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<h2> CHAPTER XXXII </h2>
<p>Nobody asked Katharine any questions next day. If cross-examined she might
have said that nobody spoke to her. She worked a little, wrote a little,
ordered the dinner, and sat, for longer than she knew, with her head on
her hand piercing whatever lay before her, whether it was a letter or a
dictionary, as if it were a film upon the deep prospects that revealed
themselves to her kindling and brooding eyes. She rose once, and going to
the bookcase, took out her father's Greek dictionary and spread the sacred
pages of symbols and figures before her. She smoothed the sheets with a
mixture of affectionate amusement and hope. Would other eyes look on them
with her one day? The thought, long intolerable, was now just bearable.</p>
<p>She was quite unaware of the anxiety with which her movements were watched
and her expression scanned. Cassandra was careful not to be caught looking
at her, and their conversation was so prosaic that were it not for certain
jolts and jerks between the sentences, as if the mind were kept with
difficulty to the rails, Mrs. Milvain herself could have detected nothing
of a suspicious nature in what she overheard.</p>
<p>William, when he came in late that afternoon and found Cassandra alone,
had a very serious piece of news to impart. He had just passed Katharine
in the street and she had failed to recognize him.</p>
<p>"That doesn't matter with me, of course, but suppose it happened with
somebody else? What would they think? They would suspect something merely
from her expression. She looked—she looked"—he hesitated—"like
some one walking in her sleep."</p>
<p>To Cassandra the significant thing was that Katharine had gone out without
telling her, and she interpreted this to mean that she had gone out to
meet Ralph Denham. But to her surprise William drew no comfort from this
probability.</p>
<p>"Once throw conventions aside," he began, "once do the things that people
don't do—" and the fact that you are going to meet a young man is no
longer proof of anything, except, indeed, that people will talk.</p>
<p>Cassandra saw, not without a pang of jealousy, that he was extremely
solicitous that people should not talk about Katharine, as if his interest
in her were still proprietary rather than friendly. As they were both
ignorant of Ralph's visit the night before they had not that reason to
comfort themselves with the thought that matters were hastening to a
crisis. These absences of Katharine's, moreover, left them exposed to
interruptions which almost destroyed their pleasure in being alone
together. The rainy evening made it impossible to go out; and, indeed,
according to William's code, it was considerably more damning to be seen
out of doors than surprised within. They were so much at the mercy of
bells and doors that they could hardly talk of Macaulay with any
conviction, and William preferred to defer the second act of his tragedy
until another day.</p>
<p>Under these circumstances Cassandra showed herself at her best. She
sympathized with William's anxieties and did her utmost to share them; but
still, to be alone together, to be running risks together, to be partners
in the wonderful conspiracy, was to her so enthralling that she was always
forgetting discretion, breaking out into exclamations and admirations
which finally made William believe that, although deplorable and
upsetting, the situation was not without its sweetness.</p>
<p>When the door did open, he started, but braved the forthcoming revelation.
It was not Mrs. Milvain, however, but Katharine herself who entered,
closely followed by Ralph Denham. With a set expression which showed what
an effort she was making, Katharine encountered their eyes, and saying,
"We're not going to interrupt you," she led Denham behind the curtain
which hung in front of the room with the relics. This refuge was none of
her willing, but confronted with wet pavements and only some belated
museum or Tube station for shelter, she was forced, for Ralph's sake, to
face the discomforts of her own house. Under the street lamps she had
thought him looking both tired and strained.</p>
<p>Thus separated, the two couples remained occupied for some time with their
own affairs. Only the lowest murmurs penetrated from one section of the
room to the other. At length the maid came in to bring a message that Mr.
Hilbery would not be home for dinner. It was true that there was no need
that Katharine should be informed, but William began to inquire
Cassandra's opinion in such a way as to show that, with or without reason,
he wished very much to speak to her.</p>
<p>From motives of her own Cassandra dissuaded him.</p>
<p>"But don't you think it's a little unsociable?" he hazarded. "Why not do
something amusing?—go to the play, for instance? Why not ask
Katharine and Ralph, eh?" The coupling of their names in this manner
caused Cassandra's heart to leap with pleasure.</p>
<p>"Don't you think they must be—?" she began, but William hastily took
her up.</p>
<p>"Oh, I know nothing about that. I only thought we might amuse ourselves,
as your uncle's out."</p>
<p>He proceeded on his embassy with a mixture of excitement and embarrassment
which caused him to turn aside with his hand on the curtain, and to
examine intently for several moments the portrait of a lady,
optimistically said by Mrs. Hilbery to be an early work of Sir Joshua
Reynolds. Then, with some unnecessary fumbling, he drew aside the curtain,
and with his eyes fixed upon the ground, repeated his message and
suggested that they should all spend the evening at the play. Katharine
accepted the suggestion with such cordiality that it was strange to find
her of no clear mind as to the precise spectacle she wished to see. She
left the choice entirely to Ralph and William, who, taking counsel
fraternally over an evening paper, found themselves in agreement as to the
merits of a music-hall. This being arranged, everything else followed
easily and enthusiastically. Cassandra had never been to a music-hall.
