<h2 title="Chapter Four"><SPAN name="p39" id="p39"></SPAN><span class="pagenum"><span class="ns">[p</span>39<span class="ns">]<br/></span></span>CHAPTER FOUR</h2>
<p>In the final analysis, he was just too tired to
attempt an explanation - not physically worn out,
but mentally. Since just before dawn, he felt as
though he had been on a fantastic merry-go-round.
Feeling a bit strange, he allowed her to lead him
upstairs to the bedroom. The sight of one bed
startled him, even though it was a rather large
double. He slid eyes sideways, caught her smiling
coyly and forced a grin. She installed him in the
bathroom, tossed a pair of pajamas to him and
left him alone.</p>
<p>He took a long time showering and shaving.
Then when he could avoid it no longer, he went
into the bedroom. She was combing her long
satiny hair at the dresser and had slipped into
an aqua colored nightgown. For a moment, his
breath caught in amazement, then he slid between
the sheets of the bed and watched her. Finally
she stopped combing and walked over to look
down at him. He looked back, feeling a little
like a caged animal - but enjoying it.</p>
<p>She fell to her knees beside the bed, her eyes
shining with happiness. The red lipped smile
was again tugging at her full mouth. Her fingers
wound gently in his hair and the warm pressure
of her soft breasts rested boldly upon his arm
as though they knew they belonged there.</p>
<p>“I love you so much, Nick,” she whispered,
her eyes half closed.</p>
<p>He reached out a hand to touch her cheek and
the softness of it against his fingers alarmed him,
thrilled him. He knew what he had to tell her, but
it was a long time in coming. “I ... I love you too,
<SPAN name="p40" id="p40"></SPAN><span class="pagenum"><span class="ns">[p</span>40<span class="ns">]
</span></span>Beth,” he whispered.</p>
<p>Her soft, moist lips came gently down upon
his like a twin promise of the offering of love
that awaited him and he felt his own lips responding.
A slight tremor ran through him as
her fingers flicked at the wall and the room became
sheathed in darkness. Moonlight filtered
through the curtains and she moved into the bed,
her lithe shape molding into the hardness of his.
Her voice was a warm breath in his ear and her
arms slid over his chest while she talked.</p>
<p>“You don’t love me, darling. That’s the whole
trouble. We love with our minds, and love is an
accumulation of a million memories - but you have
lost yours. I know, I know. To you...”</p>
<p>“Beth,” he began but she clamped her hand
over his mouth.</p>
<p>“To you, darling, I’m a stranger, just another
woman. I know I can’t be anything more right
now. You’ll have to learn to love me again.</p>
<p>“But me? Nick, it’s different with me. I’ve
waited for thirteen long months for you to love
me again, and by some miracle you’ve come back.
You’re here and so am I. I love you and I want
you. Oh, darling, pretend I’m a whore; pretend
I’m anything ... but make love to me. Pay no attention
to anything except to me...”</p>
<p>His mouth folded over hers, shutting off the
flow of words in a passionate kiss, while his
hands smoothed down over the wisp of silk that
kept his fingers from her flesh. Her arms clung
to him tightly.</p>
<p>“It won’t be hard, Beth,” he whispered against
the side of her face. “You’re beautiful ... it won’t
be hard to love you...”</p>
<p>Then she twisted from him, making a memory
<SPAN name="p41" id="p41"></SPAN><span class="pagenum"><span class="ns">[p</span>41<span class="ns">]
</span></span>of the film of nightgown that had kept his hands
away from her. He moved to her, his fingers
stroking her into passion while she pulled his
face down to the soft thrust of her breasts. Then
she was clamped against him and struggling to
get even closer, her body making a prison for
him ... yet at the same time giving him freedom.</p>
<p>Later, when she slept, he propped himself on
one elbow to study the soft lines of her face. Then
he too dropped off to sleep.</p>
<p class="tb"> </p>
<p>His uniform was torn by the purple bushes and
their nine inch thorns, and streamers of blood
painted the rich blue and yellow of his trousers.
