<h2>CHAPTER I—START IN LIFE</h2>
<p>I was born in the year 1632, in the city of York, of a good
family, though not of that country, my father being a foreigner
of Bremen, who settled first at Hull. He got a good estate
by merchandise, and leaving off his trade, lived afterwards at
York, from whence he had married my mother, whose relations were
named Robinson, a very good family in that country, and from whom
I was called Robinson Kreutznaer; but, by the usual corruption of
words in England, we are now called—nay we call ourselves
and write our name—Crusoe; and so my companions always
called me.</p>
<p>I had two elder brothers, one of whom was lieutenant-colonel
to an English regiment of foot in Flanders, formerly commanded by
the famous Colonel Lockhart, and was killed at the battle near
Dunkirk against the Spaniards. What became of my second
brother I never knew, any more than my father or mother knew what
became of me.</p>
<p>Being the third son of the family and not bred to any trade,
my head began to be filled very early with rambling
thoughts. My father, who was very ancient, had given me a
competent share of learning, as far as house-education and a
country free school generally go, and designed me for the law;
but I would be satisfied with nothing but going to sea; and my
inclination to this led me so strongly against the will, nay, the
commands of my father, and against all the entreaties and
persuasions of my mother and other friends, that there seemed to
be something fatal in that propensity of nature, tending directly
to the life of misery which was to befall me.</p>
<p>My father, a wise and grave man, gave me serious and excellent
counsel against what he foresaw was my design. He called me
one morning into his chamber, where he was confined by the gout,
and expostulated very warmly with me upon this subject. He
asked me what reasons, more than a mere wandering inclination, I
had for leaving father’s house and my native country, where
I might be well introduced, and had a prospect of raising my
fortune by application and industry, with a life of ease and
pleasure. He told me it was men of desperate fortunes on
one hand, or of aspiring, superior fortunes on the other, who
went abroad upon adventures, to rise by enterprise, and make
themselves famous in undertakings of a nature out of the common
road; that these things were all either too far above me or too
far below me; that mine was the middle state, or what might be
called the upper station of low life, which he had found, by long
experience, was the best state in the world, the most suited to
human happiness, not exposed to the miseries and hardships, the
labour and sufferings of the mechanic part of mankind, and not
embarrassed with the pride, luxury, ambition, and envy of the
upper part of mankind. He told me I might judge of the
happiness of this state by this one thing—viz. that this
was the state of life which all other people envied; that kings
have frequently lamented the miserable consequence of being born
to great things, and wished they had been placed in the middle of
the two extremes, between the mean and the great; that the wise
man gave his testimony to this, as the standard of felicity, when
he prayed to have neither poverty nor riches.</p>
<p>He bade me observe it, and I should always find that the
calamities of life were shared among the upper and lower part of
mankind, but that the middle station had the fewest disasters,
and was not exposed to so many vicissitudes as the higher or
lower part of mankind; nay, they were not subjected to so many
distempers and uneasinesses, either of body or mind, as those
were who, by vicious living, luxury, and extravagances on the one
hand, or by hard labour, want of necessaries, and mean or
insufficient diet on the other hand, bring distemper upon
themselves by the natural consequences of their way of living;
that the middle station of life was calculated for all kind of
virtue and all kind of enjoyments; that peace and plenty were the
handmaids of a middle fortune; that temperance, moderation,
quietness, health, society, all agreeable diversions, and all
desirable pleasures, were the blessings attending the middle
station of life; that this way men went silently and smoothly
through the world, and comfortably out of it, not embarrassed
with the labours of the hands or of the head, not sold to a life
of slavery for daily bread, nor harassed with perplexed
circumstances, which rob the soul of peace and the body of rest,
nor enraged with the passion of envy, or the secret burning lust
of ambition for great things; but, in easy circumstances, sliding
gently through the world, and sensibly tasting the sweets of
living, without the bitter; feeling that they are happy, and
learning by every day’s experience to know it more
sensibly.</p>
<p>After this he pressed me earnestly, and in the most
affectionate manner, not to play the young man, nor to
precipitate myself into miseries which nature, and the station of
life I was born in, seemed to have provided against; that I was
under no necessity of seeking my bread; that he would do well for
me, and endeavour to enter me fairly into the station of life
which he had just been recommending to me; and that if I was not
very easy and happy in the world, it must be my mere fate or
fault that must hinder it; and that he should have nothing to
answer for, having thus discharged his duty in warning me against
measures which he knew would be to my hurt; in a word, that as he
would do very kind things for me if I would stay and settle at
home as he directed, so he would not have so much hand in my
misfortunes as to give me any encouragement to go away; and to
close all, he told me I had my elder brother for an example, to
whom he had used the same earnest persuasions to keep him from
going into the Low Country wars, but could not prevail, his young
desires prompting him to run into the army, where he was killed;
and though he said he would not cease to pray for me, yet he
would venture to say to me, that if I did take this foolish step,
God would not bless me, and I should have leisure hereafter to
reflect upon having neglected his counsel when there might be
none to assist in my recovery.</p>
<p>I observed in this last part of his discourse, which was truly
prophetic, though I suppose my father did not know it to be so
himself—I say, I observed the tears run down his face very
plentifully, especially when he spoke of my brother who was
killed: and that when he spoke of my having leisure to repent,
and none to assist me, he was so moved that he broke off the
discourse, and told me his heart was so full he could say no more
to me.</p>
<p>I was sincerely affected with this discourse, and, indeed, who
could be otherwise? and I resolved not to think of going abroad
any more, but to settle at home according to my father’s
desire. But alas! a few days wore it all off; and, in
short, to prevent any of my father’s further importunities,
in a few weeks after I resolved to run quite away from him.
