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<h2> XII </h2>
<p>ONE afternoon toward the end of August a group of girls sat in a room at
Miss Hatchard's in a gay confusion of flags, turkey-red, blue and white
paper muslin, harvest sheaves and illuminated scrolls.</p>
<p>North Dormer was preparing for its Old Home Week. That form of sentimental
decentralization was still in its early stages, and, precedents being few,
and the desire to set an example contagious, the matter had become a
subject of prolonged and passionate discussion under Miss Hatchard's roof.
The incentive to the celebration had come rather from those who had left
North Dormer than from those who had been obliged to stay there, and there
was some difficulty in rousing the village to the proper state of
enthusiasm. But Miss Hatchard's pale prim drawing-room was the centre of
constant comings and goings from Hepburn, Nettleton, Springfield and even
more distant cities; and whenever a visitor arrived he was led across the
hall, and treated to a glimpse of the group of girls deep in their pretty
preparations.</p>
<p>“All the old names... all the old names....” Miss Hatchard would be heard,
tapping across the hall on her crutches. “Targatt... Sollas... Fry: this
is Miss Orma Fry sewing the stars on the drapery for the organ-loft. Don't
move, girls... and this is Miss Ally Hawes, our cleverest needle-woman...
and Miss Charity Royall making our garlands of evergreen.... I like the
idea of its all being homemade, don't you? We haven't had to call in any
foreign talent: my young cousin Lucius Harney, the architect—you
know he's up here preparing a book on Colonial houses—he's taken the
whole thing in hand so cleverly; but you must come and see his sketch for
the stage we're going to put up in the Town Hall.”</p>
<p>One of the first results of the Old Home Week agitation had, in fact, been
the reappearance of Lucius Harney in the village street. He had been
vaguely spoken of as being not far off, but for some weeks past no one had
seen him at North Dormer, and there was a recent report of his having left
Creston River, where he was said to have been staying, and gone away from
the neighbourhood for good. Soon after Miss Hatchard's return, however, he
came back to his old quarters in her house, and began to take a leading
part in the planning of the festivities. He threw himself into the idea
with extraordinary good-humour, and was so prodigal of sketches, and so
inexhaustible in devices, that he gave an immediate impetus to the rather
languid movement, and infected the whole village with his enthusiasm.</p>
<p>“Lucius has such a feeling for the past that he has roused us all to a
sense of our privileges,” Miss Hatchard would say, lingering on the last
word, which was a favourite one. And before leading her visitor back to
the drawing-room she would repeat, for the hundredth time, that she
supposed he thought it very bold of little North Dormer to start up and
have a Home Week of its own, when so many bigger places hadn't thought of
it yet; but that, after all, Associations counted more than the size of
the population, didn't they? And of course North Dormer was so full of
Associations... historic, literary (here a filial sigh for Honorius) and
ecclesiastical... he knew about the old pewter communion service imported
from England in 1769, she supposed? And it was so important, in a wealthy
materialistic age, to set the example of reverting to the old ideals, the
family and the homestead, and so on. This peroration usually carried her
half-way back across the hall, leaving the girls to return to their
interrupted activities.</p>
<p>The day on which Charity Royall was weaving hemlock garlands for the
procession was the last before the celebration. When Miss Hatchard called
upon the North Dormer maidenhood to collaborate in the festal preparations
Charity had at first held aloof; but it had been made clear to her that
her non-appearance might excite conjecture, and, reluctantly, she had
joined the other workers. The girls, at first shy and embarrassed, and
puzzled as to the exact nature of the projected commemoration, had soon
become interested in the amusing details of their task, and excited by the
notice they received. They would not for the world have missed their
afternoons at Miss Hatchard's, and, while they cut out and sewed and
draped and pasted, their tongues kept up such an accompaniment to the
sewing-machine that Charity's silence sheltered itself unperceived under
their chatter.</p>
<p>In spirit she was still almost unconscious of the pleasant stir about her.
Since her return to the red house, on the evening of the day when Harney
had overtaken her on her way to the Mountain, she had lived at North
Dormer as if she were suspended in the void. She had come back there
because Harney, after appearing to agree to the impossibility of her doing
so, had ended by persuading her that any other course would be madness.
