<h2><SPAN name="chap20"></SPAN>XX.</h2>
<p>Of all the enigmas which ever confronted a girl there can have been seldom one
like that which followed Henchard’s announcement of himself to Elizabeth
as her father. He had done it in an ardour and an agitation which had half
carried the point of affection with her; yet, behold, from the next morning
onwards his manner was constrained as she had never seen it before.</p>
<p>The coldness soon broke out into open chiding. One grievous failing of
Elizabeth’s was her occasional pretty and picturesque use of dialect
words—those terrible marks of the beast to the truly genteel.</p>
<p>It was dinner-time—they never met except at meals—and she happened
to say when he was rising from table, wishing to show him something, “If
you’ll bide where you be a minute, father, I’ll get it.”</p>
<p>“‘Bide where you be,’” he echoed sharply, “Good
God, are you only fit to carry wash to a pig-trough, that ye use such words as
those?”</p>
<p>She reddened with shame and sadness.</p>
<p>“I meant ‘Stay where you are,’ father,” she said, in a
low, humble voice. “I ought to have been more careful.”</p>
<p>He made no reply, and went out of the room.</p>
<p>The sharp reprimand was not lost upon her, and in time it came to pass that for
“fay” she said “succeed”; that she no longer spoke of
“dumbledores” but of “humble bees”; no longer said of
young men and women that they “walked together,” but that they were
“engaged”; that she grew to talk of “greggles” as
“wild hyacinths”; that when she had not slept she did not quaintly
tell the servants next morning that she had been “hag-rid,” but
that she had “suffered from indigestion.”</p>
<p>These improvements, however, are somewhat in advance of the story. Henchard,
being uncultivated himself, was the bitterest critic the fair girl could
possibly have had of her own lapses—really slight now, for she read
omnivorously. A gratuitous ordeal was in store for her in the matter of her
handwriting. She was passing the dining-room door one evening, and had occasion
to go in for something. It was not till she had opened the door that she knew
the Mayor was there in the company of a man with whom he transacted business.</p>
<p>“Here, Elizabeth-Jane,” he said, looking round at her, “just
write down what I tell you—a few words of an agreement for me and this
gentleman to sign. I am a poor tool with a pen.”</p>
<p>“Be jowned, and so be I,” said the gentleman.</p>
<p>She brought forward blotting-book, paper, and ink, and sat down.</p>
<p>“Now then—‘An agreement entered into this sixteenth day of
October’—write that first.”</p>
<p>She started the pen in an elephantine march across the sheet. It was a splendid
round, bold hand of her own conception, a style that would have stamped a woman
as Minerva’s own in more recent days. But other ideas reigned then:
Henchard’s creed was that proper young girls wrote
ladies’-hand—nay, he believed that bristling characters were as
innate and inseparable a part of refined womanhood as sex itself. Hence when,
instead of scribbling, like the Princess Ida,—</p>
<p class="poem">
“In such a hand as when a field of corn<br/>
Bows all its ears before the roaring East,”</p>
<p>Elizabeth-Jane produced a line of chain-shot and sand-bags, he reddened in
angry shame for her, and, peremptorily saying, “Never
mind—I’ll finish it,” dismissed her there and then.</p>
<p>Her considerate disposition became a pitfall to her now. She was, it must be
admitted, sometimes provokingly and unnecessarily willing to saddle herself
with manual labours. She would go to the kitchen instead of ringing, “Not
to make Phoebe come up twice.” She went down on her knees, shovel in
hand, when the cat overturned the coal-scuttle; moreover, she would
persistently thank the parlour-maid for everything, till one day, as soon as
the girl was gone from the room, Henchard broke out with, “Good God, why
dostn’t leave off thanking that girl as if she were a goddess-born!
Don’t I pay her a dozen pound a year to do things for ’ee?”
Elizabeth shrank so visibly at the exclamation that he became sorry a few
minutes after, and said that he did not mean to be rough.</p>
<p>These domestic exhibitions were the small protruding needlerocks which
suggested rather than revealed what was underneath. But his passion had less
terror for her than his coldness. The increasing frequency of the latter mood
told her the sad news that he disliked her with a growing dislike. The more
interesting that her appearance and manners became under the softening
influences which she could now command, and in her wisdom did command, the more
she seemed to estrange him. Sometimes she caught him looking at her with a
louring invidiousness that she could hardly bear. Not knowing his secret it was
cruel mockery that she should for the first time excite his animosity when she
had taken his surname.</p>
<p>But the most terrible ordeal was to come. Elizabeth had latterly been
accustomed of an afternoon to present a cup of cider or ale and
bread-and-cheese to Nance Mockridge, who worked in the yard wimbling hay-bonds.