However, I did not act quite so hastily as the first heat of my
resolution prompted; but I took my mother at a time when I
thought her a little more pleasant than ordinary, and told her
that my thoughts were so entirely bent upon seeing the world that
I should never settle to anything with resolution enough to go
through with it, and my father had better give me his consent
than force me to go without it; that I was now eighteen years
old, which was too late to go apprentice to a trade or clerk to
an attorney; that I was sure if I did I should never serve out my
time, but I should certainly run away from my master before my
time was out, and go to sea; and if she would speak to my father
to let me go one voyage abroad, if I came home again, and did not
like it, I would go no more; and I would promise, by a double
diligence, to recover the time that I had lost.</p>
<p>This put my mother into a great passion; she told me she knew
it would be to no purpose to speak to my father upon any such
subject; that he knew too well what was my interest to give his
consent to anything so much for my hurt; and that she wondered
how I could think of any such thing after the discourse I had had
with my father, and such kind and tender expressions as she knew
my father had used to me; and that, in short, if I would ruin
myself, there was no help for me; but I might depend I should
never have their consent to it; that for her part she would not
have so much hand in my destruction; and I should never have it
to say that my mother was willing when my father was not.</p>
<p>Though my mother refused to move it to my father, yet I heard
afterwards that she reported all the discourse to him, and that
my father, after showing a great concern at it, said to her, with
a sigh, “That boy might be happy if he would stay at home;
but if he goes abroad, he will be the most miserable wretch that
ever was born: I can give no consent to it.”</p>
<p>It was not till almost a year after this that I broke loose,
though, in the meantime, I continued obstinately deaf to all
proposals of settling to business, and frequently expostulated
with my father and mother about their being so positively
determined against what they knew my inclinations prompted me
to. But being one day at Hull, where I went casually, and
without any purpose of making an elopement at that time; but, I
say, being there, and one of my companions being about to sail to
London in his father’s ship, and prompting me to go with
them with the common allurement of seafaring men, that it should
cost me nothing for my passage, I consulted neither father nor
mother any more, nor so much as sent them word of it; but leaving
them to hear of it as they might, without asking God’s
blessing or my father’s, without any consideration of
circumstances or consequences, and in an ill hour, God knows, on
the 1st of September 1651, I went on board a ship bound for
London. Never any young adventurer’s misfortunes, I
believe, began sooner, or continued longer than mine. The
ship was no sooner out of the Humber than the wind began to blow
and the sea to rise in a most frightful manner; and, as I had
never been at sea before, I was most inexpressibly sick in body
and terrified in mind. I began now seriously to reflect
upon what I had done, and how justly I was overtaken by the
judgment of Heaven for my wicked leaving my father’s house,
and abandoning my duty. All the good counsels of my
parents, my father’s tears and my mother’s
entreaties, came now fresh into my mind; and my conscience, which
was not yet come to the pitch of hardness to which it has since,
reproached me with the contempt of advice, and the breach of my
duty to God and my father.</p>
<p>All this while the storm increased, and the sea went very
high, though nothing like what I have seen many times since; no,
nor what I saw a few days after; but it was enough to affect me
then, who was but a young sailor, and had never known anything of
the matter. I expected every wave would have swallowed us
up, and that every time the ship fell down, as I thought it did,
in the trough or hollow of the sea, we should never rise more; in
this agony of mind, I made many vows and resolutions that if it
would please God to spare my life in this one voyage, if ever I
got once my foot upon dry land again, I would go directly home to
my father, and never set it into a ship again while I lived; that
I would take his advice, and never run myself into such miseries
as these any more. Now I saw plainly the goodness of his
observations about the middle station of life, how easy, how
comfortably he had lived all his days, and never had been exposed
to tempests at sea or troubles on shore; and I resolved that I
would, like a true repenting prodigal, go home to my father.</p>
<p>These wise and sober thoughts continued all the while the
storm lasted, and indeed some time after; but the next day the
wind was abated, and the sea calmer, and I began to be a little
inured to it; however, I was very grave for all that day, being
also a little sea-sick still; but towards night the weather
