<h2>CHAPTER 7</h2>
<div class="poem">
<span class="i0">Here now in his triumph where all things falter,<br/></span>
<span class="i0">Stretched out on the spoils that his own hand spread,<br/></span>
<span class="i0">As a god self-slain on his own strange altar,<br/></span>
<span class="i0">Death lies dead.<br/></span>
<p class="rgt">—A Forsaken Garden,</p>
<p class="rgt"><i>by Charles Swinburne</i></p>
</div>
<p class="cap"><span class="dcap">Pop</span> was first down. Between
us we helped Alice. Before
joining them I took a last look
at the control panel. The cracking
plant button was up again
and there was a blue nimbus on
another button. For Los Alamos,
I supposed. I was tempted to
push it and get away solo, but
then I thought, <i>nope, there's
nothing for me at the other end
and the loneliness will be worse
than what I got to face here</i>. I
climbed out.</p>
<p>I didn't look at the body, although
we were practically on top
of it. I saw a little patch of silver
off to one side and remembered
the gun that had melted. The
vultures had waddled off but only
a few yards.</p>
<p>"We could kill them," Alice
said to Pop.</p>
<p>"Why?" he responded. "Didn't
some Hindus use them to take
care of dead bodies? Not a bad
idea, either."</p>
<p>"Parsees," Alice amplified.</p>
<p>"Yep, Parsees, that's what I
meant. Give you a nice clean skeleton
in a matter of days."</p>
<p>Pop was leading us past the
body toward the cracking plant. I
heard the flies buzzing loudly. I
felt terrible. I wanted to be dead
myself. Just walking along after
Pop was an awful effort.</p>
<p>"His girl was running a hidden
observation tower here," Pop
was saying now. "Weather and
all that, I suppose. Or maybe setting
up a robot station of some
kind. I couldn't tell you about
her before, because you were
both in a mood to try to rub out
anybody remotely connected with
the Pilot. In fact, I did my best
to lead you astray, letting you
think I'd been the one to scream
and all. Even now, to be honest
about it, I don't know if I'm doing
the right thing telling and
showing you all this, but a man's
got to take some risks whatever
he does."</p>
<p>"Say, Pop," I said dully, "isn't
she apt to take a shot at us or
something?" Not that I'd have
minded on my own account. "Or
are you and her that good
friends?"</p>
<p>"Nope, Ray," he said, "she
doesn't even know me. But I don't
think she's in a position to do any
shooting. You'll see why. Hey,
she hasn't even shut the door.
That's bad."</p>
<p>He seemed to be referring to a
kind of manhole cover standing
on its edge just inside the open-walled
first story of the cracking
plant. He knelt and looked down
the hole the cover was designed
to close off.</p>
<p>"Well, at least she didn't collapse
at the bottom of the shaft,"
he said. "Come on, let's see what
happened." And he climbed into
the shaft.</p>
<p>We followed him like zombies.
At least that's how I felt. The
shaft was about twenty feet deep.
There were foot- and hand-holds.
It got stuffy right away, and
warmer, in spite of the shaft
being open at the top.</p>
<p>At the bottom there was a
short horizontal passage. We had
to duck to get through it. When
we could straighten up we were
in a large and luxurious bomb-resistant
dugout, to give it a
name. And it was stuffier and
hotter than ever.</p>
<p>There was a lot of scientific
equipment around and several
small control panels reminding
me of the one in the back of the
plane. Some of them, I supposed,
connected with instruments,
weather and otherwise,
hidden up in the skeletal structure
of the cracking plant. And
there were signs of occupancy,
a young woman's occupancy—clothes
scattered around in a
frivolous way, and some small
objects of art, and a slightly
more than life-size head in clay
that I guessed the occupant must
have been sculpting. I didn't give
that last more than the most
fleeting look, strictly unintentional
to begin with, because although
it wasn't finished I could
tell whose head it was supposed
to be—the Pilot's.</p>
<hr />
<p>The whole place was finished
in dull silver like the cabin of
the plane, and likewise it instantly
struck me as having a living
personality, partly the Pilot's and
partly someone else's—the personality
of a marriage. Which
wasn't a bit nice, because the
whole place smelt of death.</p>
<p>But to tell the truth I didn't
give the place more than the
quickest look-over, because my
attention was rivetted almost at
once on a long wide couch with
the covers kicked off it and on the
body there.</p>
<p>The woman was about six feet
tall and built like a goddess. Her
hair was blonde and her skin tanned.