Katharine instructed her in the peculiar delights of an entertainment
where Polar bears follow directly upon ladies in full evening dress, and
the stage is alternately a garden of mystery, a milliner's band-box, and a
fried-fish shop in the Mile End Road. Whatever the exact nature of the
program that night, it fulfilled the highest purposes of dramatic art, so
far, at least, as four of the audience were concerned.</p>
<p>No doubt the actors and the authors would have been surprised to learn in
what shape their efforts reached those particular eyes and ears; but they
could not have denied that the effect as a whole was tremendous. The hall
resounded with brass and strings, alternately of enormous pomp and
majesty, and then of sweetest lamentation. The reds and creams of the
background, the lyres and harps and urns and skulls, the protuberances of
plaster, the fringes of scarlet plush, the sinking and blazing of
innumerable electric lights, could scarcely have been surpassed for
decorative effect by any craftsman of the ancient or modern world.</p>
<p>Then there was the audience itself, bare-shouldered, tufted and garlanded
in the stalls, decorous but festal in the balconies, and frankly fit for
daylight and street life in the galleries. But, however they differed when
looked at separately, they shared the same huge, lovable nature in the
bulk, which murmured and swayed and quivered all the time the dancing and
juggling and love-making went on in front of it, slowly laughed and
reluctantly left off laughing, and applauded with a helter-skelter
generosity which sometimes became unanimous and overwhelming. Once William
saw Katharine leaning forward and clapping her hands with an abandonment
that startled him. Her laugh rang out with the laughter of the audience.</p>
<p>For a second he was puzzled, as if this laughter disclosed something that
he had never suspected in her. But then Cassandra's face caught his eye,
gazing with astonishment at the buffoon, not laughing, too deeply intent
and surprised to laugh at what she saw, and for some moments he watched
her as if she were a child.</p>
<p>The performance came to an end, the illusion dying out first here and then
there, as some rose to put on their coats, others stood upright to salute
"God Save the King," the musicians folded their music and encased their
instruments, and the lights sank one by one until the house was empty,
silent, and full of great shadows. Looking back over her shoulder as she
followed Ralph through the swing doors, Cassandra marveled to see how the
stage was already entirely without romance. But, she wondered, did they
really cover all the seats in brown holland every night?</p>
<p>The success of this entertainment was such that before they separated
another expedition had been planned for the next day. The next day was
Saturday; therefore both William and Ralph were free to devote the whole
afternoon to an expedition to Greenwich, which Cassandra had never seen,
and Katharine confused with Dulwich. On this occasion Ralph was their
guide. He brought them without accident to Greenwich.</p>
<p>What exigencies of state or fantasies of imagination first gave birth to
the cluster of pleasant places by which London is surrounded is matter of
indifference now that they have adapted themselves so admirably to the
needs of people between the ages of twenty and thirty with Saturday
afternoons to spend. Indeed, if ghosts have any interest in the affections
of those who succeed them they must reap their richest harvests when the
fine weather comes again and the lovers, the sightseers, and the
holiday-makers pour themselves out of trains and omnibuses into their old
pleasure-grounds. It is true that they go, for the most part, unthanked by
name, although upon this occasion William was ready to give such
discriminating praise as the dead architects and painters received seldom
in the course of the year. They were walking by the river bank, and
Katharine and Ralph, lagging a little behind, caught fragments of his
lecture. Katharine smiled at the sound of his voice; she listened as if
she found it a little unfamiliar, intimately though she knew it; she
tested it. The note of assurance and happiness was new. William was very
happy. She learnt every hour what sources of his happiness she had
neglected. She had never asked him to teach her anything; she had never
consented to read Macaulay; she had never expressed her belief that his
play was second only to the works of Shakespeare. She followed dreamily in
their wake, smiling and delighting in the sound which conveyed, she knew,
the rapturous and yet not servile assent of Cassandra.</p>
<p>Then she murmured, "How can Cassandra—" but changed her sentence to
the opposite of what she meant to say and ended, "how could she herself
have been so blind?" But it was unnecessary to follow out such riddles
when the presence of Ralph supplied her with more interesting problems,
which somehow became involved with the little boat crossing the river, the
majestic and careworn City, and the steamers homecoming with their
treasury, or starting in search of it, so that infinite leisure would be
necessary for the proper disentanglement of one from the other. He
stopped, moreover, and began inquiring of an old boatman as to the tides
and the ships. In thus talking he seemed different, and even looked
different, she thought, against the river, with the steeples and towers
for background. His strangeness, his romance, his power to leave her side
and take part in the affairs of men, the possibility that they should
together hire a boat and cross the river, the speed and wildness of this
enterprise filled her mind and inspired her with such rapture, half of
love and half of adventure, that William and Cassandra were startled from
their talk, and Cassandra exclaimed, "She looks as if she were offering up
a sacrifice! Very beautiful," she added quickly, though she repressed, in
deference to William, her own wonder that the sight of Ralph Denham
talking to a boatman on the banks of the Thames could move any one to such
an attitude of adoration.</p>
<p>That afternoon, what with tea and the curiosities of the Thames tunnel and
the unfamiliarity of the streets, passed so quickly that the only method
of prolonging it was to plan another expedition for the following day.
Hampton Court was decided upon, in preference to Hampstead, for though
Cassandra had dreamt as a child of the brigands of Hampstead, she had now
transferred her affections completely and for ever to William III.