cleared up, the wind was quite over, and a charming fine evening
followed; the sun went down perfectly clear, and rose so the next
morning; and having little or no wind, and a smooth sea, the sun
shining upon it, the sight was, as I thought, the most delightful
that ever I saw.</p>
<p>I had slept well in the night, and was now no more sea-sick,
but very cheerful, looking with wonder upon the sea that was so
rough and terrible the day before, and could be so calm and so
pleasant in so little a time after. And now, lest my good
resolutions should continue, my companion, who had enticed me
away, comes to me; “Well, Bob,” says he, clapping me
upon the shoulder, “how do you do after it? I warrant
you were frighted, wer’n’t you, last night, when it
blew but a capful of wind?” “A capful
d’you call it?” said I; “’twas a terrible
storm.” “A storm, you fool you,” replies
he; “do you call that a storm? why, it was nothing at all;
give us but a good ship and sea-room, and we think nothing of
such a squall of wind as that; but you’re but a fresh-water
sailor, Bob. Come, let us make a bowl of punch, and
we’ll forget all that; d’ye see what charming weather
’tis now?” To make short this sad part of my
story, we went the way of all sailors; the punch was made and I
was made half drunk with it: and in that one night’s
wickedness I drowned all my repentance, all my reflections upon
my past conduct, all my resolutions for the future. In a
word, as the sea was returned to its smoothness of surface and
settled calmness by the abatement of that storm, so the hurry of
my thoughts being over, my fears and apprehensions of being
swallowed up by the sea being forgotten, and the current of my
former desires returned, I entirely forgot the vows and promises
that I made in my distress. I found, indeed, some intervals
of reflection; and the serious thoughts did, as it were,
endeavour to return again sometimes; but I shook them off, and
roused myself from them as it were from a distemper, and applying
myself to drinking and company, soon mastered the return of those
fits—for so I called them; and I had in five or six days
got as complete a victory over conscience as any young fellow
that resolved not to be troubled with it could desire. But
I was to have another trial for it still; and Providence, as in
such cases generally it does, resolved to leave me entirely
without excuse; for if I would not take this for a deliverance,
the next was to be such a one as the worst and most hardened
wretch among us would confess both the danger and the mercy
of.</p>
<p>The sixth day of our being at sea we came into Yarmouth Roads;
the wind having been contrary and the weather calm, we had made
but little way since the storm. Here we were obliged to
come to an anchor, and here we lay, the wind continuing
contrary—viz. at south-west—for seven or eight days,
during which time a great many ships from Newcastle came into the
same Roads, as the common harbour where the ships might wait for
a wind for the river.</p>
<p>We had not, however, rid here so long but we should have tided
it up the river, but that the wind blew too fresh, and after we
had lain four or five days, blew very hard. However, the
Roads being reckoned as good as a harbour, the anchorage good,
and our ground-tackle very strong, our men were unconcerned, and
not in the least apprehensive of danger, but spent the time in
rest and mirth, after the manner of the sea; but the eighth day,
in the morning, the wind increased, and we had all hands at work
to strike our topmasts, and make everything snug and close, that
the ship might ride as easy as possible. By noon the sea
went very high indeed, and our ship rode forecastle in, shipped
several seas, and we thought once or twice our anchor had come
home; upon which our master ordered out the sheet-anchor, so that
we rode with two anchors ahead, and the cables veered out to the
bitter end.</p>
<p>By this time it blew a terrible storm indeed; and now I began
to see terror and amazement in the faces even of the seamen
themselves. The master, though vigilant in the business of
preserving the ship, yet as he went in and out of his cabin by
me, I could hear him softly to himself say, several times,
“Lord be merciful to us! we shall be all lost! we shall be
all undone!” and the like. During these first hurries
I was stupid, lying still in my cabin, which was in the steerage,
and cannot describe my temper: I could ill resume the first
penitence which I had so apparently trampled upon and hardened
myself against: I thought the bitterness of death had been past,
and that this would be nothing like the first; but when the
master himself came by me, as I said just now, and said we should
be all lost, I was dreadfully frighted. I got up out of my
cabin and looked out; but such a dismal sight I never saw: the
sea ran mountains high, and broke upon us every three or four
minutes; when I could look about, I could see nothing but
distress round us; two ships that rode near us, we found, had cut
their masts by the board, being deep laden; and our men cried out
