<h2><SPAN name="chap19"></SPAN>XIX.</h2>
<p>Henchard and Elizabeth sat conversing by the fire. It was three weeks after
Mrs. Henchard’s funeral, the candles were not lighted, and a restless,
acrobatic flame, poised on a coal, called from the shady walls the smiles of
all shapes that could respond—the old pier-glass, with gilt columns and
huge entablature, the picture-frames, sundry knobs and handles, and the brass
rosette at the bottom of each riband bell-pull on either side of the
chimney-piece.</p>
<p>“Elizabeth, do you think much of old times?” said Henchard.</p>
<p>“Yes, sir; often,” she said.</p>
<p>“Who do you put in your pictures of ’em?”</p>
<p>“Mother and father—nobody else hardly.”</p>
<p>Henchard always looked like one bent on resisting pain when Elizabeth-Jane
spoke of Richard Newson as “father.” “Ah! I am out of all
that, am I not?” he said.... “Was Newson a kind father?”</p>
<p>“Yes, sir; very.”</p>
<p>Henchard’s face settled into an expression of stolid loneliness which
gradually modulated into something softer. “Suppose I had been your real
father?” he said. “Would you have cared for me as much as you cared
for Richard Newson?”</p>
<p>“I can’t think it,” she said quickly. “I can think of
no other as my father, except my father.”</p>
<p>Henchard’s wife was dissevered from him by death; his friend and helper
Farfrae by estrangement; Elizabeth-Jane by ignorance. It seemed to him that
only one of them could possibly be recalled, and that was the girl. His mind
began vibrating between the wish to reveal himself to her and the policy of
leaving well alone, till he could no longer sit still. He walked up and down,
and then he came and stood behind her chair, looking down upon the top of her
head. He could no longer restrain his impulse. “What did your mother tell
you about me—my history?” he asked.</p>
<p>“That you were related by marriage.”</p>
<p>“She should have told more—before you knew me! Then my task would
not have been such a hard one.... Elizabeth, it is I who am your father, and
not Richard Newson. Shame alone prevented your wretched parents from owning
this to you while both of ’em were alive.”</p>
<p>The back of Elizabeth’s head remained still, and her shoulders did not
denote even the movements of breathing. Henchard went on: “I’d
rather have your scorn, your fear, anything than your ignorance; ’tis
that I hate! Your mother and I were man and wife when we were young. What you
saw was our second marriage. Your mother was too honest. We had thought each
other dead—and—Newson became her husband.”</p>
<p>This was the nearest approach Henchard could make to the full truth. As far as
he personally was concerned he would have screened nothing; but he showed a
respect for the young girl’s sex and years worthy of a better man.</p>
<p>When he had gone on to give details which a whole series of slight and
unregarded incidents in her past life strangely corroborated; when, in short,
she believed his story to be true, she became greatly agitated, and turning
round to the table flung her face upon it weeping.</p>
<p>“Don’t cry—don’t cry!” said Henchard, with
vehement pathos, “I can’t bear it, I won’t bear it. I am your
father; why should you cry? Am I so dreadful, so hateful to ’ee?
Don’t take against me, Elizabeth-Jane!” he cried, grasping her wet
hand. “Don’t take against me—though I was a drinking man
once, and used your mother roughly—I’ll be kinder to you than
<i>he</i> was! I’ll do anything, if you will only look upon me as your
father!”</p>
<p>She tried to stand up and comfort him trustfully; but she could not; she was
troubled at his presence, like the brethren at the avowal of Joseph.</p>
<p>“I don’t want you to come to me all of a sudden,” said
Henchard in jerks, and moving like a great tree in a wind. “No,
Elizabeth, I don’t. I’ll go away and not see you till to-morrow, or
when you like, and then I’ll show ’ee papers to prove my words.
There, I am gone, and won’t disturb you any more.... ’Twas I that
chose your name, my daughter; your mother wanted it Susan. There, don’t
forget ’twas I gave you your name!” He went out at the door and
shut her softly in, and she heard him go away into the garden. But he had not
done. Before she had moved, or in any way recovered from the effect of his
disclosure, he reappeared.</p>
<p>“One word more, Elizabeth,” he said. “You’ll take my
surname now—hey? Your mother was against it, but it will be much more
pleasant to me. ’Tis legally yours, you know. But nobody need know that.
You shall take it as if by choice. I’ll talk to my lawyer—I
don’t know the law of it exactly; but will you do this—let me put a
few lines into the newspaper that such is to be your name?”</p>
<p>“If it is my name I must have it, mustn’t I?” she asked.</p>
<p>“Well, well; usage is everything in these matters.”</p>
<p>“I wonder why mother didn’t wish it?”</p>
<p>“Oh, some whim of the poor soul’s. Now get a bit of paper and draw
up a paragraph as I shall tell you. But let’s have a light.”</p>
<p>“I can see by the firelight,” she answered.
