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<h2>LIGEIA</h2>
<p class="letter">
And the will therein lieth, which dieth not. Who knoweth the mysteries of
the will, with its vigor? For God is but a great will pervading all things
by nature of its intentness. Man doth not yield himself to the angels, nor
unto death utterly, save only through the weakness of his feeble will.—<i>Joseph
Glanvill</i>.</p>
<p>I cannot, for my soul, remember how, when, or even precisely where, I
first became acquainted with the lady Ligeia. Long years have since
elapsed, and my memory is feeble through much suffering. Or, perhaps, I
cannot now bring these points to mind, because, in truth, the character
of my beloved, her rare learning, her singular yet placid cast of beauty,
and the thrilling and enthralling eloquence of her low musical language,
made their way into my heart by paces so steadily and stealthily
progressive that they have been unnoticed and unknown. Yet I believe that
I met her first and most frequently in some large, old, decaying city
near the Rhine. Of her family—I have surely heard her speak. That
it is of a remotely ancient date cannot be doubted. Ligeia! Ligeia!
Buried in studies of a nature more than all else adapted to deaden
impressions of the outward world, it is by that sweet word alone—by
Ligeia—that I bring before mine eyes in fancy the image of her who
is no more. And now, while I write, a recollection flashes upon me that I
have never known the paternal name of her who was my friend and my
betrothed, and who became the partner of my studies, and finally the wife
of my bosom. Was it a playful charge on the part of my Ligeia? or was it
a test of my strength of affection, that I should institute no inquiries
upon this point? or was it rather a caprice of my own—a wildly
romantic offering on the shrine of the most passionate devotion? I but
indistinctly recall the fact itself—what wonder that I have utterly
forgotten the circumstances which originated or attended it? And, indeed,
if ever that spirit which is entitled <i>Romance</i>—if ever she,
the wan and the misty-winged <i>Ashtophet</i> of idolatrous Egypt,
presided, as they tell, over marriages ill-omened, then most surely she
presided over mine.</p>
<p>There is one dear topic, however, on which my memory fails me not. It is
the person of Ligeia. In stature she was tall, somewhat slender, and, in
her latter days, even emaciated. I would in vain attempt to portray the
majesty, the quiet ease, of her demeanor, or the incomprehensible
lightness and elasticity of her footfall. She came and departed as a
shadow. I was never made aware of her entrance into my closed study save
by the dear music of her low sweet voice, as she placed her marble hand
upon my shoulder. In beauty of face no maiden ever equalled her. It was
the radiance of an opium-dream—an airy and spirit-lifting vision
more wildly divine than the phantasies which hovered about the
slumbering souls of the daughters of Delos. Yet her features were not of
that regular mould which we have been falsely taught to worship in the
classical labors of the heathen. “There is no exquisite beauty,” says
Bacon, Lord Verulam, speaking truly of all the forms and genera of beauty,
“without some strangeness in the proportion.” Yet, although I saw that the
features of Ligeia were not of a classic regularity—although I
perceived that her loveliness was indeed “exquisite,” and felt that there
was much of “strangeness” pervading it, yet I have tried in vain to detect
the irregularity and to trace home my own perception of “the strange.” I
examined the contour of the lofty and pale forehead—it was faultless—how
cold indeed that word when applied to a majesty so divine!—the skin
rivalling the purest ivory, the commanding extent and repose, the gentle
prominence of the regions above the temples; and then the raven-black, the
glossy, the luxuriant and naturally-curling tresses, setting forth the
full force of the Homeric epithet, “hyacinthine!” I looked at the delicate
outlines of the nose—and nowhere but in the graceful medallions of
the Hebrews had I beheld a similar perfection. There were the same
luxurious smoothness of surface, the same scarcely perceptible tendency to
the aquiline, the same harmoniously curved nostrils speaking the free
spirit. I regarded the sweet mouth. Here was indeed the triumph of all
things heavenly—the magnificent turn of the short upper lip—the
soft, voluptuous slumber of the under—the dimples which sported, and
the color which spoke—the teeth glancing back, with a brilliancy
