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<h2> Chapter XLVII </h2>
<p>Some weeks passed without bringing any change. We waited for Wemmick, and
he made no sign. If I had never known him out of Little Britain, and had
never enjoyed the privilege of being on a familiar footing at the Castle,
I might have doubted him; not so for a moment, knowing him as I did.</p>
<p>My worldly affairs began to wear a gloomy appearance, and I was pressed
for money by more than one creditor. Even I myself began to know the want
of money (I mean of ready money in my own pocket), and to relieve it by
converting some easily spared articles of jewelery into cash. But I had
quite determined that it would be a heartless fraud to take more money
from my patron in the existing state of my uncertain thoughts and plans.
Therefore, I had sent him the unopened pocket-book by Herbert, to hold in
his own keeping, and I felt a kind of satisfaction—whether it was a
false kind or a true, I hardly know—in not having profited by his
generosity since his revelation of himself.</p>
<p>As the time wore on, an impression settled heavily upon me that Estella
was married. Fearful of having it confirmed, though it was all but a
conviction, I avoided the newspapers, and begged Herbert (to whom I had
confided the circumstances of our last interview) never to speak of her to
me. Why I hoarded up this last wretched little rag of the robe of hope
that was rent and given to the winds, how do I know? Why did you who read
this, commit that not dissimilar inconsistency of your own last year, last
month, last week?</p>
<p>It was an unhappy life that I lived; and its one dominant anxiety,
towering over all its other anxieties, like a high mountain above a range
of mountains, never disappeared from my view. Still, no new cause for fear
arose. Let me start from my bed as I would, with the terror fresh upon me
that he was discovered; let me sit listening, as I would with dread, for
Herbert's returning step at night, lest it should be fleeter than
ordinary, and winged with evil news,—for all that, and much more to
like purpose, the round of things went on. Condemned to inaction and a
state of constant restlessness and suspense, I rowed about in my boat, and
waited, waited, waited, as I best could.</p>
<p>There were states of the tide when, having been down the river, I could
not get back through the eddy-chafed arches and starlings of old London
Bridge; then, I left my boat at a wharf near the Custom House, to be
brought up afterwards to the Temple stairs. I was not averse to doing
this, as it served to make me and my boat a commoner incident among the
water-side people there. From this slight occasion sprang two meetings
that I have now to tell of.</p>
<p>One afternoon, late in the month of February, I came ashore at the wharf
at dusk. I had pulled down as far as Greenwich with the ebb tide, and had
turned with the tide. It had been a fine bright day, but had become foggy
as the sun dropped, and I had had to feel my way back among the shipping,
pretty carefully. Both in going and returning, I had seen the signal in
his window, All well.</p>
<p>As it was a raw evening, and I was cold, I thought I would comfort myself
with dinner at once; and as I had hours of dejection and solitude before
me if I went home to the Temple, I thought I would afterwards go to the
play. The theatre where Mr. Wopsle had achieved his questionable triumph
was in that water-side neighborhood (it is nowhere now), and to that
theatre I resolved to go. I was aware that Mr. Wopsle had not succeeded in
reviving the Drama, but, on the contrary, had rather partaken of its
decline. He had been ominously heard of, through the play-bills, as a
faithful Black, in connection with a little girl of noble birth, and a
monkey. And Herbert had seen him as a predatory Tartar of comic
propensities, with a face like a red brick, and an outrageous hat all over
bells.</p>
<p>I dined at what Herbert and I used to call a geographical chop-house,
where there were maps of the world in porter-pot rims on every half-yard
of the tablecloths, and charts of gravy on every one of the knives,—to
this day there is scarcely a single chop-house within the Lord Mayor's
dominions which is not geographical,—and wore out the time in dozing
over crumbs, staring at gas, and baking in a hot blast of dinners. By and
by, I roused myself, and went to the play.</p>
<p>There, I found a virtuous boatswain in His Majesty's service,—a most
excellent man, though I could have wished his trousers not quite so tight
in some places, and not quite so loose in others,—who knocked all