“Yes—I’d rather.”</p>
<p>“Very well.”</p>
<p>She got a piece of paper, and bending over the fender wrote at his dictation
words which he had evidently got by heart from some advertisement or
other—words to the effect that she, the writer, hitherto known as
Elizabeth-Jane Newson, was going to call herself Elizabeth-Jane Henchard
forthwith. It was done, and fastened up, and directed to the office of the
<i>Casterbridge Chronicle</i>.</p>
<p>“Now,” said Henchard, with the blaze of satisfaction that he always
emitted when he had carried his point—though tenderness softened it this
time—“I’ll go upstairs and hunt for some documents that will
prove it all to you. But I won’t trouble you with them till to-morrow.
Good-night, my Elizabeth-Jane!”</p>
<p>He was gone before the bewildered girl could realize what it all meant, or
adjust her filial sense to the new center of gravity. She was thankful that he
had left her to herself for the evening, and sat down over the fire. Here she
remained in silence, and wept—not for her mother now, but for the genial
sailor Richard Newson, to whom she seemed doing a wrong.</p>
<p>Henchard in the meantime had gone upstairs. Papers of a domestic nature he kept
in a drawer in his bedroom, and this he unlocked. Before turning them over he
leant back and indulged in reposeful thought. Elizabeth was his at last and she
was a girl of such good sense and kind heart that she would be sure to like
him. He was the kind of man to whom some human object for pouring out his heart
upon—were it emotive or were it choleric—was almost a necessity.
The craving for his heart for the re-establishment of this tenderest human tie
had been great during his wife’s lifetime, and now he had submitted to
its mastery without reluctance and without fear. He bent over the drawer again,
and proceeded in his search.</p>
<p>Among the other papers had been placed the contents of his wife’s little
desk, the keys of which had been handed to him at her request. Here was the
letter addressed to him with the restriction, “<i>Not to be opened till
Elizabeth-Jane’s wedding-day</i>.”</p>
<p>Mrs. Henchard, though more patient than her husband, had been no practical hand
at anything. In sealing up the sheet, which was folded and tucked in without an
envelope, in the old-fashioned way, she had overlaid the junction with a large
mass of wax without the requisite under-touch of the same. The seal had
cracked, and the letter was open. Henchard had no reason to suppose the
restriction one of serious weight, and his feeling for his late wife had not
been of the nature of deep respect. “Some trifling fancy or other of poor
Susan’s, I suppose,” he said; and without curiosity he allowed his
eyes to scan the letter:—</p>
<p class="letter">
MY DEAR MICHAEL,—For the good of all three of us I have kept one thing a
secret from you till now. I hope you will understand why; I think you will;
though perhaps you may not forgive me. But, dear Michael, I have done it for
the best. I shall be in my grave when you read this, and Elizabeth-Jane will
have a home. Don’t curse me Mike—think of how I was situated. I can
hardly write it, but here it is. Elizabeth-Jane is not your
Elizabeth-Jane—the child who was in my arms when you sold me. No; she
died three months after that, and this living one is my other husband’s.
I christened her by the same name we had given to the first, and she filled up
the ache I felt at the other’s loss. Michael, I am dying, and I might
have held my tongue; but I could not. Tell her husband of this or not, as you
may judge; and forgive, if you can, a woman you once deeply wronged, as she
forgives you.</p>
<p class="right">
SUSAN HENCHARD</p>
<p>Her husband regarded the paper as if it were a window-pane through which he saw
for miles. His lips twitched, and he seemed to compress his frame, as if to
bear better. His usual habit was not to consider whether destiny were hard upon
him or not—the shape of his ideals in cases of affliction being simply a
moody “I am to suffer, I perceive.” “This much scourging,
then, it is for me.” But now through his passionate head there stormed
this thought—that the blasting disclosure was what he had deserved.</p>
<p>His wife’s extreme reluctance to have the girl’s name altered from
Newson to Henchard was now accounted for fully. It furnished another
illustration of that honesty in dishonesty which had characterized her in other
things.</p>
<p>He remained unnerved and purposeless for near a couple of hours; till he
suddenly said, “Ah—I wonder if it is true!”</p>
<p>He jumped up in an impulse, kicked off his slippers, and went with a candle to
the door of Elizabeth-Jane’s room, where he put his ear to the keyhole
and listened. She was breathing profoundly. Henchard softly turned the handle,
entered, and shading the light, approached the bedside. Gradually bringing the
light from behind a screening curtain he held it in such a manner that it fell
slantwise on her face without shining on her eyes. He steadfastly regarded her
features.</p>
<p>They were fair: his were dark. But this was an unimportant preliminary. In
sleep there come to the surface buried genealogical facts, ancestral curves,
dead men’s traits, which the mobility of daytime animation screens and
overwhelms. In the present statuesque repose of the young girl’s
countenance Richard Newson’s was unmistakably reflected. He could not