She was lying on her stomach
and she was naked.</p>
<p>She didn't come anywhere near
my libido, though. She looked
sick to death. Her face, twisted
towards us, was hollow-cheeked
and flushed. Her eyes, closed,
were sunken and dark-circled.
She was breathing shallowly and
rapidly through her open mouth,
gasping now and then.</p>
<p>I got the crazy impression that
all the heat in the place was coming
from her body, radiating
from her fever.</p>
<p>And the whole place stunk of
death. Honestly it seemed to me
that this dugout was Death's
underground temple, the bed
Death's altar, and the woman
Death's sacrifice. (Had I unconsciously
come to worship
Death as a god in the Deathlands?
I don't really know. There
it gets too deep for me.)</p>
<p>No, she didn't come within a
million miles of my libido, but
there was another part of me
that she was eating at ...</p>
<p>If guilt's a luxury, then I'm a
plutocrat.</p>
<p>... eating at until I was an
empty shell, until I had no props
left, until I wanted to die then
and there, until I figured I had
to die ...</p>
<p>There was a faint sharp hiss
right at my elbow. I looked and
found that, unbeknownst to myself,
I'd taken the steel cube out
of my pocket and holding it snuggled
between my first and second
fingers I'd punched the button
with my thumb just as I'd promised
myself I would if I got to
really feeling bad.</p>
<p>It goes to show you that you
should never give your mind any
kind of instructions even half in
fun, unless you're prepared to
have them carried out whether
you approve later or not.</p>
<p>Pop saw what I'd done and
looked at me strangely. "So you
had to die after all, Ray," he said
softly. "Most of us find out we
have to, one way or another."</p>
<p>We waited. Nothing happened.
I noticed a very faint milky cloud
a few inches across hanging in
the air by the cube.</p>
<p>Thinking right away of poison
gas, I jerked away a little, dispersing
the cloud.</p>
<p>"What's that?" I demanded of
no one in particular.</p>
<p>"I'd say," said Pop, "that
that's something that squirted
out of a tiny hole in the side of
the cube opposite the button. A
hole so nearly microscopic you
wouldn't see it unless you looked
for it hard. Ray, I don't think
you're going to get your baby A-blast,
and what's more I'm afraid
you've wasted something that's
damn valuable. But don't let it
worry you. Before I dropped
those cubes for Atla-Hi I snagged
one."</p>
<p>And darn if he didn't pull the
brother of my cube out of his
pocket.</p>
<p>"Alice," he said, "I noticed a
half pint of whiskey in your
satchel when we got the salve.
Would you put some on a rag and
hand it to me."</p>
<p>Alice looked at him like he was
nuts, but while her eyes were
looking her pliers and her gloved
hand were doing what he told her.</p>
<p>Pop took the rag and swabbed
a spot on the sick woman's nearest
buttock and jammed the cube
against the spot and pushed the
button.</p>
<p>"It's a jet hypodermic, folks,"
he said.</p>
<p>He took the cube away and
there was the welt to substantiate
his statement.</p>
<p>"Hope we got to her in time,"
he said. "The plague is tough.
Now I guess there's nothing for
us to do but wait, maybe for
quite a while."</p>
<p>I felt shaken beyond all recognition.</p>
<hr />
<p>"Pop, you old caveman detective!"
I burst out. "When did you
get that idea for a steel hospital?"
Don't think I was feeling
anywhere near that gay. It was
reaction, close to hysterical.</p>
<p>Pop was taken aback, but then
he grinned. "I had a couple of
clues that you and Alice didn't,"
he said. "I knew there was a very
sick woman involved. And I had
that bout with Los Alamos fever
I told you. They've had a lot of
trouble with it, I believe—some
say its spores come from outside
the world with the cosmic dust—and
now it seems to have been
carried to Atla-Hi. Let's hope
they've found the answer this
time. Alice, maybe we'd better
start getting some water into
this gal."</p>
<p>After a while we sat down and
fitted the facts together more
orderly. Pop did the fitting mostly.