Nance accepted this offering thankfully at first; afterwards as a matter of
course. On a day when Henchard was on the premises he saw his stepdaughter
enter the hay-barn on this errand; and, as there was no clear spot on which to
deposit the provisions, she at once set to work arranging two trusses of hay as
a table, Mockridge meanwhile standing with her hands on her hips, easefully
looking at the preparations on her behalf.</p>
<p>“Elizabeth, come here!” said Henchard; and she obeyed.</p>
<p>“Why do you lower yourself so confoundedly?” he said with
suppressed passion. “Haven’t I told you o’t fifty times? Hey?
Making yourself a drudge for a common workwoman of such a character as hers!
Why, ye’ll disgrace me to the dust!”</p>
<p>Now these words were uttered loud enough to reach Nance inside the barn door,
who fired up immediately at the slur upon her personal character. Coming to the
door she cried regardless of consequences, “Come to that, Mr. Henchard, I
can let ’ee know she’ve waited on worse!”</p>
<p>“Then she must have had more charity than sense,” said Henchard.</p>
<p>“O no, she hadn’t. ’Twere not for charity but for hire; and
at a public-house in this town!”</p>
<p>“It is not true!” cried Henchard indignantly.</p>
<p>“Just ask her,” said Nance, folding her naked arms in such a manner
that she could comfortably scratch her elbows.</p>
<p>Henchard glanced at Elizabeth-Jane, whose complexion, now pink and white from
confinement, lost nearly all of the former colour. “What does this
mean?” he said to her. “Anything or nothing?”</p>
<p>“It is true,” said Elizabeth-Jane. “But it was
only—”</p>
<p>“Did you do it, or didn’t you? Where was it?”</p>
<p>“At the Three Mariners; one evening for a little while, when we were
staying there.”</p>
<p>Nance glanced triumphantly at Henchard, and sailed into the barn; for assuming
that she was to be discharged on the instant she had resolved to make the most
of her victory. Henchard, however, said nothing about discharging her. Unduly
sensitive on such points by reason of his own past, he had the look of one
completely ground down to the last indignity. Elizabeth followed him to the
house like a culprit; but when she got inside she could not see him. Nor did
she see him again that day.</p>
<p>Convinced of the scathing damage to his local repute and position that must
have been caused by such a fact, though it had never before reached his own
ears, Henchard showed a positive distaste for the presence of this girl not his
own, whenever he encountered her. He mostly dined with the farmers at the
market-room of one of the two chief hotels, leaving her in utter solitude.
Could he have seen how she made use of those silent hours he might have found
reason to reserve his judgment on her quality. She read and took notes
incessantly, mastering facts with painful laboriousness, but never flinching
from her self-imposed task. She began the study of Latin, incited by the Roman
characteristics of the town she lived in. “If I am not well-informed it
shall be by no fault of my own,” she would say to herself through the
tears that would occasionally glide down her peachy cheeks when she was fairly
baffled by the portentous obscurity of many of these educational works.</p>
<p>Thus she lived on, a dumb, deep-feeling, great-eyed creature, construed by not
a single contiguous being; quenching with patient fortitude her incipient
interest in Farfrae, because it seemed to be one-sided, unmaidenly, and unwise.
True, that for reasons best known to herself, she had, since Farfrae’s
dismissal, shifted her quarters from the back room affording a view of the yard
(which she had occupied with such zest) to a front chamber overlooking the
street; but as for the young man, whenever he passed the house he seldom or
never turned his head.</p>
<p>Winter had almost come, and unsettled weather made her still more dependent
upon indoor resources. But there were certain early winter days in
Casterbridge—days of firmamental exhaustion which followed angry
south-westerly tempests—when, if the sun shone, the air was like velvet.
She seized on these days for her periodical visits to the spot where her mother
lay buried—the still-used burial-ground of the old Roman-British city,
whose curious feature was this, its continuity as a place of sepulture. Mrs.
Henchard’s dust mingled with the dust of women who lay ornamented with
glass hair-pins and amber necklaces, and men who held in their mouths coins of
Hadrian, Posthumus, and the Constantines.</p>
<p>Half-past ten in the morning was about her hour for seeking this spot—a
time when the town avenues were deserted as the avenues of Karnac. Business had
long since passed down them into its daily cells, and Leisure had not arrived
there. So Elizabeth-Jane walked and read, or looked over the edge of the book
to think, and thus reached the churchyard.</p>
<p>There, approaching her mother’s grave she saw a solitary dark figure in
the middle of the gravel-walk. This figure, too, was reading; but not from a
book: the words which engrossed it being the inscription on Mrs.