Accordingly, they arrived at Hampton Court about lunch-time on a fine
Sunday morning. Such unity marked their expressions of admiration for the
red-brick building that they might have come there for no other purpose
than to assure each other that this palace was the stateliest palace in
the world. They walked up and down the Terrace, four abreast, and fancied
themselves the owners of the place, and calculated the amount of good to
the world produced indubitably by such a tenancy.</p>
<p>"The only hope for us," said Katharine, "is that William shall die, and
Cassandra shall be given rooms as the widow of a distinguished poet."</p>
<p>"Or—" Cassandra began, but checked herself from the liberty of
envisaging Katharine as the widow of a distinguished lawyer. Upon this,
the third day of junketing, it was tiresome to have to restrain oneself
even from such innocent excursions of fancy. She dared not question
William; he was inscrutable; he never seemed even to follow the other
couple with curiosity when they separated, as they frequently did, to name
a plant, or examine a fresco. Cassandra was constantly studying their
backs. She noticed how sometimes the impulse to move came from Katharine,
and sometimes from Ralph; how, sometimes, they walked slow, as if in
profound intercourse, and sometimes fast, as if in passionate. When they
came together again nothing could be more unconcerned than their manner.</p>
<p>"We have been wondering whether they ever catch a fish..." or, "We must
leave time to visit the Maze." Then, to puzzle her further, William and
Ralph filled in all interstices of meal-times or railway journeys with
perfectly good-tempered arguments; or they discussed politics, or they
told stories, or they did sums together upon the backs of old envelopes to
prove something. She suspected that Katharine was absent-minded, but it
was impossible to tell. There were moments when she felt so young and
inexperienced that she almost wished herself back with the silkworms at
Stogdon House, and not embarked upon this bewildering intrigue.</p>
<p>These moments, however, were only the necessary shadow or chill which
proved the substance of her bliss, and did not damage the radiance which
seemed to rest equally upon the whole party. The fresh air of spring, the
sky washed of clouds and already shedding warmth from its blue, seemed the
reply vouchsafed by nature to the mood of her chosen spirits. These chosen
spirits were to be found also among the deer, dumbly basking, and among
the fish, set still in mid-stream, for they were mute sharers in a
benignant state not needing any exposition by the tongue. No words that
Cassandra could come by expressed the stillness, the brightness, the air
of expectancy which lay upon the orderly beauty of the grass walks and
gravel paths down which they went walking four abreast that Sunday
afternoon. Silently the shadows of the trees lay across the broad
sunshine; silence wrapt her heart in its folds. The quivering stillness of
the butterfly on the half-opened flower, the silent grazing of the deer in
the sun, were the sights her eye rested upon and received as the images of
her own nature laid open to happiness and trembling in its ecstasy.</p>
<p>But the afternoon wore on, and it became time to leave the gardens. As
they drove from Waterloo to Chelsea, Katharine began to have some
compunction about her father, which, together with the opening of offices
and the need of working in them on Monday, made it difficult to plan
another festival for the following day. Mr. Hilbery had taken their
absence, so far, with paternal benevolence, but they could not trespass
upon it indefinitely. Indeed, had they known it, he was already suffering
from their absence, and longing for their return.</p>
<p>He had no dislike of solitude, and Sunday, in particular, was pleasantly
adapted for letter-writing, paying calls, or a visit to his club. He was
leaving the house on some such suitable expedition towards tea-time when
he found himself stopped on his own doorstep by his sister, Mrs. Milvain.
She should, on hearing that no one was at home, have withdrawn
submissively, but instead she accepted his half-hearted invitation to come
in, and he found himself in the melancholy position of being forced to
order tea for her and sit in the drawing-room while she drank it. She
speedily made it plain that she was only thus exacting because she had
come on a matter of business. He was by no means exhilarated at the news.</p>
<p>"Katharine is out this afternoon," he remarked. "Why not come round later
and discuss it with her—with us both, eh?"</p>
<p>"My dear Trevor, I have particular reasons for wishing to talk to you
alone.... Where is Katharine?"</p>
<p>"She's out with her young man, naturally. Cassandra plays the part of
chaperone very usefully. A charming young woman that—a great
favorite of mine." He turned his stone between his fingers, and conceived
different methods of leading Celia away from her obsession, which, he
supposed, must have reference to the domestic affairs of Cyril as usual.</p>
<p>"With Cassandra," Mrs. Milvain repeated significantly. "With Cassandra."</p>
<p>"Yes, with Cassandra," Mr. Hilbery agreed urbanely, pleased at the
diversion. "I think they said they were going to Hampton Court, and I
rather believe they were taking a protege of mine, Ralph Denham, a very
clever fellow, too, to amuse Cassandra. I thought the arrangement very
suitable." He was prepared to dwell at some length upon this safe topic,
and trusted that Katharine would come in before he had done with it.</p>
<p>"Hampton Court always seems to me an ideal spot for engaged couples.
There's the Maze, there's a nice place for having tea—I forget what
they call it—and then, if the young man knows his business he
contrives to take his lady upon the river. Full of possibilities—full.