His face was smeared with grey, pasty dirt and
the hand that held the auto-pistol was wet with
sweat. His stomach had rolled into a tight ball
within him and he was frightened.</p>
<p>They were out there somewhere, waiting for
the sound of his black leather boots to clatter
on one of the grey-green rocks that littered the
hillside. They would find him. Their damned
radar antennae would spot him for them. There
was no escape from the bastards, and he knew it.
Commander Imry had bungled every damned assignment
he’d been given, and now Firstspacer
Lors would have to die in the supreme bungle that
had created the first native uprising on Thista.
He looked up along the face of the high mountain
in his rear. Nothing moved in the greenish-purple
scrub, but he knew they were there.</p>
<p>He peered over the edge of the rock into the
valley, a hundred and fifty <i>kinos</i> away. The patrol
<SPAN name="p42" id="p42"></SPAN><span class="pagenum"><span class="ns">[p</span>42<span class="ns">]
</span></span>car was still there, its driver lying grotesquely
just a few feet from the hatch. The thick, heavy
spear through his chest resembled a finger pointing
toward the violet sky. Closer to him, on the
slope, one of the enemy lay dying, a greenish-brown
fluid pumping spasmodically from the hole
put in his chest by the auto-pistol. The alien’s
huge yellow eyes blinked owlishly and the slash-like
mouth worked as if he wanted to call for help.
But no sound came. The antennae swiveled limply
as he tried to locate his comrades, but they
drooped as the alien died.</p>
<p>Still tightly clutching the auto-pistol, he watched
the thin, grey antennae fall to the ground. They
pointed off to the left. He swung about and looked
in the direction the native had been scanning, but
he could see no movement beyond the swaying
of the desert grass moving in the faint breath
of air.</p>
<p>They should have gotten the message. By now,
there was probably a ship on its way to him. He
had to hold out until they got here. He flipped
open the cartridge box and checked his ammunition.
Plenty. Of course, the auto-pistol only held
fifteen shots and if they rushed him... He wished
fervently that he had thought to bring the projectile
launcher from the wrecked patrol car.</p>
<p>Damned natives and their uprisings!</p>
<p>He searched the sky anxiously, cold sweat
trickling off his forehead in tiny rivulets. Scenes
of other uprisings flickered through his brain,
and more horrible scenes of the remains of
tortured captives when he reached them too late.
Those had been small. This one was for real.</p>
<p>The native seemed to materialize out of the
ground, screaming shrill obscenities as he drew
<SPAN name="p43" id="p43"></SPAN><span class="pagenum"><span class="ns">[p</span>43<span class="ns">]
</span></span>himself to his full nine feet of height and
brandished the heavy maul over his head. He came
leaping over the ground and up the hill of tumbled
rocks in fiendish rage, his grey antennae pointed
directly at Firstspacer Lors. Behind him came
the others, eight of them.</p>
<p>He fired the auto-pistol at the lead alien,
watching the bullet tear a hole in his face, ripping
away one of the blinking yellow eyes. The alien
screamed and fell blubbering. He fired again and
again, dropping two more before the charge
broke.</p>
<p>Then suddenly, at a sound, he whirled and stared
terrified at the alien behind him. The charge
had been a fake, an old military stunt that any
green Spacer could have seen through. For one
brief instant, he stared into the large eyes of
the native. Then he fired. Another native rose
from the ground, then another and another. He
fired repeatedly, crying and cursing in his rage
at the weapon’s inefficiency, while over his
head he heard the roaring of the rescue ship.</p>
<p>Tongues of flame soared over his head and into
the surging mass of aliens. He hoped the ship was
not too late...</p>
<p class="tb"> </p>
<p>“Nick! Nick, darling!”</p>
<p>He awoke, his face drenched with sweat and his
stomach a tight knot of fear. He reached out, in
his fright, and grabbed the woman at his side,
pulling her into his arms to hold her tightly. She
stroked his hair, kissed his face and whispered
soothing words into his ear.</p>
<p><SPAN name="p44" id="p44"></SPAN><span class="pagenum"><span class="ns">[p</span>44<span class="ns">]<br
/></span></span>“What is it, Nick?”</p>
<p>He relaxed his grip and laid his head back on
the pillow. In the bright light of the moon, he looked
at her and returned to himself. Those monsters!
