audience
was gone.</p>
<p>Formerly he sang his songs automatically, but
now their tunes stirred in his mind. Their words
were of little import, and full of trifling alliteration.
Even the little meaning they had was beyond his
comprehension; yet when he sang—</p>
<div class="poetry width20">
<div class="stanza">
<div class="line">Twice-born<SPAN name="FNanchor_42" href="#Footnote_42" class="fnanchor">[42]</SPAN> bird! ah! wherefore stirred<br/></div>
<div class="line" style="margin-left: 1.2em;">To wrong our royal lady?<br/></div>
<div class="line">Goose, ah! say why wilt thou slay<br/></div>
<div class="line" style="margin-left: 1.2em;">Her in forest shady?<SPAN name="FNanchor_43" href="#Footnote_43" class="fnanchor">[43]</SPAN></div>
</div></div>
<p class="no-indent"> then he felt as if transported to another world,
and to far other folk. This familiar earth and
his own poor life became music, and he was transformed.
That tale of goose and king's daughter
flung upon the mirror of his mind a picture of
surpassing beauty. It is impossible to say what he
imagined he himself was, but the destitute little
slave of the theatrical troupe faded from his
memory.</p>
<p>When with evening the child of want lies down,
dirty and hungry, in his squalid home, and hears
<SPAN name="Page_194" title="194"> </SPAN>
of prince and princess and fabled gold, then in the
dark hovel with its dim flickering candle, his mind
springs free from her bonds of poverty and misery,
and walks in fresh beauty and glowing raiment,
strong beyond all fear of hindrance, through that
fairy realm where all is possible.</p>
<p>Even so, this drudge of wandering players
fashioned himself and his world anew, as he moved
in spirit amid his songs. The lapping water,
rustling leaves, and calling birds; the goddess who
had given shelter to him, the helpless, the Godforsaken;
her gracious, lovely face, her exquisite
arms with their shining bangles, her rosy feet as
soft as flower-petals; all these by some magic
became one with the music of his song. When the
singing ended, the mirage faded, and Nilkanta of
the stage appeared again, with his wild elf-locks.
Fresh from the complaints of his neighbour, the
owner of the despoiled mango-orchard, Sharat
would come and box his ears, and cuff him. The
boy Nilkanta, the misleader of adoring youths,
went forth once more, to make ever new mischief
by land and water and in the branches that are
above the earth.</p>
<p>Shortly after the advent of Nilkanta, Sharat's
younger brother, Satish, came to spend his college
<SPAN name="Page_195" title="195"> </SPAN>
vacation with them. Kiran was hugely pleased at
finding a fresh occupation. She and Satish were
of the same age, and the time passed pleasantly in
games and quarrels and makings-up and laughter
and even tears. Suddenly she would clasp him
over the eyes, from behind, with vermilion-stained
hands, she would write ‘monkey’ on his back,
and sometimes bolt the door on him from outside
amidst peals of laughter. Satish in his turn did
not take things lying down; he would take her
keys and rings, he would put pepper among her
betel; he would tie her to the bed when she was
not looking.</p>
<p>Meanwhile, heaven only knows what possessed
poor Nilkanta. He was suddenly filled with a
bitterness which he must avenge on somebody or
something. He thrashed his devoted boy-followers
for no fault, and sent them away crying. He
would kick his pet mongrel till it made the skies
resound with its whinings. When he went out
for a walk, he would litter his path with twigs
and leaves beaten from the roadside shrubs with
his cane.</p>
<p>Kiran liked to see people enjoying good fare.
Nilkanta had an immense capacity for eating, and
never refused a good thing, however often it was
<SPAN name="Page_196" title="196"> </SPAN>
offered. So Kiran liked to send for him to have
his meals in her presence, and ply him with delicacies,
happy in the bliss of seeing this Brahmin
boy eat to satiety. After Satish's arrival she had
much less spare time on her hands, and was seldom
present when Nilkanta's meals were served. Before,
her absence made no difference to the boy's appetite,
and he would not rise till he had drained his
cup of milk, and rinsed it thoroughly with water.<SPAN name="FNanchor_44" href="#Footnote_44" class="fnanchor">[44]</SPAN></p>
<p>But now, if Kiran was not present to ask
him to try this and that, he was miserable, and
nothing tasted right. He would get up without
eating much, and say to the serving-maid in a
choking voice: ‘I am not hungry.’ He thought
in imagination that the news of his repeated refusal,
‘I am not hungry,’ would reach Kiran; he pictured
her concern, and hoped that she would send for
him, and press him to eat. But nothing of the
sort happened. Kiran never knew, and never sent
for him; and the maid finished whatever he left.