Henchard’s tombstone. The personage was in mourning like herself, was
about her age and size, and might have been her wraith or double, but for the
fact that it was a lady much more beautifully dressed than she. Indeed,
comparatively indifferent as Elizabeth-Jane was to dress, unless for some
temporary whim or purpose, her eyes were arrested by the artistic perfection of
the lady’s appearance. Her gait, too, had a flexuousness about it, which
seemed to avoid angularity. It was a revelation to Elizabeth that human beings
could reach this stage of external development—she had never suspected
it. She felt all the freshness and grace to be stolen from herself on the
instant by the neighbourhood of such a stranger. And this was in face of the
fact that Elizabeth could now have been writ handsome, while the young lady was
simply pretty.</p>
<p>Had she been envious she might have hated the woman; but she did not do
that—she allowed herself the pleasure of feeling fascinated. She wondered
where the lady had come from. The stumpy and practical walk of honest
homeliness which mostly prevailed there, the two styles of dress thereabout,
the simple and the mistaken, equally avouched that this figure was no
Casterbridge woman’s, even if a book in her hand resembling a guide-book
had not also suggested it.</p>
<p>The stranger presently moved from the tombstone of Mrs. Henchard, and vanished
behind the corner of the wall. Elizabeth went to the tomb herself; beside it
were two footprints distinct in the soil, signifying that the lady had stood
there a long time. She returned homeward, musing on what she had seen, as she
might have mused on a rainbow or the Northern Lights, a rare butterfly or a
cameo.</p>
<p>Interesting as things had been out of doors, at home it turned out to be one of
her bad days. Henchard, whose two years’ mayoralty was ending, had been
made aware that he was not to be chosen to fill a vacancy in the list of
aldermen; and that Farfrae was likely to become one of the Council. This caused
the unfortunate discovery that she had played the waiting-maid in the town of
which he was Mayor to rankle in his mind yet more poisonously. He had learnt by
personal inquiry at the time that it was to Donald Farfrae—that
treacherous upstart—that she had thus humiliated herself. And though Mrs.
Stannidge seemed to attach no great importance to the incident—the
cheerful souls at the Three Mariners having exhausted its aspects long
ago—such was Henchard’s haughty spirit that the simple thrifty deed
was regarded as little less than a social catastrophe by him.</p>
<p>Ever since the evening of his wife’s arrival with her daughter there had
been something in the air which had changed his luck. That dinner at the
King’s Arms with his friends had been Henchard’s Austerlitz: he had
had his successes since, but his course had not been upward. He was not to be
numbered among the aldermen—that Peerage of burghers—as he had
expected to be, and the consciousness of this soured him to-day.</p>
<p>“Well, where have you been?” he said to her with offhand laconism.</p>
<p>“I’ve been strolling in the Walks and churchyard, father, till I
feel quite leery.” She clapped her hand to her mouth, but too late.</p>
<p>This was just enough to incense Henchard after the other crosses of the day.
“I <i>won’t</i> have you talk like that!” he thundered.
“‘Leery,’ indeed. One would think you worked upon a farm! One
day I learn that you lend a hand in public-houses. Then I hear you talk like a
clodhopper. I’m burned, if it goes on, this house can’t hold us
two.”</p>
<p>The only way of getting a single pleasant thought to go to sleep upon after
this was by recalling the lady she had seen that day, and hoping she might see
her again.</p>
<p>Meanwhile Henchard was sitting up, thinking over his jealous folly in
forbidding Farfrae to pay his addresses to this girl who did not belong to him,
when if he had allowed them to go on he might not have been encumbered with
her. At last he said to himself with satisfaction as he jumped up and went to
the writing-table: “Ah! he’ll think it means peace, and a marriage
portion—not that I don’t want my house to be troubled with her, and
no portion at all!” He wrote as follows:—</p>
<p class="letter">
Sir,—On consideration, I don’t wish to interfere with your
courtship of Elizabeth-Jane, if you care for her. I therefore withdraw my
objection; excepting in this—that the business be not carried on in my
house.—Yours,</p>
<p class="right">
M. HENCHARD.<br/>
Mr. Farfrae.</p>
<p>The morrow, being fairly fine, found Elizabeth-Jane again in the churchyard,
but while looking for the lady she was startled by the apparition of Farfrae,
who passed outside the gate. He glanced up for a moment from a pocket-book in
which he appeared to be making figures as he went; whether or not he saw her he
took no notice, and disappeared.</p>
<p>Unduly depressed by a sense of her own superfluity she thought he probably
