<h2><SPAN name="link2HCH0034" id="link2HCH0034"></SPAN> CHAPTER XXXIV.<br/> A Queen’s Girl</h2>
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<span class="dropcap" style="font-size: 4.00em">T</span>HE next three weeks
were busy ones at Green Gables, for Anne was getting ready to go to
Queen’s, and there was much sewing to be done, and many things to be
talked over and arranged. Anne’s outfit was ample and pretty, for Matthew
saw to that, and Marilla for once made no objections whatever to anything he
purchased or suggested. More—one evening she went up to the east gable
with her arms full of a delicate pale green material.</p>
<p>“Anne, here’s something for a nice light dress for you. I
don’t suppose you really need it; you’ve plenty of pretty waists;
but I thought maybe you’d like something real dressy to wear if you were
asked out anywhere of an evening in town, to a party or anything like that. I
hear that Jane and Ruby and Josie have got ‘evening dresses,’ as
they call them, and I don’t mean you shall be behind them. I got Mrs.
Allan to help me pick it in town last week, and we’ll get Emily Gillis to
make it for you. Emily has got taste, and her fits aren’t to be
equaled.”</p>
<p>“Oh, Marilla, it’s just lovely,” said Anne. “Thank you
so much. I don’t believe you ought to be so kind to me—it’s
making it harder every day for me to go away.”</p>
<p>The green dress was made up with as many tucks and frills and shirrings as
Emily’s taste permitted. Anne put it on one evening for Matthew’s
and Marilla’s benefit, and recited “The Maiden’s Vow”
for them in the kitchen. As Marilla watched the bright, animated face and
graceful motions her thoughts went back to the evening Anne had arrived at
Green Gables, and memory recalled a vivid picture of the odd, frightened child
in her preposterous yellowish-brown wincey dress, the heartbreak looking out of
her tearful eyes. Something in the memory brought tears to Marilla’s own
eyes.</p>
<p>“I declare, my recitation has made you cry, Marilla,” said Anne
gaily stooping over Marilla’s chair to drop a butterfly kiss on that
lady’s cheek. “Now, I call that a positive triumph.”</p>
<p>“No, I wasn’t crying over your piece,” said Marilla, who
would have scorned to be betrayed into such weakness by any poetry stuff.
“I just couldn’t help thinking of the little girl you used to be,
Anne. And I was wishing you could have stayed a little girl, even with all your
queer ways. You’ve grown up now and you’re going away; and you look
so tall and stylish and so—so—different altogether in that
dress—as if you didn’t belong in Avonlea at all—and I just
got lonesome thinking it all over.”</p>
<p>“Marilla!” Anne sat down on Marilla’s gingham lap, took
Marilla’s lined face between her hands, and looked gravely and tenderly
into Marilla’s eyes. “I’m not a bit changed—not really.
I’m only just pruned down and branched out. The real <i>me</i>—back
here—is just the same. It won’t make a bit of difference where I go
or how much I change outwardly; at heart I shall always be your little Anne,
who will love you and Matthew and dear Green Gables more and better every day
of her life.”</p>
<p>Anne laid her fresh young cheek against Marilla’s faded one, and reached
out a hand to pat Matthew’s shoulder. Marilla would have given much just
then to have possessed Anne’s power of putting her feelings into words;
but nature and habit had willed it otherwise, and she could only put her arms
close about her girl and hold her tenderly to her heart, wishing that she need
never let her go.</p>
<p>Matthew, with a suspicious moisture in his eyes, got up and went out-of-doors.
