<h2><SPAN name="link2HCH0012"></SPAN>CHAPTER 12</h2>
<p>“Mrs. Allen,” said Catherine the next morning, “will there be
any harm in my calling on Miss Tilney today? I shall not be easy till I have
explained everything.”</p>
<p>“Go, by all means, my dear; only put on a white gown; Miss Tilney always
wears white.”</p>
<p>Catherine cheerfully complied, and being properly equipped, was more impatient
than ever to be at the pump-room, that she might inform herself of General
Tilney’s lodgings, for though she believed they were in Milsom Street,
she was not certain of the house, and Mrs. Allen’s wavering convictions
only made it more doubtful. To Milsom Street she was directed, and having made
herself perfect in the number, hastened away with eager steps and a beating
heart to pay her visit, explain her conduct, and be forgiven; tripping lightly
through the church-yard, and resolutely turning away her eyes, that she might
not be obliged to see her beloved Isabella and her dear family, who, she had
reason to believe, were in a shop hard by. She reached the house without any
impediment, looked at the number, knocked at the door, and inquired for Miss
Tilney. The man believed Miss Tilney to be at home, but was not quite certain.
Would she be pleased to send up her name? She gave her card. In a few minutes
the servant returned, and with a look which did not quite confirm his words,
said he had been mistaken, for that Miss Tilney was walked out. Catherine, with
a blush of mortification, left the house. She felt almost persuaded that Miss
Tilney <i>was</i> at home, and too much offended to admit her; and as she
retired down the street, could not withhold one glance at the drawing-room
windows, in expectation of seeing her there, but no one appeared at them. At
the bottom of the street, however, she looked back again, and then, not at a
window, but issuing from the door, she saw Miss Tilney herself. She was
followed by a gentleman, whom Catherine believed to be her father, and they
turned up towards Edgar’s Buildings. Catherine, in deep mortification,
proceeded on her way. She could almost be angry herself at such angry
incivility; but she checked the resentful sensation; she remembered her own
ignorance. She knew not how such an offence as hers might be classed by the
laws of worldly politeness, to what a degree of unforgivingness it might with
propriety lead, nor to what rigours of rudeness in return it might justly make
her amenable.</p>
<p>Dejected and humbled, she had even some thoughts of not going with the others
to the theatre that night; but it must be confessed that they were not of long
continuance, for she soon recollected, in the first place, that she was without
any excuse for staying at home; and, in the second, that it was a play she
wanted very much to see. To the theatre accordingly they all went; no Tilneys
appeared to plague or please her; she feared that, amongst the many perfections
of the family, a fondness for plays was not to be ranked; but perhaps it was
because they were habituated to the finer performances of the London stage,
which she knew, on Isabella’s authority, rendered everything else of the
kind “quite horrid.” She was not deceived in her own expectation of
pleasure; the comedy so well suspended her care that no one, observing her
during the first four acts, would have supposed she had any wretchedness about
her. On the beginning of the fifth, however, the sudden view of Mr. Henry
Tilney and his father, joining a party in the opposite box, recalled her to
anxiety and distress. The stage could no longer excite genuine
merriment—no longer keep her whole attention. Every other look upon an
average was directed towards the opposite box; and, for the space of two entire
scenes, did she thus watch Henry Tilney, without being once able to catch his
eye. No longer could he be suspected of indifference for a play; his notice was
never withdrawn from the stage during two whole scenes. At length, however, he
did look towards her, and he bowed—but such a bow! No smile, no continued
observance attended it; his eyes were immediately returned to their former
direction. Catherine was restlessly miserable; she could almost have run round
to the box in which he sat and forced him to hear her explanation. Feelings
rather natural than heroic possessed her; instead of considering her own
dignity injured by this ready condemnation—instead of proudly resolving,
in conscious innocence, to show her resentment towards him who could harbour a
doubt of it, to leave to him all the trouble of seeking an explanation, and to
enlighten him on the past only by avoiding his sight, or flirting with somebody
else—she took to herself all the shame of misconduct, or at least of its
appearance, and was only eager for an opportunity of explaining its cause.</p>
<p>The play concluded—the curtain fell—Henry Tilney was no longer to
be seen where he had hitherto sat, but his father remained, and perhaps he
might be now coming round to their box. She was right; in a few minutes he
appeared, and, making his way through the then thinning rows, spoke with like
calm politeness to Mrs. Allen and her friend. Not with such calmness was he
answered by the latter: “Oh! Mr. Tilney, I have been quite wild to speak
to you, and make my apologies. You must have thought me so rude; but indeed it
was not my own fault, was it, Mrs. Allen? Did not they tell me that Mr. Tilney
and his sister were gone out in a phaeton together? And then what could I do?
But I had ten thousand times rather have been with you; now had not I, Mrs.