So vivid<!-- TN: original reads 'vived' -->!</p>
<p>“Nightmare,” he croaked hoarsely.</p>
<p>She smiled, her lips glistening in the moonlight,
and kissed him gently. “The apple pie,” she suggested.
“Nightmares are usually caused by eating
before bed.”</p>
<p>“It was so real,” he muttered. “So real. I ... I
was on another planet ... I wore a blue uniform
with yellow stripes on the legs and my name was
Lors, or Lars. The natives, horrible monsters,
were in a state of revolution ... they killed my
driver. I was alone and they were all around
me...”</p>
<p>“Science fiction,” she cooed and stroked his
hair. “I think it’s a good sign. All you ever read,
for relaxation, was science fiction. Your dream
was probably a story you once read and your mind
put you in the hero’s place.”</p>
<p>He sat up and looked at her. “Did I cry out?”</p>
<p>“You were mumbling. I couldn’t hear what you
said. Then you began sobbing and thrashing about.”</p>
<p>Nick ran his fingers through his hair and over
the back of his neck, the reality of the dream
almost too much for him. It wasn’t an ordinary
nightmare where he would be running, with a huge
monster panting in pursuit. This was frightening.
Like a memory. Like some damned fantastic
memory.</p>
<p>He stood up and patted her shoulder. “Go back
to sleep, Beth,” he told her gently. “I’m going
downstairs.”</p>
<p>“Shall I turn on a light?”</p>
<p><SPAN name="p45" id="p45"></SPAN><span class="pagenum"><span class="ns">[p</span>45<span class="ns">]<br
/></span></span>“No. It might cause the neighbors to wonder.”
He walked to the door of the bedroom. “The moon
is bright enough.”</p>
<p>He walked into the hall, feeling his way in the
dark places, and down the stairs into the living
room. As he sat in the chair near the window, he
thought about the dream. It bothered him, because
it was unlike a dream; it had the weird consistency
and logic of a memory, yet seemed almost supernatural ... Hell,
what kind of thing had huge, yellow
eyes and stood nine feet tall? What sort of a world
had a violet sky and grey-green rocks? The whole
damned thing had the scent of a Walt Disney movie,
the colors vivid and sharp, the landscape seemingly
done by a watercolor brush.</p>
<p><em>Thista.</em></p>
<p>Apparently it was some kind of planet and he
hoped that Beth was right. Would it be possible
for a man to get so confused via a crack on the
head, that he believed he had lived through the
literature he’d once read? What would he dream
about next? <cite>Macbeth?</cite> <cite>Treasure Island?</cite> Christ,
what a world!</p>
<p>If he could get to a doctor, a headshrinker, it
might all be ironed out. They would get things
squared away in a short while, but hell ... suppose
I’m Public Enemy Number One, or something.
Thirteen months! In thirteen months kings have
been broken, dynasties crushed ... What had
happened to him in the thirteen months that he had
been out of touch? One thing he was sure of; he
hadn’t been laying around. In a stretch of time
like that, he had worked, eaten, slept, loved ... Maybe
he had married again! An almost comical
thought, compared to the possibility that he could
be a killer, a bank robber; there were a million
<SPAN name="p46" id="p46"></SPAN><span class="pagenum"><span class="ns">[p</span>46<span class="ns">]
</span></span>things he could have done.</p>
<p>A psychologist? Nope. That was out of the question,
until he knew more about Nicholas Danson.
