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<h2> CHAPTER XXXIV </h2>
<p>Edmund had great things to hear on his return. Many surprises were
awaiting him. The first that occurred was not least in interest: the
appearance of Henry Crawford and his sister walking together through the
village as he rode into it. He had concluded—he had meant them to be
far distant. His absence had been extended beyond a fortnight purposely to
avoid Miss Crawford. He was returning to Mansfield with spirits ready to
feed on melancholy remembrances, and tender associations, when her own
fair self was before him, leaning on her brother's arm, and he found
himself receiving a welcome, unquestionably friendly, from the woman whom,
two moments before, he had been thinking of as seventy miles off, and as
farther, much farther, from him in inclination than any distance could
express.</p>
<p>Her reception of him was of a sort which he could not have hoped for, had
he expected to see her. Coming as he did from such a purport fulfilled as
had taken him away, he would have expected anything rather than a look of
satisfaction, and words of simple, pleasant meaning. It was enough to set
his heart in a glow, and to bring him home in the properest state for
feeling the full value of the other joyful surprises at hand.</p>
<p>William's promotion, with all its particulars, he was soon master of; and
with such a secret provision of comfort within his own breast to help the
joy, he found in it a source of most gratifying sensation and unvarying
cheerfulness all dinner-time.</p>
<p>After dinner, when he and his father were alone, he had Fanny's history;
and then all the great events of the last fortnight, and the present
situation of matters at Mansfield were known to him.</p>
<p>Fanny suspected what was going on. They sat so much longer than usual in
the dining-parlour, that she was sure they must be talking of her; and
when tea at last brought them away, and she was to be seen by Edmund
again, she felt dreadfully guilty. He came to her, sat down by her, took
her hand, and pressed it kindly; and at that moment she thought that, but
for the occupation and the scene which the tea-things afforded, she must
have betrayed her emotion in some unpardonable excess.</p>
<p>He was not intending, however, by such action, to be conveying to her that
unqualified approbation and encouragement which her hopes drew from it. It
was designed only to express his participation in all that interested her,
and to tell her that he had been hearing what quickened every feeling of
affection. He was, in fact, entirely on his father's side of the question.
His surprise was not so great as his father's at her refusing Crawford,
because, so far from supposing her to consider him with anything like a
preference, he had always believed it to be rather the reverse, and could
imagine her to be taken perfectly unprepared, but Sir Thomas could not
regard the connexion as more desirable than he did. It had every
recommendation to him; and while honouring her for what she had done under
the influence of her present indifference, honouring her in rather
stronger terms than Sir Thomas could quite echo, he was most earnest in
hoping, and sanguine in believing, that it would be a match at last, and
that, united by mutual affection, it would appear that their dispositions
were as exactly fitted to make them blessed in each other, as he was now
beginning seriously to consider them. Crawford had been too precipitate.
He had not given her time to attach herself. He had begun at the wrong
end. With such powers as his, however, and such a disposition as hers,
Edmund trusted that everything would work out a happy conclusion.
Meanwhile, he saw enough of Fanny's embarrassment to make him scrupulously
guard against exciting it a second time, by any word, or look, or
movement.</p>
<p>Crawford called the next day, and on the score of Edmund's return, Sir
Thomas felt himself more than licensed to ask him to stay dinner; it was
really a necessary compliment. He staid of course, and Edmund had then
ample opportunity for observing how he sped with Fanny, and what degree of
immediate encouragement for him might be extracted from her manners; and
it was so little, so very, very little—every chance, every
possibility of it, resting upon her embarrassment only; if there was not
hope in her confusion, there was hope in nothing else—that he was
almost ready to wonder at his friend's perseverance. Fanny was worth it
all; he held her to be worth every effort of patience, every exertion of
mind, but he did not think he could have gone on himself with any woman
breathing, without something more to warm his courage than his eyes could
discern in hers. He was very willing to hope that Crawford saw clearer,
and this was the most comfortable conclusion for his friend that he could
come to from all that he observed to pass before, and at, and after
dinner.</p>
<p>In the evening a few circumstances occurred which he thought more
promising. When he and Crawford walked into the drawing-room, his mother
and Fanny were sitting as intently and silently at work as if there were
nothing else to care for. Edmund could not help noticing their apparently
deep tranquillity.</p>
<p>"We have not been so silent all the time," replied his mother. "Fanny has
been reading to me, and only put the book down upon hearing you coming."