that a ship which rode about a mile ahead of us was
foundered. Two more ships, being driven from their anchors,
were run out of the Roads to sea, at all adventures, and that
with not a mast standing. The light ships fared the best,
as not so much labouring in the sea; but two or three of them
drove, and came close by us, running away with only their
spritsail out before the wind.</p>
<p>Towards evening the mate and boatswain begged the master of
our ship to let them cut away the fore-mast, which he was very
unwilling to do; but the boatswain protesting to him that if he
did not the ship would founder, he consented; and when they had
cut away the fore-mast, the main-mast stood so loose, and shook
the ship so much, they were obliged to cut that away also, and
make a clear deck.</p>
<p>Any one may judge what a condition I must be in at all this,
who was but a young sailor, and who had been in such a fright
before at but a little. But if I can express at this
distance the thoughts I had about me at that time, I was in
tenfold more horror of mind upon account of my former
convictions, and the having returned from them to the resolutions
I had wickedly taken at first, than I was at death itself; and
these, added to the terror of the storm, put me into such a
condition that I can by no words describe it. But the worst
was not come yet; the storm continued with such fury that the
seamen themselves acknowledged they had never seen a worse.
We had a good ship, but she was deep laden, and wallowed in the
sea, so that the seamen every now and then cried out she would
founder. It was my advantage in one respect, that I did not
know what they meant by <i>founder</i> till I inquired.
However, the storm was so violent that I saw, what is not often
seen, the master, the boatswain, and some others more sensible
than the rest, at their prayers, and expecting every moment when
the ship would go to the bottom. In the middle of the
night, and under all the rest of our distresses, one of the men
that had been down to see cried out we had sprung a leak; another
said there was four feet water in the hold. Then all hands
were called to the pump. At that word, my heart, as I
thought, died within me: and I fell backwards upon the side of my
bed where I sat, into the cabin. However, the men roused
me, and told me that I, that was able to do nothing before, was
as well able to pump as another; at which I stirred up and went
to the pump, and worked very heartily. While this was doing
the master, seeing some light colliers, who, not able to ride out
the storm were obliged to slip and run away to sea, and would
come near us, ordered to fire a gun as a signal of
distress. I, who knew nothing what they meant, thought the
ship had broken, or some dreadful thing happened. In a
word, I was so surprised that I fell down in a swoon. As
this was a time when everybody had his own life to think of,
nobody minded me, or what was become of me; but another man
stepped up to the pump, and thrusting me aside with his foot, let
me lie, thinking I had been dead; and it was a great while before
I came to myself.</p>
<p>We worked on; but the water increasing in the hold, it was
apparent that the ship would founder; and though the storm began
to abate a little, yet it was not possible she could swim till we
might run into any port; so the master continued firing guns for
help; and a light ship, who had rid it out just ahead of us,
ventured a boat out to help us. It was with the utmost
hazard the boat came near us; but it was impossible for us to get
on board, or for the boat to lie near the ship’s side, till
at last the men rowing very heartily, and venturing their lives
to save ours, our men cast them a rope over the stern with a buoy
to it, and then veered it out a great length, which they, after
much labour and hazard, took hold of, and we hauled them close
under our stern, and got all into their boat. It was to no
purpose for them or us, after we were in the boat, to think of
reaching their own ship; so all agreed to let her drive, and only
to pull her in towards shore as much as we could; and our master
promised them, that if the boat was staved upon shore, he would
make it good to their master: so partly rowing and partly
driving, our boat went away to the northward, sloping towards the
shore almost as far as Winterton Ness.</p>
<p>We were not much more than a quarter of an hour out of our
ship till we saw her sink, and then I understood for the first
time what was meant by a ship foundering in the sea. I must
acknowledge I had hardly eyes to look up when the seamen told me
she was sinking; for from the moment that they rather put me into
the boat than that I might be said to go in, my heart was, as it
were, dead within me, partly with fright, partly with horror of
mind, and the thoughts of what was yet before me.</p>
<p>While we were in this condition—the men yet labouring at
the oar to bring the boat near the shore—we could see
(when, our boat mounting the waves, we were able to see the
shore) a great many people running along the strand to assist us
when we should come near; but we made but slow way towards the