almost startling, every ray of the holy light which fell upon them in her
serene and placid, yet most exultingly radiant of all smiles. I
scrutinized the formation of the chin—and here, too, I found the
gentleness of breadth, the softness and the majesty, the fullness and the
spirituality, of the Greek—the contour which the god Apollo revealed
but in a dream, to Cleomenes, the son of the Athenian. And then I peered
into the large eyes of Ligeia.</p>
<p>For eyes we have no models in the remotely antique. It might have been,
too, that in these eyes of my beloved lay the secret to which Lord Verulam
alludes. They were, I must believe, far larger than the ordinary eyes of
our own race. They were even fuller than the fullest of the gazelle eyes
of the tribe of the valley of Nourjahad. Yet it was only at intervals—in
moments of intense excitement—that this peculiarity became more than
slightly noticeable in Ligeia. And at such moments was her beauty—in
my heated fancy thus it appeared perhaps—the beauty of beings either
above or apart from the earth—the beauty of the fabulous Houri of
the Turk. The hue of the orbs was the most brilliant of black, and, far
over them, hung jetty lashes of great length. The brows, slightly
irregular in outline, had the same tint. The “strangeness,” however, which
I found in the eyes, was of a nature distinct from the formation, or the
color, or the brilliancy of the features, and must, after all, be referred
to the expression. Ah, word of no meaning! behind whose vast latitude of
mere sound we intrench our ignorance of so much of the spiritual. The
expression of the eyes of Ligeia! How for long hours have I pondered upon
it! How have I, through the whole of a midsummer night, struggled to
fathom it! What was it—that something more profound than the well of
Democritus—which lay far within the pupils of my beloved? What was
it? I was possessed with a passion to discover. Those eyes! those large,
those shining, those divine orbs! they became to me twin stars of Leda,
and I to them devoutest of astrologers.</p>
<p>There is no point, among the many incomprehensible anomalies of the
science of mind, more thrillingly exciting than the fact—never, I
believe, noticed in the schools—that, in our endeavors to recall to
memory something long forgotten, we often find ourselves upon the very
verge of remembrance, without being able, in the end, to remember. And
thus how frequently, in my intense scrutiny of Ligeia’s eyes, have I felt
approaching the full knowledge of their expression—felt it
approaching—yet not quite be mine—and so at length entirely
depart! And (strange, oh strangest mystery of all!) I found, in the
commonest objects of the universe, a circle of analogies to that
expression. I mean to say that, subsequently to the period when Ligeia’s
beauty passed into my spirit, there dwelling as in a shrine, I derived,
from many existences in the material world, a sentiment such as I felt
always aroused within me by her large and luminous orbs. Yet not the more
could I define that sentiment, or analyze, or even steadily view it. I
recognized it, let me repeat, sometimes in the survey of a rapidly-growing
vine—in the contemplation of a moth, a butterfly, a chrysalis, a
stream of running water. I have felt it in the ocean—in the falling of a
meteor. I have felt it in the glances of unusually aged people. And there
are one or two stars in heaven—(one especially, a star of the sixth
magnitude, double and changeable, to be found near the large star in Lyra)
in a telescopic scrutiny of which I have been made aware of the feeling. I
have been filled with it by certain sounds from stringed instruments, and
not unfrequently by passages from books. Among innumerable other
instances, I well remember something in a volume of Joseph Glanvill, which
(perhaps merely from its quaintness—who shall say?) never failed to
inspire me with the sentiment: “And the will therein lieth, which
dieth not. Who knoweth the mysteries of the will, with its vigor? For God
is but a great will pervading all things by nature of its intentness. Man
doth not yield him to the angels, nor unto death utterly, save only
through the weakness of his feeble will.”</p>
<p>Length of years, and subsequent reflection, have enabled me to trace,
indeed, some remote connection between this passage in the English
moralist and a portion of the character of Ligeia. An intensity in
thought, action, or speech, was possibly, in her, a result, or at least an
index, of that gigantic volition which, during our long intercourse,