endure the sight of her, and hastened away.</p>
<p>Misery taught him nothing more than defiant endurance of it. His wife was dead,
and the first impulse for revenge died with the thought that she was beyond
him. He looked out at the night as at a fiend. Henchard, like all his kind, was
superstitious, and he could not help thinking that the concatenation of events
this evening had produced was the scheme of some sinister intelligence bent on
punishing him. Yet they had developed naturally. If he had not revealed his
past history to Elizabeth he would not have searched the drawer for papers, and
so on. The mockery was, that he should have no sooner taught a girl to claim
the shelter of his paternity than he discovered her to have no kinship with
him.</p>
<p>This ironical sequence of things angered him like an impish trick from a
fellow-creature. Like Prester John’s, his table had been spread, and
infernal harpies had snatched up the food. He went out of the house, and moved
sullenly onward down the pavement till he came to the bridge at the bottom of
the High Street. Here he turned in upon a bypath on the river bank, skirting
the north-eastern limits of the town.</p>
<p>These precincts embodied the mournful phases of Casterbridge life, as the south
avenues embodied its cheerful moods. The whole way along here was sunless, even
in summer time; in spring, white frosts lingered here when other places were
steaming with warmth; while in winter it was the seed-field of all the aches,
rheumatisms, and torturing cramps of the year. The Casterbridge doctors must
have pined away for want of sufficient nourishment but for the configuration of
the landscape on the north-eastern side.</p>
<p>The river—slow, noiseless, and dark—the Schwarzwasser of
Casterbridge—ran beneath a low cliff, the two together forming a defence
which had rendered walls and artificial earthworks on this side unnecessary.
Here were ruins of a Franciscan priory, and a mill attached to the same, the
water of which roared down a back-hatch like the voice of desolation. Above the
cliff, and behind the river, rose a pile of buildings, and in the front of the
pile a square mass cut into the sky. It was like a pedestal lacking its statue.
This missing feature, without which the design remained incomplete, was, in
truth, the corpse of a man, for the square mass formed the base of the gallows,
the extensive buildings at the back being the county gaol. In the meadow where
Henchard now walked the mob were wont to gather whenever an execution took
place, and there to the tune of the roaring weir they stood and watched the
spectacle.</p>
<p>The exaggeration which darkness imparted to the glooms of this region impressed
Henchard more than he had expected. The lugubrious harmony of the spot with his
domestic situation was too perfect for him, impatient of effects, scenes, and
adumbrations. It reduced his heartburning to melancholy, and he exclaimed,
“Why the deuce did I come here!” He went on past the cottage in
which the old local hangman had lived and died, in times before that calling
was monopolized over all England by a single gentleman; and climbed up by a
steep back lane into the town.</p>
<p>For the sufferings of that night, engendered by his bitter disappointment, he
might well have been pitied. He was like one who had half fainted, and could
neither recover nor complete the swoon. In words he could blame his wife, but
not in his heart; and had he obeyed the wise directions outside her letter this
pain would have been spared him for long—possibly for ever,
Elizabeth-Jane seeming to show no ambition to quit her safe and secluded maiden
courses for the speculative path of matrimony.</p>
<p>The morning came after this night of unrest, and with it the necessity for a
plan. He was far too self-willed to recede from a position, especially as it
would involve humiliation. His daughter he had asserted her to be, and his
daughter she should always think herself, no matter what hyprocrisy it
involved.</p>
<p>But he was ill-prepared for the first step in this new situation. The moment he
came into the breakfast-room Elizabeth advanced with open confidence to him and
took him by the arm.</p>
<p>“I have thought and thought all night of it,” she said frankly.
“And I see that everything must be as you say. And I am going to look
upon you as the father that you are, and not to call you Mr. Henchard any more.
It is so plain to me now. Indeed, father, it is. For, of course, you would not
have done half the things you have done for me, and let me have my own way so
entirely, and bought me presents, if I had only been your stepdaughter!
He—Mr. Newson—whom my poor mother married by such a strange
mistake” (Henchard was glad that he had disguised matters here),
“was very kind—O so kind!” (she spoke with tears in her
eyes); “but that is not the same thing as being one’s real father
after all. Now, father, breakfast is ready!” she said cheerfully.</p>
<p>Henchard bent and kissed her cheek. The moment and the act he had prefigured
for weeks with a thrill of pleasure; yet it was no less than a miserable
insipidity to him now that it had come. His reinstation of her mother had been
chiefly for the girl’s sake, and the fruition of the whole scheme was
such dust and ashes as this.</p>
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