the little men's hats over their eyes, though he was very generous and
brave, and who wouldn't hear of anybody's paying taxes, though he was very
patriotic. He had a bag of money in his pocket, like a pudding in the
cloth, and on that property married a young person in bed-furniture, with
great rejoicings; the whole population of Portsmouth (nine in number at
the last census) turning out on the beach to rub their own hands and shake
everybody else's, and sing "Fill, fill!" A certain dark-complexioned Swab,
however, who wouldn't fill, or do anything else that was proposed to him,
and whose heart was openly stated (by the boatswain) to be as black as his
figure-head, proposed to two other Swabs to get all mankind into
difficulties; which was so effectually done (the Swab family having
considerable political influence) that it took half the evening to set
things right, and then it was only brought about through an honest little
grocer with a white hat, black gaiters, and red nose, getting into a
clock, with a gridiron, and listening, and coming out, and knocking
everybody down from behind with the gridiron whom he couldn't confute with
what he had overheard. This led to Mr. Wopsle's (who had never been heard
of before) coming in with a star and garter on, as a plenipotentiary of
great power direct from the Admiralty, to say that the Swabs were all to
go to prison on the spot, and that he had brought the boatswain down the
Union Jack, as a slight acknowledgment of his public services. The
boatswain, unmanned for the first time, respectfully dried his eyes on the
Jack, and then cheering up, and addressing Mr. Wopsle as Your Honor,
solicited permission to take him by the fin. Mr. Wopsle, conceding his fin
with a gracious dignity, was immediately shoved into a dusty corner, while
everybody danced a hornpipe; and from that corner, surveying the public
with a discontented eye, became aware of me.</p>
<p>The second piece was the last new grand comic Christmas pantomime, in the
first scene of which, it pained me to suspect that I detected Mr. Wopsle
with red worsted legs under a highly magnified phosphoric countenance and
a shock of red curtain-fringe for his hair, engaged in the manufacture of
thunderbolts in a mine, and displaying great cowardice when his gigantic
master came home (very hoarse) to dinner. But he presently presented
himself under worthier circumstances; for, the Genius of Youthful Love
being in want of assistance,—on account of the parental brutality of
an ignorant farmer who opposed the choice of his daughter's heart, by
purposely falling upon the object, in a flour-sack, out of the first-floor
window,—summoned a sententious Enchanter; and he, coming up from the
antipodes rather unsteadily, after an apparently violent journey, proved
to be Mr. Wopsle in a high-crowned hat, with a necromantic work in one
volume under his arm. The business of this enchanter on earth being
principally to be talked at, sung at, butted at, danced at, and flashed at
with fires of various colors, he had a good deal of time on his hands. And
I observed, with great surprise, that he devoted it to staring in my
direction as if he were lost in amazement.</p>
<p>There was something so remarkable in the increasing glare of Mr. Wopsle's
eye, and he seemed to be turning so many things over in his mind and to
grow so confused, that I could not make it out. I sat thinking of it long
after he had ascended to the clouds in a large watch-case, and still I
could not make it out. I was still thinking of it when I came out of the
theatre an hour afterwards, and found him waiting for me near the door.</p>
<p>"How do you do?" said I, shaking hands with him as we turned down the
street together. "I saw that you saw me."</p>
<p>"Saw you, Mr. Pip!" he returned. "Yes, of course I saw you. But who else
was there?"</p>
<p>"Who else?"</p>
<p>"It is the strangest thing," said Mr. Wopsle, drifting into his lost look
again; "and yet I could swear to him."</p>
<p>Becoming alarmed, I entreated Mr. Wopsle to explain his meaning.</p>
<p>"Whether I should have noticed him at first but for your being there,"
said Mr. Wopsle, going on in the same lost way, "I can't be positive; yet
I think I should."</p>
<p>Involuntarily I looked round me, as I was accustomed to look round me when
I went home; for these mysterious words gave me a chill.</p>
<p>"Oh! He can't be in sight," said Mr. Wopsle. "He went out before I went
off. I saw him go."</p>
<p>Having the reason that I had for being suspicious, I even suspected this
poor actor. I mistrusted a design to entrap me into some admission.
