<h2><SPAN name="chap21"></SPAN>CHAPTER XXI</h2>
<p class="poem">
“I put my life in my hands.”<br/>
<i>The Book of Judges</i>.</p>
<p>At length, with much toil and equal delight, our armour was finished. We armed
each other, and tested the strength of the defence, with many blows of loving
force. I was inferior in strength to both my brothers, but a little more agile
than either; and upon this agility, joined to precision in hitting with the
point of my weapon, I grounded my hopes of success in the ensuing combat. I
likewise laboured to develop yet more the keenness of sight with which I was
naturally gifted; and, from the remarks of my companions, I soon learned that
my endeavours were not in vain.</p>
<p>The morning arrived on which we had determined to make the attempt, and succeed
or perish—perhaps both. We had resolved to fight on foot; knowing that
the mishap of many of the knights who had made the attempt, had resulted from
the fright of their horses at the appearance of the giants; and believing with
Sir Gawain, that, though mare’s sons might be false to us, the earth
would never prove a traitor. But most of our preparations were, in their
immediate aim at least, frustrated.</p>
<p>We rose, that fatal morning, by daybreak. We had rested from all labour the day
before, and now were fresh as the lark. We bathed in cold spring water, and
dressed ourselves in clean garments, with a sense of preparation, as for a
solemn festivity. When we had broken our fast, I took an old lyre, which I had
found in the tower and had myself repaired, and sung for the last time the two
ballads of which I have said so much already. I followed them with this, for a
closing song:</p>
<p class="poem">
Oh, well for him who breaks his dream<br/>
With the blow that ends the strife<br/>
And, waking, knows the peace that flows<br/>
Around the pain of life!<br/>
<br/>
We are dead, my brothers! Our bodies clasp,<br/>
As an armour, our souls about;<br/>
This hand is the battle-axe I grasp,<br/>
And this my hammer stout.<br/>
<br/>
Fear not, my brothers, for we are dead;<br/>
No noise can break our rest;<br/>
The calm of the grave is about the head,<br/>
And the heart heaves not the breast.<br/>
<br/>
And our life we throw to our people back,<br/>
To live with, a further store;<br/>
We leave it them, that there be no lack<br/>
In the land where we live no more.<br/>
<br/>
Oh, well for him who breaks his dream<br/>
With the blow that ends the strife<br/>
And, waking, knows the peace that flows<br/>
Around the noise of life!</p>
<p>As the last few tones of the instrument were following, like a dirge, the death
of the song, we all sprang to our feet. For, through one of the little windows
of the tower, towards which I had looked as I sang, I saw, suddenly rising over
the edge of the slope on which our tower stood, three enormous heads. The
brothers knew at once, by my looks, what caused my sudden movement. We were
utterly unarmed, and there was no time to arm.</p>
<p>But we seemed to adopt the same resolution simultaneously; for each caught up
his favourite weapon, and, leaving his defence behind, sprang to the door. I
snatched up a long rapier, abruptly, but very finely pointed, in my sword-hand,
and in the other a sabre; the elder brother seized his heavy battle-axe; and
the younger, a great, two-handed sword, which he wielded in one hand like a
feather. We had just time to get clear of the tower, embrace and say good-bye,
and part to some little distance, that we might not encumber each other’s
motions, ere the triple giant-brotherhood drew near to attack us. They were
about twice our height, and armed to the teeth. Through the visors of their
helmets their monstrous eyes shone with a horrible ferocity. I was in the
middle position, and the middle giant approached me. My eyes were busy with his
armour, and I was not a moment in settling my mode of attack. I saw that his
body-armour was somewhat clumsily made, and that the overlappings in the lower
part had more play than necessary; and I hoped that, in a fortunate moment,
some joint would open a little, in a visible and accessible part. I stood till
he came near enough to aim a blow at me with the mace, which has been, in all
ages, the favourite weapon of giants, when, of course, I leaped aside, and let
the blow fall upon the spot where I had been standing. I expected this would
strain the joints of his armour yet more. Full of fury, he made at me again;
but I kept him busy, constantly eluding his blows, and hoping thus to fatigue
him. He did not seem to fear any assault from me, and I attempted none as yet;
but while I watched his motions in order to avoid his blows, I, at the same
time, kept equal watch upon those joints of his armour, through some one of
which I hoped to reach his life. At length, as if somewhat fatigued, he paused
a moment, and drew himself slightly up; I bounded forward, foot and hand, ran
my rapier right through to the armour of his back, let go the hilt, and passing
under his right arm, turned as he fell, and flew at him with my sabre. At one
happy blow I divided the band of his helmet, which fell off, and allowed me,
with a second cut across the eyes, to blind him quite; after which I clove his
head, and turned, uninjured, to see how my brothers had fared. Both the giants
were down, but so were my brothers. I flew first to the one and then to the
other couple. Both pairs of combatants were dead, and yet locked together, as