And sure enough there was a book on the table which had the air of being
very recently closed: a volume of Shakespeare. "She often reads to me out
of those books; and she was in the middle of a very fine speech of that
man's—what's his name, Fanny?—when we heard your footsteps."</p>
<p>Crawford took the volume. "Let me have the pleasure of finishing that
speech to your ladyship," said he. "I shall find it immediately." And by
carefully giving way to the inclination of the leaves, he did find it, or
within a page or two, quite near enough to satisfy Lady Bertram, who
assured him, as soon as he mentioned the name of Cardinal Wolsey, that he
had got the very speech. Not a look or an offer of help had Fanny given;
not a syllable for or against. All her attention was for her work. She
seemed determined to be interested by nothing else. But taste was too
strong in her. She could not abstract her mind five minutes: she was
forced to listen; his reading was capital, and her pleasure in good
reading extreme. To <i>good</i> reading, however, she had been long used:
her uncle read well, her cousins all, Edmund very well, but in Mr.
Crawford's reading there was a variety of excellence beyond what she had
ever met with. The King, the Queen, Buckingham, Wolsey, Cromwell, all were
given in turn; for with the happiest knack, the happiest power of jumping
and guessing, he could always alight at will on the best scene, or the
best speeches of each; and whether it were dignity, or pride, or
tenderness, or remorse, or whatever were to be expressed, he could do it
with equal beauty. It was truly dramatic. His acting had first taught
Fanny what pleasure a play might give, and his reading brought all his
acting before her again; nay, perhaps with greater enjoyment, for it came
unexpectedly, and with no such drawback as she had been used to suffer in
seeing him on the stage with Miss Bertram.</p>
<p>Edmund watched the progress of her attention, and was amused and gratified
by seeing how she gradually slackened in the needlework, which at the
beginning seemed to occupy her totally: how it fell from her hand while
she sat motionless over it, and at last, how the eyes which had appeared
so studiously to avoid him throughout the day were turned and fixed on
Crawford—fixed on him for minutes, fixed on him, in short, till the
attraction drew Crawford's upon her, and the book was closed, and the
charm was broken. Then she was shrinking again into herself, and blushing
and working as hard as ever; but it had been enough to give Edmund
encouragement for his friend, and as he cordially thanked him, he hoped to
be expressing Fanny's secret feelings too.</p>
<p>"That play must be a favourite with you," said he; "you read as if you
knew it well."</p>
<p>"It will be a favourite, I believe, from this hour," replied Crawford;
"but I do not think I have had a volume of Shakespeare in my hand before
since I was fifteen. I once saw Henry the Eighth acted, or I have heard of
it from somebody who did, I am not certain which. But Shakespeare one gets
acquainted with without knowing how. It is a part of an Englishman's
constitution. His thoughts and beauties are so spread abroad that one
touches them everywhere; one is intimate with him by instinct. No man of
any brain can open at a good part of one of his plays without falling into
the flow of his meaning immediately."</p>
<p>"No doubt one is familiar with Shakespeare in a degree," said Edmund,
"from one's earliest years. His celebrated passages are quoted by
everybody; they are in half the books we open, and we all talk
Shakespeare, use his similes, and describe with his descriptions; but this
is totally distinct from giving his sense as you gave it. To know him in
bits and scraps is common enough; to know him pretty thoroughly is,
perhaps, not uncommon; but to read him well aloud is no everyday talent."</p>
<p>"Sir, you do me honour," was Crawford's answer, with a bow of mock
gravity.</p>
<p>Both gentlemen had a glance at Fanny, to see if a word of accordant praise
could be extorted from her; yet both feeling that it could not be. Her
praise had been given in her attention; <i>that</i> must content them.</p>
<p>Lady Bertram's admiration was expressed, and strongly too. "It was really
like being at a play," said she. "I wish Sir Thomas had been here."</p>
<p>Crawford was excessively pleased. If Lady Bertram, with all her
incompetency and languor, could feel this, the inference of what her
niece, alive and enlightened as she was, must feel, was elevating.</p>
<p>"You have a great turn for acting, I am sure, Mr. Crawford," said her
ladyship soon afterwards; "and I will tell you what, I think you will have
a theatre, some time or other, at your house in Norfolk. I mean when you
are settled there. I do indeed. I think you will fit up a theatre at your
house in Norfolk."</p>
<p>"Do you, ma'am?" cried he, with quickness. "No, no, that will never be.