failed to give other and more immediate evidence of its existence. Of all
the women whom I have ever known, she, the outwardly calm, the ever-placid
Ligeia, was the most violently a prey to the tumultuous vultures of stern
passion. And of such passion I could form no estimate, save by the
miraculous expansion of those eyes which at once so delighted and appalled
me—by the almost magical melody, modulation, distinctness and
placidity of her very low voice—and by the fierce energy (rendered
doubly effective by contrast with her manner of utterance) of the wild
words which she habitually uttered.</p>
<p>I have spoken of the learning of Ligeia: it was immense—such as I
have never known in woman. In the classical tongues was she deeply
proficient, and as far as my own acquaintance extended in regard to the
modern dialects of Europe, I have never known her at fault. Indeed upon
any theme of the most admired, because simply the most abstruse of the
boasted erudition of the academy, have I ever found Ligeia at fault? How
singularly—how thrillingly, this one point in the nature of my wife
has forced itself, at this late period only, upon my attention! I said her
knowledge was such as I have never known in woman—but where breathes
the man who has traversed, and successfully, all the wide areas of moral,
physical, and mathematical science? I saw not then what I now clearly
perceive, that the acquisitions of Ligeia were gigantic, were astounding;
yet I was sufficiently aware of her infinite supremacy to resign myself,
with a child-like confidence, to her guidance through the chaotic world of
metaphysical investigation at which I was most busily occupied during the
earlier years of our marriage. With how vast a triumph—with how
vivid a delight—with how much of all that is ethereal in hope did
I feel, as she bent over me in studies but little sought—but less
known—that delicious vista by slow degrees expanding before me, down
whose long, gorgeous, and all untrodden path, I might at length pass
onward to the goal of a wisdom too divinely precious not to be forbidden!</p>
<p>How poignant, then, must have been the grief with which, after some years,
I beheld my well-grounded expectations take wings to themselves and fly
away! Without Ligeia I was but as a child groping benighted. Her presence,
her readings alone, rendered vividly luminous the many mysteries of the
transcendentalism in which we were immersed. Wanting the radiant lustre of
her eyes, letters, lambent and golden, grew duller than Saturnian lead.
And now those eyes shone less and less frequently upon the pages over
which I pored. Ligeia grew ill. The wild eyes blazed with a too—too
glorious effulgence; the pale fingers became of the transparent waxen hue
of the grave; and the blue veins upon the lofty forehead swelled and sank
impetuously with the tides of the gentle emotion. I saw that she must die—and
I struggled desperately in spirit with the grim Azrael. And the struggles
of the passionate wife were, to my astonishment, even more energetic than
my own. There had been much in her stern nature to impress me with the
belief that, to her, death would have come without its terrors; but
not so. Words are impotent to convey any just idea of the fierceness of
resistance with which she wrestled with the Shadow. I groaned in anguish
at the pitiable spectacle. I would have soothed—I would have
reasoned; but, in the intensity of her wild desire for life,—for
life—but for life—solace and reason were the uttermost folly.
Yet not until the last instance, amid the most convulsive writhings of her
fierce spirit, was shaken the external placidity of her demeanor. Her
voice grew more gentle—grew more low—yet I would not wish to
dwell upon the wild meaning of the quietly uttered words. My brain reeled
as I hearkened, entranced, to a melody more than mortal—to
assumptions and aspirations which mortality had never before known.</p>
<p>That she loved me I should not have doubted; and I might have been easily
aware that, in a bosom such as hers, love would have reigned no ordinary
passion. But in death only, was I fully impressed with the strength of her
affection. For long hours, detaining my hand, would she pour out before me
the overflowing of a heart whose more than passionate devotion amounted to
idolatry. How had I deserved to be so blessed by such confessions?—how
had I deserved to be so cursed with the removal of my beloved in the hour
of her making them? But upon this subject I cannot bear to dilate. Let me
say only, that in Ligeia’s more than womanly abandonment to a love, alas!