in the death-struggle. The elder had buried his battle-axe in the body of his
foe, and had fallen beneath him as he fell. The giant had strangled him in his
own death-agonies. The younger had nearly hewn off the left leg of his enemy;
and, grappled with in the act, had, while they rolled together on the earth,
found for his dagger a passage betwixt the gorget and cuirass of the giant, and
stabbed him mortally in the throat. The blood from the giant’s throat was
yet pouring over the hand of his foe, which still grasped the hilt of the
dagger sheathed in the wound. They lay silent. I, the least worthy, remained
the sole survivor in the lists.</p>
<p>As I stood exhausted amidst the dead, after the first worthy deed of my life, I
suddenly looked behind me, and there lay the Shadow, black in the sunshine. I
went into the lonely tower, and there lay the useless armour of the noble
youths—supine as they.</p>
<p>Ah, how sad it looked! It was a glorious death, but it was death. My songs
could not comfort me now. I was almost ashamed that I was alive, when they, the
true-hearted, were no more. And yet I breathed freer to think that I had gone
through the trial, and had not failed. And perhaps I may be forgiven, if some
feelings of pride arose in my bosom, when I looked down on the mighty form that
lay dead by my hand.</p>
<p>“After all, however,” I said to myself, and my heart sank,
“it was only skill. Your giant was but a blunderer.”</p>
<p>I left the bodies of friends and foes, peaceful enough when the death-fight was
over, and, hastening to the country below, roused the peasants. They came with
shouting and gladness, bringing waggons to carry the bodies. I resolved to take
the princes home to their father, each as he lay, in the arms of his
country’s foe. But first I searched the giants, and found the keys of
their castle, to which I repaired, followed by a great company of the people.
It was a place of wonderful strength. I released the prisoners, knights and
ladies, all in a sad condition, from the cruelties and neglects of the giants.
It humbled me to see them crowding round me with thanks, when in truth the
glorious brothers, lying dead by their lonely tower, were those to whom the
thanks belonged. I had but aided in carrying out the thought born in their
brain, and uttered in visible form before ever I laid hold thereupon. Yet I did
count myself happy to have been chosen for their brother in this great deed.</p>
<p>After a few hours spent in refreshing and clothing the prisoners, we all
commenced our journey towards the capital. This was slow at first; but, as the
strength and spirits of the prisoners returned, it became more rapid; and in
three days we reached the palace of the king. As we entered the city gates,
with the huge bulks lying each on a waggon drawn by horses, and two of them
inextricably intertwined with the dead bodies of their princes, the people
raised a shout and then a cry, and followed in multitudes the solemn
procession.</p>
<p>I will not attempt to describe the behaviour of the grand old king. Joy and
pride in his sons overcame his sorrow at their loss. On me he heaped every
kindness that heart could devise or hand execute. He used to sit and question
me, night after night, about everything that was in any way connected with them
and their preparations. Our mode of life, and relation to each other, during
the time we spent together, was a constant theme. He entered into the minutest
details of the construction of the armour, even to a peculiar mode of riveting
some of the plates, with unwearying interest. This armour I had intended to beg
of the king, as my sole memorials of the contest; but, when I saw the delight
he took in contemplating it, and the consolation it appeared to afford him in
his sorrow, I could not ask for it; but, at his request, left my own, weapons
and all, to be joined with theirs in a trophy, erected in the grand square of
the palace. The king, with gorgeous ceremony, dubbed me knight with his own old
hand, in which trembled the sword of his youth.</p>
<p>During the short time I remained, my company was, naturally, much courted by
the young nobles. I was in a constant round of gaiety and diversion,
notwithstanding that the court was in mourning. For the country was so rejoiced
at the death of the giants, and so many of their lost friends had been restored
to the nobility and men of wealth, that the gladness surpassed the grief.
“Ye have indeed left your lives to your people, my great brothers!”
I said.</p>
<p>But I was ever and ever haunted by the old shadow, which I had not seen all the
time that I was at work in the tower. Even in the society of the ladies of the
court, who seemed to think it only their duty to make my stay there as pleasant
to me as possible, I could not help being conscious of its presence, although
it might not be annoying me at the time. At length, somewhat weary of
uninterrupted pleasure, and nowise strengthened thereby, either in body or
mind, I put on a splendid suit of armour of steel inlaid with silver, which the
old king had given me, and, mounting the horse on which it had been brought to
me, took my leave of the palace, to visit the distant city in which the lady
dwelt, whom the elder prince had loved. I anticipated a sore task, in conveying
to her the news of his glorious fate: but this trial was spared me, in a manner
as strange as anything that had happened to me in Fairy Land.</p>
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