Your ladyship is quite mistaken. No theatre at Everingham! Oh no!" And he
looked at Fanny with an expressive smile, which evidently meant, "That
lady will never allow a theatre at Everingham."</p>
<p>Edmund saw it all, and saw Fanny so determined <i>not</i> to see it, as to
make it clear that the voice was enough to convey the full meaning of the
protestation; and such a quick consciousness of compliment, such a ready
comprehension of a hint, he thought, was rather favourable than not.</p>
<p>The subject of reading aloud was farther discussed. The two young men were
the only talkers, but they, standing by the fire, talked over the too
common neglect of the qualification, the total inattention to it, in the
ordinary school-system for boys, the consequently natural, yet in some
instances almost unnatural, degree of ignorance and uncouthness of men, of
sensible and well-informed men, when suddenly called to the necessity of
reading aloud, which had fallen within their notice, giving instances of
blunders, and failures with their secondary causes, the want of management
of the voice, of proper modulation and emphasis, of foresight and
judgment, all proceeding from the first cause: want of early attention and
habit; and Fanny was listening again with great entertainment.</p>
<p>"Even in my profession," said Edmund, with a smile, "how little the art of
reading has been studied! how little a clear manner, and good delivery,
have been attended to! I speak rather of the past, however, than the
present. There is now a spirit of improvement abroad; but among those who
were ordained twenty, thirty, forty years ago, the larger number, to judge
by their performance, must have thought reading was reading, and preaching
was preaching. It is different now. The subject is more justly considered.
It is felt that distinctness and energy may have weight in recommending
the most solid truths; and besides, there is more general observation and
taste, a more critical knowledge diffused than formerly; in every
congregation there is a larger proportion who know a little of the matter,
and who can judge and criticise."</p>
<p>Edmund had already gone through the service once since his ordination; and
upon this being understood, he had a variety of questions from Crawford as
to his feelings and success; questions, which being made, though with the
vivacity of friendly interest and quick taste, without any touch of that
spirit of banter or air of levity which Edmund knew to be most offensive
to Fanny, he had true pleasure in satisfying; and when Crawford proceeded
to ask his opinion and give his own as to the properest manner in which
particular passages in the service should be delivered, shewing it to be a
subject on which he had thought before, and thought with judgment, Edmund
was still more and more pleased. This would be the way to Fanny's heart.
She was not to be won by all that gallantry and wit and good-nature
together could do; or, at least, she would not be won by them nearly so
soon, without the assistance of sentiment and feeling, and seriousness on
serious subjects.</p>
<p>"Our liturgy," observed Crawford, "has beauties, which not even a
careless, slovenly style of reading can destroy; but it has also
redundancies and repetitions which require good reading not to be felt.
For myself, at least, I must confess being not always so attentive as I
ought to be" (here was a glance at Fanny); "that nineteen times out of
twenty I am thinking how such a prayer ought to be read, and longing to
have it to read myself. Did you speak?" stepping eagerly to Fanny, and
addressing her in a softened voice; and upon her saying "No," he added,
"Are you sure you did not speak? I saw your lips move. I fancied you might
be going to tell me I ought to be more attentive, and not <i>allow</i> my
thoughts to wander. Are not you going to tell me so?"</p>
<p>"No, indeed, you know your duty too well for me to—even supposing—"</p>
<p>She stopt, felt herself getting into a puzzle, and could not be prevailed
on to add another word, not by dint of several minutes of supplication and
waiting. He then returned to his former station, and went on as if there
had been no such tender interruption.</p>
<p>"A sermon, well delivered, is more uncommon even than prayers well read. A
sermon, good in itself, is no rare thing. It is more difficult to speak
well than to compose well; that is, the rules and trick of composition are
oftener an object of study. A thoroughly good sermon, thoroughly well
delivered, is a capital gratification. I can never hear such a one without
the greatest admiration and respect, and more than half a mind to take
orders and preach myself. There is something in the eloquence of the
pulpit, when it is really eloquence, which is entitled to the highest
praise and honour. The preacher who can touch and affect such an
heterogeneous mass of hearers, on subjects limited, and long worn
threadbare in all common hands; who can say anything new or striking,
anything that rouses the attention without offending the taste, or wearing
out the feelings of his hearers, is a man whom one could not, in his
public capacity, honour enough. I should like to be such a man."</p>
<p>Edmund laughed.</p>
<p>"I should indeed. I never listened to a distinguished preacher in my life
without a sort of envy. But then, I must have a London audience. I could
not preach but to the educated; to those who were capable of estimating my
composition. And I do not know that I should be fond of preaching often;
now and then, perhaps once or twice in the spring, after being anxiously
expected for half a dozen Sundays together; but not for a constancy; it
would not do for a constancy."</p>
<p>Here Fanny, who could not but listen, involuntarily shook her head, and
Crawford was instantly by her side again, entreating to know her meaning;
and as Edmund perceived, by his drawing in a chair, and sitting down close