all unmerited, all unworthily bestowed, I at length recognized the
principle of her longing with so wildly earnest a desire for the life
which was now fleeing so rapidly away. It is this wild longing—it is
this eager vehemence of desire for life—but for life—that I
have no power to portray—no utterance capable of expressing.</p>
<p>At high noon of the night in which she departed, beckoning me,
peremptorily, to her side, she bade me repeat certain verses composed by
herself not many days before. I obeyed her. They were these:</p>
<p class="poem">
Lo! ’tis a gala night<br/>
Within the lonesome latter years!<br/>
An angel throng, bewinged, bedight<br/>
In veils, and drowned in tears,<br/>
Sit in a theatre, to see<br/>
A play of hopes and fears,<br/>
While the orchestra breathes fitfully<br/>
The music of the spheres.<br/>
<br/>
Mimes, in the form of God on high,<br/>
Mutter and mumble low,<br/>
And hither and thither fly;<br/>
Mere puppets they, who come and go<br/>
At bidding of vast formless things<br/>
That shift the scenery to and fro,<br/>
Flapping from out their Condor wings<br/>
Invisible Wo!<br/>
<br/>
That motley drama!—oh, be sure<br/>
It shall not be forgot!<br/>
With its Phantom chased forever more,<br/>
By a crowd that seize it not,<br/>
Through a circle that ever returneth in<br/>
To the self-same spot,<br/>
And much of Madness and more of Sin<br/>
And Horror the soul of the plot.<br/>
<br/>
But see, amid the mimic rout,<br/>
A crawling shape intrude!<br/>
A blood-red thing that writhes from out<br/>
The scenic solitude!<br/>
It writhes!—it writhes!—with mortal pangs<br/>
The mimes become its food,<br/>
And the seraphs sob at vermin fangs<br/>
In human gore imbued.<br/>
<br/>
Out—out are the lights—out all!<br/>
And over each quivering form,<br/>
The curtain, a funeral pall,<br/>
Comes down with the rush of a storm,<br/>
And the angels, all pallid and wan,<br/>
Uprising, unveiling, affirm<br/>
That the play is the tragedy, “Man,”<br/>
And its hero the Conqueror Worm.</p>
<p>“O God!” half shrieked Ligeia, leaping to her feet and extending her arms
aloft with a spasmodic movement, as I made an end of these lines—“O
God! O Divine Father!—shall these things be undeviatingly so?—shall
this Conqueror be not once conquered? Are we not part and parcel in Thee?
Who—who knoweth the mysteries of the will with its vigor? Man doth
not yield him to the angels, nor unto death utterly, save only through the
weakness of his feeble will.”</p>
<p>And now, as if exhausted with emotion, she suffered her white arms to
fall, and returned solemnly to her bed of death. And as she breathed her
last sighs, there came mingled with them a low murmur from her lips. I
bent to them my ear and distinguished, again, the concluding words of the
passage in Glanvill—“Man doth not yield him to the angels, nor unto
death utterly, save only through the weakness of his feeble will.”</p>
<p>She died: and I, crushed into the very dust with sorrow, could no
longer endure the lonely desolation of my dwelling in the dim and decaying
city by the Rhine. I had no lack of what the world calls wealth. Ligeia
had brought me far more, very far more than ordinarily falls to the lot of
mortals. After a few months, therefore, of weary and aimless wandering, I
purchased, and put in some repair, an abbey, which I shall not name, in
one of the wildest and least frequented portions of fair England. The
gloomy and dreary grandeur of the building, the almost savage aspect of
the domain, the many melancholy and time-honored memories connected with
both, had much in unison with the feelings of utter abandonment which had
driven me into that remote and unsocial region of the country. Yet
although the external abbey, with its verdant decay hanging about it,
suffered but little alteration, I gave way, with a child-like perversity,
and perchance with a faint hope of alleviating my sorrows, to a display of
more than regal magnificence within. For such follies, even in
childhood, I had imbibed a taste and now they came back to me as if in the
dotage of grief. Alas, I feel how much even of incipient madness might
have been discovered in the gorgeous and fantastic draperies, in the
solemn carvings of Egypt, in the wild cornices and furniture, in the
Bedlam patterns of the carpets of tufted gold! I had become a bounden
slave in the trammels of opium, and my labors and my orders had taken a
coloring from my dreams. But these absurdities I must not pause to detail.