Cake, Celia?" Mr. Hilbery continued. "I respect my dinner too much, but
that can't possibly apply to you. You've never observed that feast, so far
as I can remember."</p>
<p>Her brother's affability did not deceive Mrs. Milvain; it slightly
saddened her; she well knew the cause of it. Blind and infatuated as
usual!</p>
<p>"Who is this Mr. Denham?" she asked.</p>
<p>"Ralph Denham?" said Mr. Hilbery, in relief that her mind had taken this
turn. "A very interesting young man. I've a great belief in him. He's an
authority upon our mediaeval institutions, and if he weren't forced to
earn his living he would write a book that very much wants writing—"</p>
<p>"He is not well off, then?" Mrs. Milvain interposed.</p>
<p>"Hasn't a penny, I'm afraid, and a family more or less dependent on him."</p>
<p>"A mother and sisters?—His father is dead?"</p>
<p>"Yes, his father died some years ago," said Mr. Hilbery, who was prepared
to draw upon his imagination, if necessary, to keep Mrs. Milvain supplied
with facts about the private history of Ralph Denham since, for some
inscrutable reason, the subject took her fancy.</p>
<p>"His father has been dead some time, and this young man had to take his
place—"</p>
<p>"A legal family?" Mrs. Milvain inquired. "I fancy I've seen the name
somewhere."</p>
<p>Mr. Hilbery shook his head. "I should be inclined to doubt whether they
were altogether in that walk of life," he observed. "I fancy that Denham
once told me that his father was a corn merchant. Perhaps he said a
stockbroker. He came to grief, anyhow, as stockbrokers have a way of
doing. I've a great respect for Denham," he added. The remark sounded to
his ears unfortunately conclusive, and he was afraid that there was
nothing more to be said about Denham. He examined the tips of his fingers
carefully. "Cassandra's grown into a very charming young woman," he
started afresh. "Charming to look at, and charming to talk to, though her
historical knowledge is not altogether profound. Another cup of tea?"</p>
<p>Mrs. Milvain had given her cup a little push, which seemed to indicate
some momentary displeasure. But she did not want any more tea.</p>
<p>"It is Cassandra that I have come about," she began. "I am very sorry to
say that Cassandra is not at all what you think her, Trevor. She has
imposed upon your and Maggie's goodness. She has behaved in a way that
would have seemed incredible—in this house of all houses—were
it not for other circumstances that are still more incredible."</p>
<p>Mr. Hilbery looked taken aback, and was silent for a second.</p>
<p>"It all sounds very black," he remarked urbanely, continuing his
examination of his finger-nails. "But I own I am completely in the dark."</p>
<p>Mrs. Milvain became rigid, and emitted her message in little short
sentences of extreme intensity.</p>
<p>"Who has Cassandra gone out with? William Rodney. Who has Katharine gone
out with? Ralph Denham. Why are they for ever meeting each other round
street corners, and going to music-halls, and taking cabs late at night?
Why will Katharine not tell me the truth when I question her? I understand
the reason now. Katharine has entangled herself with this unknown lawyer;
she has seen fit to condone Cassandra's conduct."</p>
<p>There was another slight pause.</p>
<p>"Ah, well, Katharine will no doubt have some explanation to give me," Mr.
Hilbery replied imperturbably. "It's a little too complicated for me to
take in all at once, I confess—and, if you won't think me rude,
Celia, I think I'll be getting along towards Knightsbridge."</p>
<p>Mrs. Milvain rose at once.</p>
<p>"She has condoned Cassandra's conduct and entangled herself with Ralph
Denham," she repeated. She stood very erect with the dauntless air of one
testifying to the truth regardless of consequences. She knew from past
discussions that the only way to counter her brother's indolence and
indifference was to shoot her statements at him in a compressed form once
finally upon leaving the room. Having spoken thus, she restrained herself
from adding another word, and left the house with the dignity of one
inspired by a great ideal.</p>
<p>She had certainly framed her remarks in such a way as to prevent her
brother from paying his call in the region of Knightsbridge. He had no
fears for Katharine, but there was a suspicion at the back of his mind
that Cassandra might have been, innocently and ignorantly, led into some
foolish situation in one of their unshepherded dissipations. His wife was
an erratic judge of the conventions; he himself was lazy; and with
Katharine absorbed, very naturally—Here he recalled, as well as he
could, the exact nature of the charge. "She has condoned Cassandra's
conduct and entangled herself with Ralph Denham." From which it appeared
that Katharine was NOT absorbed, or which of them was it that had
entangled herself with Ralph Denham? From this maze of absurdity Mr.
Hilbery saw no way out until Katharine herself came to his help, so that
he applied himself, very philosophically on the whole, to a book.</p>
<p>No sooner had he heard the young people come in and go upstairs than he
sent a maid to tell Miss Katharine that he wished to speak to her in the
study. She was slipping furs loosely onto the floor in the drawing-room in
front of the fire. They were all gathered round, reluctant to part. The
message from her father surprised Katharine, and the others caught from
her look, as she turned to go, a vague sense of apprehension.</p>
<p>Mr. Hilbery was reassured by the sight of her. He congratulated himself,
he prided himself, upon possessing a daughter who had a sense of
responsibility and an understanding of life profound beyond her years.