scorned her; and quite broken in spirit sat down on a bench. She fell into
painful thought on her position, which ended with her saying quite loud,
“O, I wish I was dead with dear mother!”</p>
<p>Behind the bench was a little promenade under the wall where people sometimes
walked instead of on the gravel. The bench seemed to be touched by something,
she looked round, and a face was bending over her, veiled, but still distinct,
the face of the young woman she had seen yesterday.</p>
<p>Elizabeth-Jane looked confounded for a moment, knowing she had been overheard,
though there was pleasure in her confusion. “Yes, I heard you,”
said the lady, in a vivacious voice, answering her look. “What can have
happened?”</p>
<p>“I don’t—I can’t tell you,” said Elizabeth,
putting her hand to her face to hide a quick flush that had come.</p>
<p>There was no movement or word for a few seconds; then the girl felt that the
young lady was sitting down beside her.</p>
<p>“I guess how it is with you,” said the latter. “That was your
mother.” She waved her hand towards the tombstone. Elizabeth looked up at
her as if inquiring of herself whether there should be confidence. The
lady’s manner was so desirous, so anxious, that the girl decided there
should be confidence. “It was my mother,” she said, “my only
friend.”</p>
<p>“But your father, Mr. Henchard. He is living?”</p>
<p>“Yes, he is living,” said Elizabeth-Jane.</p>
<p>“Is he not kind to you?”</p>
<p>“I’ve no wish to complain of him.”</p>
<p>“There has been a disagreement?”</p>
<p>“A little.”</p>
<p>“Perhaps you were to blame,” suggested the stranger.</p>
<p>“I was—in many ways,” sighed the meek Elizabeth. “I
swept up the coals when the servants ought to have done it; and I said I was
leery;—and he was angry with me.”</p>
<p>The lady seemed to warm towards her for that reply. “Do you know the
impression your words give me?” she said ingenuously. “That he is a
hot-tempered man—a little proud—perhaps ambitious; but not a bad
man.” Her anxiety not to condemn Henchard while siding with Elizabeth was
curious.</p>
<p>“O no; certainly not <i>bad</i>,” agreed the honest girl.
“And he has not even been unkind to me till lately—since mother
died. But it has been very much to bear while it has lasted. All is owing to my
defects, I daresay; and my defects are owing to my history.”</p>
<p>“What is your history?”</p>
<p>Elizabeth-Jane looked wistfully at her questioner. She found that her
questioner was looking at her, turned her eyes down; and then seemed compelled
to look back again. “My history is not gay or attractive,” she
said. “And yet I can tell it, if you really want to know.”</p>
<p>The lady assured her that she did want to know; whereupon Elizabeth-Jane told
the tale of her life as she understood it, which was in general the true one,
except that the sale at the fair had no part therein.</p>
<p>Contrary to the girl’s expectation her new friend was not shocked. This
cheered her; and it was not till she thought of returning to that home in which
she had been treated so roughly of late that her spirits fell.</p>
<p>“I don’t know how to return,” she murmured. “I think of
going away. But what can I do? Where can I go?”</p>
<p>“Perhaps it will be better soon,” said her friend gently. “So
I would not go far. Now what do you think of this: I shall soon want somebody
to live in my house, partly as housekeeper, partly as companion; would you mind
coming to me? But perhaps—”</p>
<p>“O yes,” cried Elizabeth, with tears in her eyes. “I would,
indeed—I would do anything to be independent; for then perhaps my father
might get to love me. But, ah!”</p>
<p>“What?”</p>
<p>“I am no accomplished person. And a companion to you must be that.”</p>
<p>“O, not necessarily.”</p>
<p>“Not? But I can’t help using rural words sometimes, when I
don’t mean to.”</p>
<p>“Never mind, I shall like to know them.”</p>
<p>“And—O, I know I shan’t do!”—she cried with a
distressful laugh. “I accidentally learned to write round hand instead of
ladies’-hand. And, of course, you want some one who can write
that?”</p>
<p>“Well, no.”</p>
<p>“What, not necessary to write ladies’-hand?” cried the joyous
Elizabeth.</p>
<p>“Not at all.”</p>
<p>“But where do you live?”</p>
<p>“In Casterbridge, or rather I shall be living here after twelve
o’clock to-day.”</p>
<p>Elizabeth expressed her astonishment.</p>
<p>“I have been staying at Budmouth for a few days while my house was
getting ready. The house I am going into is that one they call High-Place
Hall—the old stone one looking down the lane to the market. Two or three
rooms are fit for occupation, though not all: I sleep there to-night for the
first time. Now will you think over my proposal, and meet me here the first
fine day next week, and say if you are still in the same mind?”</p>
<p>Elizabeth, her eyes shining at this prospect of a change from an unbearable
position, joyfully assented; and the two parted at the gate of the churchyard.</p>
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