Let me speak only of that one chamber, ever accursed, whither in a moment
of mental alienation, I led from the altar as my bride—as the
successor of the unforgotten Ligeia—the fair-haired and blue-eyed
Lady Rowena Trevanion, of Tremaine.</p>
<p>There is no individual portion of the architecture and decoration of that
bridal chamber which is not now visibly before me. Where were the souls of
the haughty family of the bride, when, through thirst of gold, they
permitted to pass the threshold of an apartment so bedecked, a maiden and
a daughter so beloved? I have said that I minutely remember the details of
the chamber—yet I am sadly forgetful on topics of deep moment—and
here there was no system, no keeping, in the fantastic display, to take
hold upon the memory. The room lay in a high turret of the castellated
abbey, was pentagonal in shape, and of capacious size. Occupying the whole
southern face of the pentagon was the sole window—an immense sheet
of unbroken glass from Venice—a single pane, and tinted of a leaden
hue, so that the rays of either the sun or moon, passing through it, fell
with a ghastly lustre on the objects within. Over the upper portion of
this huge window, extended the trellice-work of an aged vine, which
clambered up the massy walls of the turret. The ceiling, of gloomy-looking
oak, was excessively lofty, vaulted, and elaborately fretted with the
wildest and most grotesque specimens of a semi-Gothic, semi-Druidical
device. From out the most central recess of this melancholy vaulting,
depended, by a single chain of gold with long links, a huge censer of the
same metal, Saracenic in pattern, and with many perforations so contrived
that there writhed in and out of them, as if endued with a serpent
vitality, a continual succession of parti-colored fires.</p>
<p>Some few ottomans and golden candelabra, of Eastern figure, were in
various stations about—and there was the couch, too—bridal
couch—of an Indian model, and low, and sculptured of solid ebony,
with a pall-like canopy above. In each of the angles of the chamber stood
on end a gigantic sarcophagus of black granite, from the tombs of the
kings over against Luxor, with their aged lids full of immemorial
sculpture. But in the draping of the apartment lay, alas! the chief
phantasy of all. The lofty walls, gigantic in height—even
unproportionably so—were hung from summit to foot, in vast folds,
with a heavy and massive-looking tapestry—tapestry of a material
which was found alike as a carpet on the floor, as a covering for the
ottomans and the ebony bed, as a canopy for the bed, and as the gorgeous
volutes of the curtains which partially shaded the window. The material
was the richest cloth of gold. It was spotted all over, at irregular
intervals, with arabesque figures, about a foot in diameter, and wrought
upon the cloth in patterns of the most jetty black. But these figures
partook of the true character of the arabesque only when regarded from a
single point of view. By a contrivance now common, and indeed traceable to
a very remote period of antiquity, they were made changeable in aspect. To
one entering the room, they bore the appearance of simple monstrosities;
but upon a farther advance, this appearance gradually departed; and step
by step, as the visitor moved his station in the chamber, he saw himself
surrounded by an endless succession of the ghastly forms which belong to
the superstition of the Norman, or arise in the guilty slumbers of the
monk. The phantasmagoric effect was vastly heightened by the artificial
introduction of a strong continual current of wind behind the draperies—giving
a hideous and uneasy animation to the whole.</p>
<p>In halls such as these—in a bridal chamber such as this—I
passed, with the Lady of Tremaine, the unhallowed hours of the first month
of our marriage—passed them with but little disquietude. That my
wife dreaded the fierce moodiness of my temper—that she shunned me
and loved me but little—I could not help perceiving; but it gave me
rather pleasure than otherwise. I loathed her with a hatred belonging more
to demon than to man. My memory flew back, (oh, with what intensity of
regret!) to Ligeia, the beloved, the august, the beautiful, the entombed.