Moreover, she was looking to-day unusual; he had come to take her beauty
for granted; now he remembered it and was surprised by it. He thought
instinctively that he had interrupted some happy hour of hers with Rodney,
and apologized.</p>
<p>"I'm sorry to bother you, my dear. I heard you come in, and thought I'd
better make myself disagreeable at once—as it seems, unfortunately,
that fathers are expected to make themselves disagreeable. Now, your Aunt
Celia has been to see me; your Aunt Celia has taken it into her head
apparently that you and Cassandra have been—let us say a little
foolish. This going about together—these pleasant little parties—there's
been some kind of misunderstanding. I told her I saw no harm in it, but I
should just like to hear from yourself. Has Cassandra been left a little
too much in the company of Mr. Denham?"</p>
<p>Katharine did not reply at once, and Mr. Hilbery tapped the coal
encouragingly with the poker. Then she said, without embarrassment or
apology:</p>
<p>"I don't see why I should answer Aunt Celia's questions. I've told her
already that I won't."</p>
<p>Mr. Hilbery was relieved and secretly amused at the thought of the
interview, although he could not license such irreverence outwardly.</p>
<p>"Very good. Then you authorize me to tell her that she's been mistaken,
and there was nothing but a little fun in it? You've no doubt, Katharine,
in your own mind? Cassandra is in our charge, and I don't intend that
people should gossip about her. I suggest that you should be a little more
careful in future. Invite me to your next entertainment."</p>
<p>She did not respond, as he had hoped, with any affectionate or humorous
reply. She meditated, pondering something or other, and he reflected that
even his Katharine did not differ from other women in the capacity to let
things be. Or had she something to say?</p>
<p>"Have you a guilty conscience?" he inquired lightly. "Tell me, Katharine,"
he said more seriously, struck by something in the expression of her eyes.</p>
<p>"I've been meaning to tell you for some time," she said, "I'm not going to
marry William."</p>
<p>"You're not going—!" he exclaimed, dropping the poker in his immense
surprise. "Why? When? Explain yourself, Katharine."</p>
<p>"Oh, some time ago—a week, perhaps more." Katharine spoke hurriedly
and indifferently, as if the matter could no longer concern any one.</p>
<p>"But may I ask—why have I not been told of this—what do you
mean by it?"</p>
<p>"We don't wish to be married—that's all."</p>
<p>"This is William's wish as well as yours?"</p>
<p>"Oh, yes. We agree perfectly."</p>
<p>Mr. Hilbery had seldom felt more completely at a loss. He thought that
Katharine was treating the matter with curious unconcern; she scarcely
seemed aware of the gravity of what she was saying; he did not understand
the position at all. But his desire to smooth everything over comfortably
came to his relief. No doubt there was some quarrel, some whimsey on the
part of William, who, though a good fellow, was a little exacting
sometimes—something that a woman could put right. But though he
inclined to take the easiest view of his responsibilities, he cared too
much for this daughter to let things be.</p>
<p>"I confess I find great difficulty in following you. I should like to hear
William's side of the story," he said irritably. "I think he ought to have
spoken to me in the first instance."</p>
<p>"I wouldn't let him," said Katharine. "I know it must seem to you very
strange," she added. "But I assure you, if you'd wait a little—until
mother comes back."</p>
<p>This appeal for delay was much to Mr. Hilbery's liking. But his conscience
would not suffer it. People were talking. He could not endure that his
daughter's conduct should be in any way considered irregular. He wondered
whether, in the circumstances, it would be better to wire to his wife, to
send for one of his sisters, to forbid William the house, to pack
Cassandra off home—for he was vaguely conscious of responsibilities
in her direction, too. His forehead was becoming more and more wrinkled by
the multiplicity of his anxieties, which he was sorely tempted to ask
Katharine to solve for him, when the door opened and William Rodney
appeared. This necessitated a complete change, not only of manner, but of
position also.</p>
<p>"Here's William," Katharine exclaimed, in a tone of relief. "I've told
father we're not engaged," she said to him. "I've explained that I
prevented you from telling him."</p>
<p>William's manner was marked by the utmost formality. He bowed very
slightly in the direction of Mr. Hilbery, and stood erect, holding one
lapel of his coat, and gazing into the center of the fire. He waited for
Mr. Hilbery to speak.</p>
<p>Mr. Hilbery also assumed an appearance of formidable dignity. He had risen
to his feet, and now bent the top part of his body slightly forward.</p>
<p>"I should like your account of this affair, Rodney—if Katharine no
longer prevents you from speaking."</p>
<p>William waited two seconds at least.</p>
<p>"Our engagement is at an end," he said, with the utmost stiffness.</p>
<p>"Has this been arrived at by your joint desire?"</p>
<p>After a perceptible pause William bent his head, and Katharine said, as if
by an afterthought:</p>
<p>"Oh, yes."</p>
<p>Mr. Hilbery swayed to and fro, and moved his lips as if to utter remarks
which remained unspoken.</p>
<p>"I can only suggest that you should postpone any decision until the effect
of this misunderstanding has had time to wear off. You have now known each
other—" he began.</p>
<p>"There's been no misunderstanding," Katharine interposed. "Nothing at
all." She moved a few paces across the room, as if she intended to leave
them. Her preoccupied naturalness was in strange contrast to her father's
pomposity and to William's military rigidity. He had not once raised his
eyes. Katharine's glance, on the other hand, ranged past the two
gentlemen, along the books, over the tables, towards the door. She was
paying the least possible attention, it seemed, to what was happening. Her
father looked at her with a sudden clouding and troubling of his
expression. Somehow his faith in her stability and sense was queerly
shaken. He no longer felt that he could ultimately entrust her with the
whole conduct of her own affairs after a superficial show of directing
them. He felt, for the first time in many years, responsible for her.</p>
<p>"Look here, we must get to the bottom of this," he said, dropping his
formal manner and addressing Rodney as if Katharine were not present.