Alamos researchers must have
been working for years on the
plague as it ravaged intermittently,
maybe with mutations and
ET tricks to make the job harder.
Very recently they'd found a
promising treatment (cure, we
hoped) and prepared it for rush
shipment to Atla-Hi, where the
plague was raging too and they
were sieged in by Savannah as
well. Grayl was picked to fly the
serum, or drug or whatever it
was. But he knew or guessed that
this lone woman observer (because
she'd fallen out of radio
communication or something)
had come down with the plague
too and he decided to land some
serum for her, probably without
authorization.</p>
<p>"How do we know she's his
girlfriend?" I asked.</p>
<p>"Or wife," Pop said tolerantly.
"Why, there was that bag of woman's
stuff he was carrying,
frilly things like a man would
bring for a woman. Who else'd he
be apt to make a special stop for?</p>
<p>"Another thing," Pop said.
"He must have been using jets
to hurry his trip. We heard them,
you know."</p>
<p>That seemed about as close a
reconstruction of events as we
could get. Strictly hypothetical,
of course. Deathlanders trying to
figure out what goes on inside a
"country" like Atla-Alamos and
<i>why</i> are sort of like foxes trying
to understand world politics, or
wolves the Gothic migrations. Of
course we're all human beings,
but that doesn't mean as much as
it sounds.</p>
<hr />
<p>Then Pop told us how he'd happened
to be on the scene. He'd
been doing a "tour of duty", as
he called it, when he spotted this
woman's observatory and decided
to hang around anonymously and
watch over her for a few days
and maybe help protect her from
some dangerous characters that
he knew were in the neighborhood.</p>
<p>"Pop, that sounds like a lousy
idea to me," I objected. "Risky, I
mean. Spying on another person,
watching them without their
knowing, would be the surest way
to stir up in me the idea of
murdering them. Safest thing for
me to do in that situation would
be to turn around and run."</p>
<p>"<i>You</i> probably should," he
agreed. "For now, anyway. It's
all a matter of knowing your own
strength and stage of growth.
Me, it helps to give myself these
little jobs. And the essence of
'em is that the other person
shouldn't know I'm helping."</p>
<p>It sounded like knighthood and
pilgrimage and the Boy Scouts
all over again—for murderers.
Well, why not?</p>
<p>Pop had seen this woman come
out of the manhole a couple of
times and look around and then
go back down and he'd got the
impression she was sick and
troubled. He'd even guessed she
might be coming down with Alamos
fever. He'd seen us arrive,
of course, and that had bothered
him. Then when the plane landed
she'd come up again, acting out
of her head, but when she'd seen
the Pilot and us going for him
she'd given that scream and collapsed
at the top of the shaft.
He'd figured the only thing he
could do for her was keep us
occupied. Besides, now that he
knew for sure we were murderers
he'd started to burn with the
desire to talk to us and maybe
help us quit killing if we seemed
to want to. It was only much
later, in the middle of our trip,
that he began to suspect that the
steel cubes were jet hypodermics.</p>
<p>While Pop had been telling us
all this, we hadn't been watching
the woman so closely. Now Alice
called our attention to her. Her
skin was covered with fine beads
of perspiration, like diamonds.</p>
<p>"That's a good sign," Pop said
and Alice started to wipe her off.
While she was doing that the
woman came to in a groggy sort
of way and Pop fed her some thin
soup and in the middle of his
doing it she dropped off to sleep.</p>
<p>Alice said, "Any other time I
would be wild to kill another woman
that beautiful. But she has
been so close to death that I
would feel I was robbing another
murderer. I suppose there is
more behind the change in my
feelings than that, though."</p>
<p>"Yeah, a little, I suppose,"
Pop said.</p>
<p>I didn't have anything to say
about my own feelings. Certainly
not out loud. I knew that they
had changed and that they were
still changing. It was complicated.</p>
<p>After a while it occurred to me
and Alice to worry whether we
mightn't catch this woman's sickness.
It would serve us right, of
course, but plague is plague. But
Pop reassured us. "Actually I
snagged three cubes," he said.