And learning more about himself would be a real
problem. The cabin that Beth had spoken of would
probably show him nothing. After a period of a
year, there would be damned little trail left to
hunt along. There would be almost nothing. Whatever
had been there, would have probably been
sifted through by the guy, the detective, Nolan
Brice. Brice! Of all the friends for him to have,
he had to be saddled to Brice! He’d have to be
real careful where that character was concerned
because the slightest slip would set the cop on his
trail like a blood hound.</p>
<p>The crackup? Now there was something. He
would always be stuck with the question of how
he had managed to get out of that mangled mass
of metal with merely cuts and bruises. But he
could chalk that up to dumb luck, or something.
The thing that worried him was had he left a
clue that could trace him here? He had burned
the flying suit ... he had tried to cover it up to
Andy ... A lot of things about the smashed aircraft
bothered him. Things like the flying suit;
it had been made of strange material; but hell,
he’d burned that thing. There would be no problem
with that.</p>
<p>Almost without realizing it, he found himself
staring at the car that was parked on the other
side of the street. The streetlight gleamed on
the black paint of the Chevrolet sedan and he
thought of what Andy had told him earlier about
the men who had been interested in finding him.
Looking at the car much closer, he could see
the two men sitting in it. The knot of fear
<SPAN name="p47" id="p47"></SPAN><span class="pagenum"><span class="ns">[p</span>47<span class="ns">]
</span></span>returned to his stomach when he saw the light
shining on the driver’s blond hair.</p>
<p>The men from Andy’s gas station!</p>
<p>“Nick?”</p>
<p>It was Beth. She had followed him down and he
could see her framed in the doorway at the foot
of the stairs. She had slipped into a nightgown
that, in the moonlight, was more alluring than if
she had been nude. She started to speak, but he
hissed at her for silence.</p>
<p>“Come here, Beth,” he instructed, “and don’t
put on a light.”</p>
<p>Her bare feet whispered on the rug as she came
to his side in obvious bewilderment. He pointed
out the car and the two men, telling her about
how they had inquired after him at the gas
station. She listened quietly.</p>
<p>“What do they want?” She asked, when he’d
finished.</p>
<p>She was sitting on the arm of the chair, leaning
against him to study the car. The soft pressure
of her breasts was disturbing and conjured up
memories of early in the evening.</p>
<p>“What do they want?” She asked again.</p>
<p>“I don’t know. That’s something I have to find
out. Listen, give me a minute to get to the upstairs
window. Then snap on the light and move
around. They’re probably looking for me and I
want to give them the impression I’m not here.”</p>
<p>“All right, Nick.”</p>
<p>He got up and threaded his way to the stairs
and up to kneel before the bedroom window that
fronted on the street. Through the gap in the
curtains, he could see the car plainly. The light
snapped on downstairs. For a moment, nothing
happened; the men merely sat in the car and
<SPAN name="p48" id="p48"></SPAN><span class="pagenum"><span class="ns">[p</span>48<span class="ns">]
</span></span>watched the house. Finally the car began moving
down the street with its lights out. Then, out of
range, the driver flicked on the lights and the
car disappeared. The downstairs light snapped
off and a moment later Beth came into the room.</p>
<p>“Nick?”</p>
<p>“Here.”</p>
<p>“Perhaps they saw the crash...” she began,
but he cut her off short.</p>
<p>“No one saw me crash.”</p>
<p>“I mean, later,” she explained. “After all,
a wrecked car on a highway would...”</p>
<p>“Car? Beth, I didn’t crack up in a car. I
crashed on a wooded mountain in a private plane.”</p>
<p>“Oh, darling, don’t be silly! You’ve never been
in a plane in your life.”</p>
<p>In the darkness of the room, Nick could only
stare in stunned amazement at the moonlit outline
of his wife.</p>
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