I revelled in recollections of her purity, of her wisdom, of her lofty,
her ethereal nature, of her passionate, her idolatrous love. Now, then,
did my spirit fully and freely burn with more than all the fires of her
own. In the excitement of my opium dreams (for I was habitually fettered
in the shackles of the drug) I would call aloud upon her name, during the
silence of the night, or among the sheltered recesses of the glens by day,
as if, through the wild eagerness, the solemn passion, the consuming ardor
of my longing for the departed, I could restore her to the pathway she had
abandoned—ah, could it be forever?—upon the earth.</p>
<p>About the commencement of the second month of the marriage, the Lady
Rowena was attacked with sudden illness, from which her recovery was slow.
The fever which consumed her rendered her nights uneasy; and in her
perturbed state of half-slumber, she spoke of sounds, and of motions, in
and about the chamber of the turret, which I concluded had no origin save
in the distemper of her fancy, or perhaps in the phantasmagoric influences
of the chamber itself. She became at length convalescent—finally
well. Yet but a brief period elapsed, ere a second more violent disorder
again threw her upon a bed of suffering; and from this attack her frame,
at all times feeble, never altogether recovered. Her illnesses were, after
this epoch, of alarming character, and of more alarming recurrence,
defying alike the knowledge and the great exertions of her physicians.
With the increase of the chronic disease which had thus, apparently, taken
too sure hold upon her constitution to be eradicated by human means, I
could not fail to observe a similar increase in the nervous irritation of
her temperament, and in her excitability by trivial causes of fear. She
spoke again, and now more frequently and pertinaciously, of the sounds—of
the slight sounds—and of the unusual motions among the tapestries,
to which she had formerly alluded.</p>
<p>One night, near the closing in of September, she pressed this distressing
subject with more than usual emphasis upon my attention. She had just
awakened from an unquiet slumber, and I had been watching, with feelings
half of anxiety, half of vague terror, the workings of her emaciated
countenance. I sat by the side of her ebony bed, upon one of the ottomans
of India. She partly arose, and spoke, in an earnest low whisper, of
sounds which she then heard, but which I could not hear—of motions
which she then saw, but which I could not perceive. The wind was rushing
hurriedly behind the tapestries, and I wished to show her (what, let me
confess it, I could not all believe) that those almost inarticulate
breathings, and those very gentle variations of the figures upon the wall,
were but the natural effects of that customary rushing of the wind. But a
deadly pallor, overspreading her face, had proved to me that my exertions
to reassure her would be fruitless. She appeared to be fainting, and no
attendants were within call. I remembered where was deposited a decanter
of light wine which had been ordered by her physicians, and hastened
across the chamber to procure it. But, as I stepped beneath the light of
the censer, two circumstances of a startling nature attracted my
attention. I had felt that some palpable although invisible object had
passed lightly by my person; and I saw that there lay upon the golden
carpet, in the very middle of the rich lustre thrown from the censer, a
shadow—a faint, indefinite shadow of angelic aspect—such as
might be fancied for the shadow of a shade. But I was wild with the
excitement of an immoderate dose of opium, and heeded these things but
little, nor spoke of them to Rowena. Having found the wine, I recrossed
the chamber, and poured out a gobletful, which I held to the lips of the
fainting lady. She had now partially recovered, however, and took the
vessel herself, while I sank upon an ottoman near me, with my eyes
fastened upon her person. It was then that I became distinctly aware of a
gentle footfall upon the carpet, and near the couch; and in a second
thereafter, as Rowena was in the act of raising the wine to her lips, I
saw, or may have dreamed that I saw, fall within the goblet, as if from
some invisible spring in the atmosphere of the room, three or four large