Under the stars of the blue summer night he walked agitatedly across the yard
to the gate under the poplars.</p>
<p>“Well now, I guess she ain’t been much spoiled,” he muttered,
proudly. “I guess my putting in my oar occasional never did much harm
after all. She’s smart and pretty, and loving, too, which is better than
all the rest. She’s been a blessing to us, and there never was a luckier
mistake than what Mrs. Spencer made—if it <i>was</i> luck. I don’t
believe it was any such thing. It was Providence, because the Almighty saw we
needed her, I reckon.”</p>
<p>The day finally came when Anne must go to town. She and Matthew drove in one
fine September morning, after a tearful parting with Diana and an untearful
practical one—on Marilla’s side at least—with Marilla. But
when Anne had gone Diana dried her tears and went to a beach picnic at White
Sands with some of her Carmody cousins, where she contrived to enjoy herself
tolerably well; while Marilla plunged fiercely into unnecessary work and kept
at it all day long with the bitterest kind of heartache—the ache that
burns and gnaws and cannot wash itself away in ready tears. But that night,
when Marilla went to bed, acutely and miserably conscious that the little gable
room at the end of the hall was untenanted by any vivid young life and
unstirred by any soft breathing, she buried her face in her pillow, and wept
for her girl in a passion of sobs that appalled her when she grew calm enough
to reflect how very wicked it must be to take on so about a sinful fellow
creature.</p>
<p>Anne and the rest of the Avonlea scholars reached town just in time to hurry
off to the Academy. That first day passed pleasantly enough in a whirl of
excitement, meeting all the new students, learning to know the professors by
sight and being assorted and organized into classes. Anne intended taking up
the Second Year work being advised to do so by Miss Stacy; Gilbert Blythe
elected to do the same. This meant getting a First Class teacher’s
license in one year instead of two, if they were successful; but it also meant
much more and harder work. Jane, Ruby, Josie, Charlie, and Moody Spurgeon, not
being troubled with the stirrings of ambition, were content to take up the
Second Class work. Anne was conscious of a pang of loneliness when she found
herself in a room with fifty other students, not one of whom she knew, except
the tall, brown-haired boy across the room; and knowing him in the fashion she
did, did not help her much, as she reflected pessimistically. Yet she was
undeniably glad that they were in the same class; the old rivalry could still
be carried on, and Anne would hardly have known what to do if it had been
lacking.</p>
<p>“I wouldn’t feel comfortable without it,” she thought.
“Gilbert looks awfully determined. I suppose he’s making up his
mind, here and now, to win the medal. What a splendid chin he has! I never
noticed it before. I do wish Jane and Ruby had gone in for First Class, too. I
suppose I won’t feel so much like a cat in a strange garret when I get
acquainted, though. I wonder which of the girls here are going to be my
friends. It’s really an interesting speculation. Of course I promised
Diana that no Queen’s girl, no matter how much I liked her, should ever
be as dear to me as she is; but I’ve lots of second-best affections to
bestow. I like the look of that girl with the brown eyes and the crimson waist.
She looks vivid and red-rosy; there’s that pale, fair one gazing out of
the window. She has lovely hair, and looks as if she knew a thing or two about
dreams. I’d like to know them both—know them well—well enough
to walk with my arm about their waists, and call them nicknames. But just now I
don’t know them and they don’t know me, and probably don’t
want to know me particularly. Oh, it’s lonesome!”</p>
<p>It was lonesomer still when Anne found herself alone in her hall bedroom that
night at twilight. She was not to board with the other girls, who all had
relatives in town to take pity on them. Miss Josephine Barry would have liked
to board her, but Beechwood was so far from the Academy that it was out of the
question; so Miss Barry hunted up a boarding-house, assuring Matthew and
Marilla that it was the very place for Anne.</p>
<p>“The lady who keeps it is a reduced gentlewoman,” explained Miss
Barry. “Her husband was a British officer, and she is very careful what
sort of boarders she takes. Anne will not meet with any objectionable persons
under her roof. The table is good, and the house is near the Academy, in a
quiet neighborhood.”</p>
<p>All this might be quite true, and indeed, proved to be so, but it did not
materially help Anne in the first agony of homesickness that seized upon her.
She looked dismally about her narrow little room, with its dull-papered,
pictureless walls, its small iron bedstead and empty book-case; and a horrible
choke came into her throat as she thought of her own white room at Green
Gables, where she would have the pleasant consciousness of a great green still
outdoors, of sweet peas growing in the garden, and moonlight falling on the
orchard, of the brook below the slope and the spruce boughs tossing in the
night wind beyond it, of a vast starry sky, and the light from Diana’s
window shining out through the gap in the trees. Here there was nothing of
this; Anne knew that outside of her window was a hard street, with a network of
telephone wires shutting out the sky, the tramp of alien feet, and a thousand
lights gleaming on stranger faces. She knew that she was going to cry, and
fought against it.</p>
<p>“I <i>won’t</i> cry. It’s silly—and
weak—there’s the third tear splashing down by my nose. There are
more coming! I must think of something funny to stop them. But there’s
nothing funny except what is connected with Avonlea, and that only makes things
worse—four—five—I’m going home next Friday, but that
seems a hundred years away. Oh, Matthew is nearly home by now—and Marilla
is at the gate, looking down the lane for
him—six—seven—eight—oh, there’s no use in
counting them! They’re coming in a flood presently. I can’t cheer
up—I don’t <i>want</i> to cheer up. It’s nicer to be
miserable!”</p>
<p>The flood of tears would have come, no doubt, had not Josie Pye appeared at
that moment. In the joy of seeing a familiar face Anne forgot that there had
never been much love lost between her and Josie. As a part of Avonlea life even
a Pye was welcome.</p>
<p>“I’m so glad you came up,” Anne said sincerely.</p>
<p>“You’ve been crying,” remarked Josie, with aggravating pity.