She had nothing further to fear from Mr. Royall. Of this she had declared
herself sure, though she had failed to add, in his exoneration, that he
had twice offered to make her his wife. Her hatred of him made it
impossible, at the moment, for her to say anything that might partly
excuse him in Harney's eyes.</p>
<p>Harney, however, once satisfied of her security, had found plenty of
reasons for urging her to return. The first, and the most unanswerable,
was that she had nowhere else to go. But the one on which he laid the
greatest stress was that flight would be equivalent to avowal. If—as
was almost inevitable—rumours of the scandalous scene at Nettleton
should reach North Dormer, how else would her disappearance be
interpreted? Her guardian had publicly taken away her character, and she
immediately vanished from his house. Seekers after motives could hardly
fail to draw an unkind conclusion. But if she came back at once, and was
seen leading her usual life, the incident was reduced to its true
proportions, as the outbreak of a drunken old man furious at being
surprised in disreputable company. People would say that Mr. Royall had
insulted his ward to justify himself, and the sordid tale would fall into
its place in the chronicle of his obscure debaucheries.</p>
<p>Charity saw the force of the argument; but if she acquiesced it was not so
much because of that as because it was Harney's wish. Since that evening
in the deserted house she could imagine no reason for doing or not doing
anything except the fact that Harney wished or did not wish it. All her
tossing contradictory impulses were merged in a fatalistic acceptance of
his will. It was not that she felt in him any ascendancy of character—there
were moments already when she knew she was the stronger—but that all
the rest of life had become a mere cloudy rim about the central glory of
their passion. Whenever she stopped thinking about that for a moment she
felt as she sometimes did after lying on the grass and staring up too long
at the sky; her eyes were so full of light that everything about her was a
blur.</p>
<p>Each time that Miss Hatchard, in the course of her periodical incursions
into the work-room, dropped an allusion to her young cousin, the
architect, the effect was the same on Charity. The hemlock garland she was
wearing fell to her knees and she sat in a kind of trance. It was so
manifestly absurd that Miss Hatchard should talk of Harney in that
familiar possessive way, as if she had any claim on him, or knew anything
about him. She, Charity Royall, was the only being on earth who really
knew him, knew him from the soles of his feet to the rumpled crest of his
hair, knew the shifting lights in his eyes, and the inflexions of his
voice, and the things he liked and disliked, and everything there was to
know about him, as minutely and yet unconsciously as a child knows the
walls of the room it wakes up in every morning. It was this fact, which
nobody about her guessed, or would have understood, that made her life
something apart and inviolable, as if nothing had any power to hurt or
disturb her as long as her secret was safe.</p>
<p>The room in which the girls sat was the one which had been Harney's
bedroom. He had been sent upstairs, to make room for the Home Week
workers; but the furniture had not been moved, and as Charity sat there
she had perpetually before her the vision she had looked in on from the
midnight garden. The table at which Harney had sat was the one about which
the girls were gathered; and her own seat was near the bed on which she
had seen him lying. Sometimes, when the others were not looking, she bent
over as if to pick up something, and laid her cheek for a moment against
the pillow.</p>
<p>Toward sunset the girls disbanded. Their work was done, and the next
morning at daylight the draperies and garlands were to be nailed up, and
the illuminated scrolls put in place in the Town Hall. The first guests
were to drive over from Hepburn in time for the midday banquet under a
tent in Miss Hatchard's field; and after that the ceremonies were to
begin. Miss Hatchard, pale with fatigue and excitement, thanked her young
assistants, and stood in the porch, leaning on her crutches and waving a
farewell as she watched them troop away down the street.</p>
<p>Charity had slipped off among the first; but at the gate she heard Ally
Hawes calling after her, and reluctantly turned.</p>
<p>“Will you come over now and try on your dress?” Ally asked, looking at her
with wistful admiration. “I want to be sure the sleeves don't ruck up the
same as they did yesterday.”</p>
<p>Charity gazed at her with dazzled eyes. “Oh, it's lovely,” she said, and
hastened away without listening to Ally's protest. She wanted her dress to
be as pretty as the other girls'—wanted it, in fact, to outshine the
rest, since she was to take part in the “exercises”—but she had no
time just then to fix her mind on such matters....</p>
<p>She sped up the street to the library, of which she had the key about her
neck. From the passage at the back she dragged forth a bicycle, and guided
it to the edge of the street. She looked about to see if any of the girls
were approaching; but they had drifted away together toward the Town Hall,
and she sprang into the saddle and turned toward the Creston road. There
was an almost continual descent to Creston, and with her feet against the
pedals she floated through the still evening air like one of the hawks she
had often watched slanting downward on motionless wings. Twenty minutes
from the time when she had left Miss Hatchard's door she was turning up
the wood-road on which Harney had overtaken her on the day of her flight;
and a few minutes afterward she had jumped from her bicycle at the gate of
the deserted house.</p>
<p>In the gold-powdered sunset it looked more than ever like some frail shell
dried and washed by many seasons; but at the back, whither Charity
advanced, drawing her bicycle after her, there were signs of recent
habitation. A rough door made of boards hung in the kitchen doorway, and
pushing it open she entered a room furnished in primitive camping fashion.