"You've had some difference of opinion, eh? Take my word for it, most
people go through this sort of thing when they're engaged. I've seen more
trouble come from long engagements than from any other form of human
folly. Take my advice and put the whole matter out of your minds—both
of you. I prescribe a complete abstinence from emotion. Visit some
cheerful seaside resort, Rodney."</p>
<p>He was struck by William's appearance, which seemed to him to indicate
profound feeling resolutely held in check. No doubt, he reflected,
Katharine had been very trying, unconsciously trying, and had driven him
to take up a position which was none of his willing. Mr. Hilbery certainly
did not overrate William's sufferings. No minutes in his life had hitherto
extorted from him such intensity of anguish. He was now facing the
consequences of his insanity. He must confess himself entirely and
fundamentally other than Mr. Hilbery thought him. Everything was against
him. Even the Sunday evening and the fire and the tranquil library scene
were against him. Mr. Hilbery's appeal to him as a man of the world was
terribly against him. He was no longer a man of any world that Mr. Hilbery
cared to recognize. But some power compelled him, as it had compelled him
to come downstairs, to make his stand here and now, alone and unhelped by
any one, without prospect of reward. He fumbled with various phrases; and
then jerked out:</p>
<p>"I love Cassandra."</p>
<p>Mr. Hilbery's face turned a curious dull purple. He looked at his
daughter. He nodded his head, as if to convey his silent command to her to
leave the room; but either she did not notice it or preferred not to obey.</p>
<p>"You have the impudence—" Mr. Hilbery began, in a dull, low voice
that he himself had never heard before, when there was a scuffling and
exclaiming in the hall, and Cassandra, who appeared to be insisting
against some dissuasion on the part of another, burst into the room.</p>
<p>"Uncle Trevor," she exclaimed, "I insist upon telling you the truth!" She
flung herself between Rodney and her uncle, as if she sought to intercept
their blows. As her uncle stood perfectly still, looking very large and
imposing, and as nobody spoke, she shrank back a little, and looked first
at Katharine and then at Rodney. "You must know the truth," she said, a
little lamely.</p>
<p>"You have the impudence to tell me this in Katharine's presence?" Mr.
Hilbery continued, speaking with complete disregard of Cassandra's
interruption.</p>
<p>"I am aware, quite aware—" Rodney's words, which were broken in
sense, spoken after a pause, and with his eyes upon the ground,
nevertheless expressed an astonishing amount of resolution. "I am quite
aware what you must think of me," he brought out, looking Mr. Hilbery
directly in the eyes for the first time.</p>
<p>"I could express my views on the subject more fully if we were alone," Mr.
Hilbery returned.</p>
<p>"But you forget me," said Katharine. She moved a little towards Rodney,
and her movement seemed to testify mutely to her respect for him, and her
alliance with him. "I think William has behaved perfectly rightly, and,
after all, it is I who am concerned—I and Cassandra."</p>
<p>Cassandra, too, gave an indescribably slight movement which seemed to draw
the three of them into alliance together. Katharine's tone and glance made
Mr. Hilbery once more feel completely at a loss, and in addition,
painfully and angrily obsolete; but in spite of an awful inner hollowness
he was outwardly composed.</p>
<p>"Cassandra and Rodney have a perfect right to settle their own affairs
according to their own wishes; but I see no reason why they should do so
either in my room or in my house.... I wish to be quite clear on this
point, however; you are no longer engaged to Rodney."</p>
<p>He paused, and his pause seemed to signify that he was extremely thankful
for his daughter's deliverance.</p>
<p>Cassandra turned to Katharine, who drew her breath as if to speak and
checked herself; Rodney, too, seemed to await some movement on her part;
her father glanced at her as if he half anticipated some further
revelation. She remained perfectly silent. In the silence they heard
distinctly steps descending the staircase, and Katharine went straight to
the door.</p>
<p>"Wait," Mr. Hilbery commanded. "I wish to speak to you—alone," he
added.</p>
<p>She paused, holding the door ajar.</p>
<p>"I'll come back," she said, and as she spoke she opened the door and went
out. They could hear her immediately speak to some one outside, though the
words were inaudible.</p>
<p>Mr. Hilbery was left confronting the guilty couple, who remained standing
as if they did not accept their dismissal, and the disappearance of
Katharine had brought some change into the situation. So, in his secret
heart, Mr. Hilbery felt that it had, for he could not explain his
daughter's behavior to his own satisfaction.</p>
<p>"Uncle Trevor," Cassandra exclaimed impulsively, "don't be angry, please.