"That should take care of you
two. I figure I'm immune."</p>
<p>Time wore on. Pop dragged
out the harmonica, as I'd been
afraid he would, but his playing
wasn't too bad. "Tenting Tonight,"
"When Johnnie Comes
Marching Home," and such. We
had a meal.</p>
<p>The Pilot's woman woke up
again, in her full mind this time
or something like it. We were
clustered around the bed, smiling
a little I suppose and looking inquiring.
Being even assistant
nurses makes you all concerned
about the patient's health and
state of mind.</p>
<p>Pop helped her sit up a little.
She looked around. She saw me
and Alice. Recognition came into
her eyes. She drew away from us
with a look of loathing. She
didn't say a word, but the look
stayed.</p>
<p>Pop drew me aside and whispered,
"I think it would be a nice
gesture if you and Alice took a
blanket and went up and sewed
him into it. I noticed a big needle
and some thread in her satchel."
He looked me in the eye and added,
"You can't expect this woman
to feel any other way toward you,
you know. Now or ever."</p>
<p>He was right of course. I gave
Alice the high sign and we got
out.</p>
<p>No point in dwelling on the
next scene. Alice and me sewed
up in a blanket a big guy who'd
been dead a day and worked over
by vultures. That's all.</p>
<p>About the time we'd finished,
Pop came up.</p>
<p>"She chased me out," he explained.
"She's getting dressed.
When I told her about the plane,
she said she was going back to
Los Alamos. She's not fit to
travel, of course, but she's giving
herself injections. It's none of
our business. Incidentally, she
wants to take the body back with
her. I told her how we'd dropped
the serum and how you and Alice
had helped and she listened."</p>
<p>The Pilot's woman wasn't long
after Pop. She must have had
trouble getting up the shaft, she
had a little trouble even walking
straight, but she held her head
high. She was wearing a dull
silver tunic and sandals and
cloak. As she passed me and Alice
I could see the look of loathing
come back into her eyes, and her
chin went a little higher. I
thought, why shouldn't she want
us dead? Right now she probably
wants to be dead herself.</p>
<p>Pop nodded to us and we hoisted
up the body and followed her.
It was almost too heavy a load
even for the three of us.</p>
<p>As she reached the plane a silver
ladder telescoped down to her
from below the door. I thought,
<i>the Pilot must have had it keyed
to her some way, so it would let
down for her but nobody else. A
very lovely gesture.</i></p>
<p>The ladder went up after her
and we managed to lift the body
above our heads, our arms
straight, and we walked it
through the door of the plane
that way, she receiving it.</p>
<p>The door closed and we stood
back and the plane took off into
the orange haze, us watching it
until it was swallowed.</p>
<p>Pop said, "Right now, I imagine
you two feel pretty good in
a screwed-up sort of way. I know
I do. But take it from me, it
won't last. A day or two and
we're going to start feeling another
way, the <i>old</i> way, if we
don't get busy."</p>
<p>I knew he was right. You don't
shake Old Urge Number One
anything like that easy.</p>
<p>"So," said Pop, "I got places I
want to show you. Guys I want
you to meet. And there's things
to do, a lot of them. Let's get
moving."</p>
<p>So there's my story. Alice is
still with me (Urge Number Two
is even harder to shake, supposing
you wanted to) and we
haven't killed anybody lately.
(Not since the Pilot, in fact, but
it doesn't do to boast.) We're
making a stab (my language!) at
doing the sort of work Pop does
in the Deathlands. It's tough but
interesting. I still carry a knife,
but I've given Mother to Pop. He
has it strapped to him alongside
Alice's screw-in blade.</p>
<p>Atla-Hi and Alamos still seem
to be in existence, so I guess the
serum worked for them generally
as it did for the Pilot's Woman;
they haven't sent us any medals,
but they haven't sent a hangman's
squad after us either—which
is more than fair, you'll
admit. But Savannah, turned
back from Atla-Hi, is still going
strong: there's a rumor they
have an army at the gates of
Ouachita right now. We tell Pop
he'd better start preaching fast—it's
one of our standard jokes.</p>
<p>There's also a rumor that a
certain fellowship of Deathlanders
is doing surprisingly well, a
rumor that there's a new America
growing in the Deathlands—an
America that never need kill
again. But don't put too much
stock in it. Not <i>too</i> much.</p>
<p class="theend">THE END</p>
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