In the window was a table, also made of boards, with an earthenware jar
holding a big bunch of wild asters, two canvas chairs stood near by, and
in one corner was a mattress with a Mexican blanket over it.</p>
<p>The room was empty, and leaning her bicycle against the house Charity
clambered up the slope and sat down on a rock under an old apple-tree. The
air was perfectly still, and from where she sat she would be able to hear
the tinkle of a bicycle-bell a long way down the road....</p>
<p>She was always glad when she got to the little house before Harney. She
liked to have time to take in every detail of its secret sweetness—the
shadows of the apple-trees swaying on the grass, the old walnuts rounding
their domes below the road, the meadows sloping westward in the afternoon
light—before his first kiss blotted it all out. Everything unrelated
to the hours spent in that tranquil place was as faint as the remembrance
of a dream. The only reality was the wondrous unfolding of her new self,
the reaching out to the light of all her contracted tendrils. She had
lived all her life among people whose sensibilities seemed to have
withered for lack of use; and more wonderful, at first, than Harney's
endearments were the words that were a part of them. She had always
thought of love as something confused and furtive, and he made it as
bright and open as the summer air.</p>
<p>On the morrow of the day when she had shown him the way to the deserted
house he had packed up and left Creston River for Boston; but at the first
station he had jumped on the train with a hand-bag and scrambled up into
the hills. For two golden rainless August weeks he had camped in the
house, getting eggs and milk from the solitary farm in the valley, where
no one knew him, and doing his cooking over a spirit-lamp. He got up every
day with the sun, took a plunge in a brown pool he knew of, and spent long
hours lying in the scented hemlock-woods above the house, or wandering
along the yoke of the Eagle Ridge, far above the misty blue valleys that
swept away east and west between the endless hills. And in the afternoon
Charity came to him.</p>
<p>With part of what was left of her savings she had hired a bicycle for a
month, and every day after dinner, as soon as her guardian started to his
office, she hurried to the library, got out her bicycle, and flew down the
Creston road. She knew that Mr. Royall, like everyone else in North
Dormer, was perfectly aware of her acquisition: possibly he, as well as
the rest of the village, knew what use she made of it. She did not care:
she felt him to be so powerless that if he had questioned her she would
probably have told him the truth. But they had never spoken to each other
since the night on the wharf at Nettleton. He had returned to North Dormer
only on the third day after that encounter, arriving just as Charity and
Verena were sitting down to supper. He had drawn up his chair, taken his
napkin from the side-board drawer, pulled it out of its ring, and seated
himself as unconcernedly as if he had come in from his usual afternoon
session at Carrick Fry's; and the long habit of the household made it seem
almost natural that Charity should not so much as raise her eyes when he
entered. She had simply let him understand that her silence was not
accidental by leaving the table while he was still eating, and going up
without a word to shut herself into her room. After that he formed the
habit of talking loudly and genially to Verena whenever Charity was in the
room; but otherwise there was no apparent change in their relations.</p>
<p>She did not think connectedly of these things while she sat waiting for
Harney, but they remained in her mind as a sullen background against which
her short hours with him flamed out like forest fires. Nothing else
mattered, neither the good nor the bad, or what might have seemed so
before she knew him. He had caught her up and carried her away into a new
world, from which, at stated hours, the ghost of her came back to perform
certain customary acts, but all so thinly and insubstantially that she
sometimes wondered that the people she went about among could see her....</p>
<p>Behind the swarthy Mountain the sun had gone down in waveless gold. From a
pasture up the slope a tinkle of cow-bells sounded; a puff of smoke hung
over the farm in the valley, trailed on the pure air and was gone. For a
few minutes, in the clear light that is all shadow, fields and woods were
outlined with an unreal precision; then the twilight blotted them out, and
the little house turned gray and spectral under its wizened
apple-branches.</p>
<p>Charity's heart contracted. The first fall of night after a day of
radiance often gave her a sense of hidden menace: it was like looking out
over the world as it would be when love had gone from it. She wondered if
some day she would sit in that same place and watch in vain for her
lover....</p>
<p>His bicycle-bell sounded down the lane, and in a minute she was at the
gate and his eyes were laughing in hers. They walked back through the long
grass, and pushed open the door behind the house. The room at first seemed
quite dark and they had to grope their way in hand in hand. Through the
window-frame the sky looked light by contrast, and above the black mass of
asters in the earthen jar one white star glimmered like a moth.</p>
<p>“There was such a lot to do at the last minute,” Harney was explaining,
“and I had to drive down to Creston to meet someone who has come to stay
with my cousin for the show.”</p>
<p>He had his arms about her, and his kisses were in her hair and on her
lips. Under his touch things deep down in her struggled to the light and
sprang up like flowers in sunshine. She twisted her fingers into his, and