I couldn't help it; I do beg you to forgive me."</p>
<p>Her uncle still refused to acknowledge her identity, and still talked over
her head as if she did not exist.</p>
<p>"I suppose you have communicated with the Otways," he said to Rodney
grimly.</p>
<p>"Uncle Trevor, we wanted to tell you," Cassandra replied for him. "We
waited—" she looked appealingly at Rodney, who shook his head ever
so slightly.</p>
<p>"Yes? What were you waiting for?" her uncle asked sharply, looking at her
at last.</p>
<p>The words died on her lips. It was apparent that she was straining her
ears as if to catch some sound outside the room that would come to her
help. He received no answer. He listened, too.</p>
<p>"This is a most unpleasant business for all parties," he concluded,
sinking into his chair again, hunching his shoulders and regarding the
flames. He seemed to speak to himself, and Rodney and Cassandra looked at
him in silence.</p>
<p>"Why don't you sit down?" he said suddenly. He spoke gruffly, but the
force of his anger was evidently spent, or some preoccupation had turned
his mood to other regions. While Cassandra accepted his invitation, Rodney
remained standing.</p>
<p>"I think Cassandra can explain matters better in my absence," he said, and
left the room, Mr. Hilbery giving his assent by a slight nod of the head.</p>
<p>Meanwhile, in the dining-room next door, Denham and Katharine were once
more seated at the mahogany table. They seemed to be continuing a
conversation broken off in the middle, as if each remembered the precise
point at which they had been interrupted, and was eager to go on as
quickly as possible. Katharine, having interposed a short account of the
interview with her father, Denham made no comment, but said:</p>
<p>"Anyhow, there's no reason why we shouldn't see each other."</p>
<p>"Or stay together. It's only marriage that's out of the question,"
Katharine replied.</p>
<p>"But if I find myself coming to want you more and more?"</p>
<p>"If our lapses come more and more often?"</p>
<p>He sighed impatiently, and said nothing for a moment.</p>
<p>"But at least," he renewed, "we've established the fact that my lapses are
still in some odd way connected with you; yours have nothing to do with
me. Katharine," he added, his assumption of reason broken up by his
agitation, "I assure you that we are in love—what other people call
love. Remember that night. We had no doubts whatever then. We were
absolutely happy for half an hour. You had no lapse until the day after; I
had no lapse until yesterday morning. We've been happy at intervals all
day until I—went off my head, and you, quite naturally, were bored."</p>
<p>"Ah," she exclaimed, as if the subject chafed her, "I can't make you
understand. It's not boredom—I'm never bored. Reality—reality,"
she ejaculated, tapping her finger upon the table as if to emphasize and
perhaps explain her isolated utterance of this word. "I cease to be real
to you. It's the faces in a storm again—the vision in a hurricane.
We come together for a moment and we part. It's my fault, too. I'm as bad
as you are—worse, perhaps."</p>
<p>They were trying to explain, not for the first time, as their weary
gestures and frequent interruptions showed, what in their common language
they had christened their "lapses"; a constant source of distress to them,
in the past few days, and the immediate reason why Ralph was on his way to
leave the house when Katharine, listening anxiously, heard him and
prevented him. What was the cause of these lapses? Either because
Katharine looked more beautiful, or more strange, because she wore
something different, or said something unexpected, Ralph's sense of her
romance welled up and overcame him either into silence or into
inarticulate expressions, which Katharine, with unintentional but
invariable perversity, interrupted or contradicted with some severity or
assertion of prosaic fact. Then the vision disappeared, and Ralph
expressed vehemently in his turn the conviction that he only loved her
shadow and cared nothing for her reality. If the lapse was on her side it
took the form of gradual detachment until she became completely absorbed
in her own thoughts, which carried her away with such intensity that she
sharply resented any recall to her companion's side. It was useless to
assert that these trances were always originated by Ralph himself, however
little in their later stages they had to do with him. The fact remained
that she had no need of him and was very loath to be reminded of him. How,
then, could they be in love? The fragmentary nature of their relationship
was but too apparent.</p>
<p>Thus they sat depressed to silence at the dining-room table, oblivious of
everything, while Rodney paced the drawing-room overhead in such agitation
and exaltation of mind as he had never conceived possible, and Cassandra
remained alone with her uncle. Ralph, at length, rose and walked gloomily
to the window. He pressed close to the pane. Outside were truth and
freedom and the immensity only to be apprehended by the mind in
loneliness, and never communicated to another. What worse sacrilege was
there than to attempt to violate what he perceived by seeking to impart
it? Some movement behind him made him reflect that Katharine had the
power, if she chose, to be in person what he dreamed of her spirit. He
turned sharply to implore her help, when again he was struck cold by her
look of distance, her expression of intentness upon some far object. As if
conscious of his look upon her she rose and came to him, standing close by
his side, and looking with him out into the dusky atmosphere. Their
physical closeness was to him a bitter enough comment upon the distance
between their minds. Yet distant as she was, her presence by his side
transformed the world. He saw himself performing wonderful deeds of
courage; saving the drowning, rescuing the forlorn. Impatient with this
form of egotism, he could not shake off the conviction that somehow life
was wonderful, romantic, a master worth serving so long as she stood
there. He had no wish that she should speak; he did not look at her or
touch her; she was apparently deep in her own thoughts and oblivious of
his presence.</p>
<p>The door opened without their hearing the sound. Mr. Hilbery looked round
the room, and for a moment failed to discover the two figures in the
window. He started with displeasure when he saw them, and observed them
keenly before he appeared able to make up his mind to say anything. He
made a movement finally that warned them of his presence; they turned
instantly. Without speaking, he beckoned to Katharine to come to him, and,
keeping his eyes from the region of the room where Denham stood, he
shepherded her in front of him back to the study. When Katharine was
inside the room he shut the study door carefully behind him as if to
secure himself from something that he disliked.</p>
<p>"Now, Katharine," he said, taking up his stand in front of the fire, "you
will, perhaps, have the kindness to explain—" She remained silent.