drops of a brilliant and ruby colored fluid. If this I saw—not so
Rowena. She swallowed the wine unhesitatingly, and I forbore to speak to
her of a circumstance which must, after all, I considered, have been but
the suggestion of a vivid imagination, rendered morbidly active by the
terror of the lady, by the opium, and by the hour.</p>
<p>Yet I cannot conceal it from my own perception that, immediately
subsequent to the fall of the ruby-drops, a rapid change for the worse
took place in the disorder of my wife; so that, on the third subsequent
night, the hands of her menials prepared her for the tomb, and on the
fourth, I sat alone, with her shrouded body, in that fantastic chamber
which had received her as my bride. Wild visions, opium-engendered,
flitted, shadow-like, before me. I gazed with unquiet eye upon the
sarcophagi in the angles of the room, upon the varying figures of the
drapery, and upon the writhing of the parti-colored fires in the censer
overhead. My eyes then fell, as I called to mind the circumstances of a
former night, to the spot beneath the glare of the censer where I had seen
the faint traces of the shadow. It was there, however, no longer; and
breathing with greater freedom, I turned my glances to the pallid and
rigid figure upon the bed. Then rushed upon me a thousand memories of
Ligeia—and then came back upon my heart, with the turbulent violence
of a flood, the whole of that unutterable woe with which I had regarded her
thus enshrouded. The night waned; and still, with a bosom full of bitter
thoughts of the one only and supremely beloved, I remained gazing upon the
body of Rowena.</p>
<p>It might have been midnight, or perhaps earlier, or later, for I had taken
no note of time, when a sob, low, gentle, but very distinct, startled me
from my revery. I <i>felt</i> that it came from the bed of ebony—the
bed of death. I listened in an agony of superstitious terror—but
there was no repetition of the sound. I strained my vision to detect any
motion in the corpse—but there was not the slightest perceptible.
Yet I could not have been deceived. I had heard the noise, however faint,
and my soul was awakened within me. I resolutely and perseveringly kept my
attention riveted upon the body. Many minutes elapsed before any
circumstance occurred tending to throw light upon the mystery. At length
it became evident that a slight, a very feeble, and barely noticeable
tinge of color had flushed up within the cheeks, and along the sunken
small veins of the eyelids. Through a species of unutterable horror and
awe, for which the language of mortality has no sufficiently energetic
expression, I felt my heart cease to beat, my limbs grow rigid where I
sat. Yet a sense of duty finally operated to restore my self-possession. I
could no longer doubt that we had been precipitate in our preparations—that
Rowena still lived. It was necessary that some immediate exertion be made;
yet the turret was altogether apart from the portion of the abbey tenanted by
the servants—there were none within call—I had no means of
summoning them to my aid without leaving the room for many minutes—and
this I could not venture to do. I therefore struggled alone in my
endeavors to call back the spirit ill hovering. In a short period it was
certain, however, that a relapse had taken place; the color disappeared
from both eyelid and cheek, leaving a wanness even more than that of
marble; the lips became doubly shrivelled and pinched up in the ghastly
expression of death; a repulsive clamminess and coldness overspread
rapidly the surface of the body; and all the usual rigorous illness
immediately supervened. I fell back with a shudder upon the couch from
which I had been so startlingly aroused, and again gave myself up to
passionate waking visions of Ligeia.</p>
<p>An hour thus elapsed when (could it be possible?) I was a second time
aware of some vague sound issuing from the region of the bed. I listened—in
extremity of horror. The sound came again—it was a sigh. Rushing to
the corpse, I saw—distinctly saw—a tremor upon the lips. In a
minute afterward they relaxed, disclosing a bright line of the pearly
teeth. Amazement now struggled in my bosom with the profound awe which had
hitherto reigned there alone. I felt that my vision grew dim, that my