He would then put out the lamp in his room, and
throw himself on his bed in the darkness, burying
his head in the pillow in a paroxysm of sobs.
What was his grievance? Against whom? And
<SPAN name="Page_197" title="197"> </SPAN>
from whom did he expect redress? At last, when
none else came, Mother Sleep soothed with her soft
caresses the wounded heart of the motherless lad.</p>
<p>Nilkanta came to the unshakable conviction
that Satish was poisoning Kiran's mind against him.
If Kiran was absent-minded, and had not her usual
smile, he would jump to the conclusion that some
trick of Satish had made her angry with him. He
took to praying to the gods, with all the fervour of
his hate, to make him at the next rebirth Satish,
and Satish him. He had an idea that a Brahmin's
wrath could never be in vain; and the more he
tried to consume Satish with the fire of his curses,
the more did his own heart burn within him. And
upstairs he would hear Satish laughing and joking
with his sister-in-law.</p>
<p>Nilkanta never dared openly to show his enmity
to Satish. But he would contrive a hundred petty
ways of causing him annoyance. When Satish
went for a swim in the river, and left his soap on
the steps of the bathing-place, on coming back for
it he would find that it had disappeared. Once
he found his favourite striped tunic floating past
him on the water, and thought it had been blown
away by the wind.</p>
<p>One day Kiran, desiring to entertain Satish,
<SPAN name="Page_198" title="198"> </SPAN>
sent for Nilkanta to recite as usual, but he stood
there in gloomy silence. Quite surprised, Kiran
asked him what was the matter. But he remained
silent. And when again pressed by her to repeat
some particular favourite piece of hers, he answered:
‘I don't remember,’ and walked away.</p>
<p>At last the time came for their return home.
Everybody was busy packing up. Satish was going
with them. But to Nilkanta nobody said a word.
The question whether he was to go or not seemed
not to have occurred to anybody.</p>
<p>The question, as a matter of fact, had been
raised by Kiran, who had proposed to take him
along with them. But her husband and his mother
and brother had all objected so strenuously that
she let the matter drop. A couple of days before
they were to start, she sent for the boy, and with
kind words advised him to go back to his own
home.</p>
<p>So many days had he felt neglected that this
touch of kindness was too much for him; he burst
into tears. Kiran's eyes were also brimming over.
She was filled with remorse at the thought that she
had created a tie of affection, which could not be
permanent.</p>
<p>But Satish was much annoyed at the blubbering
<SPAN name="Page_199" title="199"> </SPAN>
of this overgrown boy. ‘Why does the fool stand
there howling instead of speaking?’ said he.
When Kiran scolded him for an unfeeling creature,
he replied: ‘Sister mine, you do not understand.
You are too good and trustful. This fellow turns
up from the Lord knows where, and is treated like
a king. Naturally the tiger has no wish to become
a mouse again.<SPAN name="FNanchor_45" href="#Footnote_45" class="fnanchor">[45]</SPAN> And he has evidently discovered
that there is nothing like a tear or two to soften
your heart.’</p>
<p>Nilkanta hurriedly left the spot. He felt he
would like to be a knife to cut Satish to pieces; a
needle to pierce him through and through; a fire to
burn him to ashes. But Satish was not even scarred.