Allen?”</p>
<p>“My dear, you tumble my gown,” was Mrs. Allen’s reply.</p>
<p>Her assurance, however, standing sole as it did, was not thrown away; it
brought a more cordial, more natural smile into his countenance, and he replied
in a tone which retained only a little affected reserve: “We were much
obliged to you at any rate for wishing us a pleasant walk after our passing you
in Argyle Street: you were so kind as to look back on purpose.”</p>
<p>“But indeed I did not wish you a pleasant walk; I never thought of such a
thing; but I begged Mr. Thorpe so earnestly to stop; I called out to him as
soon as ever I saw you; now, Mrs. Allen, did not—Oh! You were not there;
but indeed I did; and, if Mr. Thorpe would only have stopped, I would have
jumped out and run after you.”</p>
<p>Is there a Henry in the world who could be insensible to such a declaration?
Henry Tilney at least was not. With a yet sweeter smile, he said everything
that need be said of his sister’s concern, regret, and dependence on
Catherine’s honour. “Oh! Do not say Miss Tilney was not
angry,” cried Catherine, “because I know she was; for she would not
see me this morning when I called; I saw her walk out of the house the next
minute after my leaving it; I was hurt, but I was not affronted. Perhaps you
did not know I had been there.”</p>
<p>“I was not within at the time; but I heard of it from Eleanor, and she
has been wishing ever since to see you, to explain the reason of such
incivility; but perhaps I can do it as well. It was nothing more than that my
father—they were just preparing to walk out, and he being hurried for
time, and not caring to have it put off—made a point of her being denied.
That was all, I do assure you. She was very much vexed, and meant to make her
apology as soon as possible.”</p>
<p>Catherine’s mind was greatly eased by this information, yet a something
of solicitude remained, from which sprang the following question, thoroughly
artless in itself, though rather distressing to the gentleman: “But, Mr.
Tilney, why were <i>you</i> less generous than your sister? If she felt such
confidence in my good intentions, and could suppose it to be only a mistake,
why should <i>you</i> be so ready to take offence?”</p>
<p>“Me! I take offence!”</p>
<p>“Nay, I am sure by your look, when you came into the box, you were
angry.”</p>
<p>“I angry! I could have no right.”</p>
<p>“Well, nobody would have thought you had no right who saw your
face.” He replied by asking her to make room for him, and talking of the
play.</p>
<p>He remained with them some time, and was only too agreeable for Catherine to be
contented when he went away. Before they parted, however, it was agreed that
the projected walk should be taken as soon as possible; and, setting aside the
misery of his quitting their box, she was, upon the whole, left one of the
happiest creatures in the world.</p>
<p>While talking to each other, she had observed with some surprise that John
Thorpe, who was never in the same part of the house for ten minutes together,
was engaged in conversation with General Tilney; and she felt something more
than surprise when she thought she could perceive herself the object of their
attention and discourse. What could they have to say of her? She feared General
Tilney did not like her appearance: she found it was implied in his preventing
her admittance to his daughter, rather than postpone his own walk a few
minutes. “How came Mr. Thorpe to know your father?” was her anxious
inquiry, as she pointed them out to her companion. He knew nothing about it;
but his father, like every military man, had a very large acquaintance.</p>
<p>When the entertainment was over, Thorpe came to assist them in getting out.
Catherine was the immediate object of his gallantry; and, while they waited in
the lobby for a chair, he prevented the inquiry which had travelled from her
heart almost to the tip of her tongue, by asking, in a consequential manner,
whether she had seen him talking with General Tilney: “He is a fine old
fellow, upon my soul! Stout, active—looks as young as his son. I have a
great regard for him, I assure you: a gentleman-like, good sort of fellow as
ever lived.”</p>
<p>“But how came you to know him?”</p>
<p>“Know him! There are few people much about town that I do not know. I
have met him forever at the Bedford; and I knew his face again today the moment
he came into the billiard-room. One of the best players we have, by the by; and
we had a little touch together, though I was almost afraid of him at first: the
odds were five to four against me; and, if I had not made one of the cleanest
strokes that perhaps ever was made in this world—I took his ball
exactly—but I could not make you understand it without a table; however,
I <i>did</i> beat him. A very fine fellow; as rich as a Jew. I should like to
dine with him; I dare say he gives famous dinners. But what do you think we
have been talking of? You. Yes, by heavens! And the general thinks you the
finest girl in Bath.”</p>
<p>“Oh! Nonsense! How can you say so?”</p>
<p>“And what do you think I said?”—lowering his
voice—“well done, general, said I; I am quite of your mind.”</p>
<p>Here Catherine, who was much less gratified by his admiration than by General
Tilney’s, was not sorry to be called away by Mr. Allen. Thorpe, however,
would see her to her chair, and, till she entered it, continued the same kind
of delicate flattery, in spite of her entreating him to have done.</p>
<p>That General Tilney, instead of disliking, should admire her, was very
delightful; and she joyfully thought that there was not one of the family whom
she need now fear to meet. The evening had done more, much more, for her than
could have been expected.</p>
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