Therefore I glanced at him as we walked on together, but said nothing.</p>
<p>"I had a ridiculous fancy that he must be with you, Mr. Pip, till I saw
that you were quite unconscious of him, sitting behind you there like a
ghost."</p>
<p>My former chill crept over me again, but I was resolved not to speak yet,
for it was quite consistent with his words that he might be set on to
induce me to connect these references with Provis. Of course, I was
perfectly sure and safe that Provis had not been there.</p>
<p>"I dare say you wonder at me, Mr. Pip; indeed, I see you do. But it is so
very strange! You'll hardly believe what I am going to tell you. I could
hardly believe it myself, if you told me."</p>
<p>"Indeed?" said I.</p>
<p>"No, indeed. Mr. Pip, you remember in old times a certain Christmas Day,
when you were quite a child, and I dined at Gargery's, and some soldiers
came to the door to get a pair of handcuffs mended?"</p>
<p>"I remember it very well."</p>
<p>"And you remember that there was a chase after two convicts, and that we
joined in it, and that Gargery took you on his back, and that I took the
lead, and you kept up with me as well as you could?"</p>
<p>"I remember it all very well." Better than he thought,—except the
last clause.</p>
<p>"And you remember that we came up with the two in a ditch, and that there
was a scuffle between them, and that one of them had been severely handled
and much mauled about the face by the other?"</p>
<p>"I see it all before me."</p>
<p>"And that the soldiers lighted torches, and put the two in the centre, and
that we went on to see the last of them, over the black marshes, with the
torchlight shining on their faces,—I am particular about that,—with
the torchlight shining on their faces, when there was an outer ring of
dark night all about us?"</p>
<p>"Yes," said I. "I remember all that."</p>
<p>"Then, Mr. Pip, one of those two prisoners sat behind you tonight. I saw
him over your shoulder."</p>
<p>"Steady!" I thought. I asked him then, "Which of the two do you suppose
you saw?"</p>
<p>"The one who had been mauled," he answered readily, "and I'll swear I saw
him! The more I think of him, the more certain I am of him."</p>
<p>"This is very curious!" said I, with the best assumption I could put on of
its being nothing more to me. "Very curious indeed!"</p>
<p>I cannot exaggerate the enhanced disquiet into which this conversation
threw me, or the special and peculiar terror I felt at Compeyson's having
been behind me "like a ghost." For if he had ever been out of my thoughts
for a few moments together since the hiding had begun, it was in those
very moments when he was closest to me; and to think that I should be so
unconscious and off my guard after all my care was as if I had shut an
avenue of a hundred doors to keep him out, and then had found him at my
elbow. I could not doubt, either, that he was there, because I was there,
and that, however slight an appearance of danger there might be about us,
danger was always near and active.</p>
<p>I put such questions to Mr. Wopsle as, When did the man come in? He could
not tell me that; he saw me, and over my shoulder he saw the man. It was
not until he had seen him for some time that he began to identify him; but
he had from the first vaguely associated him with me, and known him as
somehow belonging to me in the old village time. How was he dressed?
Prosperously, but not noticeably otherwise; he thought, in black. Was his
face at all disfigured? No, he believed not. I believed not too, for,
although in my brooding state I had taken no especial notice of the people
behind me, I thought it likely that a face at all disfigured would have
attracted my attention.</p>
<p>When Mr. Wopsle had imparted to me all that he could recall or I extract,
and when I had treated him to a little appropriate refreshment, after the
fatigues of the evening, we parted. It was between twelve and one o'clock
when I reached the Temple, and the gates were shut. No one was near me
when I went in and went home.</p>
<p>Herbert had come in, and we held a very serious council by the fire. But
there was nothing to be done, saving to communicate to Wemmick what I had
that night found out, and to remind him that we waited for his hint. As I
thought that I might compromise him if I went too often to the Castle, I
made this communication by letter. I wrote it before I went to bed, and
went out and posted it; and again no one was near me. Herbert and I agreed
that we could do nothing else but be very cautious. And we were very
cautious indeed,—more cautious than before, if that were possible,—and
I for my part never went near Chinks's Basin, except when I rowed by, and
then I only looked at Mill Pond Bank as I looked at anything else.</p>
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