they sat down side by side on the improvised couch. She hardly heard his
excuses for being late: in his absence a thousand doubts tormented her,
but as soon as he appeared she ceased to wonder where he had come from,
what had delayed him, who had kept him from her. It seemed as if the
places he had been in, and the people he had been with, must cease to
exist when he left them, just as her own life was suspended in his
absence.</p>
<p>He continued, now, to talk to her volubly and gaily, deploring his
lateness, grumbling at the demands on his time, and good-humouredly
mimicking Miss Hatchard's benevolent agitation. “She hurried off Miles to
ask Mr. Royall to speak at the Town Hall tomorrow: I didn't know till it
was done.” Charity was silent, and he added: “After all, perhaps it's just
as well. No one else could have done it.”</p>
<p>Charity made no answer: She did not care what part her guardian played in
the morrow's ceremonies. Like all the other figures peopling her meagre
world he had grown non-existent to her. She had even put off hating him.</p>
<p>“Tomorrow I shall only see you from far off,” Harney continued. “But in
the evening there'll be the dance in the Town Hall. Do you want me to
promise not to dance with any other girl?”</p>
<p>Any other girl? Were there any others? She had forgotten even that peril,
so enclosed did he and she seem in their secret world. Her heart gave a
frightened jerk.</p>
<p>“Yes, promise.”</p>
<p>He laughed and took her in his arms. “You goose—not even if they're
hideous?”</p>
<p>He pushed the hair from her forehead, bending her face back, as his way
was, and leaning over so that his head loomed black between her eyes and
the paleness of the sky, in which the white star floated...</p>
<p>Side by side they sped back along the dark wood-road to the village. A
late moon was rising, full orbed and fiery, turning the mountain ranges
from fluid gray to a massive blackness, and making the upper sky so light
that the stars looked as faint as their own reflections in water. At the
edge of the wood, half a mile from North Dormer, Harney jumped from his
bicycle, took Charity in his arms for a last kiss, and then waited while
she went on alone.</p>
<p>They were later than usual, and instead of taking the bicycle to the
library she propped it against the back of the wood-shed and entered the
kitchen of the red house. Verena sat there alone; when Charity came in she
looked at her with mild impenetrable eyes and then took a plate and a
glass of milk from the shelf and set them silently on the table. Charity
nodded her thanks, and sitting down, fell hungrily upon her piece of pie
and emptied the glass. Her face burned with her quick flight through the
night, and her eyes were dazzled by the twinkle of the kitchen lamp. She
felt like a night-bird suddenly caught and caged.</p>
<p>“He ain't come back since supper,” Verena said. “He's down to the Hall.”</p>
<p>Charity took no notice. Her soul was still winging through the forest. She
washed her plate and tumbler, and then felt her way up the dark stairs.
When she opened her door a wonder arrested her. Before going out she had
closed her shutters against the afternoon heat, but they had swung partly
open, and a bar of moonlight, crossing the room, rested on her bed and
showed a dress of China silk laid out on it in virgin whiteness. Charity
had spent more than she could afford on the dress, which was to surpass
those of all the other girls; she had wanted to let North Dormer see that
she was worthy of Harney's admiration. Above the dress, folded on the
pillow, was the white veil which the young women who took part in the
exercises were to wear under a wreath of asters; and beside the veil a
pair of slim white satin shoes that Ally had produced from an old trunk in
which she stored mysterious treasures.</p>
<p>Charity stood gazing at all the outspread whiteness. It recalled a vision
that had come to her in the night after her first meeting with Harney. She
no longer had such visions... warmer splendours had displaced them... but
it was stupid of Ally to have paraded all those white things on her bed,
exactly as Hattie Targatt's wedding dress from Springfield had been spread
out for the neighbours to see when she married Tom Fry....</p>
<p>Charity took up the satin shoes and looked at them curiously. By day, no
doubt, they would appear a little worn, but in the moonlight they seemed
carved of ivory. She sat down on the floor to try them on, and they fitted
her perfectly, though when she stood up she lurched a little on the high
heels. She looked down at her feet, which the graceful mould of the
slippers had marvellously arched and narrowed. She had never seen such
shoes before, even in the shop-windows at Nettleton... never, except...
yes, once, she had noticed a pair of the same shape on Annabel Balch.</p>
<p>A blush of mortification swept over her. Ally sometimes sewed for Miss
Balch when that brilliant being descended on North Dormer, and no doubt
she picked up presents of cast-off clothing: the treasures in the
mysterious trunk all came from the people she worked for; there could be
no doubt that the white slippers were Annabel Balch's....</p>
<p>As she stood there, staring down moodily at her feet, she heard the triple
click-click-click of a bicycle-bell under her window. It was Harney's
secret signal as he passed on his way home. She stumbled to the window on
her high heels, flung open the shutters and leaned out. He waved to her
and sped by, his black shadow dancing merrily ahead of him down the empty
moonlit road; and she leaned there watching him till he vanished under the
Hatchard spruces.</p>
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