<SPAN name="chap19"></SPAN><h2>CHAPTER XIX</h2>
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<p>POLITIC REPENTANCE</p>
<p>Perhaps no one—not even Mrs. Merrick—was
so unhappy in consequence of the lamentable
crime that had been committed as Diana Von
Taer. Immediately after her interview with Beth
her mood changed, and she would have given
worlds to be free from complicity in the abduction.
Bitterly, indeed, she reproached herself for her
enmity toward the unsuspecting girl, an innocent
victim of Diana's own vain desires and Charles
Mershone's heartless wiles. Repenting her folly
and reasoning out the thing when it was too late,
Diana saw clearly that she had gained no possible
advantage, but had thoughtlessly conspired
to ruin the reputation of an honest, ingenuous girl.</p>
<p>Not long ago she had said that her life was dull,
a stupid round of social functions that bored her
dreadfully. She had hoped by adopting John
Merrick's nieces as her <i>protégées</i> and introducing
them to society to find a novel and pleasurable excitement
that would serve to take her out of her
unfortunate <i>ennui</i>—a condition to which she had
practically been born.</p>
<p>But Diana had never bargained for such excitement
as this; she had never thought to win
self abhorrence by acts of petty malice and callous
cruelties.</p>
<p>Yet so intrenched was she in the conservatism
of her class that she could not at once bring herself
to the point of exposing her own guilt that
she might make amends for what had been done.
She told herself she would rather die than permit
Louise to suffer through her connivance with her
reckless, unprincipled cousin. She realized perfectly
that she ought to fly, without a moment's
delay, to the poor girl's assistance. Yet fear of
exposure, of ridicule, of loss of caste, held her a
helpless prisoner in her own home, where she
paced the floor and moaned and wrung her hands
until she was on the verge of nervous prostration.
If at any time she seemed to acquire sufficient
courage to go to Louise, a glance at the detective
watching the house unnerved her and prevented
her from carrying out her good intentions.</p>
<p>You must not believe that Diana was really
bad; her lifelong training along set lines and practical
seclusion from the everyday world were
largely responsible for her evil impulses. Mischief
is sure to crop up, in one form or another, among
the idle and ambitionless. More daring wickedness
is said to be accomplished by the wealthy and
aimless creatures of our false society than by the
poorer and uneducated classes, wherein criminals
are supposed to thrive. These sins are often unpublished,
although not always undiscovered, but
they are no more venial because they are suppressed
by wealth and power.</p>
<p>Diana Von Taer was a girl who, rightly led,
might have been capable of developing a noble
womanhood; yet the conditions of her limited environment
had induced her to countenance a most
dastardly and despicable act. It speaks well for
the innate goodness of this girl that she at last
actually rebelled and resolved to undo, insofar as
she was able, the wrong that had been accomplished.</p>
<p>For four days she suffered tortures of remorse.
On the morning of the fifth day she firmly decided
to act. Regardless of who might be watching, or
of any unpleasant consequences to herself, she
quietly left the house, unattended, and started
directly for the East Orange mansion.</p>
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