by her, that it was to be a very thorough attack, that looks and
undertones were to be well tried, he sank as quietly as possible into a
corner, turned his back, and took up a newspaper, very sincerely wishing
that dear little Fanny might be persuaded into explaining away that shake
of the head to the satisfaction of her ardent lover; and as earnestly
trying to bury every sound of the business from himself in murmurs of his
own, over the various advertisements of "A most desirable Estate in South
Wales"; "To Parents and Guardians"; and a "Capital season'd Hunter."</p>
<p>Fanny, meanwhile, vexed with herself for not having been as motionless as
she was speechless, and grieved to the heart to see Edmund's arrangements,
was trying by everything in the power of her modest, gentle nature, to
repulse Mr. Crawford, and avoid both his looks and inquiries; and he,
unrepulsable, was persisting in both.</p>
<p>"What did that shake of the head mean?" said he. "What was it meant to
express? Disapprobation, I fear. But of what? What had I been saying to
displease you? Did you think me speaking improperly, lightly, irreverently
on the subject? Only tell me if I was. Only tell me if I was wrong. I want
to be set right. Nay, nay, I entreat you; for one moment put down your
work. What did that shake of the head mean?"</p>
<p>In vain was her "Pray, sir, don't; pray, Mr. Crawford," repeated twice
over; and in vain did she try to move away. In the same low, eager voice,
and the same close neighbourhood, he went on, reurging the same questions
as before. She grew more agitated and displeased.</p>
<p>"How can you, sir? You quite astonish me; I wonder how you can—"</p>
<p>"Do I astonish you?" said he. "Do you wonder? Is there anything in my
present entreaty that you do not understand? I will explain to you
instantly all that makes me urge you in this manner, all that gives me an
interest in what you look and do, and excites my present curiosity. I will
not leave you to wonder long."</p>
<p>In spite of herself, she could not help half a smile, but she said
nothing.</p>
<p>"You shook your head at my acknowledging that I should not like to engage
in the duties of a clergyman always for a constancy. Yes, that was the
word. Constancy: I am not afraid of the word. I would spell it, read it,
write it with anybody. I see nothing alarming in the word. Did you think I
ought?"</p>
<p>"Perhaps, sir," said Fanny, wearied at last into speaking—"perhaps,
sir, I thought it was a pity you did not always know yourself as well as
you seemed to do at that moment."</p>
<p>Crawford, delighted to get her to speak at any rate, was determined to
keep it up; and poor Fanny, who had hoped to silence him by such an
extremity of reproof, found herself sadly mistaken, and that it was only a
change from one object of curiosity and one set of words to another. He
had always something to entreat the explanation of. The opportunity was
too fair. None such had occurred since his seeing her in her uncle's room,
none such might occur again before his leaving Mansfield. Lady Bertram's
being just on the other side of the table was a trifle, for she might
always be considered as only half-awake, and Edmund's advertisements were
still of the first utility.</p>
<p>"Well," said Crawford, after a course of rapid questions and reluctant
answers; "I am happier than I was, because I now understand more clearly
your opinion of me. You think me unsteady: easily swayed by the whim of
the moment, easily tempted, easily put aside. With such an opinion, no
wonder that. But we shall see. It is not by protestations that I shall
endeavour to convince you I am wronged; it is not by telling you that my
affections are steady. My conduct shall speak for me; absence, distance,
time shall speak for me. <i>They</i> shall prove that, as far as you can
be deserved by anybody, I do deserve you. You are infinitely my superior
in merit; all <i>that</i> I know. You have qualities which I had not
before supposed to exist in such a degree in any human creature. You have
some touches of the angel in you beyond what—not merely beyond what
one sees, because one never sees anything like it—but beyond what
one fancies might be. But still I am not frightened. It is not by equality
of merit that you can be won. That is out of the question. It is he who
sees and worships your merit the strongest, who loves you most devotedly,
that has the best right to a return. There I build my confidence. By that
right I do and will deserve you; and when once convinced that my
attachment is what I declare it, I know you too well not to entertain the
warmest hopes. Yes, dearest, sweetest Fanny. Nay" (seeing her draw back
displeased), "forgive me. Perhaps I have as yet no right; but by what
other name can I call you? Do you suppose you are ever present to my
imagination under any other? No, it is 'Fanny' that I think of all day,
and dream of all night. You have given the name such reality of sweetness,
that nothing else can now be descriptive of you."</p>
<p>Fanny could hardly have kept her seat any longer, or have refrained from
at least trying to get away in spite of all the too public opposition she
foresaw to it, had it not been for the sound of approaching relief, the
very sound which she had been long watching for, and long thinking
strangely delayed.</p>
<p>The solemn procession, headed by Baddeley, of tea-board, urn, and
cake-bearers, made its appearance, and delivered her from a grievous
imprisonment of body and mind. Mr. Crawford was obliged to move. She was
at liberty, she was busy, she was protected.</p>
<p>Edmund was not sorry to be admitted again among the number of those who
might speak and hear. But though the conference had seemed full long to
him, and though on looking at Fanny he saw rather a flush of vexation, he
inclined to hope that so much could not have been said and listened to
without some profit to the speaker.</p>
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