“I suppose you’re homesick—some people have so little
self-control in that respect. I’ve no intention of being homesick, I can
tell you. Town’s too jolly after that poky old Avonlea. I wonder how I
ever existed there so long. You shouldn’t cry, Anne; it isn’t
becoming, for your nose and eyes get red, and then you seem <i>all</i> red.
I’d a perfectly scrumptious time in the Academy today. Our French
professor is simply a duck. His moustache would give you kerwollowps of the
heart. Have you anything eatable around, Anne? I’m literally starving.
Ah, I guessed likely Marilla ‘d load you up with cake. That’s why I
called round. Otherwise I’d have gone to the park to hear the band play
with Frank Stockley. He boards same place as I do, and he’s a sport. He
noticed you in class today, and asked me who the red-headed girl was. I told
him you were an orphan that the Cuthberts had adopted, and nobody knew very
much about what you’d been before that.”</p>
<p>Anne was wondering if, after all, solitude and tears were not more satisfactory
than Josie Pye’s companionship when Jane and Ruby appeared, each with an
inch of Queen’s color ribbon—purple and scarlet—pinned
proudly to her coat. As Josie was not “speaking” to Jane just then
she had to subside into comparative harmlessness.</p>
<p>“Well,” said Jane with a sigh, “I feel as if I’d lived
many moons since the morning. I ought to be home studying my Virgil—that
horrid old professor gave us twenty lines to start in on tomorrow. But I simply
couldn’t settle down to study tonight. Anne, methinks I see the traces of
tears. If you’ve been crying <i>do</i> own up. It will restore my
self-respect, for I was shedding tears freely before Ruby came along. I
don’t mind being a goose so much if somebody else is goosey, too. Cake?
You’ll give me a teeny piece, won’t you? Thank you. It has the real
Avonlea flavor.”</p>
<p>Ruby, perceiving the Queen’s calendar lying on the table, wanted to know
if Anne meant to try for the gold medal.</p>
<p>Anne blushed and admitted she was thinking of it.</p>
<p>“Oh, that reminds me,” said Josie, “Queen’s is to get
one of the Avery scholarships after all. The word came today. Frank Stockley
told me—his uncle is one of the board of governors, you know. It will be
announced in the Academy tomorrow.”</p>
<p>An Avery scholarship! Anne felt her heart beat more quickly, and the horizons
of her ambition shifted and broadened as if by magic. Before Josie had told the
news Anne’s highest pinnacle of aspiration had been a teacher’s
provincial license, First Class, at the end of the year, and perhaps the medal!
But now in one moment Anne saw herself winning the Avery scholarship, taking an
Arts course at Redmond College, and graduating in a gown and mortar board,
before the echo of Josie’s words had died away. For the Avery scholarship
was in English, and Anne felt that here her foot was on native heath.</p>
<p>A wealthy manufacturer of New Brunswick had died and left part of his fortune
to endow a large number of scholarships to be distributed among the various
high schools and academies of the Maritime Provinces, according to their
respective standings. There had been much doubt whether one would be allotted
to Queen’s, but the matter was settled at last, and at the end of the
year the graduate who made the highest mark in English and English Literature
would win the scholarship—two hundred and fifty dollars a year for four
years at Redmond College. No wonder that Anne went to bed that night with
tingling cheeks!</p>
<p>“I’ll win that scholarship if hard work can do it,” she
resolved. “Wouldn’t Matthew be proud if I got to be a B.A.? Oh,
it’s delightful to have ambitions. I’m so glad I have such a lot.
And there never seems to be any end to them—that’s the best of it.
Just as soon as you attain to one ambition you see another one glittering
higher up still. It does make life so interesting.”</p>
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