shore; nor were we able to reach the shore till, being past the
lighthouse at Winterton, the shore falls off to the westward
towards Cromer, and so the land broke off a little the violence
of the wind. Here we got in, and though not without much
difficulty, got all safe on shore, and walked afterwards on foot
to Yarmouth, where, as unfortunate men, we were used with great
humanity, as well by the magistrates of the town, who assigned us
good quarters, as by particular merchants and owners of ships,
and had money given us sufficient to carry us either to London or
back to Hull as we thought fit.</p>
<p>Had I now had the sense to have gone back to Hull, and have
gone home, I had been happy, and my father, as in our blessed
Saviour’s parable, had even killed the fatted calf for me;
for hearing the ship I went away in was cast away in Yarmouth
Roads, it was a great while before he had any assurances that I
was not drowned.</p>
<p>But my ill fate pushed me on now with an obstinacy that
nothing could resist; and though I had several times loud calls
from my reason and my more composed judgment to go home, yet I
had no power to do it. I know not what to call this, nor
will I urge that it is a secret overruling decree, that hurries
us on to be the instruments of our own destruction, even though
it be before us, and that we rush upon it with our eyes
open. Certainly, nothing but some such decreed unavoidable
misery, which it was impossible for me to escape, could have
pushed me forward against the calm reasonings and persuasions of
my most retired thoughts, and against two such visible
instructions as I had met with in my first attempt.</p>
<p>My comrade, who had helped to harden me before, and who was
the master’s son, was now less forward than I. The
first time he spoke to me after we were at Yarmouth, which was
not till two or three days, for we were separated in the town to
several quarters; I say, the first time he saw me, it appeared
his tone was altered; and, looking very melancholy, and shaking
his head, he asked me how I did, and telling his father who I
was, and how I had come this voyage only for a trial, in order to
go further abroad, his father, turning to me with a very grave
and concerned tone “Young man,” says he, “you
ought never to go to sea any more; you ought to take this for a
plain and visible token that you are not to be a seafaring
man.” “Why, sir,” said I, “will you
go to sea no more?” “That is another
case,” said he; “it is my calling, and therefore my
duty; but as you made this voyage on trial, you see what a taste
Heaven has given you of what you are to expect if you
persist. Perhaps this has all befallen us on your account,
like Jonah in the ship of Tarshish. Pray,” continues
he, “what are you; and on what account did you go to
sea?” Upon that I told him some of my story; at the
end of which he burst out into a strange kind of passion:
“What had I done,” says he, “that such an
unhappy wretch should come into my ship? I would not set my
foot in the same ship with thee again for a thousand
pounds.” This indeed was, as I said, an excursion of
his spirits, which were yet agitated by the sense of his loss,
and was farther than he could have authority to go.
However, he afterwards talked very gravely to me, exhorting me to
go back to my father, and not tempt Providence to my ruin,
telling me I might see a visible hand of Heaven against me.
“And, young man,” said he, “depend upon it, if
you do not go back, wherever you go, you will meet with nothing
but disasters and disappointments, till your father’s words
are fulfilled upon you.”</p>
<p>We parted soon after; for I made him little answer, and I saw
him no more; which way he went I knew not. As for me,
having some money in my pocket, I travelled to London by land;
and there, as well as on the road, had many struggles with myself
what course of life I should take, and whether I should go home
or to sea.</p>
<p>As to going home, shame opposed the best motions that offered
to my thoughts, and it immediately occurred to me how I should be
laughed at among the neighbours, and should be ashamed to see,
not my father and mother only, but even everybody else; from
whence I have since often observed, how incongruous and
irrational the common temper of mankind is, especially of youth,
to that reason which ought to guide them in such cases—viz.
that they are not ashamed to sin, and yet are ashamed to repent;
not ashamed of the action for which they ought justly to be
esteemed fools, but are ashamed of the returning, which only can
make them be esteemed wise men.</p>
<p>In this state of life, however, I remained some time,
uncertain what measures to take, and what course of life to
lead. An irresistible reluctance continued to going home;
and as I stayed away a while, the remembrance of the distress I
had been in wore off, and as that abated, the little motion I had
in my desires to return wore off with it, till at last I quite
laid aside the thoughts of it, and looked out for a voyage.</p>
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