"What inferences do you expect me to draw?" he said sharply.... "You tell
me that you are not engaged to Rodney; I see you on what appear to be
extremely intimate terms with another—with Ralph Denham. What am I
to conclude? Are you," he added, as she still said nothing, "engaged to
Ralph Denham?"</p>
<p>"No," she replied.</p>
<p>His sense of relief was great; he had been certain that her answer would
have confirmed his suspicions, but that anxiety being set at rest, he was
the more conscious of annoyance with her for her behavior.</p>
<p>"Then all I can say is that you've very strange ideas of the proper way to
behave.... People have drawn certain conclusions, nor am I surprised....
The more I think of it the more inexplicable I find it," he went on, his
anger rising as he spoke. "Why am I left in ignorance of what is going on
in my own house? Why am I left to hear of these events for the first time
from my sister? Most disagreeable—most upsetting. How I'm to explain
to your Uncle Francis—but I wash my hands of it. Cassandra goes
tomorrow. I forbid Rodney the house. As for the other young man, the
sooner he makes himself scarce the better. After placing the most implicit
trust in you, Katharine—" He broke off, disquieted by the ominous
silence with which his words were received, and looked at his daughter
with the curious doubt as to her state of mind which he had felt before,
for the first time, this evening. He perceived once more that she was not
attending to what he said, but was listening, and for a moment he, too,
listened for sounds outside the room. His certainty that there was some
understanding between Denham and Katharine returned, but with a most
unpleasant suspicion that there was something illicit about it, as the
whole position between the young people seemed to him gravely illicit.</p>
<p>"I'll speak to Denham," he said, on the impulse of his suspicion, moving
as if to go.</p>
<p>"I shall come with you," Katharine said instantly, starting forward.</p>
<p>"You will stay here," said her father.</p>
<p>"What are you going to say to him?" she asked.</p>
<p>"I suppose I may say what I like in my own house?" he returned.</p>
<p>"Then I go, too," she replied.</p>
<p>At these words, which seemed to imply a determination to go—to go
for ever, Mr. Hilbery returned to his position in front of the fire, and
began swaying slightly from side to side without for the moment making any
remark.</p>
<p>"I understood you to say that you were not engaged to him," he said at
length, fixing his eyes upon his daughter.</p>
<p>"We are not engaged," she said.</p>
<p>"It should be a matter of indifference to you, then, whether he comes here
or not—I will not have you listening to other things when I am
speaking to you!" he broke off angrily, perceiving a slight movement on
her part to one side. "Answer me frankly, what is your relationship with
this young man?"</p>
<p>"Nothing that I can explain to a third person," she said obstinately.</p>
<p>"I will have no more of these equivocations," he replied.</p>
<p>"I refuse to explain," she returned, and as she said it the front door
banged to. "There!" she exclaimed. "He is gone!" She flashed such a look
of fiery indignation at her father that he lost his self-control for a
moment.</p>
<p>"For God's sake, Katharine, control yourself!" he cried.</p>
<p>She looked for a moment like a wild animal caged in a civilized
dwelling-place. She glanced over the walls covered with books, as if for a
second she had forgotten the position of the door. Then she made as if to
go, but her father laid his hand upon her shoulder. He compelled her to
sit down.</p>
<p>"These emotions have been very upsetting, naturally," he said. His manner
had regained all its suavity, and he spoke with a soothing assumption of
paternal authority. "You've been placed in a very difficult position, as I
understand from Cassandra. Now let us come to terms; we will leave these
agitating questions in peace for the present. Meanwhile, let us try to
behave like civilized beings. Let us read Sir Walter Scott. What d'you say
to 'The Antiquary,' eh? Or 'The Bride of Lammermoor'?"</p>
<p>He made his own choice, and before his daughter could protest or make her
escape, she found herself being turned by the agency of Sir Walter Scott
into a civilized human being.</p>
<p>Yet Mr. Hilbery had grave doubts, as he read, whether the process was more
than skin-deep. Civilization had been very profoundly and unpleasantly
overthrown that evening; the extent of the ruin was still undetermined; he
had lost his temper, a physical disaster not to be matched for the space
of ten years or so; and his own condition urgently required soothing and
renovating at the hands of the classics. His house was in a state of
revolution; he had a vision of unpleasant encounters on the staircase; his
meals would be poisoned for days to come; was literature itself a specific
against such disagreeables? A note of hollowness was in his voice as he
read.</p>
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