It was only his own heart that bled and bled.</p>
<p>Satish had brought with him from Calcutta a
grand inkstand. The inkpot was set in a mother-of-pearl
boat drawn by a German-silver goose
supporting a penholder. It was a great favourite
of his, and he cleaned it carefully every day with
an old silk handkerchief. Kiran would laugh and,
tapping the silver bird's beak, would say—</p>
<div class="poetry">
<div class="stanza">
<div class="line">Twice-born bird, ah! wherefore stirred<br/></div>
<div class="line" style="margin-left: 1.2em;">To wrong our royal lady?</div>
</div></div>
<p class="no-indent"><SPAN name="Page_200" title="200"> </SPAN> and the usual war of words would break out
between her and her brother-in-law.</p>
<p>The day before they were to start, the inkstand
was missing, and could nowhere be found. Kiran
smiled, and said: ‘Brother-in-law, your goose has
flown off to look for your <ins title="Damaynti.”">Damaynti.’</ins><SPAN name="FNanchor_46" href="#Footnote_46" class="fnanchor">[46]</SPAN></p>
<p>But Satish was in a great rage. He was certain
that Nilkanta had stolen it—for several people said
they had seen him prowling about the room the
night before. He had the accused brought before
him. Kiran also was there. ‘You have stolen
my inkstand, you thief!’ he blurted out. ‘Bring
it back at once.’ Nilkanta had always taken
punishment from Sharat, deserved or undeserved,
with perfect equanimity. But, when he was called
a thief in Kiran's presence, his eyes blazed with a
fierce anger, his breast swelled, and his throat
choked. If Satish had said another word he would
have flown at him like a wild cat, and used his nails
like claws.</p>
<p>Kiran was greatly distressed at the scene, and
taking the boy into another room said in her sweet,
kind way: ‘Nilu, if you really have taken that
inkstand give it to me quietly, and I shall see that
no one says another word to you about it.’ Big
<SPAN name="Page_201" title="201"> </SPAN>
tears coursed down the boy's cheeks, till at last he
hid his face in his hands, and wept bitterly. Kiran
came back from the room, and said: ‘I am sure
Nilkanta has not taken the inkstand.’ Sharat and
Satish were equally positive that no other than
Nilkanta could have done it.</p>
<p>But Kiran said determinedly: ‘Never.’</p>
<p>Sharat wanted to cross-examine the boy, but
his wife refused to allow it.</p>
<p>Then Satish suggested that his room and box
should be searched. And Kiran said: ‘If you
dare do such a thing I will never, never forgive
you. You shall not spy on the poor innocent boy.’
And as she spoke, her wonderful eyes filled with
tears. That settled the matter, and effectually
prevented any further molestation of Nilkanta!</p>
<p>Kiran's heart overflowed with pity at this
attempted outrage on a homeless lad. She got
two new suits of clothes and a pair of shoes, and
with these and a banknote in her hand she quietly
went into Nilkanta's room in the evening. She
intended to put these parting presents into his box
as a surprise. The box itself had been her gift.</p>
<p>From her bunch of keys she selected one that
fitted, and noiselessly opened the box. It was so
jumbled up with odds and ends that the new
<SPAN name="Page_202" title="202"> </SPAN>
clothes would not go in. So she thought she had
better take everything out and pack the box for
him. At first knives, tops, kite-flying reels,
bamboo twigs, polished shells for peeling green
mangoes, bottoms of broken tumblers and such
like things dear to a boy's heart were discovered.
Then there came a layer of linen, clean and otherwise.
And from under the linen there emerged
the missing inkstand, goose and all!</p>
<p>Kiran, with flushed face, sat down helplessly
with the inkstand in her hand, puzzled and
wondering.</p>
<p>In the meantime, Nilkanta had come into the
room from behind without Kiran knowing it.
He had seen the whole thing, and thought that
Kiran had come like a thief to catch him in his
thieving,—and that his deed was out. How
could he ever hope to convince her that he was
not a thief, and that only revenge had prompted
him to take the inkstand, which he meant to
throw into the river at the first chance? In a weak
moment he had put it in his box instead. ‘He
was not a thief,’ his heart cried out, ‘not a thief!’
Then what was he? What could he say? He
had stolen, and yet he was not a thief! He could
never explain to Kiran how grievously wrong
<SPAN name="Page_203" title="203–204"> </SPAN>
she was in taking him for a thief; how could he
bear the thought that she had tried to spy on him?</p>
<p>At last Kiran with a deep sigh replaced the
inkstand in the box, and, as if she were the thief
herself, covered it up with the linen and the
trinkets as they were before; and at the top she
placed the presents together with the banknote
which she had brought for him.</p>
<p>The next day the boy was nowhere to be found.
The villagers had not seen him; the police could
discover no trace of him. Said Sharat: ‘Now,
as a matter of curiosity, let us have a look at
his box.’ But Kiran was obstinate in her refusal
to allow that to be done.</p>
<p>She had the box brought up to her own room;
and taking out the inkstand alone, threw it into
the river.</p>
<p>The whole family went home. In a day the
garden became desolate. And only that starving
mongrel of Nilkanta's remained prowling along
the river-bank, whining and whining as if its heart
would break.</p>
<div class="story-title"><SPAN name="Page_205" title="205–206"> </SPAN>SAVED</div>
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