reason wandered; and it was only by a violent effort that I at length
succeeded in nerving myself to the task which duty thus once more had
pointed out. There was now a partial glow upon the forehead and upon the
cheek and throat; a perceptible warmth pervaded the whole frame; there was
even a slight pulsation at the heart. The lady lived; and with redoubled
ardor I betook myself to the task of restoration. I chafed and bathed the
temples and the hands, and used every exertion which experience, and no
little medical reading, could suggest. But in vain. Suddenly, the color
fled, the pulsation ceased, the lips resumed the expression of the dead,
and, in an instant afterward, the whole body took upon itself the icy
chilliness, the livid hue, the intense rigidity, the sunken outline, and
all the loathsome peculiarities of that which has been, for many days, a
tenant of the tomb.</p>
<p>And again I sunk into visions of Ligeia—and again, (what marvel that
I shudder while I write?), again there reached my ears a low sob from the
region of the ebony bed. But why shall I minutely detail the unspeakable
horrors of that night? Why shall I pause to relate how, time after time,
until near the period of the gray dawn, this hideous drama of
revivification was repeated; how each terrific relapse was only into a
sterner and apparently more irredeemable death; how each agony wore the
aspect of a struggle with some invisible foe; and how each struggle was
succeeded by I know not what of wild change in the personal appearance of
the corpse? Let me hurry to a conclusion.</p>
<p>The greater part of the fearful night had worn away, and she who had been
dead, once again stirred—and now more vigorously than hitherto,
although arousing from a dissolution more appalling in its utter
hopelessness than any. I had long ceased to struggle or to move, and
remained sitting rigidly upon the ottoman, a helpless prey to a whirl of
violent emotions, of which extreme awe was perhaps the least terrible, the
least consuming. The corpse, I repeat, stirred, and now more vigorously
than before. The hues of life flushed up with unwonted energy into the
countenance—the limbs relaxed—and, save that the eyelids were
yet pressed heavily together, and that the bandages and draperies of the
grave still imparted their charnel character to the figure, I might have
dreamed that Rowena had indeed shaken off, utterly, the fetters of Death.
But if this idea was not, even then, altogether adopted, I could at least
doubt no longer, when, arising from the bed, tottering, with feeble steps,
with closed eyes, and with the manner of one bewildered in a dream, the
thing that was enshrouded advanced boldly and palpably into the middle of
the apartment.</p>
<p>I trembled not—I stirred not—for a crowd of unutterable
fancies connected with the air, the stature, the demeanor of the figure,
rushing hurriedly through my brain, had paralyzed—had chilled me
into stone. I stirred not—but gazed upon the apparition. There was a
mad disorder in my thoughts—a tumult unappeasable. Could it, indeed,
be the living Rowena who confronted me? Could it indeed be Rowena at all—the
fair-haired, the blue-eyed Lady Rowena Trevanion of Tremaine? Why, why
should I doubt it? The bandage lay heavily about the mouth—but then
might it not be the mouth of the breathing Lady of Tremaine? And the
cheeks—there were the roses as in her noon of life—yes, these might
indeed be the fair cheeks of the living Lady of Tremaine. And the chin,
with its dimples, as in health, might it not be hers?—but had she
then grown taller since her malady? What inexpressible madness seized me
with that thought? One bound, and I had reached her feet! Shrinking from
my touch, she let fall from her head, unloosened, the ghastly cerements
which had confined it, and there streamed forth, into the rushing
atmosphere of the chamber, huge masses of long and dishevelled hair; <i>it
was blacker than the raven wings of the midnight!</i> And now slowly opened
the eyes of the figure which stood before me. “Here then, at least,” I
shrieked aloud, “can I never—can I never be mistaken—these are
the full, and the black, and the wild eyes—of my lost love—of
the Lady—of the L<small>ADY</small> L<small>IGEIA</small>.”</p>
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